umpired energizer national league

i guess i jus sent myself to death.i hadnt umpired for quite sometimes and i agreed to umpire for national league.that was an insane decision.my court umpire is also a cadet and she's kinda rusty as well.so den,we been screwed by not only the coach,july but also the players.i guess we'll be the hated umpires ever..haha!but wad to do..we din even practice at all and wack for national league.thats insane! july kept saying that we need to get positioned and run fast.and the team players of one of the team were so violent and scolded vulgarities to the other team.we cant do anything..stop all of them from playing?cant do that..man.den july took down both our names.SHIT! we cant umpire for netball singapore anymore unless we go for refreshment course.BLOODY..!i dun wantt if der's a need to pay.its so unfair for us.
the more i think of it,the more i get pissed with julie.how can julie actually not let us umpire anymore games?she wanna black list us from umpire in netball singapore.how are we gonna practice our umpiring ever again?!she pass us so that we can umpire the games for practice and now we did,she wanna black list us for not umpiring properly,sayin we made a fool of ourselves. ARGH!PISSED!