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Energetic Doers are cheerful and spontaneous persons. They are charming and full of energy and real persons of action. They keep a clear head and the overview even in difficult situations. This makes them popular problem solvers. Their ability of being able to absorb and process information is phenomenal. Energetic Doers also have strong powers of observation and a keen sense when dealing with other people. They are very perceptive, witty and clever. They have a natural ability of convincing others of their point of view. Energetic Doers live completely in the here and now and make spontaneous decisions from one moment to the next. They love being together with other people and are sensuous, lively and amusing conversationalists. It is no problem for them to be the effervescent centre of attention at a party and they are generous, skilful and good hosts. They do not brood over consequences for long; they quickly grasp all the relevant facts, make a pragmatic decision and enforce that decision vigorously. Should a decision later turn out to have been wrong, one can always make new plans.

Energetic Doers magically attract fun and action. They need the kick - as far as possible with other people. Many representatives of this type have dangerous hobbies or go in for extreme sports. They quite consciously put themselves in dangerous situations again and again. At work too, Energetic Doers seek fun and variety above all. They are bored to death by routine, safety and calculability. Crises are their elixir of life and really bring their strong points to light. They react to new challenges flexibly and effectively. They gain their confidence from their imperturbable self-assuredness that they will be able to cope with them. Energetic Doers prefer practical activities which lead to visible results rather than theoretical fields of work. Endless discussions with colleagues quickly get on their nerves and they do not have the patience for interpersonal niceties. They say how something has to be done and that’s that!
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Energetic Doers keep their friends in suspense with their wit, esprit and quickness in repartee. They mostly have a large circle of friends and acquaintances but often remain non-committal in their relationships. They expect a great deal of reliability and tolerance from their really good friends but are also willing to give the same to them. However, due to their spontaneous nature, they always remain a little surprising and unpredictable, also for their partners. Energetic Doers need a lot of space and time to themselves; they quickly feel hemmed in if their partners cling too strongly to them. But if you give them plenty of leeway, they are generous, cheerful and extremely imaginative life companions with whom you can have a lot of fun and enjoy life to the full. They do not avoid conflicts but address them openly and sometimes sparks can really fly. But this is typical for Energetic Doers and, afterwards, they are all the more devoted and loving.
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The Energetic Doer is an extroverted Doer. You have fantastic powers of observation, which permit you to sense people’s motivations long before others do. That is the basis of your ability to gage your counterparts quickly and correctly, and adroitly respond to everybody. You also enjoy being with others, you would not be happy working in solitude. You are most effective as a team member. Your life’s elixir is dealing with other people, communication, discussions and as much action as you can get.

Here is one of your most important abilities: You are an excellent diplomat and negotiator, and especially when you need to convince others of an idea and - literally or figuratively - sell something on somebody. With your charisma, eloquence, charm and persuasiveness, you could be one of those personality types who would be able to manipulate others for your own purposes. And yet by nature, you are much too open and direct to negatively outfox someone. Any intrigue is foreign and unappealing to you.

You also astutely observe your environment, and immediately register even the smallest changes. You rarely miss anything important, because you approach everything with curiosity and interest. Your memory for details and facts is legendary. You absorb everything of interest to you like a sponge, and then store it for possible later use. Occasionally, you may not take the time to sufficiently search your memory prior to making a decision or starting a project. However, the reason for that is not that you are overlooking something, it is just that you are sometimes in too much a hurry to get going and lose your focus for the small print as a result.

Charismatic, lively, and passionate, you have no problems finding a partner to charm. By pushing an imaginary button, you can develop vibes that almost no one can withstand. You want someone on your side with whom you can share lots of fun and action, who loves life as much as you, and is ready for any adventure. Always the same routines are an absolute horror for you in your relationship, as well.

If it were up to you, your life and your relationship would be a never-ending roller coaster ride: pure thrills are what count! The same applies to sexual matters. “Born to be wild” is your motto and you trigger fireworks for yourself and your partner that simply takes one‘s breath away. For your passion, no position is too outlandish, no experiment too unusual, and no location too risky, or uncomfortable. With that, you are perfectly comfortable in putting up with the lows in return for the highs. You can even enjoy the drama and excitement inherent in a real fight. Malicious rumors have it that you occasionally even pick a good fight because then the sparks fly and you love the passionate making up ...

All too complicated harmony-needy, and security-minded personalities are not a good choice for you in the long term. They’ll bore you very quickly, and then you’ll get restless and start looking for something (or somebody) new. You belong to those types for whom the occasional affair is a possibility, anyway. If you are looking for your permanent love, your partner better share your need for variety and excitement, and know how to take care of it. You will be faithful as long as the excitement between you is alive and well. Take a little more time before you commit yourself to someone for good (despite your spontaneous nature of letting yourself be carried away to imprudent actions in the moments of passion).

wow.majority of it sounds like me,i think..wad do YOU think?am i really like wad it says??TELL ME!=)

supperclub-ed

one was in supperclub, the other was after supperclub.it was a celebration of my best bud's bday! CATHERINE CHUA! HEIHEI.of cuz,the most effort done for her bday is my other best bud,EMILY ANG!ahaha.like some award winning ceremony.lol.And me?gee,come to think of it,i hadnt done much tho.gee..i feel BAD!VERY!wad kinda best bud am i man?but ohwell,at least i managed to appear for her bday celebration.8D.To catherine:"miner,hope u enjoyed ur 18th bday!if ur reading this, by crook or by hook,im or we(me and emily) gonna bring u go clubbing!wed is lady's nite!aha!this is sucha belated post.oh still,late is better den nv! (8|

AND GUESS WAD?! FEW MORE WEEKS TO 2009!
and wad have am i done in 2008?wad have you done in 2008?this yr is coming to an end,time flies...seriously.come to think of it,actually alot has happened within jus 1 yr.Many things have happened,sadness,happiness,anger,disappointed,guiltiness.seriously,i've grown alot more now i guess.especially after meeting him. he definitely changed my life alot,he helped me to see things differently in life now,he's sucha knowledgable man,i dun even understand what his family been feeding him,so brainy.damn it.im far from an itch of his brain.okayy..im not that bimbo-tic.jus exagerating.hei!8.D (my smiley has a mole!COOL!) okay,back to where i was saying,hmm..and not jus my life have changed,even the world has changed alot too. the movies are now showing all the disruption of the Earth, the economic crisis of the world, the thai crisis, the mumbai terrorist attack.gee,doesnt all this frighten any human beings? is this an indication that the World's gonna end? are brainy human beings the culprits to destruction of the Earth?and even the US president is no longer George Bush,but barack obama,i dun like him becuz he's black. is the world gonna led by more blacks now?is the world gonna be ruled by blacks soon?geee,thats insane!the world is soon to be gone.i shld do more donations,sin less and go church more,before anything occurs.i wanna go to a peaceful place and end all sufferings.
WAIT! wth with me?i'm seem to be soooooo weird these days.ohwell..prolly its my process of growth.finding the true MERINA!AHAHA!crappish! SALUT! 8 )

hello blog

i guess i've decided,and tho it thru.wads the pt to dwell on situations?wads the point of thinking so hard whats the prob and where's the prob lies?the probs might be with i all this while,jus that i might not have realised it.i may be blinded by my positive mindset to keep making myself think that im great and i can make things great,i can make every single thing great.But in actual fact,thats all that i want.i cant handle everything yet.life is indeed a learning process,wateva setbacks that happened on a person,i jus have to move on,it hurts to dwell on it too much.maybe i can have abit of reflection here and there,getting a solution.but wads the point of dwelling and thinking it over and over again?we jus have to learn to move on.The person that i'm with now is definitely guiding me thruout my halfway to adulthood pathway,and i thank you alot.For being der all the time,even when i said im fine,that person will still be there.thank you.=)
From today on,i guess i've understand and learnt that god is kind to me,god is just testing me if i could handle all these shit,to let me grow up to be a better and wiser adult,i guess.haha.and also to make me much mature den the rest.but it definitely gonna take time,i dun wanna grow up still,i still wanna be protected by the ball of shide.But how long can i stay inside?not any time longer.
daddy jus came in and said:"mei,your future is in ur own hands,we're here jus to guide you,dun ruin your own future hor."
i find that living in this world is alr a brave thing we humans are doing.its soo scary living on Earth,i wonder when will the world gonna end?and all the sufferings and pain will end.every happy soul will be up with god,sharing the joy the painless,eternity life with him.
time now is 6.33am and im still awake,indeed i am a nocturnal,my brain works well at nite,its calm and quiet and peaceful in the nite.i jus like it when the sun the down.(only during holidays)nite is the best time where you can have all the time in the world to urself,doing all the things u want,not being distracted,getting away from all the shit that is gonna go on when the sun is up.how scary is that.urghh...the river flows with you soundtrack is making me really thinking alot of crap now.
gee,the sun is rising soon.its a brand new day.Have to learn to take things in my control,in my hands.MY HANDS!!=)

twilight

gee,twilight simply melts me.indeed,it is an "awesomic" movie i ever seen,especially those parts where Edward Cullen's declare his love for bella.it simply melts me completely.And additional to this "awesomic" movie,is also the "awesomic" soundtracks.especially the "river flows with you"by Yiruma,"flightless bird,American mouth" by iron&wine and "Bella lullaby"by carter burwell.
im trying to get a way to let me learn how to play those 2 piano songs, i'll be simply melted by that person who plays those as well..twilight ooh twilight,u definitely make me draw memories and imagination badly whenever i hear the soundtracks or the declaration of the love or both,it made make me tear as well..
gee,I'm getting emotional at 5.36am,on a Friday..simply lying on my double Decker bed,using IBM laptop listening to"river flows with you" and having birds chipping.my dad gonna come in any min.
gee,it seems so different when i blog this entry at such late hours with such romantic soundtrack im listening to.Getting emotional,yes..yes i am.im definitely missing someone rite now,at this very moment.

its dec and my holiday mood are all hype up!

Gee,my blog was temporary dead for a month or so..prolly cuz i dunno what i've been doing with my life and i jus nv felt like blogging den..

After so much have happened and so many negative impact on me,it hurt me mentally,hurt my pride and it made me lose confidence of myself..going to school everyday bores me with classmates not opening up and treating me like a stranger.i need to move on,i tot i did..but i din..its so hard when u only go to sch jus to study..everyday i've been gazing and daydreaming and not being pro-active in class.it hasnt been "me" recently when im in class.its not easy being me with my cliques now.

Finally 2weeks of study holiday has jus started and it was the very first time i ever felt soooo happy that i wanted to celebrate for this holiday.this is insanity.i need to get my engine,my mood,my energy all started again.its tiring not to be able to be yourself and its tiring not having people to believe you in your clique.it spoils my mood all the time.
MY ONLY AIM now after this holidays is to be me again,if that is possible..no,i must! but im having some self-doubts here.sigh.

merina is a real emo-shit!its emotionally tiring not to have pple der to listen you out.i lost my pride and im feeling inferior now.i jus wanna sleep and never gets up.EMO-ING!!! WTH! i shld stop emo-ing..i need to go running now.toddles! =D

c'est la vie

HELLO!

its been a long time since i last blogged,okay..so wad was i really busy with that i had no time to blog?hmm..

ohwell,i miss my two buddies and apparently,i dun even noe wad im busy with that i got no time to meet them up.=(

and monday is my bioscience MCQ! so have to score a D.ouhouh..D*distinction okay..haha!i have and i must! no other choice,gonna go back studying again..BIOSCIENCE!here i come to conquer you!

this semester isnt going so well for me.=(i miss having CCAs,miss being really active in school and miss laughting like crazzyyy.

i dun even noe wad the hell am i doing with this semester 2.its so depressing knowing that you're not one of the best in class and others are much better?you jus feel soooo lousy.Going to sch jus for academic is really depressing..I MISS MY SPORTS!!! =(

i miss having competitions,i miss having to compete wit others to noe where you stand,i miss all the fun,i miss the friends that i used to make earlier before this semester..but looks like they're all disappeared to another world.

my belief is..To be an asset,not a liability to others.And everything is solved.life is just so simple.why do others have to make it sound so complicated and narrow and blar blar blar..its jus so simple!

urghh..my blog is really boring pple out.HAHA!

anw i started my french,let me teach some french here..

je'mappelle Gisele(i am gisele)

salut!(hi,bye..in a friendly way)

tu't pelle merina(you are merina)

elle't pelle(she is)

c'est la vie(life's like this)

bonjour(hello)

bonsoir(good afternoon)

bonnuit(good nite)

comment ca va(how's life)

thats all folks for now!

SALUT! =D

finally ran after so many months!

Could you imagine? Merina the sporty one who loves to run like nobody business actually lost her stamina?oh well,partly cause i haven been running sometime and definitely it was really hard to pick up running at the usual speed which i always do.People will feel comfortable running in their own regular speed and jogging for me?i find it even more tiring for me..But it was not easy to keep up the pace and distance i used to run,i was panting really hard! And to be honest,today was the VERY FIRST TIME i walked in my entire 18 years of my life!And i din walk jus once,i walked many times..i felt like shit! why did i even walk?! i need someone to motivate me to push me to finish the race.its not easy to pick it up your own. sigh!im feeling total shitty!=( i jus dun seem to understand why i cant just push myself all the bloody way! URGH! i hate myself! WHY?! im so weak! such a failure i am! SO WEAK!!!! i need people to push me all the time,i need competitions to motivate me,i need something to tempt me to work harder.people always find excuses when they cant push themselves hard enuff.i find these people weak.And for me,i dun wanna be a weakling,no more EXCUSES for now on! just do it! GPA 3and ABOVE! kill and torture me in order to get that grade!hopefully im prepared! and pple who always asked me to rest and dun get so hard on myself,jus keep pushin me on and dun give me a chance for breaks at all.no matter how much i whine,dun jus give in.

i find that everything you do in life, the principle is always the same...the more time and effort and sacrifices you make, the more you will enjoy your fruit of labour..it applies not just sports,studies,CCAs..it also applies in work.the more time you sacrific,the nearer you'll reach your goal.NO MORE EXCUSES!


Anw today i pon-ned sch due to the driving shit,i took sch for theory and private for driving.i find it easier to pass if i did the theory under sch.so no confidence eh?And the lady called me up few days back to remind me to do my BTE latest by monday!that is like less den 14days? by right u shld finish everything in 14days but my case was slightly diff.so over the weekends,i had no slot to book! i ganchiong so i decided to pon sch today and take everything by today..including my 2 BTL and BTE.heihei! i passed my BTE! next wed is my TEST!prolly i'll pass! and today i was super busy the WHOLE DAY! woke up at 8,studied abit,went for class,came back home,went for class again,waited at the school,booked my BTE,went home checked on my elective module,went out to get my stupid MC! it was $8plus in polyclinic! no more wad $4! and it was so frustrating! the stupid doc in rm 10 was FREAKING SLOW! and the people working der jus couldnt help this pity merina here to get it done quick,made me took cab to BBDC,rushed like shit and jus nice,1 min b4 the BTE starts,PHEW! ABLE TO CATCH MY BREATHE A LITTLE.HEIHEI! and after everythinggg...it was alr 5.40pm

so den,decided to run and guess wad! i saw AARON! so glad to see him running! =)i bet he's gonna be hundred times better den i am.sighhh!! im sucha failure! i walked!!!! URGHHH!!!!!!!!!! SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF!! SO WEAK!!!!!mentally!sigh.im hungry! ciao!

sucha lengthy post again! why does merina always have so many things to write! CRAZY!!!!!!! HAHAHHAAH

I WANT TO RUN NIKE HUMAN RACE!!!hopefully 09 they will hold it again.=)

quit worrying.

Fundamental facts you should know about worryIf you want to avoid worry, do what Sir William Osler did: Live in "day-tight compartments." Don't stew about the futures. Just live each day u ntil bedtime.
The next time Trouble--with a Capital T--backs you up in a corner, try the magic formula of Willis H. Carrier:
Ask yourself, "What is the worst that can possibly happen if I can't solve my problem?
Prepare yourself mentally to accept the worst--if necessary.
Then calmly try to improve upon the worst--which you have already mentally agreed to accept.
Remind yourself of the exorbitant price you can pay for worry in terms of your health. "Those who do not know how to fight worry die young."

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Part Two
Basic techniques in analyzing worry
Get the facts. Remember that Dean Hawkes of Columbia University said that "half the worry in the world is caused by people trying to make decisions before they have sufficient knowledge on which to base a decision."
After carefully weighing all the facts, come to a decision.
Once a decision is carefully reached, act! Get busy carrying out your decision--and dismiss all anxiety about the outcome.
When you, or any of your associates, are tempted to worry about a problem, write out and answer the following questions:
What is the problem?
What is the cause of the problem?
What are all possible solutions?
What is the best solution?

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Part Three
How to break the worry habit before it breaks you
Crowd worry out of your mind by keeping busy. Plenty of action is one of the best therapies ever devised for curing "wibber gibbers."
Don't fuss about trifles. Don't permit little things--the mere termites of life--to ruin your happines.
Use the law of averages to outlaw your worries. Ask yourself: "What are the odds against this thing's happening at all?"
Co-operate with the inevitable. If you know a circumstance is beyond your power to change or revise, say to yourself: "It is so; it cannot be otherwise."
Put a "stop-less" order on your worries. Decide just how much anxiety a thing may be worth--and refuse to give it anymore.
Let the past bury its dead. Don't saw sawdust.

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Part Four
Seven ways to cultivate a mental attitude that will bring you peace and happiness
Let's fill our minds with thoughts of peace, courage, health, and hope, for "our life is what our thoughts make it."
Let's never try to get even with our enemies, because if we do we will hurt ourselves far more than we hurt them. Let's do as General Eisenhower does: let's never waste a minute thinking about people we don't like.

Instead of worrying about ingratitude, let's expect it. Let's remember that Jesus healed ten lepers in one day--and only one thanked Him. Why should we expect more gratitude than Jesus got?
Let's remember that the only way to find happiness is not to expect gratitude--but to give for the joy of giving.
Let's remember that gratitude is a "cultivated" trait; so if we want our children to be grateful, we must train them to be grateful.
Count your blessings--not your troubles!
Let's not imitate others. Let's find ourselves and be ourselves, for "envy is ignorance" and "imitation is suicide."
When fate hands us a lemon, let's try to make a lemonade.
Let's forget our own unhappiness--by trying to create a little happiness for others. "When you are good to others, you are best to yourself."

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Part Five
The perfect way to conquer worry
Prayer

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Part Six
How to keep from worrying about criticism
Unjust criticism is often a disguised compliment. It often means that you have aroused jealousy and envy. Remember that no one ever kicks a dead dog.
Do the very best you can; and then put up your old umbrella and keep the rain of criticism from running down the back of your neck.
Let's keep a record of the fool things we have done and criticize ourselves. Since we can't hope to be perfect, let's do what E.H. Little did: let's ask for unbiased, helpful, constructive criticism.

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Part Seven
Six ways to prevent fatigue and worry and keep your energy and spirits high
Rest before you get tired.
Learn to relax at your work.
Learn to relax at home.
Apply these four good workings habits:
Clear your desk of all papers except those relating to the immediate problem at hand.
Do things in the order of their importance.
When you face a problem, solve it then and there if you have the facts to make a decision.
Learn to organize, deputize, and supervise.
To prevent worry and fatigue, put enthusiasm into your work.
Remember, no one was ever killed by lack of sleep. It is worrying about insomnia that does the damage--not the insomnia.

i sooo wanna go over there! at montreal.!
ouh..and our school let us take languages at our elective module.i thought of taking french! but everyone is like saying japanese is better! Still, i like french more..someone,please tell me wads best!FRENCH EH?! lol! ciao for now...=)

its been a rough time but its all over..=)

LOL! mini N95 with esther's actual N95.KOOL EH! miniN95 is suitable for small pple to use!as for shijie,she has to use the actual 1.. =x. ehh....HAHAH!jus jokingg..

WAH!that bottle of SK2 essense cost me a BOMB! i can soak myself in it!heihei!

my cliques lor.

WAH!!sk2's goodjob! make my face really fair ehh! and thats erhem..

ahxin!little ms figet-er.HAHAH!let's score GPA 3.8 yo!

Hello..once again,i'm blogging cuz its a Friday nite! And den again,cuz shijie wants to read so i shall let her read about my life.LOL! shijie! see!! im blogging especially for you noe?!! HAHA!ohwell..by right,Friday nite im suppose to go clubbing and have all the shit fun in the world! But den again, i choose not to..Merina made a choice to be a pretty homie gal,staying at home and sit in front of the computer and do a little bit of blogging and instilling some knowledge to my brain..why?because the brain has to keep it healthy and fit! the BRAIN is just like your Muscles..no exercise,muscles gone..its a metaphor for explaining about the brain! haha! oh..enough about the brain!haha!

my semester 1 exam was total shitty! i did badly like horrendously? okay...not exactly,just that i failed one paper and the best thing is that i missed my sub-paper! Missing the sub-paper is where all the problems started to arise! not jus my parents came into the picture, my mentor,my sister,my cca,my work and my friends and definitely it hit me the most! like duhhh rite? i made my Dad run to sch for me,i feel really heart ache,could you visualise one old man running to school cuz the nursing director has to go for meeting in 10mins time?we tried to appeal but it din work and der's gonna be a 6 months extension? its not jus a matter of wasting time here,its also a matter of wasting money! u gonna pay the school fees? and have to hop ard to other classes for that dumb module?My mentor knew abt this and she even went thru all the trouble to help me out!Really glad i have such a mentor liek her..really appreciated her help alot..THANKS MADAM LOI!=).she said something which i think it make sense.."its not like you're financially disabled? you can have the whole time in your life working..but you dun have your whole life to be a student..why not just do well in your studies and score well? you dun get to be student and enjoy student life after this period."i tot it thru and indeed,i shld heed her advise..So now im jobless and CCA-less..no more sprint kayak everyday!But home everyday..=( IM SO GROUNDED!

my dad has been constantly nagging and constantly keeping an eye on what im doing on the computer.urghh..feeling so stranded here! but deep down in my heart,he's doing that for my own good..i understand dad! =) i promised to get GPA at least 3.4 alrite?but hw am i gonna do that when i dun have classmates scoring even at least a GPA of 3.5?sighhhh....

Eversince sch starts,its like sch,home,sch,home..it sounded quite pathetic and lifeless rite? but thats jus the words! its the pple ard me that made it more den jus sch and going home..definitely der's this especial someone made it more den jus that.. =) All i need is just you to make it not mandane.it wasnt boredom when that especial someone is der.i thank god for sending that especial someone to me..thank you!=)

And i'm greatful that i have close people ard to save me out of my pathetic clique.i felt like a lonesome in there,feeling so myself and dead and pathetic and feeling so hard to get emotional support sometimes..luckily der's BGJY to be der for me all the time..thanks babe..=).But Is it me that cause it to be this way?Der isnt any true friends i can find in my clique except BGJY.Why is it so hard to be me in that clique?sigh!all the shit..i miss all my close friends,definitely missing my secondary school life.ohwell..i just have to get pass this and just do well in my studies..i'll be back strong again! i have to!=D

And also,after all this while,i'm glad that you have stick with me all the way..=) thanks b! heh

and guess wad,this is one lengthy post! hahah! cuz its me mahh! i like to write it long!its summary btw.HA! and ya! i stain my demin gal today!!!! can u imagine?! with red huge dots on it.!WAH SIAAAA!!! EMBARASSING MANNN!! i think the chinese boy saw it luh,he was sitting directly behind me.SHIT! no face! i think i have to wear paper bag to sch to hide my face..EMBARASSSINNGGG !! AHH!!! stupid men! next time i shld jus wear diapers,it is fully protected! LOL! alrite! end of my lengthy post! hahaha! nites y'all... =)

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“When I first met you I was afraid to like you, now that I like you I'm afraid to love you, now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.”

BRAIN!

Brains grow and elaborate and strengthen when they are CHALLENGED, and that they change little when solutions are easy to come by.

Recommended Brain Fitness Activities
The task: Add some dark chocolate to your diet.
The reason: When you eat chocolate you activate the systems in your brain that pump dopamine, an important brain chemical. These systems enable learning and memory, and help keep your brain sharp and fit.

The task: Go on a guided tour of a museum or another site of interest. Pay careful attention to what the guide says. When you get home, try to reconstrucft the tour by writing an outline that includes everything you remember.
The reason: Research into brain plasticity (the ability of the brain to change at any age) indicates that memory activities that engage all levels of brain operation—receiving, remembering and thinking—help to improve the function (and hinder the rate of decline) of the brain.

http://bfc.positscience.com/about/tips.php

chinese garden-ed

went to chinese garden for the lantern thingy like ytd?? yea..it was beautiful.the theme for that night was hello kitty! my cousin's favourite(melody) the one badbad was after for while cyclingg...HAHAH!!* only lixin and clique understandddsss...lol. laughed like shit! ohwell,i haven been bloggin for ages alr!
life now are me is practically moving like the calming waters..quite mandane.i dun even noe wad i wanna do in my future now. sighs! GOD, PLEASE GUIDE ME THRU MY LIFE...after this holiday,i'm gonna study hard! hopefully i can really fight on.i must!!!!! i must earn big $,lead a good life and be independant!!! fight on fight on fight on!!!!

btw, some pictures taken at chinese garden!
ALEMAK!! FUCKIN COM! cannot upload the pictures here..nvm! upload someother time.. ciao

having attachement niow

attachment attachement attachement!

i left with 1 more week after this week and i wonder how am i gonna spend the

rest of my 1month holiday.

get a job? go for driving licence?sprint kayak?hmmm...most prob i'll get myself a job,earn some $. =D anw i was havin my attachement for the past 1 week and i was too busy to blog.finally i'm having some time to blog here.attachment was really fun,especially the people der..people including the ITE,nyp,AN and SN.=)with them around,it made attachment more lively and fun! cheerios peeps! =D love yaww..

and well, i had my attachie at orthopedic ward.gosh! today i saw 1 pt with the nail punctured thru the foot. OUCH! i've seen even more disgusting thigns ever.thats not the worse.geee...der's more to come in the future...! so looking forward to it. =D

alrighty.Many things running in my head,waiting for me to fix .blog soon again! =)

Having reminiscence now,

middle of the night thinking so much.

so many things to do yet so little time.

 currently using mac book pro to blog this entry.MAN! this macbook is really terrible,AT FIRST.haha! i guess after u noe how to get the hang of it,it'll turn to be ur BABY man..but sadly my brudder jus want this mac book for this university course.=(

 this week is my exam week and i left 1 last paper on thursday.ALRITE! cant wait..i haven been sleeping before 12 since a very long time and i've been sleeping almost at 3 since last week til now.terrible! i'm having severe OUTBREAK here..=( my face is sucha goner now. i rather have a headache den pimples and acne everywhere..

 anw REDBULL revitalise ur body and mental,all u need is 1 can of redbull to keep u going and alert.=D redbull love here.but too much of redbull is bad! anw i wanted to type alot here but i guess i've forgt wad i wanna type.HAHA! holiday is coming and i jus cant wait..

  OUH! have been having my exam papers in the sports hall,its darn freezing cold when u sit der for too long.i wonder how those people who only wore shirt and shorts,dun their tiny hairs stand or having goosebum? 

 after exams,took the train back with B and S and on the way home,those shops along the way of gombak mrt is almost up! and they got a DBS bank too,how convenient! i dun have to take bus down to westmall jus to deposit cash..haha!everywher der's like upgrading of the mrt stations and everywhere der's cafe in sing.hmmm.how nice! at least can jus go those cafes to chill out.=D

 alritey,gonna turn in now.my cough is back the moment i sleep LATE! 

 GOOD NITE merina! =D

pesta sukan-mixed team

today was a fabulous and distracting saturday! cuz i had netball games today. .haha! abandon sprint kayak for netball game.ohwell! it was a tournament! But din managed to get into the second round of the mixed team tho.SIGH!OUHOUHOUH!!i had seriously MUSCLE CRAMPS after a few games,DARN IT! it was the first time where i actually sees my muscle contracts!INTERESTINGG!HAHA!okay..back to my topic!hmmm.. every year we've been losing and not getting into the second round when we played,what we lacked of is disiplinary,commitment and the fighting spirit! everyone wants to win! to be a winner,the top team,its not easy,jus like studying for the very last min u dun see good grades..the most,i'll say jus pass? And if those who said that they din study at all and still can get good grades, those pple who simply says that,i think its all BULLSHIT! today certain player in our team thought of switching to a better team which,i think its painful to the ears upon hearing it.that person is not the first who said indirectly that our team isnt one of the better teams compared to some teams.

I still remember the first time when i joined the netball team,i was driven to improve, to push myself, to get well and win during tournament games.but its very frastrauting to see our teammates do not have the fighting spirit and seems not prepared or nervous for the game at all.it was very disappointing as well.our coach is really a very nice coach,or i shld say,a very good listening ear but when it comes to training,no comments!haha!and i think she feels disappointed that der's so few pple coming for trainings..initally i still rmb that i came for every single training after graduating from sec 5,i found a strong motivation to actually continue in team games and wanting to excel in it.But when u see ur teammates not driven and shows u attitude yet u dunno how to influence and inspire them to have the fighting spirit,how u felt is like giving up on the team,just accept the fact that its a recreational team.
But den again, when we join those competitive games and still maintain our standards and not pushing forward,it will not get us anywhere.the guys indeed has improved alot and the good thing is that THEY HAVE THE STAMINA! their stamina is der,it feels so depressing when u see urself going for tournaments in KNC and not getting into the second round,ITS DISGRACING! pple gonna label us as the loser team,which is not very pleasing to hear.
we really lack of the fighting spirit! ! totally!

i think we should do something abt it.if other clubs can do it,i strongly believe that we can do it too!
TEAM SEIRIOS! ALL THE WAY!

sunday madness!

Busy busy day todayy..Woke up extremely early!

• its cuz my brother woke me up to go for mass at 7.30am!
• After mass, helped my parents with their stall for our church funfair( not a dumpling was left even before 12.30 mass,HAPPY!)
• Rush down for work at National library to help out in the dental talks from 10am to 7pm.(it was a pretty darn slack job! brudder and i even self-entertained ourselves den.HAHA!)
• Den mum came to pick us up to bring the boxes of free "mysterious gift" back to the office.
• Reached home and ate our DUMPLINGS! muhahaha! SHIOK! i was hungry den.

OHwell,gonna put up some pictures later or so!

today's sales of dumplings was a SUCCESS! *CLAPPSSS!! =D

Gonna get my butt to studying now.

wee.!

Mummy's office can be seen in e newyork globe glass===========================>




man! today woke early,wanted to go sea-training but my head was extremely painful, vision slowly became so blury when u focus on something..sigh! miss-ed trg today.. so headed back to sleep and woke up smelling dumplings!!! mummy with maid, auntie and dad preparing for tmr's charity work at church selling dumplings! and i wasnt helping ard cuz i had to study but apparently, i kept stealing some sleep. LOL. books are jus so hypnotizing u noe?! and auntie says i become bigger in size again! omggg!!! must be my muscle luh..anw i really dunno wad i want in life.sigh!gonna ponder over such matter again. how to earn big bucks??? =(


anw tmr gonna work! alrity..FUN TIME!


today i spent my whole day at home, studying, sleeping, and SNACKING! alot! my mouth is forever munching something..hahaha!
AND YAY!! STUPID CMS! i cant get into the e-lecture luh! neh neh! i hate nyp's website.blooddyyy, now i cant study for my e-electures for my exams! URGHH





JIA YOU FOR MY EXAMS MERINA!! FOCUS!

yuppie!

WEEE!!! today finally finished our last presentation of the semester 1! feeling sooo elated! :D
for once, AKK did not scold us and said that the scoldings she said all paid off..ehh..baby is forever peeping what i am typing n this post..DUN SEE LUH!! humphh..lol! next week is week 17 and after that is exam period den attachment and finally..HOLIDAYYY!!!! WAHAHAHA!! i wanna havoc, somebody please bring me go havoc during holidays cannn..lol! anyway, for our past few presentations, we did quite well. WELL DONE EVERYBODYYY!! :D our staying up late at night is paid off. =) now its time to like study for exams.. i miss my two buddies.. =( holiday we shall go out yay.. emily and catherine! =) okayyy..shall go study now,den later can rest. =)
thats for now.

random!

-played in high standard quality!!=D

"say it again"
The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again (x9)

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again

Ohhh...Ohhhhhh

Marie Digby is my new love,she's a jap mixed american u noe?! she's so pwutteyy.. :D i so want all her songs luhh, any kind souls can download for me??=) i'll be grateful to yay!

anw jus finished doing the family and community health project,its super last min. i tot our project was fine til i saw one of my senior's project,its uncomparable..so we quickly add in more points and all..all the best sub-grp 1 for tmr's akk's presentation,our doom-day!let's yaw have fun during presentation!! HEHEE! today is friday and gonna see the deputy manager for disipilinary offence jus wearing slippers.. =.=! my mentor made a huge fuss over it like i killed someone like that..its jus slippers..and she had to go thru all the troubles to get me informed! thru emails,sms and classmates and even called me a few times..wow!how efficient ehh! ohwell.gtg turn in now,my cough is getting worse once again..SIGGGHHHH!!!!

random

hello! i'm being random here again!haha!now in nyp's mac using baby's laptop to kill some time.and he's like watching me typing this post.haha!and pretending to look distracted.LOL!

"blood-ed" this video is darn hilarious.haha!
man,30 more mins to lecture and i soooo dun wanna go,if not for exam tips,i'll jus study in school for my test next week.=)lecture for safety and healthcare is sooo boring!gosh!
ohwell,gonna go for lecture soon,BORING!!

lost

walaa. i'm here blogging again!!=D after so long?man,i made a no school for myself tmr!wee!i can rest and relax as home!how happy i am,and guess wad,i am awake like i used to.i think i'm a real nocturnal,i dun seem to be able to change my habit of staying up so late and being so hype at nite?oh dearrr,i'm not one of the norms here.XD! btw,its 3.02AM FYI.i jus love staying up late at nite,wher everyone is asleep?and u got no one disturbing u?u get to be in a world of ur own,do wateva u want at nite without people deciding for u whether ur doing the right thing or which to do first,u dun have pple naggin at ur ears,u dun have to talk to people,u jus can relax ur mind,do some self-reflection and reflect on the things u did the day/s before AND have the nite world for urself!can u feel me?how nice to have sometime for urself,its healthy mentally,for me!!=D insane u might say.. FAVOURITE RAMLY BURGERR!!HEHH!der's alot to blog about and its gonna be a really wordy post here,okayy,let me upload some pretty pretty pictures!=>one is enuff!its my sprint kayak gals!muha!=)*ignore my sexy tighs and legs,pardon for opening so big!how obsence!ALEMAKK.haha! anw!i think i noe why i'm feeling so lost!feeling like my life is spinning out of control,having too much to do and not enuff time for myself and my family,too many priorities pullin me apart,leaving me unprepared and pressurize somehow and all,its the cause of no time management!gosh!definitely i'm lacking of it.its time to do up an organizing system to manage my time properly!=D kayaking's trg getting tougher and everyone is puttin their commitment in sprint kayak soon enuff,gosh!the more i need to learn how to manage my time!and sch for me is no good,practically i'm depending on my friends on everything?wads going on in sch and all,when is exam and all,dun even noe wads going on like most of the time?haha!i think they're getting more and more annoyed of me asking them qns ALL THE TIME!geee!time to revamp myself and take charge and be independent for my own life and not the other way round.=)will i actually have the energy to do that?i wonder!goosshhh,i'm emo-ing now..lalalala! I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE!=( thats so random!hahah!gonna upload some sec sch pictures!how i wish i can nv grow up..=(






have u ever tot of wad's ur future gonna be like?i like to think alot,abt alot of things..i like to think abt the pass and present as well,i like to think of the happy moments and moments that make ur life full of roller coaster rides.if u got siblings,will u think if when they all get married and have their family,will they gonna be ever so close to u again?.i really wonder wad has god planned for me for my future,am i gonna be a somebody? or a nobody? i wonder if i gt kids,when they grow up,will they be outstanding kids?have u ever wonder how is death like?how is heaven like?how u gonna look when u die and enter the gates of heaven?having ur parents,ur grand parents,great grand family waiting for u?der's SOOO many qns i wanna ask but yet no one has the answers for it.except god and time.i wonder will i die young or old?i wonder will i be a hippy grandma,i wonder will my kids put me in old folk home,i wonder wad the world coming to in the future,i wonder will the future generation gonna be really brainy.i'm excited and at the same time,scared..hmmm..past,present and future,i wonder...ohwell!!i can nv get those answers,back to reality now,no pt thinking so much..all i have to do now is priortize my impt matters uhh!

and stupid phonee!!i cant transfer pictures into my com!bloody hell! anw mummy bought macbook and many ipod for each of us(siblings)muhaha!LOVE MUMMY! mum gives us comfort and dad gives us love..wad a purrfect family i have.=)i miss granny.AHHH.i miss alot of things.=( haha!random.okayy..its a long post indeed,i shall stop now.gonna go study,din noe 1 cup of coffee could last me so hype until now.TEHE!

ehh..my previous post like so scary,shouldnt have put in red font.haha!SCARYYY!!
TIME TO UPLOAD SOME BEAUTIFUL PICTURES HEREE!!!
MUAHHAHA!! WE WERE SO BORED IN THE BIOLAB THAT WE STARTED TAKING PICTURES>HEHE!

BABYYY!=D

Hello blog! man.its been ages ever since the last time i blogged,been sooo busy lately with so many things.Now i've gt an extra commitment and its not easy juggling it all.i'm still trying to adjust the life of being in a r/s,it's definitely not easy being in a r/s,der are many things u have to worry,jus so many..but lucky i got some supportive friends ard me.=)thanks a million friends...=)ohwell,suddenly i got nth much to blog,unlike the past.maybe cuz i got too many things in my head and baby with me all the time that i dun necessary find a need to blog it here.but wadeva it is,i'll still try to blog cuz i wanna rmb all the life experiences and incident that i had encounter.hmm..now i've gt my r/s to commit,my studies,my cca(sprint kayak) and i got no time for my friends at all.i'm feeling rather down that i got not much time to bond with them.='(
everyday i only manage to reach home after 9?usually its always after 9.mon,thurs and sat is our sprint kayak compulsory training and wed is not official.OHYAH! guess wad,today i completely forgt that der's trg today,seriously!how can i actually forget?man!thats how busy and tired i was den.too much things running in my mind that der's so many things i blocked out from my head.sighh..i'm getting more and more forgetful,sometimes it really made me wonder if i would have dementia when i grow old.hmmm..i wouldnt want that!!!
tuesday usually end sch after 6,den baby will always accompany me home.talking about baby,i feel so fortunate having him by my side like ALL THE TIME? he definitely put in alot of effort in this r/s.he's just so sweet and all,sometimes i'm really touched by certain things he says or do.uhh...nv felt so loved before.=)everyday he wakes up early in the morning jus to accompany me to school and he had to come all the way down from novena to bukit gombak and walk afew distance to my place and den accompany me to school at YCK.he din even mind waking up so early and all.and after school,he would rather accompany me home den to be on time for his appt.and he's always der for me when i'm down.thanks alot baby...after 16th this month is our second month,time really flies..and i'm glad tat i got him.i dunno why but i feel like as tho we're meant to be together,it feel like god planned this to happen.everything that happened seem to be so coincidental and things jus goes smoothly.there were many a times whereby we din plan to meet up and suppose to meet up and den again,we jus managed to bump into each other.HAHA! are we really fated to be together?hmm..if it is,i'm really really glad!=) and thank god for letting us be together.=) love baby alot of more now.

dinner with manli!

Out with this Crazy Women for dinner and "gossip" session. haha! We had alot of past secondary school memories and we had hell lots of things to laugh and share and of cause cam-woring.. haha.. =D (taken from manli.)LOLLL..lazy to type luhh..

umpired energizer national league

i guess i jus sent myself to death.i hadnt umpired for quite sometimes and i agreed to umpire for national league.that was an insane decision.my court umpire is also a cadet and she's kinda rusty as well.so den,we been screwed by not only the coach,july but also the players.i guess we'll be the hated umpires ever..haha!but wad to do..we din even practice at all and wack for national league.thats insane! july kept saying that we need to get positioned and run fast.and the team players of one of the team were so violent and scolded vulgarities to the other team.we cant do anything..stop all of them from playing?cant do that..man.den july took down both our names.SHIT! we cant umpire for netball singapore anymore unless we go for refreshment course.BLOODY..!i dun wantt if der's a need to pay.its so unfair for us.
the more i think of it,the more i get pissed with julie.how can julie actually not let us umpire anymore games?she wanna black list us from umpire in netball singapore.how are we gonna practice our umpiring ever again?!she pass us so that we can umpire the games for practice and now we did,she wanna black list us for not umpiring properly,sayin we made a fool of ourselves. ARGH!PISSED!

depressed

hello blog.in fact,it looks like i got time to blog again,well,der's always time if u were to squeeze in some time for something u wanna do.(MAKE TIME)=)
haii..i've been really emo for the past few days,ever since sch reopens.am i gonna continue to live under that negativity radar from her for the whole of my remaining yrs in polytechnic?i wouldn't care if u were to hate me to the core,i will care ALOT if u were to hate me in the clique.which will affect not jus me,but both the parties.
sometimes its really depressing and saddening when you have that someone disliking you and giving you cold shoulder ALL THE TIME.the friends i got in poly now is so different in sec sch.maybe becuz the clique is bigger and smaller grps are formed within.i aint close with any after getting into r/s.the friends that i were closed with seems to drift apart,which i seriously do not want that.somehow,i still put friends before my r/s.
now its jus btw the both parties to solve the situation but it seems like i want it to be resolved and she seems like being in this awkward situaion is fine with her.guess my last and only solution is to confront her.if this dun work,guess i've to use my back up solution den..which may be quite mentally and physically exhausting.
Guess its just part and parcel of life,god is jus being fair.he cant possibly giving you good time for ur entire moment.its some obstacles taht is needed to be overcome and be stronger.
thigns now have been a little rough for me.thinking of the conflict and how i've been treated really saddens me that sometimes i teared during my sleep.i jus need to get over it and its fine. i get really demoralised and feel like a loser when things aint going my way.guess i have to learn that tahst jus life,hvae t accept it that sometmies things just dun always go wad u want it to be.
shit man,my english jus SUCKKKKK!!!
i'm so tired now.tired busy and lazy.ahh..i hadnt been listening in lecture and my trg is like 4times a week?the moment i reached home,i din even touch my book.
man,poly life really needs a lot of self-discipline.shall continue again.ciao.

i coughed my heart out

eh shit,now i've to seriously take good care of my health now.i'm coughin like der's no tmr and i'm coughin so much worse due to things i've done that i'm not suppose to do.things that i've taken that i'm not suppose to take..i realised that i cant afford to be sick at all..once i'm sick. der's alot i cant do and alot i cant eat.=( practically everyday i'm having physical training,when ur sick,ur not suppose to go for trg yet i went..ur not suppose to eat fried food,chilli,fruits,cold drinks,but i took.man!i have to seriously get recovered.
anw i went for sea trg in the morning,shiok!my strokes are way better now,guess i've improved,jus that i cant paddle straight,who cares!practice makes perfect. anw..after sea trg, i was at sch doing the shit assignment and den headed off for land trg while i'm still sick..kept coughing.i tot it was jus a mere cough,so i decided to go..who knew that that cough also got me killed!i was den emotionally affected,which i dunno why.we did circuits today.2rounds of joggings and den 6rounds of circuit.it was hell for me den.wth! i breathe like as tho i'm suffocating..the me today wasnt the usual me during trgs.always being so motivating,kept encouraging,kept counting,kept keeping up,today i was lagged behind and stuff..cant blame rite,i'm sick.haha!but i kept pushing myself cuz i tot i wasnt that sick.and did i really push over my limits?did i?can somebody jus tell me?
after the circuits,we did cool down..and cool down from the head?thats abit weird..it should be cool down from the legs and up.they did it wrongly..anw..ohyah!during the run,when they din motivate each other,i gt the urge to really scold them and say.darn it,can u all motivate each other?!we need some encouragement and motivation here!but still,i held back..if i cldnt take it,i think i'll jus shout.shit! why am i so weak?okayokay back to my story.
so when doing the cool down,i was alr kinda out of breathe and din have the strength to continue,i felt like tearing den.i felt like why am i so weak?SHIT!
so den it was rest time and everybody can grape their water bottles and drink up,maria asked me along to the toilet. i was darn sick!i took on the bench and went quite and dead,breathing really hard to grasp for air.so we went to the water cooler and wanted to refill water.who noes i felt a sudden breakout.i felt like crying,so i left halfway to cry and cool down abit b4 i return.went up and said i cant take it anymore.need to have a break.gee!i teared like shit den.i cant control my tears..it kept rolling down my pretty eyes..
i moved off awhile and left alone to tear my hearts out.thats for real..i literally cried for dunno wad reasons!seriously..i cant be the training,all the more i'll jus whine,i wont like breakdown..its stupid!the coach?hell no.he only met us once?he wont rmb our face and whose good and all and thinks not good and cant catch up.it cant be denise again?i've jus complaint my unsatisfaction to my friend alr.so wad izzit?! i must be definitely cuz i'm sick!thats it.!
so den daniel and jingting came over..and asked me to go to the benches to rest,when i moved,i cried like FUCKKKK!!seriously! and clutch my teeth very hard and tie!FUCK UP! and i suddenly felt like the exact moment when i was drunk and its emotionally drunk.FUK UP! i think in conclusion..i'm very very emotional.so yea..haha!i can cry a bucket of salt water for ya.no worries u're out of fluid.HAHA!darn it.now my head hurts like hell..guess many have known and its ugly to let them see it.SHIT! time to recover.rest and loads of rest.!that is wad i need..i'm gettin more stubborn abt my health.SHIT!alriteee...time to sleep. and thanks for daniel,jingting and damien for making me laugh alittle..and gossips!hahah!

bday bash!

hello blog!oh well,i wanna blog abt my 18th bday!hmm..bday falls on 29of may and sadly,thats on school days!but well,some friends still rmb and i'm quite suprised and elated as well..greetings from friendster, msges and letters.haha!and this yr is the only yr that i get to eat so many CAKES!!omg! ate like 6cakes.okayy.3 of them is a minicake tho,but its still cakess riteee..lol.alrite,actually der's plenty to write but i dun have the time to.
anw its my 2weeks study break now and i haven start my revision yet.darn it! i scare i couldnt make it!sighh..shall blog more soon enuff!=)