i coughed my heart out

eh shit,now i've to seriously take good care of my health now.i'm coughin like der's no tmr and i'm coughin so much worse due to things i've done that i'm not suppose to do.things that i've taken that i'm not suppose to take..i realised that i cant afford to be sick at all..once i'm sick. der's alot i cant do and alot i cant eat.=( practically everyday i'm having physical training,when ur sick,ur not suppose to go for trg yet i went..ur not suppose to eat fried food,chilli,fruits,cold drinks,but i took.man!i have to seriously get recovered.
anw i went for sea trg in the morning,shiok!my strokes are way better now,guess i've improved,jus that i cant paddle straight,who cares!practice makes perfect. anw..after sea trg, i was at sch doing the shit assignment and den headed off for land trg while i'm still sick..kept coughing.i tot it was jus a mere cough,so i decided to go..who knew that that cough also got me killed!i was den emotionally affected,which i dunno why.we did circuits today.2rounds of joggings and den 6rounds of circuit.it was hell for me den.wth! i breathe like as tho i'm suffocating..the me today wasnt the usual me during trgs.always being so motivating,kept encouraging,kept counting,kept keeping up,today i was lagged behind and stuff..cant blame rite,i'm sick.haha!but i kept pushing myself cuz i tot i wasnt that sick.and did i really push over my limits?did i?can somebody jus tell me?
after the circuits,we did cool down..and cool down from the head?thats abit weird..it should be cool down from the legs and up.they did it wrongly..anw..ohyah!during the run,when they din motivate each other,i gt the urge to really scold them and say.darn it,can u all motivate each other?!we need some encouragement and motivation here!but still,i held back..if i cldnt take it,i think i'll jus shout.shit! why am i so weak?okayokay back to my story.
so when doing the cool down,i was alr kinda out of breathe and din have the strength to continue,i felt like tearing den.i felt like why am i so weak?SHIT!
so den it was rest time and everybody can grape their water bottles and drink up,maria asked me along to the toilet. i was darn sick!i took on the bench and went quite and dead,breathing really hard to grasp for air.so we went to the water cooler and wanted to refill water.who noes i felt a sudden breakout.i felt like crying,so i left halfway to cry and cool down abit b4 i return.went up and said i cant take it anymore.need to have a break.gee!i teared like shit den.i cant control my tears..it kept rolling down my pretty eyes..
i moved off awhile and left alone to tear my hearts out.thats for real..i literally cried for dunno wad reasons!seriously..i cant be the training,all the more i'll jus whine,i wont like breakdown..its stupid!the coach?hell no.he only met us once?he wont rmb our face and whose good and all and thinks not good and cant catch up.it cant be denise again?i've jus complaint my unsatisfaction to my friend alr.so wad izzit?! i must be definitely cuz i'm sick!thats it.!
so den daniel and jingting came over..and asked me to go to the benches to rest,when i moved,i cried like FUCKKKK!!seriously! and clutch my teeth very hard and tie!FUCK UP! and i suddenly felt like the exact moment when i was drunk and its emotionally drunk.FUK UP! i think in conclusion..i'm very very emotional.so yea..haha!i can cry a bucket of salt water for ya.no worries u're out of fluid.HAHA!darn it.now my head hurts like hell..guess many have known and its ugly to let them see it.SHIT! time to recover.rest and loads of rest.!that is wad i need..i'm gettin more stubborn abt my health.SHIT!alriteee...time to sleep. and thanks for daniel,jingting and damien for making me laugh alittle..and gossips!hahah!