Bonjour!

HI! :) Been window shopping these days. ;)

i dun get some people. I know when things cant get you down, it only makes you stronger and im getting stronger.that is call growing. You teach but people dun listen, its fine when it happens once or twice and sometimes its okay if it happens many times when ur loved one is not listening. But it frustrates me to see that im treated as a buzzing bee! just BUZZZZZ and off it goes! it just doesnt get into the person's head! why is it so hard for them to just get the FREAKING info in their heads? oh! cuz im too soft for them to take in what i said? If that is so, fine! i'll change instantly. Im gona take a different approach, just watch me how! Im a person who says that im gona do it, i keep it! Im a woman of my words! When im angry,means im angry! When im sure of my feelings, i stick by it. Dun play with me and test my patience and tolerance! everyone has their limits and everyone has their way of releasing their frustrations but just dun test mine. i duno how freaking nasty i'll end up doing.. 

And oh, guess wad.. You can take the soft but u cannot handle the hard, why is that so? becuz it hurt ur ego! And it makes you feeling low and lousy and u needed to run away and find solutions to solve the issues and you couldnt let down your little pride to clear the air. I let down mine to explain things to you and you chose not to. yet i hope. Wadeva it is, stop giving urself excuses! you're just full of excuses the day i met you! JUST STOP! AND JUST DO IT! successful people dun find excuses, they work on it and den do it!

moments of creativity :)

MFW 2011

 special thanks to my cousin brother for helpin us to get the tix t MFW 2011. XOXO :)

there's still alot of pictures but its missing! nah. its somewhere,have to find. 

i have decided,i'll just focus and work hard in this two years of nursing first then decide where i want to go or where its gona take me. No point thinking so much. Just have to absorb as much learning experience and knowledge from this two years of nursing. tmr is the foundation program so hope i can continue the focus! Dun want to think so much either. Not gona do me any good. 

Last nite in taiwan

Tmr heading back to Sg. So happy. :) anw today we went to danshui and wufenpu.wahh.danshui got quite alot of food to eat.Taiwan indeed has alot of food to eat but not ximenting. the things not only expensive,the designs are very little as well. wufenpu fashion area has SO MUCH MORE.its like bugis street but bigger and the clothes are just slightly cheaper. Bought quite afew clothes. Need to do something about it. spent quite alot here come to think of it. Have to do someting with the clothes man!

Tmr gona go for the flora exibition that my mom is dying to go which i knowwww.All her flowers! haha! everytime she sees flowers,its "mei,take pic of me with the flower,mei,very nice go take la..go go!" everytime! While my dad is "gt church,im going,haiya.u all so long,i go off first" and he left for church.haha! other den that he completely has no interest at allllllll.

so yea. "im coming home" :)

Day 6 at taiwan

Ximenting! thats wer people says its the same to eat and shop! i was so excited when people says that there's shopping and food! Well i totally agree that there are alot of food and their MEE SUA is the best! Plus their bubble milk tea! today i drank like 3cups! they use the high quality milk and its damn yummy! i think its the milk that make it tastes nice! hehe! And after drinking so many bubble tea, i was seeking for fruit juice and there were none t be found only after walking few streets away from simenting. We din exactly walk jus t buy the fruit juice la,we chance upon it wen we were on our way to taipei train station.the "jiam bu" fruit is damn sweet and nice! DElICIOUS! and the fruits here are exceptionally sweet! And i bought a few masks back! hehe! not cheap tho but heard its good and tried it myself so bought more,anw i wouldnt be coming back here again isnt it. haha! Taiwan indeed has ALOT of food stalls to eat and Sg is like only a small part as compared t taiwan.haha! Today i had this stonecove bun filled with mince meat and lots and lots of chopped spring onions! its DAMN NICE! like haeven! thats the only food that made a significant impression of all the other food that ive tasted. That bao" is damn nice! even my mom is amazed and she wana learn to make it by oven e bao.lol! so yea,we walked for about 20mins t head t taipei train station cuz some of the people says that there are some nice clothes to shop so we walked! But disappointed again,nth much and the price of th clothes is just the same as ximenting. so disappointed.its like there is someone controlling their market rate man. so we walked and walked and my mom very tired,she wanted to use the elevator but ther's no elevator,super not elderly friendly and not bladder friendly. so hard to find toilet.

anyway wads disappointing is the clothes here. there are alot aftering the korean clothes. Its so korean style and alot of the designs are from korea. I think korea still the best t shop for high quality clothes. the price is also right for such high quality clothes.Taiwan's clothes is expensive and not nice! the price is comparable with Sg and the clothes prolly i can get it from Sg,nt significant for me to buy back except for some tank top but e tank top is not cheap either.shouldnt suprised me cuz the last time i came to tw,its just as expensive as well.

But the shoes are nice tho. its a little cheaper den sg.

As compared to sg,sg still way way better. lucky im not thrown here for any reasons other den holiday cuz im gona cry here. T.T Im really very very fortunated to be living in Sg. Too used to Sg's environment already.

And the taiwan's shop workers are damn rude too. The females especially,guys are always warmer and not so bitchy! Damn! there was today? i went to this shop and we're shopping for shoes? they lady got so frustrated and tell my mom not t listen to anyone's advises except her own and i was so pissed! FUCKING PISSED and i told the stupid worker off that im her daughter! not some "anyone" wth is she t speak like that,and she can show that frustrated face. hello woman,go learn some service talk to improve on your servicing if u dun like to serve den go home and sleep! so pissed! i was about t leave the shop after i finish telling her off and ask my mom t go and dun buy all the shoes! But lucky the guy was calmer and calm everything down and the lady covered herself up. Like seriously,if those in service line do not like doing servicing,just quit the damn job and go hm sleep! so rude! whose the boss? its the buyers! the consumers!so violated! "dun listen to anybody la,jus buy what u want la,why u must listen to what others say!" Screw ur servicing skills! so pushy. guys are still better,more tactful in handling situations.okay.enuff of comparison and complaining. aint making my nite cuz im sleepin soon. tmr milk tea again. :D

Nites nites! :)

Day 4 of Taiwan

tmr gona be Day 5 and left a few more days to SG! YEA! whats best other den your own homeland? isnt it? I wouldnt wana adapt to a place like Taiwan but i certainly dun mind learning their style. :) neway, everytime we head back to the hotel, im always looking forward for asking lan wire or wifi :) so i can start blogging. i think i should refine my writing more. Been blogging since like secondary 1? and that is like 8years of blogging. Blogging is like a part of my life now you know, its where you can express all your real thoughts and feelings into somewhere people do not stop you from it and its the only place it can help me lighten my load of emotions when im sad or heighten my emotions of happiness but usually its sadness where the blog found me again and again,cause by writing,i am thinking thru all the qns that hit me. okay! side-tracked. haha. Back to business.

So today we were at Kaohsiong st,went to see the confucius temple and some deity temple and went to dream mall to window-shop branded goods,taiwan's not the place to buy branded.haha. And oh, i heard Taiwan mask is good so a lady recommanded me to get "wo de mei li de ri ji" mask,cosmad sells it and that brand has about 10 different kinds of mask,ders white pearl powder mask,black pearl powder mask,aloe,cholate,sake yeast etc. there were so any to choose from and my mom was annoying! she was rushing me when there is like 15more mins to leave and i told her to give me 5mins to consider what i want cuz i dunwana buy the wrong one and then im gona regret and wasted the $,its $ we're talking about and she can still tell me money hard to earn yet she kept rushing me when there is enuff time! so angry,she's gona pay for that,not me. If that's my money, i would consider even longer. Its not all about "aiya,buy and go,buy and go.." the amount of $ im gona earn is not about "buy and go" its about making stupid decisions and i dun wana regret buying something that im pressurised about. I need to learn to stay firm. Staying firm is something that i still am learning. Im weak and i know. im soft and i know, i get eaten sometimes and i know. But im learning to be strong.. so long i have a brain and am a fully-abled body, there is nothing i cannot do. If a blind can play beautiful music,isnt it a shame that a fully-abled body with eyes cant do what a blind can? to succeed? Now i really dun care whether people calls me stubborn all the time or wadeva,really. i try to listen to the right person,i cant possibly listen to every tom,dick,harry,balls,cats and dogs rite? If u're smart and you are up there, i definitely respect you and listen to every single word you say,i wouldnt even question. Ok,side-tracked again.haha

So yea, mom and i was pissed but i think again,if im pissed,i'll lose out so i decided to stop being pissed and went back to get what i wanted,i was there for a few mins and finally gotten what i want. :) and of cuz,we're not late. so yea, we bus again and alighted at kaohsiong's night market, so many food stall but all tasted like crappp. Sg is way better. the food really suck t max! SG STILL TH BEST! :) hehe. Wasted my stomach space for awful food,mygawd. I had to exercise when im back to the hotel. T.T gona go excess running without food man. i can feel the food gone down to my legs,mygawd. so yea.

 bonsur madame et monsiour. Shall blog tmr.

:)

Day 3 of taiwan

It seems like this holiday is a long one. And i should learn to enjoy myself despite who the people are in the same tour group as me. Guess wad,today mom bought the taiwan authetic Lingzhi and there is the raw pure royal jelly which apparently, its spoilt! !@$#@%@ and the free moisturiser they give expires in May 2011 which is next year! damn,im pissed! How can they do business like that,cheating on consumer's trust and money. What i learn from this is that i should stay resilient and strong-headed from all the pressure given be it by my parents or whoever and always check on all the products i buy be it whether they take the iniative to check it or not but i think i should take the iniative to check it before i leave the place. Tell me about it, its not that the consumers doesnt want to trust those that sell the product but its becuz of other black shits ruin the trust.its terrible seriously.tmr morning the tour guide has to face me and give me a solid explanation of wth the royal jelly smells like rotten cheese and the moisturiser gona expires the next month! im so gona get it changed by hook or by crook.

Today did hot spring of 41.6 degree celcius. we're cooking ourselves. haha. so yea. im only looking forward for the last day! THE SHOPPING DAY! who doesnt look forward to it really. :)

I WANA CHANGE MY ROYAL JELLY! IM PISSEDDDDDD! does pure royal jelly supposed to smell like rotten cheese

Taiwan day 2

Now we're in Taipei lounging in a 4 bedded spacious hotel room. i think its 3 star too if im not wrong. Tmr gona like go for Hot spring. The guy says those who have HTN,DM,wound healing,pregnant cant go down for hot spring cuz of the after soak reasons. Too bad for mom.she can only shower. And mom is killing my dad! She kept feeding him with fatty food! ive to chopstick away for my dad,lucky my dad knows his limits. Being on this holiday tour with my parents is a killer. i really wana head back to SG nowwwwww. And all we did today was EAT,SIGHTSEEING for like a few minutes and back on board on the bus,sleep.eat again,get down for a few mins back on board,sleep. and its gona be the same for the next one week! T.T cry. How can i not grow fatttttt. Both of them are giving me headaches! huge one. and all the time. especially my dad. Have to keep a constant lookout for him and his stuffs and he can be REALLY ANNOYING and its really really annoying! i asked him to like get the wifi lan line from downstairs cuz im all bathed and pimples squeezeed with pimple whte cream on my face and full of redness.he can still say :huh,later la,let me watch finish his show" by the time he finish watching,my laptop batt is down and i wont be here blogging alr and i wont be doing my errands online.Sometimes im jus pure lazy to explain myself.ok? stop bugging and complaining about me you stupid people! And mum asked him to bring like a coat over cuz its gona be chilling and he forgt and certain things my mom tell him to do,he just says NVM LA,whose the one being the stubborn stub now.sigh.Wad to do,just tolerate lor.cant do anything wad,jus keep quiet and be blame for being stubborn and everything negetive cuz i tolerate negetive stuffs and dun really complain. Do i have to always be the first to complain so pple will know that its nt my fault?Im not like my dad and i do not have my dad's brain and neither would i want to have his brains.im just normal,certain things i dun do cuz im lazy okay? just pure lazy..so sick of pple having to say me. i should just say:ahh. u do la. im lazy." done deal..so yeaaaa, mummy aint that bad,she can still take care of herself. 

I MISS MY HOME! :( the food in sg is so much nicer den here and the road traffic is like crap here.
so toodles. i miss everything in sg. i wana gooooo home! FAST!

Goodbye SG, hello Taiwan.

Taiwan have such cooling weather of 18degrees celcius and its the right temperature for heading around in taiwan . mummy says its spring going summer soon. so that explains the cooling shiok weather. ;) so yea. we depart Sg at 1545 hours and arrived at 2050hours. the flight journey in the tiger airways plane was alittle torturous but its still tolerable. What to expect from a budget airline isnt it. its the price you pay for what you want. cheap things, dun expect good. But hey, come to think of it, budget terminal is getting more and more well established though, despite the fact that the government did not pump in large amount of $ for the outlook and structures of the BUDGET TERMINAL. Now there are more eateries and shops compared to the last time i been there, which was like last year? :)

so mummy says that we will be travelling to different hotels EVERYDAY. that is a huge headache for me, a person who likes to procrastinate,  my gawd! its gona be a tiring holiday moving to different hotels EVERYDAY. Can you imagine first stop, u only have one bag,and den you move on to the next with more bags and move on to the next with more and more bags and at the end of the destination.. well,yea. the amount of load you have to bring it along. i need a stong fit man like my brother to be around so he can relentlessly carry the heavy loads by fully utilizing his humongous muscles. hehe.

So we arrive to our 3 star hotel and guess wad, there's a mini hot spring tub in our room! WEEE! gona bath and then soak myself in the tub,mum says its sulphur water.hahaha. cute isnt she.

ohkay. mummy wants me to do things now.

so au' voir mandame and monsieour. Thats day 1 for my trip. tmr is speed training day for just 20mins heading to different hotel. T.T save me!

You are just so ugly as a person

I had enough of your nonsense, you definitely have Anger management problem and EQ deficiency. I make sure this will be the last time you're doing this shit! You're under my blacklist and i will NEVER FORGIVE YOU! Leopard will NV change its spots. You simply have high EGO and think that you're so great in criticizing and putting down people to make yourself go higher, go ahead. No wonder you always have issues with people in your work. People talks behide your back and you just dun even know. You just lie your way through and make it seems like it has nothing to do with you. No wonder people side you cuz they dun even noe what sorts of person you are. Well guess wad, you badmouth every single one of the closest people behide their back and they dun even noe it. And you always have the cheek to ask for things. Well, that includes family and cousins as well even after badmouthing each and everyone of them. If i were to tell what you badmouth about lx and xg, sees whats gona happen next.maybe they will let it go, maybe not. who knows. oh. prolly ur just gona save your own ass and go oh, no la. merina is just making up stories to get back on me. we're just fighting. Screw you. Me and you now are hostility. People who really side you are people who are stupid. You're just getting uglier and uglier as a person! u can go oh, we're just having siblings fight, dun bother about us. the true fact is that no one knows what sort of person you are. thinking you're oh so great. people will go, oh. shes just being lost in life,oh. pity her,oh. let her be. Wait til those people have a TRUE TASTE of her and they will know. Come on people, mix with her more and be with her more. shes nice and sweet and friendly and fun-for temporary only. 

Oh, and maybe she might read this, maybe not. prolly she's just gona comment and save her own ass criticizing about me. go ahead and comment if you're reading. Such ugly personality you have, only that damien can tolerate your stupid nonsense! 

This fight is never ending. that explains jason ong's r/s with you. maybe he's not the person that has issue with you but you having issues with him.oh,i almost forgot, you're never wrong.you're always right,by lying thru your scheming mouth. Right. 

And oh, i haven forgotten why she din wana give my cousin xg anything for his bday,right. cuz he din help her at all and decided not to give him anything. mine oh mine. den of cuz. why would she be giving? she's always receiving or having people to do things for her else she'll badmouth the person behide and giving the person prolly a hard time. hmm. 

i hope she meets someone more worse than her and deal with her. she haven meet and seen the worse yet. screw you really ugly person.

MFW 2nd

Apparently some says im spontaneous and i am. but being spontaneous is good and bad for the fun of it. However i do not want to be a nurse for the rest of my life! People who are rich are people who does Business and i wana learn to do business too! 

i guess i am naive at times but being naive is good. Hv u heard "ignorant is bliss" hah

but alot of things do happen that we do not know of. 

Today is the day that i learn alot of things. looking at how people behave and dress and stuff. 

Never regret going for MFW tho. 

But sometimes things can go alittle off and its irritating! 

i guess im really the type that being eaten all the time. But its okay. Cuz i know that everytime i do, i'll be eating others in future. 

Have you seen those kids in secondary school used to be like perfect and smart straight As student and when they grow other, they wanted to be another and they turn out being people who smokes, being fat and drinks and go against authority? People do change. And have you seen kids who are ugly turned out pretty or pretty turn out ugly? 

I'll always rmb this saying" thought you have gotten the champion status,doesnt mean you slack. Still have to uphold the title and work doubly hard" that is really inspiring to know. i'll always rmb that. 

Its okay that im giving now cuz i know that i will not be giving in the future and i'll be receiving. 

If you're nasty to me, i'll be nasty back to you. Just as simple. 

I'm nice to everyone,so long you fuck me, i'll just fuck you back depending what your status is. 

There's still alot to learn in life. And especially got to learn how to be more thick-skin to ask for what i want. 

So yea, Jiayou in life merina! i hope for the best for my future and earn millions of dollars and be rich taitai. 

However, being rich and being the top only makes the person more lonely. 

Why all the riches guys are gays? Oh, maybe the people they meet are guys so prolly they just needed some love care and attention i supposed. Still, you cant have best of both worlds isnt it. 

I WANT TO BE RICH and have my MERINA's HORSE STABLE or MERINA'S CORPERATION

yes. i am definitely dreaming. ohwell. haven you heard? dreams do come true. law of attraction! :)

JIAYOU! GAMBATTE!

MFW 2011

It was an awesome night tonight. 

Well done to the organiser for organising such great event that gone well tonight. *thumbs up!

Thought all of us arrived early for the event, the torture only started at night where the heels were starting to be a killer to me. The most important show at 11pm din managed to get in. But ohwell. my feets were arching like mad. I missed the big big chance and highlight of the event!neway, 5inchs heels that i walked almost half the day? Goodie to me! 

I need to learn to be more thick-skinned abit. Thin-skinned cldnt get me anywhere. Aunty is right, i think i shld learn to be more thick-skinned to the right moment and right person. Im still learning who to be thick-skinned to or thin-skinned to. How to behave appropriately in all sorts of different occasions. im still trying to grasp it at my finger tip. 

Thought i may be quiet at times but the moments of silence does not mean nth, it always mean something and its usually something that i make sure i will get back on, its just a matter of time. 

The moments of silence is the time where i tear you apart silently. 

Im nice to everyone but that doesnt mean everyone can poo on my head. 

criticizing someone to make yourself look better is just a laughing stock to me. I laugh silently.

Whats life? live around and you will get used to it. Thats life. 

Looking forward for the next show tmr! 

:) doodles.

Friday's the big day! or rather! TMR'S THE BIG DAY!

Im so eggggcited for tmr! 

As we all know, mens fashion week 2011 is held in Singapore for the very first time! it is the Third fashion show after the ones at Paris and Milan. :)

And all of us are attending the MFW tmr! im so excited! For once we can take pretty pictures tomorrow and with all my cousin's friends and my friends together. :)

gorgeous for once in our life time, or rather mine? Since my prom nite suck? cuz of the horrendous make up done by my friend's makeup artist? prolly she got the one that is meant for the dead corps instead of the live one. Like seriously? i shall not further elaborate on that horrendous memories in my mind. Just use our intelligence to figure out what i meant. 

So yea. Been really busy looking for nice dresses and heels to blow people's mind away or rather for nice memories to keep for life. 

Tmr gona be a long day for me. Im missing my street jazz 1 at 5 tmr and it sucked big time. and next week gona be at Taiwan. Which im gona miss another class big time! And that is like 40$ fly away O school! :(

Tmr have to call them up, but ive to go down to HR to get my transcript, den head down to SNB den head back to HR for the photocopy. they really think we're really that free and really think that SG is that small to travel to and fro. They think that we're travelling from orchard t somerset? Joke! 

so yea, prolly heading down to kissjane's launch at 11-12 at bugis junction? come to think of it, my friends haven reply me yet! Den after that rushing off to home to get changed,bath,make up and stuff and oh! i supposed forgt! change my pedro's heel! Gona have to be a bitch to get it changed. so sorry pedro. Please from label me as a bad customer. I shall apologize first. :) 

So yea. the hectic long day will start at 9am onwards and go all the way to 8pm plus? 

And so sorry that i haven been talking to you, u must be thinkin that im neglecting you. 

If you really read everyday as you claim, u will see this. :) if u dun, den too bad den. 

So Lets enjoy tmr people! cameras charged, tissue paper,oil blotter? lipgloss and some makeup to touch up. 

And how am i to go home from there? Gee!