nyp netball trial

*eyes half opened.yawn!today was my poly's netball selection and i gt into the squad!MUHAHA!heard from people that its quite tough to get in but i gt in anyways!=D this proves somthing..i'm good!der's alot of good players in der especially abi and someothers.i'm glad that i made it to the squad and this coming monday is the OFFICIAL netball training for those who got selected..hoho!i felt so exhilarated rite now,especially doing good for my netball.i was never good when i first started joining netball and seems like i'm doing well now.=D
i never tho of joinin netball in my life cuz i always think that netball is not even strenous and tough,i'm kinda sick!i love tough trainings as i love the torture!it test my endurance,perserverance,determination and commitment.i still rmb the first time i had the dilemma of choosing either bball or netball due to the fact that my TRACK closed down!netball need replacement for them as they do not have enuff players for the tournament and decided to go for it cuz der's cca points!started playing netball since sec 3 and i can still rmb that i cant even shoot the bloody ball into the net at all for the first training!i feel lousy and demoralised for the first training.but times and times again,i kept turning up for trainings and kept playing and playing,eventually i got better,thats for sure rite?practise makes perfect!thats the cliche that everyone says abt!After playing netball for only 3yrs?i'm alr considered quite good,as compared to those know play since sec 1?haha!i feel so great abt myself!now i'm trying to aim for U21,where i have to commitment my life to it.will i be ready den?
seriously speaking,i told myself that if the atmosphere in nyp netball is like shit,i'll just join other sports ccas but apparently,the newbies like me are way way nicer den the school team pple,BLOODY STUCK UP!seriously,i dun wanna bitch about them,maybe jus the captain..nv show a single RESPECT!BLOODY HELL! i felt like giving her one tight slap.urgh!horrible seniors..BLOODY stuck up!when its our turn to rule the nyp netball team?we'll definitely gonna change the atmosphere and make everyone feel a WANT to join us..
ohwell..i've been busy with CCAs lately,rather den my studies!hahaha!tmr der's kickboxing! den friday gt touch rugby trial,saturday gt SHS captain's ball game,sunday gt netball trg,monday gt sprint kayak trial,tuesday DB?,wed netball,thursday free!,friday dunno if i'm free!SO DARN BUSY WITH CCAs!and i like!hahahaaha!but ohwell,definitely gonna study hard and play hard at the same time!And and 1 last thing to add,made a bunch of nice pple from netball today!hahhaa!alrite.shall end now.tata!n oh..no time to change my blog skin!=((

random blogging

brr,i'm freezing to death in my room rite now and this post is quite a random 1.suddenly feel like bloggin after reading one of my friend's blog.man!she sort of let me realised and think back wad have i done and wad i'm gonna achieve in my life,definitely she has achieved something extraordinary and i'm so impressed by her.it made me realised that i had achieved nth much in my life.i wonder will i have such deep determination and get my mind rite and focus on wad i want to achieve in life?Am i ever gonna have the determination and perseverance to go for the extra mile?Am i gonna not try very hard to achieve wad i want in life?Am i gonna get influenced from my friends greatly and distant away from my goals in future?Am i gonna be strong enuff to stand strong and break all the obstacles?ALL this qns will be answered in the future and time will let me noe the answer.i must must must try very hard to resist the temptation like surfing the net and getting distracted from day dreaming.i need to get my mind rite and focus on wad i want.just like the nike quotation"just do it" but definitely it does not applies to nursing.haha!i might just get patients killed and suffer from heavy consequences.
oh well,i'm starting to get sick and tired of my blog skin,gonna get it changed when i'm free.=)anw,i seriously need to lose a large sum of calories!i dun feel good and light and furthermore,i dun look good wearing the desire clothes that i bought.Usually i'll buy the clothes impulsively tho its 1 size smaller,i'll have the mindset that okayy..nvm!i'll lose weight to fit myself into the top.BUT!no use!the motivation and determination doesnt last me for even a month!usually its only a week,and den i get distracted and din bother to lose some weight again!man!i need to change my mentality!
And nowadays i jus feel that i cant click with pple anymore,i dunno wad to talk abt to different individuals anymore.why is that?!and i jus feel like getting home everyday after school,read up on my nursing references and spend my whole day in my room.nowadays i'm like living in a world of my own.Almost every gurl in my clique in poly has a bf and they asked me why i dun hv.my answer will always be i cant commit in a r/s this moment,even if it did,i doubt it will last cuz i'll always prioritize my family first,den my life,my friends and lastly my r/s.thats for now,in future,i'll definitely gonna place my r/s first!!i feel like shit rite now without having any great achievements in life.My brother is a spoiler in my life.He always pull me down in life.everything i do,everything i ask,everything i share with him and everthing i tell him,he'll definitely says things that bring me down in life.i usually jus laugh it off cuz i dun wanna get mad at his comments at all,tot i may not take it to heart,sometimes it jus linger in my mind..he doesnt even support me both mentally and physically..i feel sad sometimes..man!i'm being emo rite now.=( and he always disrespect me!he doesnt even treat me like a sister,i always feel like he treats me like a loser or a rubbish dump.urghh!wateva!i jus hates him sometimes.ever since after he gt into commando,he changed so much!more like a demon instead.he thinks that he's a commando,he can jus disrespect pple.AHHH!!its the first time i last said i hate him since primary school.urgh!he's nth!he's not gonna affect my life!why in the earth am i blogging wad he says abt me at all?!i'm so not gonna get affected by him!i noe wad i'm doing!its my life,i'm gonna take full control of it and i cant because of wad he says,turn me into someone that is useless and a total loser!NO WAY!FUCKKK!!!i dun wanna talk abt this matter anymore!
i'm gonna try my best to do things at my best!no matter how high is the hurdle,i'll jus keep trying to prepare myself and jump over.i must no matter wad!jump over the stupid hurdle.
haah!this post is a long and random 1.anw i signed up for netball,touch rugby,nyaa,sprint kayak and shittt!i din sign up for db!urghh!but i might just go for the trial anw!maybe luh!haha!i planned on netball and sprint kayak!but shitt!their trg days clashes,both falls on monday!SHITT!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

First day of school at NYP was alrite,had our first lectures by dr paranama and he's hilarious,making us laugh to keep us awake!=D our class gurls were quite unite jus that the china gurls were quite on their own,its as tho singaporeans 1 clique,china gurls another clique.feeling so bad for them..=( anw!our class leader is a china guy and he's naive and funny as the same time,our class always fun at him for his naive-ness,blur-ness and cute-ness at the same time!hahahhaa!JOKER!
i was glad that our class weren't lost for lectures and stuffs!*claps!!And poly life is kinda slack,u get breaks all the time,1 hr lectures,den 1 hr break den 1hr lesson,1/2hr break.wow!i likeee!better get used to the poly life now!And today my class wad kinda cute,after class,we headed and follow whoever who leads and goes wherever the person who leads wanna go.hahah!kinda dumb ending up in a place where we have nth to do der!hahah!difficult to manage a big grp!i still prefer smaller grps!anw!bio lesson wad kinda fun,somehow..hahah!saw some cells under the microcope!COOL!firs day of school gt nth much actually,looking forward for the following days to come!stress oh stress!AND I CANT WAIT FOR CLUB CRAWL!RAR!!!!!!

went to shangri-la

gee!went to shangri-la,the line,the most famous and high class buffet.it was 95bucks during that day cuz the chief was der.man!its darn expensive!but afterall,my mum din mind cuz it was a celebration for my sister 24 BDAY!muhahha!how old she is now.24!omg!And i'm 18 after my bday in may 29!man..time really fliess..i'm getting old too!but i still cant compare my sis when she's 18 and when i'm 18.the difference lies btw our characters.hahha!and maybe cuz she's the oldest so she holds more responsibility den i do.until now,i still like them taking responsibility for my actions.prolly depending on them alot.hahha!wateva is it.the pictures below are taken at "the line" enjoy!hahahaahah!

nyp orientation

nyp orientation wasnt a blast for me!it only held for 1 day but this 1 day let me learn qutie abit.Learn about my new classmates,tho der's cheena ones,der's malay ones,der's ite 1s but i cant do anything about that.Afterall,they'll be ur classmates for the whole 3yrs!better not offend any of them.i dun wanna hold any hostile btw pple i have to face every sch day.who noes when i might need their help.HAHA!
ohwell,initally my class wasnt that enthu and it was quite an anti-climax when the OGLs were sort of high and we're kinda mundane.HAHA!But overall,this orientation is somewhat fun in a way where i get to sort of lead my team and motivate them abit and did alot of encouragement,i had to step up and let the ball rolling and afterwards,everyone gt more and more enthu.SATISFYING!HAHAHA!!And it has been a long time since i last lead a team..the feeling of leading a team was awesome!and the orientation was somewhat boring when it comes to the end,especially the 20luckydraws,man!they took donkey yrs to call those pple out.i was alr half asleep and drooling.we only had 1 pathetic lunch break from 9am to 7pm!can u believe it?!nyp academic club wanna torture us!but i likeee...hahaha!
monday is the official day of the start of our school term and i'm freaking excited about it!Guess i din regret my choice going to nyp den to np.so what der's palmtalk!so wad the cca is awesome,i'll get used to the life in nyp!anw its not tat bad afterall when u dun compare ur own school to others.ignorance is bliss!haha!
today my OGLs were telling me about the mentorship,leadership camp and all and i was super enthu abt it.i dun get why i get so high and active when i get to noe abt this kinda camps and especially OBS korea and taiwan!OMG!i must go no matter wad.i just cant help it from being so active in school.Guess jus studying and going for lecture alone can really kill me! i can die jus to go school for lectures,like seriously! i have to be active!like actively active and maximize my energy level when i'm in poly!
i'll make sure i'll make this whole 3 yrs of my poly life a FREAKING HAPPENING 1!nyp,wait for me!hahah!
And and i cant wait for club crawl on the 17th of april!!WOOHOO!!FREAKING EXCITED ABOUT IT!!HURHUR!!CCA DAY! i likeee....!!HAHHA!ambassador team,here i come!hahahh!!HAPPY HAPPY!
okayy..shall end my post by saying;"no matter wad pple says,its just their point of view,in the end,its still u who have to decide the decision,u may listen and feel regretted for maybe jus that particular period of time..den soon after,when it really comes,its not that bad afterall.the main thing is how you're gonna look at it.the brighter side? or the bad side?being a optimist or pessimist is still the final choice,for me,i chose to b a optimist.anw,for the whole of my 4months holiday that i had,its definitely an experiencing journey of my life.i chose to learn from every single thing i did and grow from it and now i guess i learn alot more and the way how i look into situations in life now.
i spent my whole holidays working all sorts of jobs,from office jobs to waitressing,to umpiring,to warehse packing(definitely tested my patients and endurance)and the office job left me the most impression,especially the constant scoldings from someone who's better den you.definitely gonna feel that ur ego has been stepped a million times yet you cant do anything but just take it.man..after the working life,it did tot me alot,especially mommy guiding me thru it and telling me about the aspect of life and how to go thru it.
ohwell..all the best for the people who just wanna whine and complain and dun wanna learn from their mistakes and quit from the job that u always get scoldings and think that you're so oh-so-lousy.thats jus wad every 1 has to go thru.BE THICKSKIN! and learn how you wanna see the aspect of ur job.being a optimist or pessimist in everything u do?you decide.=D"
okayyy...enough of my thing now.hahah!i wanna go my dreamland now..weee!from today onwards.i wanna be a happy person!HAHAHA!but dun take my happiness and kindness for granted,i'll bite when i get uber mad!LOL.but i hardly get mad anyway..angry is not in my dictionary.thats all.CIAO!

drunken woman..

gosh! friday nite was a freaking happening nite for both me and my friends..i cant believe i'll end up like how i was den..extreme emotional!
friday was den the officially day for rocky's last day at balcony so all of us intended to go LUNAR fusion bar but too bad! catherine,amanda and i was freakin underage..=.=! bday's not over yet..SADDED!cat and i were nt offically 18..so they planned and decided to head to party world just beside heeren..raymond was der and i was quite reluctant to go t noe that he'll b going.Der'll b a funny feelin when he's der..but i told myself not to bother much..we went into party world and raymond was inside..man.such a spoiler!he's kinda too much!he made Emily drink like 3 glass of alcohol.ouhouh..talkin about alcohol..we met up at balcony before headin to party world ,randy was askin us to go up and put our bags at balcony's office..we're kinda puzzled den but cheyy..after getting upstairs,he wants us to sneak alcohol into the room.had 2 bottles in my bag.okayy..back to wher i left off..Emily was way drunk,she cant even walk in the straight line and her face was darn red..went to the toilet a few times and finally she threw up.eeeww!the smell of the alcohol mixed with wadeva she ate.ERK!haha!but glad that she vomited.she was better den.soon after,i was kinda enjoying myself and raymond came over and wants catherine to drink the glass of alcohol,told her to drink slowly..den after that raymond wants me to drink so i drank.i drank super slow but that freakin gay was askin me to drink it fast so fine..i jus drink..
soon after,the alcohol effects started to act up.i felt kinda sleepy and i fell onto LP's lap..cat knew that i was drunk and she made me green tea.i was so darn sleepy that i hit the glass of green tea without knowin it..den LP's pants had some green tea.i was happily smiling and cleanin LP's pant.Den after that i slept over at kaiyang's shoulder,slight to the back of his back..i vividly rmbed that he was sayin wanna sleep den sleep properly,so i pushed myself and hit my face to keep myself awake.cat and LP went to the loo without me,i was alr kinda drunk den yet i noe wads going on with me..i dun exactly noe wads happening in the surrounding but i noe wads's going on in me.i felt like der's 2 me inside..1 is merina and the other is the fiercer merina.the real merina is alr in deep sleep but i kept fighting against the other merina.its freakin scary the thought of it.tho i'm drunk but i noe wad i'm doing jus that i cant control over my emotions,i cried to the extreme..screaming like nobody's business.shouting like nobody's business,talking like nobody's business,laughin like nobody's business,criticizing like nobody's business,hitting pple like nobody's business..that's it.when u're drunk,u jus do things like nobody business..the vision was blurry its felt like as tho u gt woken up by someone from ur deep sleep times and times again..the real merina was alr asleep and the fierce merina like shouting at pple who criticized me.I was really sensitive to wad pple say to be exact.i could hear everything to wad pple say and jus act without havin a second tho.So long u think,u jus act..u wanna hit pple,u jus hit..u wanna shout,u jus shout kinda thing..i vividly rmbed EVERY single thing..okayy..maybe about 90%..who says a drunken person will not rmb a single thing.THATS BULLSHIT! I REPEAT! BULLSHITT!!lol.u jus dun ahve THE control over ur body anymore during that point of time,tats it.for my case,i was darn emotional..maybe cuz i kept fighting against the another me to force myself to be awake due to the fact that i've gt work at 10am!!i kept forcing myself and telling everyone that i'm nt drunk and i'm okay..who noes when i walked a few steps..i fell onto the floor.made a whole din that time,infact,i'm like the main entertainment for all of them.HOW COOL!haha!freakk..the fierce merina was sucha ah lian!thats wad randy and everyone says so.my hand gestures and the way i spoked.i even vividly rmbed that i shouted at strangers with my hand gestures..shoutin and scolding and saying OII!!freaking loud.haha!vividly rmbed that i shouted at pple who smoke sayin things like CAN YOU STOP SMOKING?!IT FREAKING HURT UR HEALTH AND IT FREAKING HURT UR FREAKING $$?!CAN YOU JUST STOP?!!lol.man..how amazing i can still rmb almost everything tho i'm drunk.it din felt real tho..as in everything seems like a dream maybe cuz of the fact that the blurry vision was 1 of the cause of it.haha!so then whoever i shouted stopped smokin yet still smokes,i walked over and threw their ciggy away..man!i think they're freaking pissed especially raymond.haha!felt so bad now..insult so many pple.opps!but i cant help it!i was drunk.But i can rmb things clearly!haha!
After insulting everyone and anyone,i apologized a zillion times to all of them.i kept saying sorry and sorry..and i did things that i din realize i'll actually do it.hugged a guy..not 1 but two!hit a person,cried out loud.mann..the thought of it now just wanna make me laugh like crazzyy..haha!ohyahh! i even rmbed that randy was tryin to wake me up and i kept sayin that i cant control my emotions and i cant wake up..haha!den valen took cold water and pour over my face..gosh!its freaking amazin that i can rmb almost everything so clearly!mann..thats crazy!that nite i went insane but din vomit at all.Emily was alr alert and fine and it was my turn to go bizzare!haha!
All of them insisted to send me home and i hung on to kaiyang without letting him go ,he had no choice but to hop on to the same cab as me and khakis.HAHA!he lived ard central but too bad he gt chosen to go back with me..haha!it was freaking hilarious how i made a whole din to myself.HAH!i think everyone enjoyed the entertainment i made on myself.haa!
anw i wanna thank cat and emily for being der and sorry at the same time..and everyone else too..especially raymond and randy.HAHA! funnyy..okayy..had fun that nite tho.Guess its gonna be the last alcoholic gatherin for me..cuz of how i turned out.opps!
emily and kaiyang sent me at my doorstep.HAHA! the funny thing is that i even criticize the taxi uncle!lol..funny!sorry and thanks again!ouhhyay! i even vividly rmbed that someone took pics of me and i even posed! and lp was taking a freakin video cuz i tell her to even when i was alr drunk.the fact is..no matter how drunk u are,u can still rmb and noe wad the hell u're doing and wads going on wit urself.its like u're semi-conscious!so yea..i was lucky that i din puke..PHEW!haha!okayy..end of my storyy..THANKS AND SORRY EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN!jus incase if anyone of u read this somehow.=D
ouhouh..my story has ended for that nite but not for the dayy!haha!woke up early n headed to ikea,bought some mirrors and now its fixed!glad!hah!den went over to anchor point to take a quick btie at disney's cafe..pics will be up soon!haha!den headed to their G2000,it was having sells.sis bought the guys long collar shirt and i wore it for rocky's last gathering!haha!after that gathering..i reached home at 9.00,bathed and slept at 9.15 den 9.30 gt woken up by valen!irritating!hahah!i slept for 15mins and off i changed and went for work at 10 at suntec.how power i was and i was still kinda semi conscious.i din really noe wad i was talking to the guest at all..shitt!!wadeva it is..its over!hahaa!reached home,bathed and slept rite infront of the freking computer..man..i took hours typing this post.ohwell..thats all. so THE END!haha!

blog for the past few days!

yawn!i've been so lazy to blog lately..but still,i cant dun blog abt some happening days i had..jus incase i gt.haha! ohwell..jus gonna upload some pics first! =D pictures says it all...merina has become rich! and spluge my $ on bodyshop items! from facial to footscub.which cost me more den 800$! is that crazy?! that is jus so out of the world rite now.But of cuz,i'm nt that insane to spend like $800 worth of items jus on bodyshop items! i rather spend the $800 on itouch/iphone and creative headphones!man! if someone get me either 1 of those for any occasion..i'll love that person forever!!and i meant wad i said.haha!so the part that i spend my $ on bodyshop items its true but nt the price.prolly jus half of the $800..haha!der was bodyshop sales last week and i called my khakis down for shoppin spree.its uber cheap!all the items were discounted to 50% and more! i was quite kiasu den so i bought for a life time use..ehh.not exactly!maybe for a yr or 2.haha!i bought like 200over and my sis came now the next day to buy another 200$.thats madness!but i guess its all worth it!hahas!BODYSHOP LOVESS!! okayokayy..den ytd went out with catherine.that slim-down-so-much mei!so pretty now!went to catch 10000BC,man..the lead is uber HOTT!cat falled for him.haha!i den brought cat to PZ to eat their famous chicky rice..its a pretty long queue and as usual,i scoop a mountain of chilli!haha!my fav!saw my cousin eating with some random guy..that girl!lol.wanted to scare her but who noes she saw me in the end.NO FUN!!haha!we went our way and off to get emily's belated belated bday gift..a braun buffel wallet.she was elated!haha!see!emily! we're so nice rite!hahaha!best khakis ever!so den..we're decidin on whether to go for rocky's gathering at newton!so decided to wait for emily til 11pm and while deciding to go..we decided to head to HK cafe and chit chat with lp and all til 2am!time has made the decision for us!we ended up going for rocky's gatherin at newton by the company's bus. den played some games..sort of like true and dare jus tat we cancelled out the true and its all dare.LOL.