lost

walaa. i'm here blogging again!!=D after so long?man,i made a no school for myself tmr!wee!i can rest and relax as home!how happy i am,and guess wad,i am awake like i used to.i think i'm a real nocturnal,i dun seem to be able to change my habit of staying up so late and being so hype at nite?oh dearrr,i'm not one of the norms here.XD! btw,its 3.02AM FYI.i jus love staying up late at nite,wher everyone is asleep?and u got no one disturbing u?u get to be in a world of ur own,do wateva u want at nite without people deciding for u whether ur doing the right thing or which to do first,u dun have pple naggin at ur ears,u dun have to talk to people,u jus can relax ur mind,do some self-reflection and reflect on the things u did the day/s before AND have the nite world for urself!can u feel me?how nice to have sometime for urself,its healthy mentally,for me!!=D insane u might say.. FAVOURITE RAMLY BURGERR!!HEHH!der's alot to blog about and its gonna be a really wordy post here,okayy,let me upload some pretty pretty pictures!=>one is enuff!its my sprint kayak gals!muha!=)*ignore my sexy tighs and legs,pardon for opening so big!how obsence!ALEMAKK.haha! anw!i think i noe why i'm feeling so lost!feeling like my life is spinning out of control,having too much to do and not enuff time for myself and my family,too many priorities pullin me apart,leaving me unprepared and pressurize somehow and all,its the cause of no time management!gosh!definitely i'm lacking of it.its time to do up an organizing system to manage my time properly!=D kayaking's trg getting tougher and everyone is puttin their commitment in sprint kayak soon enuff,gosh!the more i need to learn how to manage my time!and sch for me is no good,practically i'm depending on my friends on everything?wads going on in sch and all,when is exam and all,dun even noe wads going on like most of the time?haha!i think they're getting more and more annoyed of me asking them qns ALL THE TIME!geee!time to revamp myself and take charge and be independent for my own life and not the other way round.=)will i actually have the energy to do that?i wonder!goosshhh,i'm emo-ing now..lalalala! I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE!=( thats so random!hahah!gonna upload some sec sch pictures!how i wish i can nv grow up..=(






have u ever tot of wad's ur future gonna be like?i like to think alot,abt alot of things..i like to think abt the pass and present as well,i like to think of the happy moments and moments that make ur life full of roller coaster rides.if u got siblings,will u think if when they all get married and have their family,will they gonna be ever so close to u again?.i really wonder wad has god planned for me for my future,am i gonna be a somebody? or a nobody? i wonder if i gt kids,when they grow up,will they be outstanding kids?have u ever wonder how is death like?how is heaven like?how u gonna look when u die and enter the gates of heaven?having ur parents,ur grand parents,great grand family waiting for u?der's SOOO many qns i wanna ask but yet no one has the answers for it.except god and time.i wonder will i die young or old?i wonder will i be a hippy grandma,i wonder will my kids put me in old folk home,i wonder wad the world coming to in the future,i wonder will the future generation gonna be really brainy.i'm excited and at the same time,scared..hmmm..past,present and future,i wonder...ohwell!!i can nv get those answers,back to reality now,no pt thinking so much..all i have to do now is priortize my impt matters uhh!

and stupid phonee!!i cant transfer pictures into my com!bloody hell! anw mummy bought macbook and many ipod for each of us(siblings)muhaha!LOVE MUMMY! mum gives us comfort and dad gives us love..wad a purrfect family i have.=)i miss granny.AHHH.i miss alot of things.=( haha!random.okayy..its a long post indeed,i shall stop now.gonna go study,din noe 1 cup of coffee could last me so hype until now.TEHE!