i swam like i think i would and i made it! :D

ohya ohya! cannot forget about this little acheivement i had too. i cant believe that i actually could swim freestyle in laps! at the start, (the initial as mention in the physics law, requires more effort and its always the tougher part to overcome but after the initial, things will go more smoother) it was pretty tough, i cldnt take it that i cldnt swim like how the other swimmers do! swimming in laps, so i seek for help and i recieved really great tips and advises. at the start when you tried what they said, it doesnt make sense and it seem like the person is talking crap. but apparently, its not. it worked! so happy with myself. i used to pant like a dog after jus swimming half lap okay, i was pathetically shit. so i guess practice makes perfect dun they? its a walk a talk pharse. ;) now i achieved to swim 15laps in an hr. my biggest achievement alr! with the fact that i pant like shit after half a lap or mayb even 1/4 lap. 

"its the hands that control your swim"

now i wana learn how to do butterfly. gona look for people who knows to teach me how. :) 

"All i need is hope,confidence and support from others, when people doubt my ability, i  doubt my own capablities as well.. thats how i am i guess. "

xoxo  my dear people. :)

Life being an adult now.

After hitting the legal age of 21,an official age which you can make your own decision like an adult, life after that was rather rough, especially when you step into the coperate world, i feel that i am a rather different person now. i feel that i am being more sensible,mature and knowing when and what to do things at the right time and situation. reflecting back on my previous self, i was always doing things at the wrong time and situation. my priorities was always not right and i guess my dad was really pissed off by me. he scolds me all the time. i feel that i was pretty playful den and i din really help out much in the family, all i was thinking was to improve on my daily self and reflect on each day,apparently i neglected the most important thing, FAMILY. i think i have grown more sensible after my sis and my bro is not around, the responsibility of taking care of the house and my parents has weigh on my shoulders now so i had to do what i have to. my parents aint getting any younger either, having them complaining about their condition pains me all the time. it left me reminded that i have to take really good care of them so at least when they are not around anymore, i will let them leave with no regrets in my heart. :) that pushes me to take care of them even more and try my best to not anger them and relief their worries for me. ( supposingly the most insensible one) tsk! 

okok, kinda side track. so mentioning about the corporate world, those previous posts were saying how dreadful work can be, i realised it really boils down to how you look at things and how you wanna handle and take it. those months has really made me figure out what sort of person i am and what my learning curve is like. there were so many things to learn den and everyone expects you to learn fast and when you dun, they get really pissed. sometimes it made me figure out what made them react differently from me to others and why others can learn faster den me and stuff? i den realised that i was pretty task-oriented and i forget that people has feelings too. when i was task-oriented, i forgt to be people oriented as well. its true that my jobscope has to be really people-oriented, it taught me the power of it. people will really close an eye and help tho. i guess i was too harsh at the start cuz the top were giving me alot of stress,i should have used people skills den task skills instead.Also, it taught me that i must humble myself down too.i wasnt humble and that giving those people a whole load of stress. tsk! felt bad! there were no communications done much as well. it was after everything was done den i started voicing out, things were pretty kinda late den. ohwell. And its great that things are getting better now, its smoother like out of the blue. prolly i decided to look at things in a different light and treating people like people again. tsk. i am feeling really really nasty inside. :( sorry man people that i was kinda an ass. haha. "people are creatures of emotions and i should respect that" Dun ever underestimate the power of emotions! thats how beggers and sales people manipulate the emotions of human being unknowingly.. 

Nursing is really a great job, the sense of satifaction,worth and happiness for helping people and making sure that the people are healed under the nursing care of ours. However, the $ is too little for me, i am seeking for more $. ambitious side of me just cant sit on that little $ and i want to learn about the business aspect of the world. be it advertising, marketing, sales, finance etc. my interest and heart has been seeking to that direction all the time recently. like machiam a calling siak! hahah. cant blame, surrounded with too many business pple. And also, i wana wear nice outfits to work too! can showcase my style. nursing only can showcase the uniform. no uniqueness at all. i guess ive made up my mind. im gona head to the business direction and wana know why? today i flipped the HER WORLD MAGAZINE, i saw the status of the woman and the way they were dressed, i told myself, i wana be like that. so yea. 

This lengthy posting is to recuperate the MIA of my posts which i shld be bloggin in!tsk. 

"The outside world is another learning process which school do not teach."

another humble learning. what lee ky says is true, "its a life-long learning process" til the day we die. the last few words is by me. tsk! cheerios all. ;)

imma loving it.

My hair was severely damaged by the digital perm that i did in m'sia! And i needed some help to restore my hair condition again. so guess wad, there was this sales person that sold me Jbeverlyhills hair product and i was pretty skeptical about the product as i NEVER CAME ACROSS before but she was saying it will really help with my hair condition to a soft and sleeky feel.so i just gave it a try, at a moment of desperation to save my hair! so i bought a shampoo, largest bottle of conditioner,serum (all platinum line) and iden hair mask which cost me like 162bucks. i bought it at a fair which is slightly cheaper den the store. soooooooo. i head home and started using the product immediately like a despo that needed to save my hair! And guess wadddddddd. the product is freaking GOOOOODDD imma telling you. my hair is really so much softer now and i think ive fallen for the product already. omg! good recommandation seriously. :) rate 4/5. e 1/5 will be after long use den will see if it will be a 5/5. haha! awesome product. made a right choice and investment. ;) 

life's not all sunshine and rainbows.

Lets just face it, 

The world is cruel,

The world is never kind. 

its a matter of how hard you get up and fight again when you get hit soooo bad and so hard.

Life is hard, real hard, incredibly hard.

Nothing is free and nothing easy

you failed a hundred times more often then you win and nobody is handing you anything. 

Wana more than you have now? Prove it. 

We all wana win, run faster, dream bigger and better than now.

prove it to yourself, do it for yourself. 

Never give in, never give in, never give in and never give up. Never be defeated and surrender.You know what you want, go get it. 

Inch by inch, play by play, til we finished.we're in hell. trust me. 

we can stay or kick out of this, OR we can fight back and climb out of hell. 

One inch at a time, back to light. 

Being perfect,live the best you can and do the best you can.

The world aint all sunshine and rainbows,its a very mean and nasty place that no matter how tough you are,it will beat you til your knees and keep it permanently down if you let it. You'll be a nobody,gona hit as hard as life,but it aint how hard you hit it,its about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward,how much you can take, and keep moving forward!know if you know what you're worth.. then go out and get what you're worth ... and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you wanna be because of him or her or anybody, COWARDS DO THAT.. AND THAT AINT YOU.. YOU ARE BETTER THAN THAT!!"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ujMP41Rphzc&feature=related

All those quotes are taken from youtube videos. Life is indeed hard, lets just stop complaining and whining, need to start taking charge of my life now. i've saw the light, finally.. dream bigger and make your worth,worth it!

work is indeed tough for me, but from now on, i will not let it.

My job

As the days passes, you'll be mould into something that you will be when you spend alot of times onto it, and can you imagine when you do not have something to fall back on, you tend to get influenced and changed, just to fit into the industry. its stupid but that is how things work. Welcome to the coporate world where any single adult will be dreading and talking about how shitty is the corporate world and thinking of being their own boss and not being screwed by other people. I think everyone has the same thinking as everyone else. Who doesnt wanna be their own boss. Now i miss studying life. You can be your own boss and manage your own way of studying and met your goals. But HAHA! im in corporate world now. the dreadful side of being a human. Sigh. that is what every adult will be going through. Every tom, dick harry wants to make big but can they? where is the motivation? SHARKS! i lost mine to be frank. ive been lazing all day long. sharks! i shouldnt be doing that. the most successful person alive is those who are hard working and wise! it all boils down to ATTITUDE. ok. this year's belated resolutions is....... 

MOTIVATE, DISCIPLINE, WORK HARD BY PRESERVER, AND NEVER GIVE UP. 

who cares man, just a rejection, its gona make me fall? FUCK SHIT, that shows that im weak! 

my brain is dead

I think im having brain dead soon. All i want to do is relax and nothing else. That is bad because when i was younger, i am much driven and motivated. But as you start to grown, when you do not get the right mentor or right guidance, you lost your path and you lost your motivations. My brother is totally right, nursing are people who are stupid, only stupid people will work in such industry. The day i chose my path as a nurse, im totally screwed, my brain is totally dead. the people i met are different now. ive changed to someone very laid back. very very! Which i do not like. i do not like nursing. But also, nursing is a very good place to train up my working skills with people. i get to see all sorts of people and how they come up with shit excuses to get away with their work not done. Excuses many, that is something they are good at. i do not want my brain to die so early. im only 21. Whenever i do things fast, they stop and slow me down. Now my pace is so slow but sometimes i do tend to go fast but they slowed me down again. sigh. i want to know my sister's point of view so i can climb the ladder faster. im not being on track with my objective. im not stress anymore. Which is bad. i hate that. im no longer stress and it sucked! it means the motivation drive is gone. im nothing now. sucks ! im lost! oh lord, please help me!

soar

When they push, when they pull
Tell me can you hold on
When they say you should change
Can you lift your head high and stay strong

Will you give up, give in
When your heart's crying out "that is wrong"
Will you love you for you at the end of it all

Now in life there's gonna be times
When you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that the one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

The boy who wonders, is he good enough for them
Keep trying to please them all
But he just never seems to fit in
Then there's the girl who thinks she'll never ever be
Good enough for him
He's trying to change and
That's a game she'll never win

In life there will be times when you're feeling low
And in your mind insecurities seem to take control
We start to look outside ourselves
For acceptance and approval
We keep forgetting that one thing we should know is

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers they will unfold
What are you waiting for
Spread your wings and soar

In the mirror is where she comes
Face to face with her fears
Her reflection looked forward on to her
After all these years
However how she's tried to be
Something besides herself
Now time has passed and she's ended up
Somewhere else with regret

What is it is that makes us feel the need
To keep pretending
Gotta let ourselves be

Don't be scared
To fly alone
Find a path that is your own
Love will open every door

See in your hands the world is yours
Don't hold back and always know
All the answers you will unfold
Don't wait no more
Spread your wings and soar

Find your road
Love will open every door
See in your hands the world is yours
Don't look back in the window, you'll find your way
Always know all the answers will unfold

Oh don't wait
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
You've got to soar
Spread your wings and soar
Don't wait no more
No don't you wait no more
Spread your wings and soar
You've can soar

So what you waiting for
Don't wait, Don't wait
Soar 

work

work is draining me out but i should think it as opportunities and challenges instead of problems.! that is the right mindset that everyone should have! so GAMBATE! so matter how tough the situation can be or how pressurizing and stressful, there will always be light. :) so fight on man!

positive attitude

A Positive Attitude In The Workplace Can Do These 10 Things

A positive attitude in the workplace can help you whether you own your own business, work as an employee, or manage others within a business environment. You’ll enjoy your work more and achieve your workplace or business related goals more easily and faster.

Here’s a picture of a work environment I’ve experienced. I’m sure many of you can relate to this in some way or another.

• Meetings in which most of the discussion is on what is going wrong rather than about ideas on how to solve the problem.
  
• Groups of people complain about the way the company is being run and how the company is “screwing them over.”
  
• Upper management seems to care only about how they are measured (usually by short-term profits) rather than about the long-term success of the company.
  
• General conversations occur around the workplace almost daily in which people complain to each other about how this, that, or the entire company is doomed to fail. Or about how much they “hate working here.”
  
• Employees backstab each other in attempts to “get ahead” in the company.
  
• People leave their workplace at the end of the day feeling drained and lifeless from all the negative energy.
  
• Customers receive poor service due to the negativity of the company representatives. These customers do not become repeat customers or refer new customers.

If you’ve ever worked in an environment like this, you know how easy it is to get sucked into the negativity. I even had days when I went into work feeling upbeat and positive but was quickly sucked down by the negative attitudes surrounding me. Attitudes are contagious!

A positive attitude in the workplace can make a big difference...

10 Things That a Positive Attitude In The Workplace Can Do.

1. Career success: Who is more likely to get promoted? Those who think positively and get results, or those who constantly complain and say something isn’t their job?
   
2. Stress reduction: You feel stressed when you see events or situations as stressful. Change your perception to something more positive and the stressful feelings will go away. Instead of problems, see issues as challenges, for example, from which you and your company can ultimately benefit. Try asking yourself how you can make something easier or more enjoyable. It's amazing what you come up with when you start asking yourself these types of questions.


3. Less sick days and better productivity: This is a side benefit of stress reduction.  Stress can have a serious negative impact on your health.  If you can reduce your stress, or the stress of everyone in your organization you'll enjoy better health, less sick days, and better productivity.


4. Improve customer relations and improve sales: Customers would rather deal with someone positive. Research has also shown that sales professionals who think positively and believe in the benefits of their product have much better sales performance.
   
5. Become a better leader: If you own a company or if you manage people, those who report to you usually get more from watching you than they do listening to what you’re saying. Be a good example of having a positive attitude in the workplace. Set goals and ask for people’s support in achieving them. Take a positive attitude approach to achieving those goals and to overcoming challenges. Your attitude and enthusiasm will spread throughout your workplace. A positive attitude is just as infectious as a negative one. Be careful about which one you’re fostering.
   
6. Improve the attitude of other employees or those who report to you: As I said, positive attitudes are infectious. Even if you’re an employee you can help create a positive attitude in the workplace by being the change you want to see. Refuse to participate in negative conversations. When you’re in a meeting or when you encounter a challenge, instead of dwelling on who’s fault it is or on the challenge itself, steer the conversation to focus on how the issue can be overcome. You might seem a bit odd to others at first, but your attitude will begin to affect change. Keep at it and keep focused on your goal of affecting change. Soon people will be drawn to you because they can’t help but like being in the company of somebody positive. And soon the attitude will spread throughout the workplace. Or at the very least, those who insist on staying negative won’t bother you anymore because they know you won’t entertain their negativity.
   
7. Improve teamwork: Teams are much more effective when the members are united in overcoming challenges and figuring out how they can achieve their objectives rather than dwelling on all the problems and obstacles that stand in their way.
   
8. Improve motivation for yourself and others: If you have a positive attitude about achieving goals and success in general, you will be much more motivated to take action. If you look at what you would like to accomplish and you see only the obstacles, your motivation diminishes pretty quickly. Ask yourself what might spur you to action.
   
9. Improve decision-making and overcome challenges: See challenges as opportunities to grow and become better. When you’re making a business decision, you can use this same approach and your options will really open up.
   
10. Improve Interpersonal Relations: People like positive people. They’re automatically drawn to a pleasant and upbeat demeanor. Your business and personal relationships will definitely improve when you employ a positive attitude. There are also techniques you can use to help improve other people's reaction and attitude toward you. (check out: 11 Can't Fail Tips for Improving Your Interpersonal Relations Skills for more information)

The working stage of llife

We all go through different stages of our lives. And apparently, mine is the adult working stage of life. Its definitely not easy coping with it at first but im sure i can get the hang of it soon,its just a matter of time isnt it? When we were younger, we play, we have fun, we feel carefree and we do not have to fret about much things for our parents can take care of things for us isnt it? Sometimes when you cant make choices and you do not know your directions in life, parents gona come into the picture and direct you to your path.. 

And whats my directed path? 

Nursing..

( a very stressful job for a person like me, disorganised,straight-forward,sensitive person) imma a ENTF/ENTJ

i had a horrendous beginning til i met friends,teaching nurses along the way to alighten my thoughts. it is definitely very helpful. This job is going to be very challenging for me. But since im in it, i have to take it. What i really worry about is that will i stay on after 2 years? Based on myself, im sure i'll stay when i get the hang of it. But i want to move off from nursing. Nursing indeed do teach me alot,patience especially. 

And being about to do things at the right time,right place and right person. There is so much to learn in nursing. SO MUCH! And one thing for sure that ive learnt is this "AS NURSES, WE MUST ASK!" i think its the nurses duty to open mouth and ASK! becuz we are dealing with patient's life and definitely do not want to risk patient's life. 

After the 3 months probation, we RNs will face bigger,greater challenges ahead of us, which is responsibilities of our patient's life. i feel that i will grow stronger each day! it teaches me to be firm as well,which is something that i lack. im too soft and people do take advantage of me. 

And one thing for sure, nursing do make me stupid. even more! i must tell myself that i am going to switch job to something else,office job maybe? But im beginning to like shift jobs tho. the best part of shift work is you do not have to fight with other working adults for food,shopping? movies? hah. 

I jus want to earn more and lead a well-to do life. Gee! im only 21 and im talking like a old adult. gee! 

May all nurses be happy and work smart too! 

dreams

Nowadays it’s difficult to look at life positively.

I stopped watching the news a long time ago, because it’s simply to depressing. Recession, disasters, war on terror, plain stupid decisions the politicians make. Plenty of things that can either make you cry or piss you off. Add to that your personal life – bills, work, relatives, relationship issues, etc. – and it’s almost enough to have yourself admitted to a mental institute.

What is that one thing you always wanted to achieve? Successful career? A published book? To take your family on a trip to Disney World Japan? Or maybe you’re dreaming of buying a yellow Lamborghini one day?

Whatever it is, it’s good. Even if you’ll never make it. You did good.

I dream. I dream of happiness. I dream of one day one person walks up to me and thanks me because I changed his life. Only one.

That’s why I blog. To pursue that dream.

A dream isn’t necessary an illusion. Sometimes they come true. Sometimes they don’t. But they always stimulate you t keep going. They occupy your mind when times are hard.

Dreams are thoughts that you can always fall back on. So you won’t feel empty. You won’t feel useless. You’ll feel better. Good enough to deal with whatever you’re dealing with. Even the most difficult of times.

You might not achieve that one dream. But you’ll achieve many others.

Chase it for all that it’s worth. Because then, and only then, you can be sure that when you’re old and grey you’ll be able to look back on life and have no regrets.

stressed

The older i get, the more liabilities ive to pay. there isnt much difference btw getting more pay or less. i think i shouldnt say that. in actual fact, i am spending more and hardly able to save much at all. Having tension headaches thinking of all these. im not in control of my own life. i need to earn more $. My shift work is killing me but i shldnt let that hinder me. Im giving excuses and blaming about everything else but the only person that can change the situation is ME! me,myself and i! Why shld i blame others and hving excuses for such sucky situations that i am in? its not gona change anything about my life. i need to strive and motivate myself! i need to tell myself that its a challenge for me to get thru this stronger. wow. writing really helps me to clear up my thoughts, without writing, i got a hard and blurry fragments of thoughts. dismotivated, unhappy,stress and pressured. thats what im feeling right now. im not exactly lost. i mean i always thought i am when im not writing to clear up my thoughts. But in fact, i need the cash to do investments. i need to save up the $! there's so many things to think about,that explains why he always say im stressed cuz i grind my teeth very loud at night everyday. Am i gona end up in my sister's plight? stress,unhappy,pressured and dismotivated as well? i think im alr behide her running in her journey. i need to talk to her to understand how she feels exactly but we hardly able to communicate like older sister guiding her younger one. she doesnt have the time to guide me and tell me whats wrong. For him, he's always saying me, he doesnt bother to do smth sweet and simple to make me smile. he gets pissed when im pissed. ive got my own pressure and problems but he doesnt understand and he get pissed for i blowin up at times which makes me even more stressed and pressured. shouldnt have celebrated my 21st as its the year where you're gona face alot of responsibilities. tough challenge god has given me but just gotta pull thru this and fight!  Thinking of a bigger picture scares me. lets just take things one step at a time.

so good to feel this way again!

i never felt sooooooooo great after so long! Dance made me alive! or i should say body kinetics and sweating makes me alive! After soooo long! im glad that i made that impulsive move on learning O school street jazz! Now im taking Street Jazz II and its amazing! Eve is an AMAZING AND FABULOSOOOO TEACHER! :) After starting work, my life was mandane and i felt so dead! lucky ive gt my dance and music to make me alive again. :) When im sad, i listen t music, wen im dead bored, i listen to music, when i hyper happy,i dun listen to music. When im tired, i listen to music. okay. wateva laaaaa. :)))) 

it feels great that u're working out your body! 

I love sweating like a pig! FEELS GREAT! :D

im planning to go O school open class after my street jazz II. :) EGGCITED! i duno why when it comes to nursing job,im like a dead fish. But when it comes to dance or running or netball or anything that requires sweating,im HYPPPERR LIKE NOBODY BUSINESS! 

Dance Dance Dance,swim swim swim,run run run! Its the only time that i can get away from all the nags,responsibilities,stress,problems,headaches! 

And i think my body is annoying me! i need a personal trainer! i wanna be like slimmer and lighter but yet, when i exercise and eat less! my weight gone up and people says cuz i gain muscle mass which in face muscle mass is heavier den fats, so okay,fine. i stop exercising and i gain more fats but which in fact,my weight is lesser however i look fabby! it totally suck! Its really annoying me! REALLY! But wateva! im still gona stick to exercising and eating healthily, after all its ur health tat is more impt isnt it? 

Aight fellows,im done for now. 

:)

ADIOS AMIGO

soft-hearted

One thing for sure, i get bullied, i get taken advantaged of is because im too soft. im too soft to people who are dear to me. im too soft to people who are close to me. i tolerate and swallow all the nonsense, i dun complain much. so its becuz of those, people think im stupid and gullible. Maybe? Maybe not? im trying to learn to be strong, which i was.. but im weak now. i have to learn to be strong again. May the lord give me strength and power to do what i need to do. Amen!
Me being soft hearted is stupid and coward of me. where is the hard-hearted side of me? its missing somewhere in me. 

Bonjour!

HI! :) Been window shopping these days. ;)

i dun get some people. I know when things cant get you down, it only makes you stronger and im getting stronger.that is call growing. You teach but people dun listen, its fine when it happens once or twice and sometimes its okay if it happens many times when ur loved one is not listening. But it frustrates me to see that im treated as a buzzing bee! just BUZZZZZ and off it goes! it just doesnt get into the person's head! why is it so hard for them to just get the FREAKING info in their heads? oh! cuz im too soft for them to take in what i said? If that is so, fine! i'll change instantly. Im gona take a different approach, just watch me how! Im a person who says that im gona do it, i keep it! Im a woman of my words! When im angry,means im angry! When im sure of my feelings, i stick by it. Dun play with me and test my patience and tolerance! everyone has their limits and everyone has their way of releasing their frustrations but just dun test mine. i duno how freaking nasty i'll end up doing.. 

And oh, guess wad.. You can take the soft but u cannot handle the hard, why is that so? becuz it hurt ur ego! And it makes you feeling low and lousy and u needed to run away and find solutions to solve the issues and you couldnt let down your little pride to clear the air. I let down mine to explain things to you and you chose not to. yet i hope. Wadeva it is, stop giving urself excuses! you're just full of excuses the day i met you! JUST STOP! AND JUST DO IT! successful people dun find excuses, they work on it and den do it!

moments of creativity :)

MFW 2011

 special thanks to my cousin brother for helpin us to get the tix t MFW 2011. XOXO :)

there's still alot of pictures but its missing! nah. its somewhere,have to find. 

i have decided,i'll just focus and work hard in this two years of nursing first then decide where i want to go or where its gona take me. No point thinking so much. Just have to absorb as much learning experience and knowledge from this two years of nursing. tmr is the foundation program so hope i can continue the focus! Dun want to think so much either. Not gona do me any good. 

Last nite in taiwan

Tmr heading back to Sg. So happy. :) anw today we went to danshui and wufenpu.wahh.danshui got quite alot of food to eat.Taiwan indeed has alot of food to eat but not ximenting. the things not only expensive,the designs are very little as well. wufenpu fashion area has SO MUCH MORE.its like bugis street but bigger and the clothes are just slightly cheaper. Bought quite afew clothes. Need to do something about it. spent quite alot here come to think of it. Have to do someting with the clothes man!

Tmr gona go for the flora exibition that my mom is dying to go which i knowwww.All her flowers! haha! everytime she sees flowers,its "mei,take pic of me with the flower,mei,very nice go take la..go go!" everytime! While my dad is "gt church,im going,haiya.u all so long,i go off first" and he left for church.haha! other den that he completely has no interest at allllllll.

so yea. "im coming home" :)

Day 6 at taiwan

Ximenting! thats wer people says its the same to eat and shop! i was so excited when people says that there's shopping and food! Well i totally agree that there are alot of food and their MEE SUA is the best! Plus their bubble milk tea! today i drank like 3cups! they use the high quality milk and its damn yummy! i think its the milk that make it tastes nice! hehe! And after drinking so many bubble tea, i was seeking for fruit juice and there were none t be found only after walking few streets away from simenting. We din exactly walk jus t buy the fruit juice la,we chance upon it wen we were on our way to taipei train station.the "jiam bu" fruit is damn sweet and nice! DElICIOUS! and the fruits here are exceptionally sweet! And i bought a few masks back! hehe! not cheap tho but heard its good and tried it myself so bought more,anw i wouldnt be coming back here again isnt it. haha! Taiwan indeed has ALOT of food stalls to eat and Sg is like only a small part as compared t taiwan.haha! Today i had this stonecove bun filled with mince meat and lots and lots of chopped spring onions! its DAMN NICE! like haeven! thats the only food that made a significant impression of all the other food that ive tasted. That bao" is damn nice! even my mom is amazed and she wana learn to make it by oven e bao.lol! so yea,we walked for about 20mins t head t taipei train station cuz some of the people says that there are some nice clothes to shop so we walked! But disappointed again,nth much and the price of th clothes is just the same as ximenting. so disappointed.its like there is someone controlling their market rate man. so we walked and walked and my mom very tired,she wanted to use the elevator but ther's no elevator,super not elderly friendly and not bladder friendly. so hard to find toilet.

anyway wads disappointing is the clothes here. there are alot aftering the korean clothes. Its so korean style and alot of the designs are from korea. I think korea still the best t shop for high quality clothes. the price is also right for such high quality clothes.Taiwan's clothes is expensive and not nice! the price is comparable with Sg and the clothes prolly i can get it from Sg,nt significant for me to buy back except for some tank top but e tank top is not cheap either.shouldnt suprised me cuz the last time i came to tw,its just as expensive as well.

But the shoes are nice tho. its a little cheaper den sg.

As compared to sg,sg still way way better. lucky im not thrown here for any reasons other den holiday cuz im gona cry here. T.T Im really very very fortunated to be living in Sg. Too used to Sg's environment already.

And the taiwan's shop workers are damn rude too. The females especially,guys are always warmer and not so bitchy! Damn! there was today? i went to this shop and we're shopping for shoes? they lady got so frustrated and tell my mom not t listen to anyone's advises except her own and i was so pissed! FUCKING PISSED and i told the stupid worker off that im her daughter! not some "anyone" wth is she t speak like that,and she can show that frustrated face. hello woman,go learn some service talk to improve on your servicing if u dun like to serve den go home and sleep! so pissed! i was about t leave the shop after i finish telling her off and ask my mom t go and dun buy all the shoes! But lucky the guy was calmer and calm everything down and the lady covered herself up. Like seriously,if those in service line do not like doing servicing,just quit the damn job and go hm sleep! so rude! whose the boss? its the buyers! the consumers!so violated! "dun listen to anybody la,jus buy what u want la,why u must listen to what others say!" Screw ur servicing skills! so pushy. guys are still better,more tactful in handling situations.okay.enuff of comparison and complaining. aint making my nite cuz im sleepin soon. tmr milk tea again. :D

Nites nites! :)

Day 4 of Taiwan

tmr gona be Day 5 and left a few more days to SG! YEA! whats best other den your own homeland? isnt it? I wouldnt wana adapt to a place like Taiwan but i certainly dun mind learning their style. :) neway, everytime we head back to the hotel, im always looking forward for asking lan wire or wifi :) so i can start blogging. i think i should refine my writing more. Been blogging since like secondary 1? and that is like 8years of blogging. Blogging is like a part of my life now you know, its where you can express all your real thoughts and feelings into somewhere people do not stop you from it and its the only place it can help me lighten my load of emotions when im sad or heighten my emotions of happiness but usually its sadness where the blog found me again and again,cause by writing,i am thinking thru all the qns that hit me. okay! side-tracked. haha. Back to business.

So today we were at Kaohsiong st,went to see the confucius temple and some deity temple and went to dream mall to window-shop branded goods,taiwan's not the place to buy branded.haha. And oh, i heard Taiwan mask is good so a lady recommanded me to get "wo de mei li de ri ji" mask,cosmad sells it and that brand has about 10 different kinds of mask,ders white pearl powder mask,black pearl powder mask,aloe,cholate,sake yeast etc. there were so any to choose from and my mom was annoying! she was rushing me when there is like 15more mins to leave and i told her to give me 5mins to consider what i want cuz i dunwana buy the wrong one and then im gona regret and wasted the $,its $ we're talking about and she can still tell me money hard to earn yet she kept rushing me when there is enuff time! so angry,she's gona pay for that,not me. If that's my money, i would consider even longer. Its not all about "aiya,buy and go,buy and go.." the amount of $ im gona earn is not about "buy and go" its about making stupid decisions and i dun wana regret buying something that im pressurised about. I need to learn to stay firm. Staying firm is something that i still am learning. Im weak and i know. im soft and i know, i get eaten sometimes and i know. But im learning to be strong.. so long i have a brain and am a fully-abled body, there is nothing i cannot do. If a blind can play beautiful music,isnt it a shame that a fully-abled body with eyes cant do what a blind can? to succeed? Now i really dun care whether people calls me stubborn all the time or wadeva,really. i try to listen to the right person,i cant possibly listen to every tom,dick,harry,balls,cats and dogs rite? If u're smart and you are up there, i definitely respect you and listen to every single word you say,i wouldnt even question. Ok,side-tracked again.haha

So yea, mom and i was pissed but i think again,if im pissed,i'll lose out so i decided to stop being pissed and went back to get what i wanted,i was there for a few mins and finally gotten what i want. :) and of cuz,we're not late. so yea, we bus again and alighted at kaohsiong's night market, so many food stall but all tasted like crappp. Sg is way better. the food really suck t max! SG STILL TH BEST! :) hehe. Wasted my stomach space for awful food,mygawd. I had to exercise when im back to the hotel. T.T gona go excess running without food man. i can feel the food gone down to my legs,mygawd. so yea.

 bonsur madame et monsiour. Shall blog tmr.

:)

Day 3 of taiwan

It seems like this holiday is a long one. And i should learn to enjoy myself despite who the people are in the same tour group as me. Guess wad,today mom bought the taiwan authetic Lingzhi and there is the raw pure royal jelly which apparently, its spoilt! !@$#@%@ and the free moisturiser they give expires in May 2011 which is next year! damn,im pissed! How can they do business like that,cheating on consumer's trust and money. What i learn from this is that i should stay resilient and strong-headed from all the pressure given be it by my parents or whoever and always check on all the products i buy be it whether they take the iniative to check it or not but i think i should take the iniative to check it before i leave the place. Tell me about it, its not that the consumers doesnt want to trust those that sell the product but its becuz of other black shits ruin the trust.its terrible seriously.tmr morning the tour guide has to face me and give me a solid explanation of wth the royal jelly smells like rotten cheese and the moisturiser gona expires the next month! im so gona get it changed by hook or by crook.

Today did hot spring of 41.6 degree celcius. we're cooking ourselves. haha. so yea. im only looking forward for the last day! THE SHOPPING DAY! who doesnt look forward to it really. :)

I WANA CHANGE MY ROYAL JELLY! IM PISSEDDDDDD! does pure royal jelly supposed to smell like rotten cheese

Taiwan day 2

Now we're in Taipei lounging in a 4 bedded spacious hotel room. i think its 3 star too if im not wrong. Tmr gona like go for Hot spring. The guy says those who have HTN,DM,wound healing,pregnant cant go down for hot spring cuz of the after soak reasons. Too bad for mom.she can only shower. And mom is killing my dad! She kept feeding him with fatty food! ive to chopstick away for my dad,lucky my dad knows his limits. Being on this holiday tour with my parents is a killer. i really wana head back to SG nowwwwww. And all we did today was EAT,SIGHTSEEING for like a few minutes and back on board on the bus,sleep.eat again,get down for a few mins back on board,sleep. and its gona be the same for the next one week! T.T cry. How can i not grow fatttttt. Both of them are giving me headaches! huge one. and all the time. especially my dad. Have to keep a constant lookout for him and his stuffs and he can be REALLY ANNOYING and its really really annoying! i asked him to like get the wifi lan line from downstairs cuz im all bathed and pimples squeezeed with pimple whte cream on my face and full of redness.he can still say :huh,later la,let me watch finish his show" by the time he finish watching,my laptop batt is down and i wont be here blogging alr and i wont be doing my errands online.Sometimes im jus pure lazy to explain myself.ok? stop bugging and complaining about me you stupid people! And mum asked him to bring like a coat over cuz its gona be chilling and he forgt and certain things my mom tell him to do,he just says NVM LA,whose the one being the stubborn stub now.sigh.Wad to do,just tolerate lor.cant do anything wad,jus keep quiet and be blame for being stubborn and everything negetive cuz i tolerate negetive stuffs and dun really complain. Do i have to always be the first to complain so pple will know that its nt my fault?Im not like my dad and i do not have my dad's brain and neither would i want to have his brains.im just normal,certain things i dun do cuz im lazy okay? just pure lazy..so sick of pple having to say me. i should just say:ahh. u do la. im lazy." done deal..so yeaaaa, mummy aint that bad,she can still take care of herself. 

I MISS MY HOME! :( the food in sg is so much nicer den here and the road traffic is like crap here.
so toodles. i miss everything in sg. i wana gooooo home! FAST!

Goodbye SG, hello Taiwan.

Taiwan have such cooling weather of 18degrees celcius and its the right temperature for heading around in taiwan . mummy says its spring going summer soon. so that explains the cooling shiok weather. ;) so yea. we depart Sg at 1545 hours and arrived at 2050hours. the flight journey in the tiger airways plane was alittle torturous but its still tolerable. What to expect from a budget airline isnt it. its the price you pay for what you want. cheap things, dun expect good. But hey, come to think of it, budget terminal is getting more and more well established though, despite the fact that the government did not pump in large amount of $ for the outlook and structures of the BUDGET TERMINAL. Now there are more eateries and shops compared to the last time i been there, which was like last year? :)

so mummy says that we will be travelling to different hotels EVERYDAY. that is a huge headache for me, a person who likes to procrastinate,  my gawd! its gona be a tiring holiday moving to different hotels EVERYDAY. Can you imagine first stop, u only have one bag,and den you move on to the next with more bags and move on to the next with more and more bags and at the end of the destination.. well,yea. the amount of load you have to bring it along. i need a stong fit man like my brother to be around so he can relentlessly carry the heavy loads by fully utilizing his humongous muscles. hehe.

So we arrive to our 3 star hotel and guess wad, there's a mini hot spring tub in our room! WEEE! gona bath and then soak myself in the tub,mum says its sulphur water.hahaha. cute isnt she.

ohkay. mummy wants me to do things now.

so au' voir mandame and monsieour. Thats day 1 for my trip. tmr is speed training day for just 20mins heading to different hotel. T.T save me!

You are just so ugly as a person

I had enough of your nonsense, you definitely have Anger management problem and EQ deficiency. I make sure this will be the last time you're doing this shit! You're under my blacklist and i will NEVER FORGIVE YOU! Leopard will NV change its spots. You simply have high EGO and think that you're so great in criticizing and putting down people to make yourself go higher, go ahead. No wonder you always have issues with people in your work. People talks behide your back and you just dun even know. You just lie your way through and make it seems like it has nothing to do with you. No wonder people side you cuz they dun even noe what sorts of person you are. Well guess wad, you badmouth every single one of the closest people behide their back and they dun even noe it. And you always have the cheek to ask for things. Well, that includes family and cousins as well even after badmouthing each and everyone of them. If i were to tell what you badmouth about lx and xg, sees whats gona happen next.maybe they will let it go, maybe not. who knows. oh. prolly ur just gona save your own ass and go oh, no la. merina is just making up stories to get back on me. we're just fighting. Screw you. Me and you now are hostility. People who really side you are people who are stupid. You're just getting uglier and uglier as a person! u can go oh, we're just having siblings fight, dun bother about us. the true fact is that no one knows what sort of person you are. thinking you're oh so great. people will go, oh. shes just being lost in life,oh. pity her,oh. let her be. Wait til those people have a TRUE TASTE of her and they will know. Come on people, mix with her more and be with her more. shes nice and sweet and friendly and fun-for temporary only. 

Oh, and maybe she might read this, maybe not. prolly she's just gona comment and save her own ass criticizing about me. go ahead and comment if you're reading. Such ugly personality you have, only that damien can tolerate your stupid nonsense! 

This fight is never ending. that explains jason ong's r/s with you. maybe he's not the person that has issue with you but you having issues with him.oh,i almost forgot, you're never wrong.you're always right,by lying thru your scheming mouth. Right. 

And oh, i haven forgotten why she din wana give my cousin xg anything for his bday,right. cuz he din help her at all and decided not to give him anything. mine oh mine. den of cuz. why would she be giving? she's always receiving or having people to do things for her else she'll badmouth the person behide and giving the person prolly a hard time. hmm. 

i hope she meets someone more worse than her and deal with her. she haven meet and seen the worse yet. screw you really ugly person.

MFW 2nd

Apparently some says im spontaneous and i am. but being spontaneous is good and bad for the fun of it. However i do not want to be a nurse for the rest of my life! People who are rich are people who does Business and i wana learn to do business too! 

i guess i am naive at times but being naive is good. Hv u heard "ignorant is bliss" hah

but alot of things do happen that we do not know of. 

Today is the day that i learn alot of things. looking at how people behave and dress and stuff. 

Never regret going for MFW tho. 

But sometimes things can go alittle off and its irritating! 

i guess im really the type that being eaten all the time. But its okay. Cuz i know that everytime i do, i'll be eating others in future. 

Have you seen those kids in secondary school used to be like perfect and smart straight As student and when they grow other, they wanted to be another and they turn out being people who smokes, being fat and drinks and go against authority? People do change. And have you seen kids who are ugly turned out pretty or pretty turn out ugly? 

I'll always rmb this saying" thought you have gotten the champion status,doesnt mean you slack. Still have to uphold the title and work doubly hard" that is really inspiring to know. i'll always rmb that. 

Its okay that im giving now cuz i know that i will not be giving in the future and i'll be receiving. 

If you're nasty to me, i'll be nasty back to you. Just as simple. 

I'm nice to everyone,so long you fuck me, i'll just fuck you back depending what your status is. 

There's still alot to learn in life. And especially got to learn how to be more thick-skin to ask for what i want. 

So yea, Jiayou in life merina! i hope for the best for my future and earn millions of dollars and be rich taitai. 

However, being rich and being the top only makes the person more lonely. 

Why all the riches guys are gays? Oh, maybe the people they meet are guys so prolly they just needed some love care and attention i supposed. Still, you cant have best of both worlds isnt it. 

I WANT TO BE RICH and have my MERINA's HORSE STABLE or MERINA'S CORPERATION

yes. i am definitely dreaming. ohwell. haven you heard? dreams do come true. law of attraction! :)

JIAYOU! GAMBATTE!

MFW 2011

It was an awesome night tonight. 

Well done to the organiser for organising such great event that gone well tonight. *thumbs up!

Thought all of us arrived early for the event, the torture only started at night where the heels were starting to be a killer to me. The most important show at 11pm din managed to get in. But ohwell. my feets were arching like mad. I missed the big big chance and highlight of the event!neway, 5inchs heels that i walked almost half the day? Goodie to me! 

I need to learn to be more thick-skinned abit. Thin-skinned cldnt get me anywhere. Aunty is right, i think i shld learn to be more thick-skinned to the right moment and right person. Im still learning who to be thick-skinned to or thin-skinned to. How to behave appropriately in all sorts of different occasions. im still trying to grasp it at my finger tip. 

Thought i may be quiet at times but the moments of silence does not mean nth, it always mean something and its usually something that i make sure i will get back on, its just a matter of time. 

The moments of silence is the time where i tear you apart silently. 

Im nice to everyone but that doesnt mean everyone can poo on my head. 

criticizing someone to make yourself look better is just a laughing stock to me. I laugh silently.

Whats life? live around and you will get used to it. Thats life. 

Looking forward for the next show tmr! 

:) doodles.

Friday's the big day! or rather! TMR'S THE BIG DAY!

Im so eggggcited for tmr! 

As we all know, mens fashion week 2011 is held in Singapore for the very first time! it is the Third fashion show after the ones at Paris and Milan. :)

And all of us are attending the MFW tmr! im so excited! For once we can take pretty pictures tomorrow and with all my cousin's friends and my friends together. :)

gorgeous for once in our life time, or rather mine? Since my prom nite suck? cuz of the horrendous make up done by my friend's makeup artist? prolly she got the one that is meant for the dead corps instead of the live one. Like seriously? i shall not further elaborate on that horrendous memories in my mind. Just use our intelligence to figure out what i meant. 

So yea. Been really busy looking for nice dresses and heels to blow people's mind away or rather for nice memories to keep for life. 

Tmr gona be a long day for me. Im missing my street jazz 1 at 5 tmr and it sucked big time. and next week gona be at Taiwan. Which im gona miss another class big time! And that is like 40$ fly away O school! :(

Tmr have to call them up, but ive to go down to HR to get my transcript, den head down to SNB den head back to HR for the photocopy. they really think we're really that free and really think that SG is that small to travel to and fro. They think that we're travelling from orchard t somerset? Joke! 

so yea, prolly heading down to kissjane's launch at 11-12 at bugis junction? come to think of it, my friends haven reply me yet! Den after that rushing off to home to get changed,bath,make up and stuff and oh! i supposed forgt! change my pedro's heel! Gona have to be a bitch to get it changed. so sorry pedro. Please from label me as a bad customer. I shall apologize first. :) 

So yea. the hectic long day will start at 9am onwards and go all the way to 8pm plus? 

And so sorry that i haven been talking to you, u must be thinkin that im neglecting you. 

If you really read everyday as you claim, u will see this. :) if u dun, den too bad den. 

So Lets enjoy tmr people! cameras charged, tissue paper,oil blotter? lipgloss and some makeup to touch up. 

And how am i to go home from there? Gee!

what bodytype are you?

Generally when people talk about skinny people they are thinking about people with anectomorphic body type. These people have little fat, little muscle and a delicate bone structure. Ectomorphs are either naturally skinny or it is straightforward for them to get skinny, e.g. Taylor Swift and Eva Mendes respectively. However, there are two other body types. Mesomorphs naturally build muscle and can gain fat quickly, but also lose fat relatively easy. Examples include Anna Kournikova, Janet Jackson and Jessica Biel.Endomorphic people have a body type that means they struggle to control the body fat percentage and have to work really hard at losing weight. Beyonce and Scarlett Johansson are endomorphs. Each of these three body types gains and loses weight with varying levels of ease.

When planning to get skinny remember:

• The ease or difficulty with which it takes to get skinny will depend on your body type.

• What getting skinny means to you should depend on your body type. If you have an endomorphic body your skinny goal should not be Kate Moss, Eva Mendes or Taylor Swift (ectomorphs), but someone with an endomorphic body build.

• Being realistic means that you will achieve your goals and drop the fat, get rid of the wobbly bits and have a firm, lean body like Scarlett Johansson, Beyonce or Jennifer Lopez. The same goes for the other body types. Are you a mesomorph? Jessica Biel, Jennifer Garner and Jennifer Aniston are great examples. Determine your body type and find out who your skinny rolemodel is. You CAN get skinny; just remember that it should mean different things to different people.

• Healthiness trumps skinniness. Therefore, your first and overriding goal should be to maintain or improve health. Your goal to get skinny should come second. Ensure that all your plans are consistent with this principle.

  I think im a mesomorph body type. :) imma jessica biel. haha.

It was a fun night, all for fun and laughter. He's jus another temporary topic t talk about.

chillax.

Need to focus on my umpiring and training my stamina and getting a new pair of shoes and earning more and aim to be slimmer. exercise more and eat less. ive got my nyaa to get it settled. And street jazz on 18th march. 

:)

xoxo.

Dismiss the previous post.

I think imma gona have a long swim and think about things. 

Happy Valentine's Day t all! Mwah

:)

Happy Cheena New Year 2011!

Festive seasons is the time where family members get together. Well, this chinese new year is indeed a good time for get togethers.

all of us learn alot from each other's life and at some point of time, i felt inadequate and lousy. 

After moving on to Nursing, i felt like my brain has stopped functioning. it totally died off, seeing my sister is like seeing the future me. Its time to change my destiny. In secondary school, i felt that i dun bother about what others have to say about me,yes i am stubborn. But as i grew, people says u're supposed to be a better person when you grow older and its usually when u're ugly when u're young, u tend to be pretty when u grow older. i guess im turning out to be submissive and less aggressive as before,more feminine i guess? But im so submissive that i rather let others take the limelight and i'll be in the background,trying to be what i am supposed to be,a lady. But den again, i still have to be on guards. i guess people thinks that i am such a nice person that ive taken for being stupid? im too selfless now,like mother theresa. tsk. 

Learn to be like the tree again Merina. Who cares what others think of you. May this year be a brain-boosting and excelling,successful year for me. 

Im so versatile to the extend that i dun even noe who i am. 

"shopping"

How does the clothes fit on me?

I simply love "shopping" I told a friend that if every clothes that fit me nicely den i have to buy them else i'll regret, that means that its gona cost me a bomb! so the only idea it hit me was doing "shopping" at least i get to fancy nice outfits. heihei. 

How nice if i can be a fashion model. LOL. in my dreams perhaps. 

xoxo. 

Wait, i dun get why are people always looking at me when im in the train! of all people, they will be glaring at me all the time! including male and females, i really dunno what are they looking at! really! its not that im some supermodel or celebrity! It really makes me wonder! 

xoxo

Love me and i'll love you. 

;)

Rock the world

Blood-related. 

:)

Think rich and i will be rich. 

Think smart and i will be smart. 

Think the best and i will be the best. 

haha. 

Goodnite. 

:0

Ladies night.

im bored.

And ive to accomplish something at least for this 2011. So at least i will have something to rmb about. 

haven really been focusing much about what i want. Been too nice and dazing for too long already.

But one thing for sure, i cant help it for being fun and laughing. Pple says im childish but i would like to say its a joy of life. So long you know when to be serious and when not to. How do i look up there? fat? haha. messy hair? well, thts my trademark. messy hair and thick eyebrows. Tsk! 

i so wana do sports competitively again but i dun have the time to commit due to my sucky work schedule. :( 

I cant stand lazy pple during work. 

Lets just work hard everybody. 

Keep healthy and be in shape. ;)

People says, using brain is always better than using legs. 

But if u dun use your legs first, how do you use your brain? 

we all have to learn to crawl,given informations and given all sorts of information, den we can form our own brain to work things out. People are stupid maybe because they are not exposed to informations since young. I can frankly say that i am stupid. 

God, give me strength to work very hard and be smarter. My working life is so mundane. 

I need smarter people to influence me greater.

If u're GOD DAMN SMART, i want to be your friend. 

Not just study smart. Its brilliant smart.