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i guess i've decided,and tho it thru.wads the pt to dwell on situations?wads the point of thinking so hard whats the prob and where's the prob lies?the probs might be with i all this while,jus that i might not have realised it.i may be blinded by my positive mindset to keep making myself think that im great and i can make things great,i can make every single thing great.But in actual fact,thats all that i want.i cant handle everything yet.life is indeed a learning process,wateva setbacks that happened on a person,i jus have to move on,it hurts to dwell on it too much.maybe i can have abit of reflection here and there,getting a solution.but wads the point of dwelling and thinking it over and over again?we jus have to learn to move on.The person that i'm with now is definitely guiding me thruout my halfway to adulthood pathway,and i thank you alot.For being der all the time,even when i said im fine,that person will still be there.thank you.=)
From today on,i guess i've understand and learnt that god is kind to me,god is just testing me if i could handle all these shit,to let me grow up to be a better and wiser adult,i guess.haha.and also to make me much mature den the rest.but it definitely gonna take time,i dun wanna grow up still,i still wanna be protected by the ball of shide.But how long can i stay inside?not any time longer.
daddy jus came in and said:"mei,your future is in ur own hands,we're here jus to guide you,dun ruin your own future hor."
i find that living in this world is alr a brave thing we humans are doing.its soo scary living on Earth,i wonder when will the world gonna end?and all the sufferings and pain will end.every happy soul will be up with god,sharing the joy the painless,eternity life with him.
time now is 6.33am and im still awake,indeed i am a nocturnal,my brain works well at nite,its calm and quiet and peaceful in the nite.i jus like it when the sun the down.(only during holidays)nite is the best time where you can have all the time in the world to urself,doing all the things u want,not being distracted,getting away from all the shit that is gonna go on when the sun is up.how scary is that.urghh...the river flows with you soundtrack is making me really thinking alot of crap now.
gee,the sun is rising soon.its a brand new day.Have to learn to take things in my control,in my hands.MY HANDS!!=)