finally ran after so many months!

Could you imagine? Merina the sporty one who loves to run like nobody business actually lost her stamina?oh well,partly cause i haven been running sometime and definitely it was really hard to pick up running at the usual speed which i always do.People will feel comfortable running in their own regular speed and jogging for me?i find it even more tiring for me..But it was not easy to keep up the pace and distance i used to run,i was panting really hard! And to be honest,today was the VERY FIRST TIME i walked in my entire 18 years of my life!And i din walk jus once,i walked many times..i felt like shit! why did i even walk?! i need someone to motivate me to push me to finish the race.its not easy to pick it up your own. sigh!im feeling total shitty!=( i jus dun seem to understand why i cant just push myself all the bloody way! URGH! i hate myself! WHY?! im so weak! such a failure i am! SO WEAK!!!! i need people to push me all the time,i need competitions to motivate me,i need something to tempt me to work harder.people always find excuses when they cant push themselves hard enuff.i find these people weak.And for me,i dun wanna be a weakling,no more EXCUSES for now on! just do it! GPA 3and ABOVE! kill and torture me in order to get that grade!hopefully im prepared! and pple who always asked me to rest and dun get so hard on myself,jus keep pushin me on and dun give me a chance for breaks at all.no matter how much i whine,dun jus give in.

i find that everything you do in life, the principle is always the same...the more time and effort and sacrifices you make, the more you will enjoy your fruit of labour..it applies not just sports,studies,CCAs..it also applies in work.the more time you sacrific,the nearer you'll reach your goal.NO MORE EXCUSES!


Anw today i pon-ned sch due to the driving shit,i took sch for theory and private for driving.i find it easier to pass if i did the theory under sch.so no confidence eh?And the lady called me up few days back to remind me to do my BTE latest by monday!that is like less den 14days? by right u shld finish everything in 14days but my case was slightly diff.so over the weekends,i had no slot to book! i ganchiong so i decided to pon sch today and take everything by today..including my 2 BTL and BTE.heihei! i passed my BTE! next wed is my TEST!prolly i'll pass! and today i was super busy the WHOLE DAY! woke up at 8,studied abit,went for class,came back home,went for class again,waited at the school,booked my BTE,went home checked on my elective module,went out to get my stupid MC! it was $8plus in polyclinic! no more wad $4! and it was so frustrating! the stupid doc in rm 10 was FREAKING SLOW! and the people working der jus couldnt help this pity merina here to get it done quick,made me took cab to BBDC,rushed like shit and jus nice,1 min b4 the BTE starts,PHEW! ABLE TO CATCH MY BREATHE A LITTLE.HEIHEI! and after everythinggg...it was alr 5.40pm

so den,decided to run and guess wad! i saw AARON! so glad to see him running! =)i bet he's gonna be hundred times better den i am.sighhh!! im sucha failure! i walked!!!! URGHHH!!!!!!!!!! SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF!! SO WEAK!!!!!mentally!sigh.im hungry! ciao!

sucha lengthy post again! why does merina always have so many things to write! CRAZY!!!!!!! HAHAHHAAH

I WANT TO RUN NIKE HUMAN RACE!!!hopefully 09 they will hold it again.=)

quit worrying.

Fundamental facts you should know about worryIf you want to avoid worry, do what Sir William Osler did: Live in "day-tight compartments." Don't stew about the futures. Just live each day u ntil bedtime.
The next time Trouble--with a Capital T--backs you up in a corner, try the magic formula of Willis H. Carrier:
Ask yourself, "What is the worst that can possibly happen if I can't solve my problem?
Prepare yourself mentally to accept the worst--if necessary.
Then calmly try to improve upon the worst--which you have already mentally agreed to accept.
Remind yourself of the exorbitant price you can pay for worry in terms of your health. "Those who do not know how to fight worry die young."

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Part Two
Basic techniques in analyzing worry
Get the facts. Remember that Dean Hawkes of Columbia University said that "half the worry in the world is caused by people trying to make decisions before they have sufficient knowledge on which to base a decision."
After carefully weighing all the facts, come to a decision.
Once a decision is carefully reached, act! Get busy carrying out your decision--and dismiss all anxiety about the outcome.
When you, or any of your associates, are tempted to worry about a problem, write out and answer the following questions:
What is the problem?
What is the cause of the problem?
What are all possible solutions?
What is the best solution?

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Part Three
How to break the worry habit before it breaks you
Crowd worry out of your mind by keeping busy. Plenty of action is one of the best therapies ever devised for curing "wibber gibbers."
Don't fuss about trifles. Don't permit little things--the mere termites of life--to ruin your happines.
Use the law of averages to outlaw your worries. Ask yourself: "What are the odds against this thing's happening at all?"
Co-operate with the inevitable. If you know a circumstance is beyond your power to change or revise, say to yourself: "It is so; it cannot be otherwise."
Put a "stop-less" order on your worries. Decide just how much anxiety a thing may be worth--and refuse to give it anymore.
Let the past bury its dead. Don't saw sawdust.

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Part Four
Seven ways to cultivate a mental attitude that will bring you peace and happiness
Let's fill our minds with thoughts of peace, courage, health, and hope, for "our life is what our thoughts make it."
Let's never try to get even with our enemies, because if we do we will hurt ourselves far more than we hurt them. Let's do as General Eisenhower does: let's never waste a minute thinking about people we don't like.

Instead of worrying about ingratitude, let's expect it. Let's remember that Jesus healed ten lepers in one day--and only one thanked Him. Why should we expect more gratitude than Jesus got?
Let's remember that the only way to find happiness is not to expect gratitude--but to give for the joy of giving.
Let's remember that gratitude is a "cultivated" trait; so if we want our children to be grateful, we must train them to be grateful.
Count your blessings--not your troubles!
Let's not imitate others. Let's find ourselves and be ourselves, for "envy is ignorance" and "imitation is suicide."
When fate hands us a lemon, let's try to make a lemonade.
Let's forget our own unhappiness--by trying to create a little happiness for others. "When you are good to others, you are best to yourself."

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Part Five
The perfect way to conquer worry
Prayer

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Part Six
How to keep from worrying about criticism
Unjust criticism is often a disguised compliment. It often means that you have aroused jealousy and envy. Remember that no one ever kicks a dead dog.
Do the very best you can; and then put up your old umbrella and keep the rain of criticism from running down the back of your neck.
Let's keep a record of the fool things we have done and criticize ourselves. Since we can't hope to be perfect, let's do what E.H. Little did: let's ask for unbiased, helpful, constructive criticism.

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Part Seven
Six ways to prevent fatigue and worry and keep your energy and spirits high
Rest before you get tired.
Learn to relax at your work.
Learn to relax at home.
Apply these four good workings habits:
Clear your desk of all papers except those relating to the immediate problem at hand.
Do things in the order of their importance.
When you face a problem, solve it then and there if you have the facts to make a decision.
Learn to organize, deputize, and supervise.
To prevent worry and fatigue, put enthusiasm into your work.
Remember, no one was ever killed by lack of sleep. It is worrying about insomnia that does the damage--not the insomnia.

i sooo wanna go over there! at montreal.!
ouh..and our school let us take languages at our elective module.i thought of taking french! but everyone is like saying japanese is better! Still, i like french more..someone,please tell me wads best!FRENCH EH?! lol! ciao for now...=)

its been a rough time but its all over..=)

LOL! mini N95 with esther's actual N95.KOOL EH! miniN95 is suitable for small pple to use!as for shijie,she has to use the actual 1.. =x. ehh....HAHAH!jus jokingg..

WAH!that bottle of SK2 essense cost me a BOMB! i can soak myself in it!heihei!

my cliques lor.

WAH!!sk2's goodjob! make my face really fair ehh! and thats erhem..

ahxin!little ms figet-er.HAHAH!let's score GPA 3.8 yo!

Hello..once again,i'm blogging cuz its a Friday nite! And den again,cuz shijie wants to read so i shall let her read about my life.LOL! shijie! see!! im blogging especially for you noe?!! HAHA!ohwell..by right,Friday nite im suppose to go clubbing and have all the shit fun in the world! But den again, i choose not to..Merina made a choice to be a pretty homie gal,staying at home and sit in front of the computer and do a little bit of blogging and instilling some knowledge to my brain..why?because the brain has to keep it healthy and fit! the BRAIN is just like your Muscles..no exercise,muscles gone..its a metaphor for explaining about the brain! haha! oh..enough about the brain!haha!

my semester 1 exam was total shitty! i did badly like horrendously? okay...not exactly,just that i failed one paper and the best thing is that i missed my sub-paper! Missing the sub-paper is where all the problems started to arise! not jus my parents came into the picture, my mentor,my sister,my cca,my work and my friends and definitely it hit me the most! like duhhh rite? i made my Dad run to sch for me,i feel really heart ache,could you visualise one old man running to school cuz the nursing director has to go for meeting in 10mins time?we tried to appeal but it din work and der's gonna be a 6 months extension? its not jus a matter of wasting time here,its also a matter of wasting money! u gonna pay the school fees? and have to hop ard to other classes for that dumb module?My mentor knew abt this and she even went thru all the trouble to help me out!Really glad i have such a mentor liek her..really appreciated her help alot..THANKS MADAM LOI!=).she said something which i think it make sense.."its not like you're financially disabled? you can have the whole time in your life working..but you dun have your whole life to be a student..why not just do well in your studies and score well? you dun get to be student and enjoy student life after this period."i tot it thru and indeed,i shld heed her advise..So now im jobless and CCA-less..no more sprint kayak everyday!But home everyday..=( IM SO GROUNDED!

my dad has been constantly nagging and constantly keeping an eye on what im doing on the computer.urghh..feeling so stranded here! but deep down in my heart,he's doing that for my own good..i understand dad! =) i promised to get GPA at least 3.4 alrite?but hw am i gonna do that when i dun have classmates scoring even at least a GPA of 3.5?sighhhh....

Eversince sch starts,its like sch,home,sch,home..it sounded quite pathetic and lifeless rite? but thats jus the words! its the pple ard me that made it more den jus sch and going home..definitely der's this especial someone made it more den jus that.. =) All i need is just you to make it not mandane.it wasnt boredom when that especial someone is der.i thank god for sending that especial someone to me..thank you!=)

And i'm greatful that i have close people ard to save me out of my pathetic clique.i felt like a lonesome in there,feeling so myself and dead and pathetic and feeling so hard to get emotional support sometimes..luckily der's BGJY to be der for me all the time..thanks babe..=).But Is it me that cause it to be this way?Der isnt any true friends i can find in my clique except BGJY.Why is it so hard to be me in that clique?sigh!all the shit..i miss all my close friends,definitely missing my secondary school life.ohwell..i just have to get pass this and just do well in my studies..i'll be back strong again! i have to!=D

And also,after all this while,i'm glad that you have stick with me all the way..=) thanks b! heh

and guess wad,this is one lengthy post! hahah! cuz its me mahh! i like to write it long!its summary btw.HA! and ya! i stain my demin gal today!!!! can u imagine?! with red huge dots on it.!WAH SIAAAA!!! EMBARASSING MANNN!! i think the chinese boy saw it luh,he was sitting directly behind me.SHIT! no face! i think i have to wear paper bag to sch to hide my face..EMBARASSSINNGGG !! AHH!!! stupid men! next time i shld jus wear diapers,it is fully protected! LOL! alrite! end of my lengthy post! hahaha! nites y'all... =)

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“When I first met you I was afraid to like you, now that I like you I'm afraid to love you, now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you.”

BRAIN!

Brains grow and elaborate and strengthen when they are CHALLENGED, and that they change little when solutions are easy to come by.

Recommended Brain Fitness Activities
The task: Add some dark chocolate to your diet.
The reason: When you eat chocolate you activate the systems in your brain that pump dopamine, an important brain chemical. These systems enable learning and memory, and help keep your brain sharp and fit.

The task: Go on a guided tour of a museum or another site of interest. Pay careful attention to what the guide says. When you get home, try to reconstrucft the tour by writing an outline that includes everything you remember.
The reason: Research into brain plasticity (the ability of the brain to change at any age) indicates that memory activities that engage all levels of brain operation—receiving, remembering and thinking—help to improve the function (and hinder the rate of decline) of the brain.

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