c'est la vie

HELLO!

its been a long time since i last blogged,okay..so wad was i really busy with that i had no time to blog?hmm..

ohwell,i miss my two buddies and apparently,i dun even noe wad im busy with that i got no time to meet them up.=(

and monday is my bioscience MCQ! so have to score a D.ouhouh..D*distinction okay..haha!i have and i must! no other choice,gonna go back studying again..BIOSCIENCE!here i come to conquer you!

this semester isnt going so well for me.=(i miss having CCAs,miss being really active in school and miss laughting like crazzyyy.

i dun even noe wad the hell am i doing with this semester 2.its so depressing knowing that you're not one of the best in class and others are much better?you jus feel soooo lousy.Going to sch jus for academic is really depressing..I MISS MY SPORTS!!! =(

i miss having competitions,i miss having to compete wit others to noe where you stand,i miss all the fun,i miss the friends that i used to make earlier before this semester..but looks like they're all disappeared to another world.

my belief is..To be an asset,not a liability to others.And everything is solved.life is just so simple.why do others have to make it sound so complicated and narrow and blar blar blar..its jus so simple!

urghh..my blog is really boring pple out.HAHA!

anw i started my french,let me teach some french here..

je'mappelle Gisele(i am gisele)

salut!(hi,bye..in a friendly way)

tu't pelle merina(you are merina)

elle't pelle(she is)

c'est la vie(life's like this)

bonjour(hello)

bonsoir(good afternoon)

bonnuit(good nite)

comment ca va(how's life)

thats all folks for now!

SALUT! =D

finally ran after so many months!

Could you imagine? Merina the sporty one who loves to run like nobody business actually lost her stamina?oh well,partly cause i haven been running sometime and definitely it was really hard to pick up running at the usual speed which i always do.People will feel comfortable running in their own regular speed and jogging for me?i find it even more tiring for me..But it was not easy to keep up the pace and distance i used to run,i was panting really hard! And to be honest,today was the VERY FIRST TIME i walked in my entire 18 years of my life!And i din walk jus once,i walked many times..i felt like shit! why did i even walk?! i need someone to motivate me to push me to finish the race.its not easy to pick it up your own. sigh!im feeling total shitty!=( i jus dun seem to understand why i cant just push myself all the bloody way! URGH! i hate myself! WHY?! im so weak! such a failure i am! SO WEAK!!!! i need people to push me all the time,i need competitions to motivate me,i need something to tempt me to work harder.people always find excuses when they cant push themselves hard enuff.i find these people weak.And for me,i dun wanna be a weakling,no more EXCUSES for now on! just do it! GPA 3and ABOVE! kill and torture me in order to get that grade!hopefully im prepared! and pple who always asked me to rest and dun get so hard on myself,jus keep pushin me on and dun give me a chance for breaks at all.no matter how much i whine,dun jus give in.

i find that everything you do in life, the principle is always the same...the more time and effort and sacrifices you make, the more you will enjoy your fruit of labour..it applies not just sports,studies,CCAs..it also applies in work.the more time you sacrific,the nearer you'll reach your goal.NO MORE EXCUSES!


Anw today i pon-ned sch due to the driving shit,i took sch for theory and private for driving.i find it easier to pass if i did the theory under sch.so no confidence eh?And the lady called me up few days back to remind me to do my BTE latest by monday!that is like less den 14days? by right u shld finish everything in 14days but my case was slightly diff.so over the weekends,i had no slot to book! i ganchiong so i decided to pon sch today and take everything by today..including my 2 BTL and BTE.heihei! i passed my BTE! next wed is my TEST!prolly i'll pass! and today i was super busy the WHOLE DAY! woke up at 8,studied abit,went for class,came back home,went for class again,waited at the school,booked my BTE,went home checked on my elective module,went out to get my stupid MC! it was $8plus in polyclinic! no more wad $4! and it was so frustrating! the stupid doc in rm 10 was FREAKING SLOW! and the people working der jus couldnt help this pity merina here to get it done quick,made me took cab to BBDC,rushed like shit and jus nice,1 min b4 the BTE starts,PHEW! ABLE TO CATCH MY BREATHE A LITTLE.HEIHEI! and after everythinggg...it was alr 5.40pm

so den,decided to run and guess wad! i saw AARON! so glad to see him running! =)i bet he's gonna be hundred times better den i am.sighhh!! im sucha failure! i walked!!!! URGHHH!!!!!!!!!! SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF!! SO WEAK!!!!!mentally!sigh.im hungry! ciao!

sucha lengthy post again! why does merina always have so many things to write! CRAZY!!!!!!! HAHAHHAAH

I WANT TO RUN NIKE HUMAN RACE!!!hopefully 09 they will hold it again.=)

quit worrying.

Fundamental facts you should know about worryIf you want to avoid worry, do what Sir William Osler did: Live in "day-tight compartments." Don't stew about the futures. Just live each day u ntil bedtime.
The next time Trouble--with a Capital T--backs you up in a corner, try the magic formula of Willis H. Carrier:
Ask yourself, "What is the worst that can possibly happen if I can't solve my problem?
Prepare yourself mentally to accept the worst--if necessary.
Then calmly try to improve upon the worst--which you have already mentally agreed to accept.
Remind yourself of the exorbitant price you can pay for worry in terms of your health. "Those who do not know how to fight worry die young."

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Part Two
Basic techniques in analyzing worry
Get the facts. Remember that Dean Hawkes of Columbia University said that "half the worry in the world is caused by people trying to make decisions before they have sufficient knowledge on which to base a decision."
After carefully weighing all the facts, come to a decision.
Once a decision is carefully reached, act! Get busy carrying out your decision--and dismiss all anxiety about the outcome.
When you, or any of your associates, are tempted to worry about a problem, write out and answer the following questions:
What is the problem?
What is the cause of the problem?
What are all possible solutions?
What is the best solution?

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Part Three
How to break the worry habit before it breaks you
Crowd worry out of your mind by keeping busy. Plenty of action is one of the best therapies ever devised for curing "wibber gibbers."
Don't fuss about trifles. Don't permit little things--the mere termites of life--to ruin your happines.
Use the law of averages to outlaw your worries. Ask yourself: "What are the odds against this thing's happening at all?"
Co-operate with the inevitable. If you know a circumstance is beyond your power to change or revise, say to yourself: "It is so; it cannot be otherwise."
Put a "stop-less" order on your worries. Decide just how much anxiety a thing may be worth--and refuse to give it anymore.
Let the past bury its dead. Don't saw sawdust.

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Part Four
Seven ways to cultivate a mental attitude that will bring you peace and happiness
Let's fill our minds with thoughts of peace, courage, health, and hope, for "our life is what our thoughts make it."
Let's never try to get even with our enemies, because if we do we will hurt ourselves far more than we hurt them. Let's do as General Eisenhower does: let's never waste a minute thinking about people we don't like.

Instead of worrying about ingratitude, let's expect it. Let's remember that Jesus healed ten lepers in one day--and only one thanked Him. Why should we expect more gratitude than Jesus got?
Let's remember that the only way to find happiness is not to expect gratitude--but to give for the joy of giving.
Let's remember that gratitude is a "cultivated" trait; so if we want our children to be grateful, we must train them to be grateful.
Count your blessings--not your troubles!
Let's not imitate others. Let's find ourselves and be ourselves, for "envy is ignorance" and "imitation is suicide."
When fate hands us a lemon, let's try to make a lemonade.
Let's forget our own unhappiness--by trying to create a little happiness for others. "When you are good to others, you are best to yourself."

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Part Five
The perfect way to conquer worry
Prayer

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Part Six
How to keep from worrying about criticism
Unjust criticism is often a disguised compliment. It often means that you have aroused jealousy and envy. Remember that no one ever kicks a dead dog.
Do the very best you can; and then put up your old umbrella and keep the rain of criticism from running down the back of your neck.
Let's keep a record of the fool things we have done and criticize ourselves. Since we can't hope to be perfect, let's do what E.H. Little did: let's ask for unbiased, helpful, constructive criticism.

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Part Seven
Six ways to prevent fatigue and worry and keep your energy and spirits high
Rest before you get tired.
Learn to relax at your work.
Learn to relax at home.
Apply these four good workings habits:
Clear your desk of all papers except those relating to the immediate problem at hand.
Do things in the order of their importance.
When you face a problem, solve it then and there if you have the facts to make a decision.
Learn to organize, deputize, and supervise.
To prevent worry and fatigue, put enthusiasm into your work.
Remember, no one was ever killed by lack of sleep. It is worrying about insomnia that does the damage--not the insomnia.

i sooo wanna go over there! at montreal.!
ouh..and our school let us take languages at our elective module.i thought of taking french! but everyone is like saying japanese is better! Still, i like french more..someone,please tell me wads best!FRENCH EH?! lol! ciao for now...=)

its been a rough time but its all over..=)

LOL! mini N95 with esther's actual N95.KOOL EH! miniN95 is suitable for small pple to use!as for shijie,she has to use the actual 1.. =x. ehh....HAHAH!jus jokingg..

WAH!that bottle of SK2 essense cost me a BOMB! i can soak myself in it!heihei!

my cliques lor.

WAH!!sk2's goodjob! make my face really fair ehh! and thats erhem..

ahxin!little ms figet-er.HAHAH!let's score GPA 3.8 yo!

Hello..once again,i'm blogging cuz its a Friday nite! And den again,cuz shijie wants to read so i shall let her read about my life.LOL! shijie! see!! im blogging especially for you noe?!! HAHA!ohwell..by right,Friday nite im suppose to go clubbing and have all the shit fun in the world! But den again, i choose not to..Merina made a choice to be a pretty homie gal,staying at home and sit in front of the computer and do a little bit of blogging and instilling some knowledge to my brain..why?because the brain has to keep it healthy and fit! the BRAIN is just like your Muscles..no exercise,muscles gone..its a metaphor for explaining about the brain! haha! oh..enough about the brain!haha!

my semester 1 exam was total shitty! i did badly like horrendously? okay...not exactly,just that i failed one paper and the best thing is that i missed my sub-paper! Missing the sub-paper is where all the problems started to arise! not jus my parents came into the picture, my mentor,my sister,my cca,my work and my friends and definitely it hit me the most! like duhhh rite? i made my Dad run to sch for me,i feel really heart ache,could you visualise one old man running to school cuz the nursing director has to go for meeting in 10mins time?we tried to appeal but it din work and der's gonna be a 6 months extension? its not jus a matter of wasting time here,its also a matter of wasting money! u gonna pay the school fees? and have to hop ard to other classes for that dumb module?My mentor knew abt this and she even went thru all the trouble to help me out!Really glad i have such a mentor liek her..really appreciated her help alot..THANKS MADAM LOI!=).she said something which i think it make sense.."its not like you're financially disabled? you can have the whole time in your life working..but you dun have your whole life to be a student..why not just do well in your studies and score well? you dun get to be student and enjoy student life after this period."i tot it thru and indeed,i shld heed her advise..So now im jobless and CCA-less..no more sprint kayak everyday!But home everyday..=( IM SO GROUNDED!

my dad has been constantly nagging and constantly keeping an eye on what im doing on the computer.urghh..feeling so stranded here! but deep down in my heart,he's doing that for my own good..i understand dad! =) i promised to get GPA at least 3.4 alrite?but hw am i gonna do that when i dun have classmates scoring even at least a GPA of 3.5?sighhhh....

Eversince sch starts,its like sch,home,sch,home..it sounded quite pathetic and lifeless rite? but thats jus the words! its the pple ard me that made it more den jus sch and going home..definitely der's this especial someone made it more den jus that.. =) All i need is just you to make it not mandane.it wasnt boredom when that especial someone is der.i thank god for sending that especial someone to me..thank you!=)

And i'm greatful that i have close people ard to save me out of my pathetic clique.i felt like a lonesome in there,feeling so myself and dead and pathetic and feeling so hard to get emotional support sometimes..luckily der's BGJY to be der for me all the time..thanks babe..=).But Is it me that cause it to be this way?Der isnt any true friends i can find in my clique except BGJY.Why is it so hard to be me in that clique?sigh!all the shit..i miss all my close friends,definitely missing my secondary school life.ohwell..i just have to get pass this and just do well in my studies..i'll be back strong again! i have to!=D

And also,after all this while,i'm glad that you have stick with me all the way..=) thanks b! heh

and guess wad,this is one lengthy post! hahah! cuz its me mahh! i like to write it long!its summary btw.HA! and ya! i stain my demin gal today!!!! can u imagine?! with red huge dots on it.!WAH SIAAAA!!! EMBARASSING MANNN!! i think the chinese boy saw it luh,he was sitting directly behind me.SHIT! no face! i think i have to wear paper bag to sch to hide my face..EMBARASSSINNGGG !! AHH!!! stupid men! next time i shld jus wear diapers,it is fully protected! LOL! alrite! end of my lengthy post! hahaha! nites y'all... =)

To you and jus you..

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“When I first met you I was afraid to like you, now that I like you I'm afraid to love you, now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.”

BRAIN!

Brains grow and elaborate and strengthen when they are CHALLENGED, and that they change little when solutions are easy to come by.

Recommended Brain Fitness Activities
The task: Add some dark chocolate to your diet.
The reason: When you eat chocolate you activate the systems in your brain that pump dopamine, an important brain chemical. These systems enable learning and memory, and help keep your brain sharp and fit.

The task: Go on a guided tour of a museum or another site of interest. Pay careful attention to what the guide says. When you get home, try to reconstrucft the tour by writing an outline that includes everything you remember.
The reason: Research into brain plasticity (the ability of the brain to change at any age) indicates that memory activities that engage all levels of brain operation—receiving, remembering and thinking—help to improve the function (and hinder the rate of decline) of the brain.

http://bfc.positscience.com/about/tips.php

chinese garden-ed

went to chinese garden for the lantern thingy like ytd?? yea..it was beautiful.the theme for that night was hello kitty! my cousin's favourite(melody) the one badbad was after for while cyclingg...HAHAH!!* only lixin and clique understandddsss...lol. laughed like shit! ohwell,i haven been bloggin for ages alr!
life now are me is practically moving like the calming waters..quite mandane.i dun even noe wad i wanna do in my future now. sighs! GOD, PLEASE GUIDE ME THRU MY LIFE...after this holiday,i'm gonna study hard! hopefully i can really fight on.i must!!!!! i must earn big $,lead a good life and be independant!!! fight on fight on fight on!!!!

btw, some pictures taken at chinese garden!
ALEMAK!! FUCKIN COM! cannot upload the pictures here..nvm! upload someother time.. ciao

having attachement niow

attachment attachement attachement!

i left with 1 more week after this week and i wonder how am i gonna spend the

rest of my 1month holiday.

get a job? go for driving licence?sprint kayak?hmmm...most prob i'll get myself a job,earn some $. =D anw i was havin my attachement for the past 1 week and i was too busy to blog.finally i'm having some time to blog here.attachment was really fun,especially the people der..people including the ITE,nyp,AN and SN.=)with them around,it made attachment more lively and fun! cheerios peeps! =D love yaww..

and well, i had my attachie at orthopedic ward.gosh! today i saw 1 pt with the nail punctured thru the foot. OUCH! i've seen even more disgusting thigns ever.thats not the worse.geee...der's more to come in the future...! so looking forward to it. =D

alrighty.Many things running in my head,waiting for me to fix .blog soon again! =)

Having reminiscence now,

middle of the night thinking so much.

so many things to do yet so little time.

 currently using mac book pro to blog this entry.MAN! this macbook is really terrible,AT FIRST.haha! i guess after u noe how to get the hang of it,it'll turn to be ur BABY man..but sadly my brudder jus want this mac book for this university course.=(

 this week is my exam week and i left 1 last paper on thursday.ALRITE! cant wait..i haven been sleeping before 12 since a very long time and i've been sleeping almost at 3 since last week til now.terrible! i'm having severe OUTBREAK here..=( my face is sucha goner now. i rather have a headache den pimples and acne everywhere..

 anw REDBULL revitalise ur body and mental,all u need is 1 can of redbull to keep u going and alert.=D redbull love here.but too much of redbull is bad! anw i wanted to type alot here but i guess i've forgt wad i wanna type.HAHA! holiday is coming and i jus cant wait..

  OUH! have been having my exam papers in the sports hall,its darn freezing cold when u sit der for too long.i wonder how those people who only wore shirt and shorts,dun their tiny hairs stand or having goosebum? 

 after exams,took the train back with B and S and on the way home,those shops along the way of gombak mrt is almost up! and they got a DBS bank too,how convenient! i dun have to take bus down to westmall jus to deposit cash..haha!everywher der's like upgrading of the mrt stations and everywhere der's cafe in sing.hmmm.how nice! at least can jus go those cafes to chill out.=D

 alritey,gonna turn in now.my cough is back the moment i sleep LATE! 

 GOOD NITE merina! =D

pesta sukan-mixed team

today was a fabulous and distracting saturday! cuz i had netball games today. .haha! abandon sprint kayak for netball game.ohwell! it was a tournament! But din managed to get into the second round of the mixed team tho.SIGH!OUHOUHOUH!!i had seriously MUSCLE CRAMPS after a few games,DARN IT! it was the first time where i actually sees my muscle contracts!INTERESTINGG!HAHA!okay..back to my topic!hmmm.. every year we've been losing and not getting into the second round when we played,what we lacked of is disiplinary,commitment and the fighting spirit! everyone wants to win! to be a winner,the top team,its not easy,jus like studying for the very last min u dun see good grades..the most,i'll say jus pass? And if those who said that they din study at all and still can get good grades, those pple who simply says that,i think its all BULLSHIT! today certain player in our team thought of switching to a better team which,i think its painful to the ears upon hearing it.that person is not the first who said indirectly that our team isnt one of the better teams compared to some teams.

I still remember the first time when i joined the netball team,i was driven to improve, to push myself, to get well and win during tournament games.but its very frastrauting to see our teammates do not have the fighting spirit and seems not prepared or nervous for the game at all.it was very disappointing as well.our coach is really a very nice coach,or i shld say,a very good listening ear but when it comes to training,no comments!haha!and i think she feels disappointed that der's so few pple coming for trainings..initally i still rmb that i came for every single training after graduating from sec 5,i found a strong motivation to actually continue in team games and wanting to excel in it.But when u see ur teammates not driven and shows u attitude yet u dunno how to influence and inspire them to have the fighting spirit,how u felt is like giving up on the team,just accept the fact that its a recreational team.
But den again, when we join those competitive games and still maintain our standards and not pushing forward,it will not get us anywhere.the guys indeed has improved alot and the good thing is that THEY HAVE THE STAMINA! their stamina is der,it feels so depressing when u see urself going for tournaments in KNC and not getting into the second round,ITS DISGRACING! pple gonna label us as the loser team,which is not very pleasing to hear.
we really lack of the fighting spirit! ! totally!

i think we should do something abt it.if other clubs can do it,i strongly believe that we can do it too!
TEAM SEIRIOS! ALL THE WAY!

sunday madness!

Busy busy day todayy..Woke up extremely early!

• its cuz my brother woke me up to go for mass at 7.30am!
• After mass, helped my parents with their stall for our church funfair( not a dumpling was left even before 12.30 mass,HAPPY!)
• Rush down for work at National library to help out in the dental talks from 10am to 7pm.(it was a pretty darn slack job! brudder and i even self-entertained ourselves den.HAHA!)
• Den mum came to pick us up to bring the boxes of free "mysterious gift" back to the office.
• Reached home and ate our DUMPLINGS! muhahaha! SHIOK! i was hungry den.

OHwell,gonna put up some pictures later or so!

today's sales of dumplings was a SUCCESS! *CLAPPSSS!! =D

Gonna get my butt to studying now.

wee.!

Mummy's office can be seen in e newyork globe glass===========================>




man! today woke early,wanted to go sea-training but my head was extremely painful, vision slowly became so blury when u focus on something..sigh! miss-ed trg today.. so headed back to sleep and woke up smelling dumplings!!! mummy with maid, auntie and dad preparing for tmr's charity work at church selling dumplings! and i wasnt helping ard cuz i had to study but apparently, i kept stealing some sleep. LOL. books are jus so hypnotizing u noe?! and auntie says i become bigger in size again! omggg!!! must be my muscle luh..anw i really dunno wad i want in life.sigh!gonna ponder over such matter again. how to earn big bucks??? =(


anw tmr gonna work! alrity..FUN TIME!


today i spent my whole day at home, studying, sleeping, and SNACKING! alot! my mouth is forever munching something..hahaha!
AND YAY!! STUPID CMS! i cant get into the e-lecture luh! neh neh! i hate nyp's website.blooddyyy, now i cant study for my e-electures for my exams! URGHH





JIA YOU FOR MY EXAMS MERINA!! FOCUS!

yuppie!

WEEE!!! today finally finished our last presentation of the semester 1! feeling sooo elated! :D
for once, AKK did not scold us and said that the scoldings she said all paid off..ehh..baby is forever peeping what i am typing n this post..DUN SEE LUH!! humphh..lol! next week is week 17 and after that is exam period den attachment and finally..HOLIDAYYY!!!! WAHAHAHA!! i wanna havoc, somebody please bring me go havoc during holidays cannn..lol! anyway, for our past few presentations, we did quite well. WELL DONE EVERYBODYYY!! :D our staying up late at night is paid off. =) now its time to like study for exams.. i miss my two buddies.. =( holiday we shall go out yay.. emily and catherine! =) okayyy..shall go study now,den later can rest. =)
thats for now.

random!

-played in high standard quality!!=D

"say it again"
The thing about love
Is i never saw it coming
It kinda crept up and took me by surprise
And now there’s a voice inside my heart that’s got me wondering
Is this true, i want to hear it one more time

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again

Thing about you is you know just how to get me
You talk about us like there’s no end in sight
The thing about me is that i really want to let you
Open that door and walk into my life

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love

And it feels like it’s the first time
That anybody's ever brought the sun without the rain
And never in my whole life
Have I heard words as beautiful as when you say my name

Say it again for me
Cuz i love the way it feels when you are telling me that i’m
The only one who blows your mind
Say it again for me
It’s like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you’re in love
Say it again (x9)

When you tell me you’re in love…
Say it again

Ohhh...Ohhhhhh

Marie Digby is my new love,she's a jap mixed american u noe?! she's so pwutteyy.. :D i so want all her songs luhh, any kind souls can download for me??=) i'll be grateful to yay!

anw jus finished doing the family and community health project,its super last min. i tot our project was fine til i saw one of my senior's project,its uncomparable..so we quickly add in more points and all..all the best sub-grp 1 for tmr's akk's presentation,our doom-day!let's yaw have fun during presentation!! HEHEE! today is friday and gonna see the deputy manager for disipilinary offence jus wearing slippers.. =.=! my mentor made a huge fuss over it like i killed someone like that..its jus slippers..and she had to go thru all the troubles to get me informed! thru emails,sms and classmates and even called me a few times..wow!how efficient ehh! ohwell.gtg turn in now,my cough is getting worse once again..SIGGGHHHH!!!!

random

hello! i'm being random here again!haha!now in nyp's mac using baby's laptop to kill some time.and he's like watching me typing this post.haha!and pretending to look distracted.LOL!

"blood-ed" this video is darn hilarious.haha!
man,30 more mins to lecture and i soooo dun wanna go,if not for exam tips,i'll jus study in school for my test next week.=)lecture for safety and healthcare is sooo boring!gosh!
ohwell,gonna go for lecture soon,BORING!!

lost

walaa. i'm here blogging again!!=D after so long?man,i made a no school for myself tmr!wee!i can rest and relax as home!how happy i am,and guess wad,i am awake like i used to.i think i'm a real nocturnal,i dun seem to be able to change my habit of staying up so late and being so hype at nite?oh dearrr,i'm not one of the norms here.XD! btw,its 3.02AM FYI.i jus love staying up late at nite,wher everyone is asleep?and u got no one disturbing u?u get to be in a world of ur own,do wateva u want at nite without people deciding for u whether ur doing the right thing or which to do first,u dun have pple naggin at ur ears,u dun have to talk to people,u jus can relax ur mind,do some self-reflection and reflect on the things u did the day/s before AND have the nite world for urself!can u feel me?how nice to have sometime for urself,its healthy mentally,for me!!=D insane u might say.. FAVOURITE RAMLY BURGERR!!HEHH!der's alot to blog about and its gonna be a really wordy post here,okayy,let me upload some pretty pretty pictures!=>one is enuff!its my sprint kayak gals!muha!=)*ignore my sexy tighs and legs,pardon for opening so big!how obsence!ALEMAKK.haha! anw!i think i noe why i'm feeling so lost!feeling like my life is spinning out of control,having too much to do and not enuff time for myself and my family,too many priorities pullin me apart,leaving me unprepared and pressurize somehow and all,its the cause of no time management!gosh!definitely i'm lacking of it.its time to do up an organizing system to manage my time properly!=D kayaking's trg getting tougher and everyone is puttin their commitment in sprint kayak soon enuff,gosh!the more i need to learn how to manage my time!and sch for me is no good,practically i'm depending on my friends on everything?wads going on in sch and all,when is exam and all,dun even noe wads going on like most of the time?haha!i think they're getting more and more annoyed of me asking them qns ALL THE TIME!geee!time to revamp myself and take charge and be independent for my own life and not the other way round.=)will i actually have the energy to do that?i wonder!goosshhh,i'm emo-ing now..lalalala! I MISS MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE!=( thats so random!hahah!gonna upload some sec sch pictures!how i wish i can nv grow up..=(






have u ever tot of wad's ur future gonna be like?i like to think alot,abt alot of things..i like to think abt the pass and present as well,i like to think of the happy moments and moments that make ur life full of roller coaster rides.if u got siblings,will u think if when they all get married and have their family,will they gonna be ever so close to u again?.i really wonder wad has god planned for me for my future,am i gonna be a somebody? or a nobody? i wonder if i gt kids,when they grow up,will they be outstanding kids?have u ever wonder how is death like?how is heaven like?how u gonna look when u die and enter the gates of heaven?having ur parents,ur grand parents,great grand family waiting for u?der's SOOO many qns i wanna ask but yet no one has the answers for it.except god and time.i wonder will i die young or old?i wonder will i be a hippy grandma,i wonder will my kids put me in old folk home,i wonder wad the world coming to in the future,i wonder will the future generation gonna be really brainy.i'm excited and at the same time,scared..hmmm..past,present and future,i wonder...ohwell!!i can nv get those answers,back to reality now,no pt thinking so much..all i have to do now is priortize my impt matters uhh!

and stupid phonee!!i cant transfer pictures into my com!bloody hell! anw mummy bought macbook and many ipod for each of us(siblings)muhaha!LOVE MUMMY! mum gives us comfort and dad gives us love..wad a purrfect family i have.=)i miss granny.AHHH.i miss alot of things.=( haha!random.okayy..its a long post indeed,i shall stop now.gonna go study,din noe 1 cup of coffee could last me so hype until now.TEHE!

ehh..my previous post like so scary,shouldnt have put in red font.haha!SCARYYY!!
TIME TO UPLOAD SOME BEAUTIFUL PICTURES HEREE!!!
MUAHHAHA!! WE WERE SO BORED IN THE BIOLAB THAT WE STARTED TAKING PICTURES>HEHE!

BABYYY!=D

Hello blog! man.its been ages ever since the last time i blogged,been sooo busy lately with so many things.Now i've gt an extra commitment and its not easy juggling it all.i'm still trying to adjust the life of being in a r/s,it's definitely not easy being in a r/s,der are many things u have to worry,jus so many..but lucky i got some supportive friends ard me.=)thanks a million friends...=)ohwell,suddenly i got nth much to blog,unlike the past.maybe cuz i got too many things in my head and baby with me all the time that i dun necessary find a need to blog it here.but wadeva it is,i'll still try to blog cuz i wanna rmb all the life experiences and incident that i had encounter.hmm..now i've gt my r/s to commit,my studies,my cca(sprint kayak) and i got no time for my friends at all.i'm feeling rather down that i got not much time to bond with them.='(
everyday i only manage to reach home after 9?usually its always after 9.mon,thurs and sat is our sprint kayak compulsory training and wed is not official.OHYAH! guess wad,today i completely forgt that der's trg today,seriously!how can i actually forget?man!thats how busy and tired i was den.too much things running in my mind that der's so many things i blocked out from my head.sighh..i'm getting more and more forgetful,sometimes it really made me wonder if i would have dementia when i grow old.hmmm..i wouldnt want that!!!
tuesday usually end sch after 6,den baby will always accompany me home.talking about baby,i feel so fortunate having him by my side like ALL THE TIME? he definitely put in alot of effort in this r/s.he's just so sweet and all,sometimes i'm really touched by certain things he says or do.uhh...nv felt so loved before.=)everyday he wakes up early in the morning jus to accompany me to school and he had to come all the way down from novena to bukit gombak and walk afew distance to my place and den accompany me to school at YCK.he din even mind waking up so early and all.and after school,he would rather accompany me home den to be on time for his appt.and he's always der for me when i'm down.thanks alot baby...after 16th this month is our second month,time really flies..and i'm glad tat i got him.i dunno why but i feel like as tho we're meant to be together,it feel like god planned this to happen.everything that happened seem to be so coincidental and things jus goes smoothly.there were many a times whereby we din plan to meet up and suppose to meet up and den again,we jus managed to bump into each other.HAHA! are we really fated to be together?hmm..if it is,i'm really really glad!=) and thank god for letting us be together.=) love baby alot of more now.