Saturday, February 27, 2010

:)

Gee! finally exams are over. :) Now wad shld i do for my holiday? hmm.
And my face is miracle-ly healing fast. :)
Later gona meet Mr oreo at JE to watch body world. :)
And i dun understand how my blog can be viewed by random people.. hmm. someone please enlighten me.
Bored.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Inspired. My goal?




This woman here is Christie Brinkley and she's 56 Yo for your info. Gosh. She's a legendary supermodel and she appears on the sports Illustrated mag cover three times. wow. im really getting to adore her, she does lots of charity work and she's gona be my next long term goal. Bar Refaeli will be first. :) i jus adore sports illustrated models. they are so healthy, have shapy body and they're natural.

Bar Refaeli,she's a jewish and she noes how to speak hebrew. Gee! thats damn sexy. And she's the Sports Illustrated Mag cover gal for 2009. wow. How i hope 1 fine day im in Sports illustrated mag too. *dreaming yes. its good to dream once in a while. it can help to draw your goal closer each day. :) I should start by exercising and keeping myself healthy physical and mentally. i always believe in inner beauty, the mind and personality. im working towards that each damn day.
And my Jaw Misalignment?Gee. it may hinder my goal of external beauty. But well, tts nt gona be the primary one yet. i'll do the jaw surgery when its time. For now, i have to keep improving on the inner beauty( the mind)
Diet- have to keep on check
Exercise- have to keep on check too. i wanna look like my daughter's younger sister when i am 60 in the future. :)
Every damn single day i am searching for what i want and who i wana be in the future.And i realised i have too many interests to comprehend, cant be a master of ALL jacks. probabby Master of some trades. but i do get drawn for other interest cuz i haven find wad exactly do i want or be in the future. But i found a solution to my demand in great interest in everything! my interest can range from media industry to health industry to sports industry to finance industry to world of business. i wana experience EVERYTHING before i leave this world and have an impact in people's lives, change them to be inspired and aspired.
What exactly do you want in life?
I will always love you no matter what baby. :)

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Love Woman

Of Arrogant males I have grown tired I meet one or two every day
One reason why I do love women is that they are different to men in every way
We would have less wars if women were leaders and a far better World to live in
With females in positions of power pragmatism would have a big win
We need women as World leaders women who have in them empathy
For most women than men far more caring they see the good in humanity
And women as a whole than men less aggressive a good woman would never rule by fear
Most crimes against humanity are committed by the male kind
many of which we do read of and hear
That women seen as inferior to men in some cultures does seem such a sad thing to say
The arrogant and ignorant of patriarchal societies respect to their women don't pay
There is something wrong and dysfunctional in a Human World
of inequality
We need women in positions of power at least that's how it does seem to me
So lets drink a toast to all women their contribution to World peace not small
And lets drink to every good person as well as to a fair go for all.

SOME WOMAN
Some women they are naive and some women they are shy
And some women they are cunning and some women they are coy
But they are less aggressive than the macho male kind
And compassion in women is never hard to find.

Some women they look beautiful of which they are aware
And they spend big on health products as well as beauty care
And some women their beauty brings them great wealth and fame
So many beautiful women far too many for to name.

Though for recognition in a man's World women must work harder than men
And women always find it harder some respect for to win
In a male dominated society gender inequality
And males mostly responsible for war and want and poverty.

Some women they are sinned against and of their husbands live in fear
And stories of violence against women stories I do not like to hear
For women are less physical than men are as a whole
And nothing is more violent than a man out of control.

Some women may have their faults but would you not agree
That women are the glue that binds all of humanity
And in a World ruled by women we would have less of war and poverty
And women they are marvellous or so 'twould seem to me.

SOME WOMAN LIKE THEIR MEN
Some women like their men gentle and some like them rough
And some like them clever and some like them tough
When it comes to the male kind few women agree
We all look at things one might say differently
Some women the macho type of a bloke do prefer
The refined type of fellow is not one for her
And good looks and youthfulness to some little to amount
The one with heaps of money to them only count,
Some women than others are harder to please
And some go for a man with the Uni Degrees
And some women do prefer muscles to brain
How chemistry works in people is beyond me to explain
When it comes to men few women agree
We all look at things one might say differently.

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-beautiful-person-3/
Found this in the web. Woman poems by francis duggan

Thursday, February 18, 2010

thinking

Hello blog,

once again, its been a long time since i last blogged. gee! blog oh blog, i feel that i do not have the drive and motivation anymore. i dunno wad am i working hard for and why shld i? being a nurse cant get me wealthy, drive lamborghini, stay in big house, have a big dog to exercise with. :(
how can i get my motivation from? HOW? and WHERE? gee. im depressed. losing my focus and direction right now. :(

How exactly can i get what i want? :(



PS: everyone loves athletes cuz they focus on their goals thru discipline,determine and perservences.

Which i sort of forgotten how i shld get to my goal. JIAYOU!

Focus is key, visualize every single moment of wad i want, who i wana become.
Cant let external pressure to get me down. I need to be discipline! Its time to stress myself BIG TIME to excel.

COME ON COME ON! im really weak! i need someone t be der t say that im stupid, im a weakling, im worse off den whoever. i need someone to poke me hard t wake me up! to trigger my anger. to look down on me so i can work really hard. I NEED SOMEONE WHO IS BETTER DEN ME TO SAY THAT I AM USELESS AND LOUSY TO TRIGGER MY MOTIVATION T WORK HARD! I NEED THAT.

I NEED TAT CONSTANT REMINDER THAT I NEED TO WORK HARD! MAN! I CANT SLEEP AS AND WEN, I CANT WAKE UP AS AND WEN. COME ON! FIGHT ON! THINK ABOUT MY FOCUS AND GOAL GOD DAMN IT! I HATE MYSELF! I REALLY DO!

I DUN DESERVE ANY LOVE FROM ANY ONE AT ALL! I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK!!!!! URGHHHHHH!!! MERINA IS A SHIT ASS HOPELESS SHIT! WORSE DEN A WORM! FREAKKK!!!! I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK!. OK. time to study hard now.