After hitting the legal age of 21,an official age which you can make your own decision like an adult, life after that was rather rough, especially when you step into the coperate world, i feel that i am a rather different person now. i feel that i am being more sensible,mature and knowing when and what to do things at the right time and situation. reflecting back on my previous self, i was always doing things at the wrong time and situation. my priorities was always not right and i guess my dad was really pissed off by me. he scolds me all the time. i feel that i was pretty playful den and i din really help out much in the family, all i was thinking was to improve on my daily self and reflect on each day,apparently i neglected the most important thing, FAMILY. i think i have grown more sensible after my sis and my bro is not around, the responsibility of taking care of the house and my parents has weigh on my shoulders now so i had to do what i have to. my parents aint getting any younger either, having them complaining about their condition pains me all the time. it left me reminded that i have to take really good care of them so at least when they are not around anymore, i will let them leave with no regrets in my heart. :) that pushes me to take care of them even more and try my best to not anger them and relief their worries for me. ( supposingly the most insensible one) tsk!
okok, kinda side track. so mentioning about the corporate world, those previous posts were saying how dreadful work can be, i realised it really boils down to how you look at things and how you wanna handle and take it. those months has really made me figure out what sort of person i am and what my learning curve is like. there were so many things to learn den and everyone expects you to learn fast and when you dun, they get really pissed. sometimes it made me figure out what made them react differently from me to others and why others can learn faster den me and stuff? i den realised that i was pretty task-oriented and i forget that people has feelings too. when i was task-oriented, i forgt to be people oriented as well. its true that my jobscope has to be really people-oriented, it taught me the power of it. people will really close an eye and help tho. i guess i was too harsh at the start cuz the top were giving me alot of stress,i should have used people skills den task skills instead.Also, it taught me that i must humble myself down too.i wasnt humble and that giving those people a whole load of stress. tsk! felt bad! there were no communications done much as well. it was after everything was done den i started voicing out, things were pretty kinda late den. ohwell. And its great that things are getting better now, its smoother like out of the blue. prolly i decided to look at things in a different light and treating people like people again. tsk. i am feeling really really nasty inside. :( sorry man people that i was kinda an ass. haha. "people are creatures of emotions and i should respect that" Dun ever underestimate the power of emotions! thats how beggers and sales people manipulate the emotions of human being unknowingly..
Nursing is really a great job, the sense of satifaction,worth and happiness for helping people and making sure that the people are healed under the nursing care of ours. However, the $ is too little for me, i am seeking for more $. ambitious side of me just cant sit on that little $ and i want to learn about the business aspect of the world. be it advertising, marketing, sales, finance etc. my interest and heart has been seeking to that direction all the time recently. like machiam a calling siak! hahah. cant blame, surrounded with too many business pple. And also, i wana wear nice outfits to work too! can showcase my style. nursing only can showcase the uniform. no uniqueness at all. i guess ive made up my mind. im gona head to the business direction and wana know why? today i flipped the HER WORLD MAGAZINE, i saw the status of the woman and the way they were dressed, i told myself, i wana be like that. so yea.
This lengthy posting is to recuperate the MIA of my posts which i shld be bloggin in!tsk.
"The outside world is another learning process which school do not teach."
another humble learning. what lee ky says is true, "its a life-long learning process" til the day we die. the last few words is by me. tsk! cheerios all. ;)
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