=)

together forever. perfect picture. flawless.=)

nv felt like that after so long.

wow. i nv felt like me again after the incident of my clique's conflict. i realised that if i dun compare and want my friends t be wad i expected and how they shld behave as a friend, i realised that they are like that. After so long, i told myself, its year 2 and i shld jus get over it. new year, new beginning, dunno and dun want to noe and care less. when i do, i can be myself. be it they wana be with me or nt. i used to feel so insecure that they wouldn't like me but why am i so sensitive? Now i cldnt b bothered abt them. jus move on with my life as happy and as me! im not tat bad. who could ever dislike merina? haha! wth... okayy. prolly i shld leave that t let u judge, its soo nt for me to judge myself.or prolly i shld say, i shld leave it up to u to decide wad kinda person am i.

and i tot i can jus forget abt somethings and stop thinking so much but recently incidents made me think again and again. its frastrating, so frastrating!=(

tomorrow will be a better day. =)

happy bday sis! haah!

HAPPY BDAY SIS! this idiot brother wanted to push me down the poooll!!ROARR! lucky im fat enuff.hahha!wth









capella singapore.
Held her bday lunch at capella singapore,sentosa. its beautiful and she was happy. =)

school's gona start.

i love Les mis sings, shown alot of emotions der.

anw, school's starting and der's alot to write about, but jus gona summarise it all in all. this weekend has been an educational weekend. Due to my appeal wise, im tryin to appeal again, been it if its gona works or not but at least i tried and fight til the end. thats wad that matters rite? at least i noe i tried. And im really glad to have this friend who wakes me up abit. i think im not as positive thinking as i tot, i shld be and i must be! i must be optismistic about every situation, der's hope, nth is impossible. being pessimistic disgusts me. i dun like people telling me "cannot" this word. i really detest this word "cannot" why is der this word anyway? this word disgusts me. Being optimistic and nv give up shld be the key. things happen for a reason, we shld all be optimistic about it. things happen not to get u down but to make u stronger, to let u see,hear and learn more. its not that bad that bad things happen sometimes. its to get us stronger. so be strong and move on. if the lesson is not learnt, prolly it will happen again and u jus have to learn it b4 it jus keeps happening. ohwell, wish me luck once again to fight for my case. FIGHT ALL THE WAY. i must and i have to. jiayou merina.

anw this weekend had alot of counsilling with my brother, he told me alot of stuffs which make me realise that im really not as independant as i tho i were or i cld. i can, but not now. i jus realised that im still very dependant on people. i suck.

school starting soon and its time to get busyy with my studies and mayb my new cca? i really cant do without sports, its my passion and its my life, without sports i can diee..i miss the competitiveness, leadership, push,support basically everything which i cld take forever to explain. sports is my passion. asking me to stop sports is jus like asking me to stop living. too bad i cant go for my dream. cant make me $ fast.sighh.. nvm! jus hav to jiayou! still young, long way to go. jiayou jiayou ba. haha!

this is an amazing video.

susan boyle-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
LONDON (AFP) - - Talent show judge Piers Morgan offered Friday to kiss Scottish charity worker Susan Boyle, who said she had never been kissed before becoming an international YouTube sensation this week.

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Boyle, whose stunning singing performance has so far been viewed over 19 million times on YouTube, lived on her own with a cat called Pebbles before her appearance on the Britain's Got Talent television show last weekend.

The dowdy-looking, plump 47-year-old said in a pre-performance interview that she had never been kissed.

But in a video on his website, Morgan -- a former British tabloid newspaper editor who has become a star in his own right as a talent show judge in Britain and the United States -- said he was ready to change that.

"I've decided to extend an invitation to Susan to take her out for a meal -- a very romantic restaurant, I think, with some roses, some fine wine, some glamorous waiters, and to offer her the chance to break her kissing duck with these little things.

"So Susan, if you're watching, I'm available," he said.

US actress Demi Moore was apparently moved to tears by the YouTube clip, while the story has been picked up around the world, with US, Australian and other broadcasters reportedly queuing up for interviews.

In the video, the down-to-earth Boyle walked on stage, saying she dreamed of emulating West End star Elaine Page.

When she began to sing, the panel of three judges led by music guru Simon Cowell appeared visibly taken aback, and the audience in Glasgow rose to its feet as her voiced soared through "I Dreamed A Dream" from "Les Miserables."

sad!

SAD! jus went to buy books and i found out that the yr 1 modules dun have safety in healthcare, the thought of repeating 6 months due to the fact of mistaking my paper is regretful. i appealed twice alry and the pain of it hurts tremedously, so i want to appeal again, i do not understand why my school's system do not approve students to continue taking the repeat module tgt with all the current modules, like this, it will be easier for students to catch up. but to delay the studies of it, i will not be able to catch up with the modules. shitty school, seriously, tho the academic teacher says nth can be helped, i really have to fight for it tho its my fault for not doing well, lesson learnt, regretted, this lesson is a painful lesson. sighh.. god, please help. please make this appeal letter successful for once. tho it will be 0.1% chance that i can get it thru but pls pls help for that 0.1% chance to get it cross. plsSSSs! =( giving another shot.

i hate pple says that im stubborn!!!!

what kind of girl/guy are you? Your Result: You wear your heart on your sleeve   You're too sweet and caring...it's not a bad thing it's just that you give your heart to just anybody and you get hurt easily...you shouldn't let people take advantage of you because you're too good of a person
You're close to perfect
You're a heart breaker
You can't trust people
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i hate people who says that im stubborn! its not like other pple not stubborn at all. everyone will be stuborn in their own ways. only you noe urself, u noe wad u can or want to do and wad u want in life or noe. people jus dun understand cuz i dun explain and tell them what i am thinking. sigh. what is wrong with seeking advices and not taking them? all you want is jus seeking advices and reflect on the situation and the prons and cons, its wad u want to do or can do and that is why u din take those advices. you take some and u let go some. what is wrong with these people. urgh!

quizzes =)

You Are A Relationship Rescuer!

You don't ruin relationships, if anything you keep them together The key: you respect yourself and your guy. Which goes further than you might think. You simply treat your guy how you would like to be treated... the old golden rule. And in return, he treats you like gold - or at least tries. And how perfect is that

Do You Ruin Relationships With Men?

You Are A Little Scared of Commitment

You're open to getting serious with someone... though you can't entirely imagine it. Maybe you haven't met the right person. Maybe you haven't gotten to the right point in your life. Your reaction to commitment is very normal - especially if you're young or have been burned before. Give it time. You'll probably be ready for a serious relationship sooner than you think.

Are You Afraid of Commitment?

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility. Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships. Whoever you love should be your best friend. And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question. Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Go for Brains

When it comes to attraction, you go for more than meets the eye. Eye candy is all fine and good, but you need more good looks to be into someone. You're looking for a deep connection, and that can only happen when you meet someone who thinks like you. That's not to say you don't appreciate sexy people. You just prefer sexy and smart!

Do You Go For Brains or Body?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Your Heart Craves Love

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Would Be a Upstanding Superhero

You are alert and observant. You can see through people easily. You know who's evil and who's good. You need a lot of freedom in your life. You like to do your own thing, and you don't fit into any normal mold. You understand people quite well and often know what others are thinking. Because of this, you can get people to do what you want. You are a shapeshifter who fits in with almost any group. You can get along with anyone. You're quite flexible. You are a true intellectual. You are thirsty for knowledge, and you are curious about the world.

What Kind of Superhero Would You Be?

Affection - Passion - Love

The field of daisies... Imagine the field of daisies... Spring... and you are passing the way just by that field. Suddenly one daisy drives your attention. She is one from the thousands but you come near her... there's something in her that attracts you... you pick it up... you want it to be yours, only yours. You don't think about that she will die because of this, and you go away from that field. This was sudden desire, maybe a little bit selfish but wonderful and unstoppable. This is PASSION.
Again you are passing the field of daisies... and again the one from the million drives your attention. You go near this daisy... you want to touch it, but you can't. You feel like you want to die near her. But, suddenly, a breeze blows into your face and brings you the smell of another flower. It is so amazing that you can't stand and go to the place where this scent came from. As about the daisy she is left in one corner of your heart. You haven't shared many things, and you will never forget about her, but also you cannot come back to her. This is AFFECTION.
And again the same field... one daisy that attracts you. One from the million, but you go to her... and you stay there. You will do your best to not let her die. The only thing you want is to be near her. You believe that there's nothing that can make you leave this place... and you will be there... you will be there 'til her last day... and that's LOVE.
Sometimes:
Sometimes you smile just to quell that grief inside you.
Sometimes you speak with your eyes, because you know that words cannot explain the love you keep inside.
Sometimes you try to touch the one to be sure that your love is real, but you don't dare to.
Sometimes even though you want to scream "I love you", you whisper it.
"In every drop of rain I see you... you know what? I want this rain to never stop."
"Do you want to know how much I love you? Try to catch all that rain drops falling on earth. The ones you catch is your love, the ones you don't - is mine."

korea missed. =(

pictures at JEJU island in korea. seen cherry blossom? no worries, u can see it here in my blog! hahha! =) enjoy! der's alot of pictures but i dun think i am able to upload it here. too many alry so jus show a little here. =)

i miss korea now, =( clean country, beautiful people, both male and female. not oily food, nice weather, well mannered,polite and friendly people. i love well mannered and polite people.=) great korean woman too. independant woman. wow! i miss korea. =(

In jeju-korea now

Hello blog and everyone!

here i am in JEJU-korea, met alot of korea ladies, school girls,school boys and of cuz, many korean old ladies too. these ladies are damn independent. They are the ones that woman, support the kids and family while their husband just play, eat, and drink. -.- that was in the past tho. haha! But until today, these ladies or i shld say many ladies here are very independent. =) Now i love korea.. haha! and the ladies are damn beautiful. and of cuz, the main most impt of all is the FOOD. kimchi, seaweed, ikan bilis EVERYDAY. man. i must slim down. And our tour guide says that eating seaweed and drinking the soup is very good for the hair, it makes it soft and silky. omgosh! i shld start asking my mum to buy like 10packets of that for me to eat and soup everyday..haha! my hair is like GRASS, prolly worse. burnt kinda grass.haha! its that bad. pictures pictures pictures..definitely will be up when im like back in sg luhh.. man, i miss everyone back here,especially my baby... :( ohwell, but i cant wait to look forward for the following day. EVERLAND BABBYYY!! its fun time! soo gona play those exciting rides der. heihei. and i also cant wait to look forward for shopping spree. bought myself a blazer! and afew long Tee. =D sexyyy.. and also, i cant wait to look forward for the resort for spa and staying over nite in the authetic korean house! woohoo! excitedddd!! hahahah! and now, i cant wait to eat the seaweed too. and also, the clothes in jeju are not cheap but the fashion here is damn trendy. so market in sg. haha! so yeaa... tahts about it. and lastly, these korean ladies and girls all have th same features, all look like the same la... but damn pretty. haha! thats all for now. ADIOS! =)

which are you babes?

1- Miss Sweet
Miss Sweet is a woman who's positive, content with her life, always upbeat -- and just a blast to be around. She's a genuine person without a bitch bone in her body. She's always truly happy to see you and you find yourself looking forward to spending time with her. Miss Sweets are usually snapped up out of the dating market right away, so they're pretty rare. But if you can find one, you've got a real treasure on your hands.

2- Miss Equality
This type of woman is a true feminist -- not one of the radical man-haters, or the hypocritical pseudo-feminists who think that equality means "I demand equal rights and an equal salary, but a man still has to pay for me." The Miss Equalitys of the world genuinely like men, and understand that equality means equality across the board, from holding the door open to fighting on the front lines. They believe that a relationship should be a 50/50 partnership, and are more than willing to shoulder their half of the responsibilities and dating expenses -- just because it's the right thing to do.

3- Miss Sexual
You should be so lucky to encounter one of these! Miss Sexual loves men and loves sex -- and makes no bones about it. She's not selling it, she's not using it as a tool to manipulate men -- she just naturally craves it. Miss Sexual is not to be confused with a nymphomaniac, who suffers from psychological problems -- rather, she has somehow bypassed the female societal training of auctioning off the use of her body (emphasis mine) to the highest bidder. For this reason, most other women hate her, because she's giving it away free of charge. But men love her because she's a free spirit who's actually honest about her sex drive. Very rare, but worth searching the ends of the earth for.

4- Miss Best Friend
Closely aligned with Miss Sweet, Miss Best Friend is another joy to be around. She's the kind of woman you're totally in sync with -- you like the same things, watch the same TV shows, enjoy going to the same places. You can spend five minutes with her and think you've known her for years. She's always on your side, laughs at all your jokes, and calls you just to say "hi" because she genuinely misses you.
She's great just to hang with. A word of warning, though -- with Miss Best Friend, you have to make your sexual interest known from day one because if she gets it into her head that you are going to be just friends it's almost impossible to change her mind.

5- Miss Straightforward
This is the type of woman who knows how to communicate. With Miss Straightforward, there are no games, no expecting men to be mind readers, no behavior based on ridiculous, female-biased advice from articles in Cosmo or The Rules . Miss Straightforward will pick up the phone and ask you out. She will do what she says she will do -- not say one thing and do just the opposite. Although she may be blunt at times, at least you'll know where you stand and you'll never have to spend hours trying to decode contradictory messages..

6- Miss Independent
This is a good woman to find if you don't have a lot of time to invest in a relationship or you're the type of guy who needs a lot of space. Miss Independent has a real life of her own and is happily going in her own positive direction. She's the type who wants a man in her life, but doesn't need a man in her life. And she certainly isn't looking for men to solve all her problems or blame when things don't go her way. (i think ms independent suits me more) 8)

7- Miss Loyal
Miss Loyal will never cheat on you or constantly be on the lookout for a "better deal." When you go out, she won't be scanning the room for other guys, but will keep her attention focused on you, the man in her life. She's also more apt to stick around if times get tough.
8- Miss No Pressure
While many women are chomping at the bit to get married, Miss No Pressure hasn't fallen prey to any such agenda. She's happy just to be with you. So you don't get any, "Where is our relationship going?", or hint-dropping about the future, or window-shopping at the jewelry store. She may want to get married at some point, but she's in no hurry -- she thinks that if it happens, it will just happen naturally.

9- Miss Secure
Miss Secure accepts herself as she is and is comfortable with her good points, as well as her bad. And she feels the same about you. Miss Secure doesn't need constant attention to shore up a sagging ego, has tons of self-esteem, and is always going in her own positive direction.

10- Miss Personality
Miss Personality is a great find. She might not be up for first prize in a beauty contest (although she could be), but her intelligence, wit and sparkling presence just light up the room, and she draws people like a magnet. Her personality is so charming that it easily overcomes any deficiencies she might have in the looks department, just because she's so great to be with.

11- Miss Low Maintenance
The rarest of the rare, Miss Low Maintenance is the most atypical of modern women. She really doesn't care about how much money you have -- she just likes you for yourself and not for what she can take from you. She's likely to be a true feminist, and will gladly pay her share of the dating expenses. If you can find a Miss Low Maintenance, hang on to her for dear life!

12- Miss Right For You
A lot of guys choose women who are "arm candy" – good looking trophy girlfriends who bolster their status among other men or counteract their own insecurities. That's all well and good, but if you find a woman who makes you happy, regardless of looks, age or social status -- or what any other guy thinks -- then you have definitely won at the mating game.
Christine' s concluding remarks: So guys, don't give up yet. She could be just in front of your nose. She could be the woman in the next cubicle who brings you coffee at your workstation with just the right amount of sugar and cream and hangs around waiting to be noticed; or the cashier at the bank who smiles every time you walk in; or may be she is the woman you refer to as the "bossy bitch' - you know- the one who is Vice President at your Corporation. She could be anyone.

1.Every choice carries a consequence, i have the power to choose.

2.Winners are cmmitted to participate 100% in whatever they do.

3.Do it now! there is no tomorrow.

4.Do your best the first time. every time.

5.Disciplined action brings future rewards.

6.Past does not equal future. my future depends on what i do today.

"Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else woud understand if you fell apart, that's true strength."

contiki

ANW! umpired for contiki beach netball at palawan beach and it was an amazingg experience! like totally! WOOHOO! our pictures are on http://www.netball.org.sg/, go check it out yo! AHA! totally AWESOME-MIC! despite the freaking hot sun we were under since MORNING until like 4-5pm?! can you imagine how hot the sands were den? and the sun too? i slap on super alot of sunblock on my body and face. SPF 50++. but guess wad, i forgot to slap some sunblock on my neck area! SO IRRITATING! and only my neck is being sunburnt. lol. so wth. but oh well, totally a fun experience. 8)

appeal result

okay, there's good news and bad news. good news is, the academic manager called me up and she said that i may not have to extend 3 years of my study! YEPPIEEEEE!! But the bad news is, if i were to fail any modules, i can jolly well immediately have that 1 semester extension. oh man! can you imagine? she's try to help me to ask for 10 freaking modules! which include elective of cuz! but have to see how it goes. if it goes all well, GOOD NEWS! that is if i can COPE! sighh! can i do it? or i cant? sighh.. dun even have that faith in me! But hopefully the bad news doesnt happen upon me! i gotta be disipline from today now! STOP PROCRASINATING AND START CHANGING ALL MY BAD HABITS! GONA TAKE CHARGE OF MY LIFE NOW! and im freaking 19 here! gona be a grown up soon. gona keep reminding myself all the time so no matter wad. determined and disipline! AHA! JIAYOU! ownself cheering for myself. WOW!

and i soo wana become leaner and toner. shld i join dragonboat? shld i not? man. IM SO VEX! i've alred joined like 2 ccas b4 in year 1 and i quit both cuz of my freaking lousy results! now that i done WELL, if i were to go back to CCAs again, can i cope? hmm. nvm! maybe i can go do my work exercises with my exercise partner! YEPPIE! found myself a new exercise partner that can go with me running, swimming, gyming, scuba diving, adventure etc. 8) thats totally AWESOME-MIC! AHA!

appeal approved?

Has my appeal approved by the director of SHS? please do, but im glad that my appeal has been taken into consideration. =) there may be hope. i dun want an extension of study! merina cannot have the extension of study no matter wad. else my face can jolly well hide in the pit-hole.

PLEASE PRAY FOR MY APPEAL TO BE ACCEPTED LOVE ONES..

humbleness

Keep in mind that being humble has many benefits. Humility can help you be more content with your life, and it can also help you endure bad times and improve your relationships with others. It's also essential to being an effective learner. If you think you know it all, you won't be open-minded enough to seek out new knowledge. Humility is also, somewhat counter-intuitively, an excellent tool for self-development in general. After all, if you feel superior, you have no incentive to improve. Most of all, being humble allows you to be honest with yourself.
Seek trusted and wise counsel and obtain accountability partners if you find this to be a weakness in your life. Pride comes before the fall and prevention is definately better than cure.

[edit] Warnings
Pretending to be humble isn't the same as being humble, and often people who pretend to be humble do it in order to seek out praise. Other people will recognize this, and even if you fool some, you won't derive the same benefits as you would through actually developing humility.
Similarly, don't confuse being humble with being sycophantic (being overly-praiseful of someone for your own profit). This is a common misconception, but the two attitudes are completely different.
Now that you know that humility wins, don't use it as a manipulation tactic. Many people pretend to be humble, but are in fact not. There are many 'wolves in sheep's clothing' out there. Use discernment with all people.

STOP PROCRASINATING AND START HAVING A CHANGE IN YOUR HABIT! YOU GO GIRL! IM THE MANNN!! 8D

history made!

sloppy look. the way i wear was history to clubbing! woohoo! I OWN man. 8) all thanks to bestie!