rebonding

Today's sociology paper was crap for me. such disappointment.

Anw, went ahead to do soft rebonding at WM cuz my mom signed up for the package,since its free den just go lorrr. But, they made me buy their shampoo and conditioner at 44$. Gee! If i din go ahead with the rebonding, i'll prolly save up that $44. Ohwell, i duno how my hair will turn out to be since today is the first day of rebonding my virgin wavy hair away. :( im gona miss that. But i tot since my hair will still grow back, aiya, just go ahead with the treament. it took me freaking 4HRS to get this hair done and i was so freaking urgent den but i endured. And the guy says that i cannot wash my hair for two days and cannot tie my hair and go swimming for 2wks! :( ohwell, cant wait for my new hair!new look! KEWLL. haha! And ouh. and my teeth has shift quite a fair bit. Even the bite has changed and i changed my brackets to PINK! but heck, it turned out to be yellow after like a day. :( wthhhh. it de-colourise?? zzz.

thats all amigo. im gone for now. :)

:)

ANYONE WANT A SMOOCH FROM ME?! hehe.

"I cant seem to get you out of my mind"

tapped on my humane side

Holy crap.

Guess wad, this lady went from door t door t sell dried sausages and she's in her 60-70yo. she looks exactly like an auntie tending a stall. i dunno whether she's coning pple or she's really telling the truth but she tapped on the humane side of me. Sympathy and empathy. Gee! i saw her so pityful and i let her. Be it whether she's conning or not, at least she made the afford t go around asking from door t door. My heart melt wen i see Auntie going from door t door t sell her stuffs. but her dried sausauge is expensive. $15 for 1 pack. Mom din want t buy from her but i still gave her $15 from my pocket. Seeing her doing that really kinda heart breaking. And den she says that she cannot take pple's $ and she insist t shaft the dried sausage t me. And den after that she asked t use our house toilet cuz she stomach ache. She insist t let her use the toilet, i wanted t let her in,being the kind and nice human being and my mom can be in the room,staring at her stocks and says NO! wow. its easy for her t say no cuz she wasnt in my shoe t see the Auntie's puppy look. Gee! so i told her mom says no and she says its okay, she'll go downstairs t use the toilet. Alemak. if she's really conning, its really rare t see auntie con. If my mom wasnt around, perhaps i will let her use our toilet. I feel sooo cruel t reject her. Easy for my mom t say no! But anw i'll just treat it as a donation t elderly since its been awhile for doing donation.

but on second thoughts, i feel like following her and seeing what she's really up to and what she says is the truth. But nah.. let other pple do the thing.

Gee!

i realised something, i realised that everyday i look at my blog, looking at what i wana achieve and stuff. i realised that im getting nearer to it each day. Does it shows how powerful the subconcious mind can take u? Say the media kept advertising Nude fashion, nude colour etc etc etc. And somehow, out of no wer, u will decide t go for Nude stuffs. But frankly, i love Nude and brown colour. Natural is still the best. Writing is something that really helps you reflect and recall what you did. its good to write alot cuz it helps you t "dis-cloud" your mind. hurhur. writing helps you t clarify your thoughts basically. writing what you think and feel. :)

And hopefully blogger dun close down in future, cuz if it does, i''ll breakdown and gona have a hard time carrying myself back up.All the years of writing since my teenages years. The journey of growing up. Gee!

CANT WAIT

SO EGGCITEDDD!

Gona go to Italy and Bali this semester break. :) and maybe going to Paris and switerland too. The only thing im looking forward is the fun that we're gona experience. The lifestyle,food,scenary and extremeeeeee sports! Gona go Bali for my open dive course and once pass, if possible, gona go Italy to scuba dive for leisure. Not sure how safe it is but its wad im planning for. If possible, gona go Italy for white water rafting! And hopefully im going to London so i can be doing my Bungee Jumping and SKYDIVINGGGG! :D

WEEEE! ITS GONA BE ONE HELLA AN EXPERIENCE FOR ME IN THS LIFETIME. Really cant wait. meanwhile ive to save up alot of $$ and study hard for my current exams.

My wishes gona come trueeeeee. weeheeeheee. And my dad's wish also gona come true. i bet his more eggcited den i am! he's gona spend 10days in ROME praying and to see all the churches and meeting POPE Benedict. thats what he always wanted.All i want is to experience all the extreme sports that SG dun offer. hmm. Den if confirm going t London, i can look for my friend t hangout. Gee! i felt guilty and bad for not meeting her wen she flew back to SG. Now gona fly her to meet her. :) sorry sam.

so so eggggggggggcitedddddd hahahahahahah!

BORED DAY

BORED DAY.

CUZ ITS

STUDYING DAY! :|

CME :)

This is what we do when we're boreddddddd! hurhur...

pondering

i think trees are the most amazing living thing ive seen. It can still be firm and standing and growing even bigger and stronger despite all the odds of stormy weather,floods and blazing hot sun. Even tho there are a couple of branches fall, still. it is growing bigger and bigger each day. Til the day that it can shelter people, build tree house etc etc.Lets jus exclude the human being cutting down trees for the usefulness of them. i think that is something we all shld learn about.

To challenge the odds.

Gee. loads of pondering of life lately. hurhur.

WHY?! and u got the answer of your question. And now how?! how to get it done? i have to do it but HOW?!

Thats the question of what everyone should or have been seeking,the HOW question.

umpired

Umpired Div 4 game just now. As usual, after the whole of the game, it felt like ive taken a shower in my umpire's attire. If we dun sweat like we've just got pushed into the swimming pool, i dun think we're really umpiring.

And ouh, lucky there is the circle line, finally stadium station is opened. dun have t waste $ on taking bus now. And ive estimated my time, it takes about an hr from my place t KNC, including all the walking and waiting. But it doesnt beat driving a car down. takes only about 30mins++ Gee. im still having thoughts on whether t get a bike. But i dun hav enuff cash yet. Geee. And its so dangerous. But i think i shld be contented with the public transport.Imagine if im in overseas.gee! i think its gona take like a few hours t get somewer!

And ouh, umpired Div 4. And two umpire coaches says "GOOD" :) how awesome. But still have to take note of alot of things. And E. is really enlightening. i think he can really relate and widen my perspective.He given me the frank WHY talk and den today was the HOW talk. thanks E. i really really felt that u relly really enlighten me alot. Not just on umpiring alone but also enlighten me generally. it really really helps me t improve as a person as well.no wonder der's a saying"SPORTS DUN JUST BUILD CHARACTERS,IT REVEALS IT"

"when there is opportunities, grab it and dun wait becuz opportunities are not easy to come by"

head pain. :' (

gee! iv been sleeping with my hair wet almost everyday and now im like having a severe headache. :( sooooo pain. :'(

And i never knew that waking up in the morning to run feels so great! the smell of the morning air. ahhh... energizing. been waking up early in the morning to run to start my day and sleeping early to end my day. it feels great. :) But now im having a severe headache, how to conc on my studies. :(

later got umpiring at KNC. i guess ive really improved alot. i think ive to really thank E. for that major major feedback e other nite. its not easy being an umpire. fitness has to be up and has to be mentally strong. thats wad i FEEL. so! that makes umpiring really challenging. And the more challenging it is, the more i wouldnt wana give up. ouhwell, HEADDDD PAINNNN :(

and do u believe in law of attraction? because i totally believe in it. TOTALLY.

sleek body

Give me a sleek and tone body.

Manage it from the start

Continued on the previous post. i was reading merry riana's blog on her journey of her life. Truely, she is an inspiring woman.

She earn her first million in sales industry selling insurance under prudential when she was only 23. she works really really hard and she said" there is no elevator to success" i believe in that quote. It is never a short cut to success. it always take HARD WORK. And now, she owns her firm life insurance firm called merry riana's organisation. wow. thats really motivating. she's my role model now.

Gotta work really really hard. JIAYOU! :)

inspiring article.

A CREED TO LIVE BY
(Author: Nancyesims)

Don't undermine your worth by comparing
yourself with others,
It is because we are different that each
of us is special.

Don't set your goals by what other people
deem important,
Only you know what is best for you.

Don't take for granted the things closest
to your heart,
Cling to that as you would your life, for without
them life is meaningless.

Don't let your life slip through your fingers by living
in the past or the future.
By living your life one day at a time, you live all the
days of your life.

Don't give up when you still have something to give
Nothing is really over … until the moment
you stop trying.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less
than perfect,
It is the fragile thread that binds us to each other.

Don't be afraid to encounter risks,
It is by taking chances that we learn how to be brave.

Don't shut love out of your life by saying it's
impossible to find.
The quickest way to receive love is to give love.
The fastest way to lose love is to hold on too tightly,
And the best way to keep love is to give it wings.

Don't dismiss your Dreams. To be without
dreams is to be without hope.
To be without hope is to be without purpose.

Don't run through life so fast that you forget
where you've been,
But also know where you're going.

Life is not a race, but a journey to be savored
every step of the way.

Taken from Merry Riana's blog. i think she's a really inspiring asian lady who earns her first million when she's 26! Gee. google her

STUDY HARD & PLAY HARD

"Some lessons are better learned through observation, rather than experience. "

hmm.. i should start doing that alot more often.

:)

PHOTOSHOOTS BABEY! :D

pondering on life

When you are young, its only right that you spend your youth wisely and experience everything before you grow old and everything starts to wither. By the time you realised what exactly you want in life, its already too late, it will never be as great when you started younger. it is true that you should follow your dreams and do what you want in life. it is right that you live life just once.

it is right to be hardworking and gain as much as possible out of what you do.

Live life wisely. There's still so much more to explore in this universe. Life is indeed short. A blink of an eye, 20years of my life has pass..i should have gone for what i wanted and stick to it but i wasnt sure if that is what i wanted, to excel in sports. i really regretted not doing it earlier..wen u're young , u really have no idea what you want in life. no wonder kids have to be pushed all the time.i couldnt let my life go just like that again..

:)

I miss you actually,if you know who you are.

When there is no one else, there is you.

National YEC 2010 race!

My mascot wore the inside as the outside. lol! Joke of the day. No wonder he can sweat so much faster!. haha! But well done JM.! u did an excellent job. :) but i dunno why my mascot ended up without a mouth. zzz. and i dunno why my mascot T-shirt so tight fitting.And my mascot was supposed to be FAT! come to think of it! But ohwell, everyone still loves the mascot. :)

Thats all i have for the event. The rest of the photos are with the photographer and the committee.

Today was 1 hell of a day for me.

The moment i reached the destination, i saw pple wearing the T-shirt designed by my friend S. i felt really happy and proud of her. i was secretly smiling once going to the registration area. And the whole committee has only 1 goal, which is to make this whole event a success! And apparently it did! Just abit of hiccups here and there. Everyone was very friendly, helpful and cooperative. :) Thats wad it shld be. Its so much easier wen everyone has the same goal. You help one another.

Woke up at 530.FYI. i spent a total of 12hrs at the event to help out. M. i want my CIP hours hor! ha ha!

Reached at 715, was alot clueless on what to do cuz my PR side was to jus design what was given. I am proud of my designer friend S. afterall, design student still noes better.ohwell. Even the simplest design for the cert, i cannot even do properly. how am i even supposed to do the photography backdrop? it would be a disaster! But i was quite disappointed in myself cuz I FAILLED!

i failed to finish what i was given. I failed to do it and give it my best. it would not happen again. i promise!

So den, my mascot finally arrived! i was totally so proud and ecstatic cuz everyone loves my mascot. awww! that was the very moment that $ cannot buy. the moment of satisfaction and fulfillment. You may think that its so easy to just come up with an animal. But trust me, wen you are really doing it. i was really clueless! clueless! which animal? which exactly? shld i choose this? shld i choose that? no, it doesnt reflect on the environment, i cant jus choose this cuz i like it. the mascot has t be chosen for a meaning. ahh. stressed! it was so hard to make a decision. Den, have to think about the shirt, what colour it shld be, dark green?light green?brown?blue?dark blue? but its not suitable,hmm. Think dark green still reflects best on the environment. :)

Help here and there, ended up, taking care of my mascot the whole day. fun fun!

Cant wait for the pictures to be up.

So we packed up after and headed home. Took the train back and i was standing cuz its so packed.suddenly this stupid ahlian malay baby dropped the bottle of wadeva black syrup inside on the floor and it spilled onto my leg. nb. i have t scold vulgarities. fuck man. SO PISSED OFF! urgh! its like so sticky! bldyhell.so i turned around and ask them for tissue papers and they say dunhave. nb. even more pissed off, instantly my face got so black and blood rushes up to my face. i can feel the heat. it felt like at any moment i can jus stab them. thats how mad i was. urghh! so pissed! i wanted to quarrel with them in the train but apparently my brain function slightly slower until like few mins later. waahhh. ta boleh tahan sia! stupid malay mom. urgh!Best still, there are indian kids infront of me playing with eachother. bldyhell, stepped on my topshop shoe! nb. not just once but many times. urgh! wads with today man! after that took the train at JE,wahh. i was sitted next t this TYPICAL indian man, wahhhh. the odor is O.M.G. ur respiratory system can instantly tell ur brain to STOP BREATHING. wads with today man seriously.

Lastly, mom complaint t dad about her meds and i asked her wad happened. she said i told her t take double dose of antibiotic. O.M.G! i tot i saw 2 tabs! but it was 2 times! wahhh. my eyes playing tricks.prolly i was too tired den. crap! luckily nth happened to her and no wonder for the past few days she had headache. that was the SE. wahh. i am deem t b punished. wth la merina! own mom also can be so careless. deem to be scolded too.

Tell me, isnt this 1 hella day for me?And i cant sleep yet, need to study. Tim sms me t go club. crazyy mannnnn. Tmr still need t meet my friend t celebrate bday,mon meeting another friend t catch up. wahh. i will nv change. Busy and hardworking as a bee!

KEEP FIGHTING MERINA!

:)

"It will never be a easy journey to achieve your goals, never will"

pondering

is it normal to have second thoughts about what you are about to do? i am having seconds thoughts on going to do Jaw surgery to correct my jaw misalignment,however its only just a slight misalignment but i cannot turn back now. Since ive decided, ive to stick to it. Besides the orthodontist has already extracted two of my teeth. Sigh. am i making the right decision to even go for the Jaw surgery? And i suddenly realized that why my orthodontist pluck out 2 of my teeth?! Shldnt he jus pluck 1 out since he is just gona pull my other teeth in line?y must pluck the other? Gee! It is all worth the pain for what i want? Gee..

what u want out of your live?

"Study the past, live the present and plan for the future."

Some people pissed me off today! urgh.

suprised.

Dad says that dun expect so much from people cuz at the end of the day, what you get in return is disappointment.

ohwell. i have to agree to that. And my poly friends actually gave me my bday PREZZIE! awww. so sweet of them and they did the card during lectures. awww. becuz of me they din listen to lectures. hmm. that was a suprised! THANKS BABES! :)

And ouh. Gona thanks my bffs and their boyfriends who celebrated my bday. me footing the bill was unexpected mann. thats so not the tradition lorrr. ohwell.. but thanks for the effort and the gift. :) cant believed we've been friends for 7years already? we must continue t contact until we attend each other's wedding oh. :)

how to get to my goal?

Umpired tonite's Div 6 game, E. said that ive improved. :D

Gotta continue t keep practicing and learn from the Best. Indeed its about the journey, not exactly the destination yet. Its not easy getting to the destination but thats wad u want, so u gona stay focus and fight it hard. Humans are judgmental and im guilty of that,however ive been learning not to judge but to understand what made them be this way. u get scoldings, u get backstabbing, u get criticizing, u get people complaining about u. u get people judging you that you're hopeless. But who cares. really, at the end of the day, u got to know what exactly u want, what exactly is your goal. Be it if people are faster. so what?! at the end of the day, you still get what you want, just that u're slower. but really SO WAD? i guess im beginning to understand what it takes to get to your goal. ive to stick to these and finish up what i intend for since ive decided to get it started, i shld finish it. Thats my principle of life.

And today, ive got a friend who said this: enjoy now, you dunno wen u're gona die, what if u die tmr?"

i wasnt really pondering over this qn cuz i say that wad if god wants you to continue to live until u're old and withered? If i were to die tmr, it means that im a god damn kind person that god decided to take me back with him. As far as possible, i wana live for a meaning and not give in to temptations.

Til date, my long term goal is still stuck in my head, thinking..all the time and how am i gona get there.

i dun love $, ive got a goal, or rather many goals and tat requires me t have $$.

i jus wana retire in Australia or somewer that is paradise! i wana own a horse stable and let handicapped kids to ride horses! i wana be in paradise. And how the hell do i get there? no $ no paradise! i wana scuba dive everyday, i wana be financially free so that i can travel werever i want, explore this whole EARTH that god has created and help the kids in poorer countries. Am i born to do all that?

ohwell, just letting my thoughts run thru to get me back on track, on my goal.

til den. :)