Best thing ever too.:)

;)

Cutest thing in my life ever. :)

They're the cutest and lovable kids i have now. :)

And they have 2 lovely dogs too. 

And a lovely mom as well.

im sure they have a lovely dad too.

They're the kids that makes my day. 

Love them and love the family. 

:)

Looking forward to see them again! 

:)

Happy merry christmas! :D

Happy Merry Christmas! HO HO HO! :D

:)

Good nightt. 

:)

:)

Bonjour!

:)

Had a delightful lunch at grand shanghai with my lovely family. 

toodles.

xoxo. 

Time to market myself well.

:)

Toodles.

helo

May life be better off in future. 

i duno what i should chase now. 

:(

No $ no Talk. :(

Cousins love. exclude the dog. :)

Ima sucker for what you say.

Ima sucker for what you say. 

so confusing,so so confusing.

you mentioned about love, is not here physically.

a person who is blinded is still thinking that it is still love.

But if it is still love, why dun i hear from you everyday? 

What happened to the weekends?

What happened to the pictures we took together on your social account?

Its all missing.

Ima sucker for what you say.

so confusing, so so confusing.

For issit love or lie? 

For issit saving your soul or saving my tiny hope for you.

What happened to the weekends?

What happened to all the text msges?

What happened to all the times we spent?

Its all missing.

Ima indeed a real sucker for what you say. 

so confusing, so so confusing.

Just tell me that you dun love me anymore,

that you have someone else. 

that will make me move on alittle bit further.

moved on by raging emotions.

Written by Merina.   

I almost said the words last night

I told myself the moment wasn't right

No one wants to be the one who says it first

But I been keeping it inside a secret for so long it hurts

The truth is that I love you

And I need to know from you if you love me too

The truth is that I want you completely

So if you love me too I need to know from you

What the truth is

I'm trying to look behind your eyes

I been trying to read between unspoken lines

We keep dancing 'round and we don't know what's real

Can't let the music end

Before we can find a way to say the things we feel

The truth is that I love you

And I need to know from you if you love me too

The truth is that I want you completely

So if you love me too I need to know from you

What the truth is

Oh I thought I could just walk away

That you might be a passing flame

I told myself I wouldn't care

If you weren't there

Just seem to like this lyrics though.

Im a sucker for you. 

i just cant stop thinking about you.

Worse when i smell your scent on someone else, reminiscence your presence

Why of all scent, u have to use the most common one. 

Its torturing. 

:'(

:)

I got the push back again, finally. Sports make me go back on track again cuz in sports, you learn to FOCUS ON YOUR GOAL and do whatever it takes to get there. Sometimes i gt drifted away for too long that ive long forgotten how does it feels like having the drive again. 

I need competitions and challenges to make me grow further. 

Today  my friend came t my place and den we head down to kallang for umpring. i am really no good at multi-tasking. i cant think 1 and do another. I was supposed t b carrying my shoes t kallang and i end up wearing them cuz i was talking t my friend about other stuffs. Gee. Who says female can multi-task. Thats jus stereotyping cuz i sure noe i cant multi-task. aha!

I need t stay firm and unaffected and stick to my goals again. Been away and drifting far too long. Seriously, without sports i am drifting. no push at all. 

And now im doing my attachments at AMK hospital, thanks t Doris! ive t wake up 5am jus t head t amk hospital. so far! And its gerontology discipline. bwt,there's this lifting technique that is taught at the hospital, very useful indeed. :) 

And ouh. Today's umpiring was pretty satisfying, players are very disciplined and for once, i stopped being a nice umpire, every time i do that, i got eaten ALIVE. i think thats how adults are. When u're not fierce and firm with them, they tend to think that they're smarter and bigger and they eat you alive!!

so after umpiring, went t played games with the other netballers,awesome! suprisingly i shot in almost all  of the balls, must be no stress and pressure thats why. haha. 

so yea, gtg now. have t wake up in like 4hours time. Torture time for 4wks! nvm! 

torture jus makes me stronger. ;)

ADIOS!

GOOD MORNING!

BONJOUR! :D

Gona go out now. 

AU REVIOR! :)

:)

I think ive grown alot fairer now. Thanks to Is clinical product. My complexion is really alot better than before and i wonder does herbalife take a part of the credit for it too since i only realised my complexion getting better after i purchase herbalife product. hmmm. take awhile more and see how's the effect, but i can say that the shake does make me feel alot healthier tho.. :) And lucky i insist on not taking acne medication. Im not a strong believer in eating acne medications,its just bad for health! So kudoos to me t make my stand, strongly. I hope i continue to have that sort of believe in everything else too. :)

I shouldnt let anyone to tell me what i cannot do. 

or maybe its not frustration or anger

Its something missing, the drive. the accelerator is missing from my car. i think i need to find it back.

take control of your life merina! come on! dun screw it!

i need you.

i need you but yet i cant need you. i think i need someone whom i can trust and listen to all my frustrations and anger which i dun think you are at the right moment to listen now. its time for the explosion to occur again. its been keeping inside for too long, i can feel it.

i nv felt such anxiety before.

It was the worse anxiety ever. After knowing that i pass my paper, it was a BIG relief for me. it took me few days to weeks to have that courage to see my results. i damn scared the whole time. haha.

So i think ive pretty much plan out what i wana do already. Gona do my Advance dip or degree in SG while serving my 2yrs bond in NHC,hopefully can get into ICU ward. And fly to Aussie with my friends and work there. Parents planning to fly over to get a hourse there for retirement too. Hope all things can go as plan. 

:)

netball-ed

Umpired today's coporate games, gee. the last quarter was intense! player even glare and stare at me for that minor minor infringements that i din blow. So yup, picked up even more and will handle that well in future. 

Anyway, i joined Mr Liew's Net4all games and the level 1 umpires were being tested, gee. i dun think they did great. Even me as a player do get frustrated, now i really do feel how the players felt wen i din blow for those infringements. The level 1 umpires are really not confident with their calls and they dun seem to know what is going on, well. i had fair share too. Players see those umpires that is really green and new loves to eat them alive! Now as i see things as a player's prospective and how i felt about the umpires that aint so sure about the rules and stuff. It made me indeed learn how to handle the players better. 

Overall, i grown a day stronger now. 

:)

cooked :)

Woked up and started cooking potato chips. hmm. Tasted quite nice but i only cooked abit to try if its good. Overall not bad. haha :) And ouh, i wanted to cook carrot rice that look like that but the bad news is that it doesnt look like that but the good news is that its tasted yummy! :) 

Washed my mum's bedsheets and mine as well. Later going out for some work orientation. im having second thoughts if i should go. hmm