thank lord.=)

i'm so effing pissed!

to start with wad i did this morning,its just plainly sleeping thruout morning and afternoon just zoom by.it was 12pm sharp and i was sleeping in the masterbed room all by myself.*shiokness.dad and mum left for bangkok since friday and coming back this evening.i was jus so excited waiting fer them to comeback.without them at home left me all so isolated and lonely.
so woke up,did all my necessary needs and off to mugging on the masterbed bed.ehh.sounds wrong.but wateva!XD while studying,i dozed off and woke up cuz sis ring me,asked me to buy some dumb sotong and prawn balls fer her dumb gathering and says she needs it at ard 6pm.so i decided to go to the supermarket at 3plus and the balls will defroze by den.but today the weather was like FUCKK.it was extremely hott and humid.i can die.the moment i got out of the air-conditioned room,i can sweat immediately.the sun was blazingly hot!so i decided to leave my hse at 5plus, by den the sun had gone down alittle.went to supermarket just beside medeira condo,wahlao.sweat while walking.gd exercise!HA.den bought 3packets of balls which i tot cost abt 3.90,so cheap.but it was 10.99 when the cashier scan the code no.*jaw dropped* bought a tub of blueberry yogurt,2bottles of daisy milk and oat milk and a healthy packet of kegglog cereal.spent a total of $44.90.*finally i can rmb someting in full=D)and i paid with my own $$ but later gonna claim.HA.den,on my way home,saw my *sis,weixin.hahah!still as skinny.i think skinner.chatted fer awhile with the stuffs on my hand,so heavy and i was sweating here and der.nvm.gd exercise.=D
once reached home,i quickly opened up the balls and wash it so that the ice will melt and soak in water to make it defroze faster and my maid was arguing with me.she say:miss!why u soaked in water!later no taste.
miss:huh?no taste?but inside alr gt ice wad,ice melt become water,apa difference?den why u need to soak the fish,later the fish also no taste.
maid:no,dun put water,after the oil will pik piah pik piah.
miss:the fish also will pik piah pik piah wad,fish and ball,sama sama.
LOL.come to think of it.kinda hilarious.haha.den she gt nth to say.so carried on with wad i was doing.finally the balls defroze.but she was cooking all the dishes first.*faint.my sis wants it like at 6plus and she was still cooking the dishes.wahlao.but nvm,let her cook,anyway the balls take a short time to get it done.dad and mum and sis and diana were on the way home.was excited and impatient so helped my maid to cook and wash the pan.she seem to take yrs washing the pan.LOL.den, when she threw the meat in the pan,it stucked on it and iwas like "daywin.mati,stucked"LOL.den she took the spatula from me and toughly pushed the meat to the centre of the pan.i was like"wah,daywin,bagus!"den i helped her cooked,stir stir here and der so the dishes will be done asap.i wanna cook the balls one leh.
so finally,i was able to cook the balls.it was fun cooking the balls.haha!daywin asked me to throw 1 ball to see if the oil is hot enuff,so i threw.ha
miss:eh.daywin,shit!how come the ball stuck in the oil?
maid:ahh.u lah,soak in water.
played ard the ball first.
miss:daywin!u see arh,ikan u wash,why balls cannot wash?ikan and ball sama sama,balls gt ice,defroze become water.ikan gt ice,also gt water.also need to fry in oil.sama sams wad.
she gt nth to say again.LOL.hilarious.so continued to wad i was doing.finally the oil's hot enuff and i throw more balls into the oil.*fun fun=D*den,they all came back and sis gt kinda pissed cuz it wasn't ready yet and she sort of scolded me.i din care at first.left the last batch of balls to be fried.
sis came into the kitchen again and scolded me.
sis:mei!until now u still cooking the balls,i told u wad time to get ready the balls?!by 6plus rite!
mei:wad?the balls need to defroze also rite.
sis:who asked u to leave the hse so late.
mei:wahlao.the weather so hot.hao xin mei hao bao!cook fer u still wanna scold!shouldnt have gone down to buy the stupid balls fer u!
super pissed off with her den.din even say gd things yet wanna scold me.FUCK!
i dun wanna help her anymore!everytime also like that.*pissed*
so the balls were done and they left while my sis said thanks in an sincere way.stupid!
so time to ask wad my parents gt fer me,so happily asked my dad if he bought anything fer me.
mei:papa!why u all went to bangkok like din buy much things one?
papa:u also din say wad u want.
mei:wahlao,initiative luh.
papa:mummy asked u wad u want u also din tell her
mei:she wheregt asked me wad i want,she only ask jiejie lor
papa:den u been to bangkok u shld noe wad is der wad.
papa:u shld noe that we're going to bangkok,u shld alr tell mummy wad u want wad.
mei:aiyah!ya lah ya lah.my fault luh.all my fault lah
papa:yay wad!its ur fault wad.
-_-!
my dad is ferever the right one and i'm always at the wrong.its nt the first time alr.he nv change.he thinks he's an angel!arse!so darn pissed off!der was once where my maid din wake me up and i told my dad abt it and he effing scolded me.and he also scolded my maid.wth.he shld scold the maid and nt me!its the maid's responsibilty to wake me up else wad's a maid fer!pissed off.and i said:ya luh ya luh.its my fault luhh!"and he said:yay luh.ur fault luh.den? WTFFF!!everything is my fault.der's still loads of senariors but too many to put it down.i just dun seem to be able to talk things to my dad cuz everytime i do that,he just blame its my fault.AIYAH!WATEVA LUH!!he's the angel and i'm the devil.its all my fault and anything happened,its always my fault!!!!!URGH!FUCKING PISSED!!!!he still dare to complain to me that mummy always side other pple den her own family member.he is jus no difference from her.i think he's worse.he sides no one accept himself cuz he thinks he's the angel!nvm lor.blame other pple lah.push all the blame more to other pple and u'll never improve!URGH!too pissed to eat my dinner alr so started blogging.ha!so thats all.shall end my blog now.

way back into the past

outside of apartment.

so tomboyish.hah!i'm missing my cute face.LOL



LOL!!


took some photos from my photo album.no time to scan it tho.the pictures are darn hilarious!haha!maid took all the photo album to clean and see thru. haha!i missed my LONG HAIR.i was like only primary 4.and i snap it off cuz of some friend who always play with my beautiful hair and i gt so irritated and snap it off. =(| now i'm so missing it.haha. those photos were taken in gold coast.haha!i was so skinny and cute pls!!

i miss the past.hanging out with my 2 cousins tgt and go insane tgt and stuffs.how fun!and now xianguang is like ard my height.we rarely meet and spend time tgt alr.gee! one fine day shall hang out tgt again.:D

=)

its been awhile since the last time i blogged.today had my maths paper 2 and i left out 2qns.damn!wadeva luh! its just prelims.i'll do uber well for O's no matter wad.And and O's really gettin me fat.SHIT!the whole time i did was just kept on junking den study.sian luhh.its like i'm lifeless. :D.NVM!i'll endure for another month or so and then its shanghai,ohh.hopefully i dun bring bk the food stored under my fats home.aha.den i'll work my body til i get jessica alba's hot bod.haha! :DD

today after maths,something major happened.why must she do such things to herself,i really wonder the things she does,is it really worth it?no matter wad, its still her body and she has to take good care of it.its ur responsibility to take care of ur body, if u dun,no one can really help except urself.dun do such things to urself,u'll make me feeling all worried sick and sad and hurt.i teared when u blacked out.please dun do this to urself ever again!i dun wanna see a single tear from u again,u've cried enuffed.but no matter wad happens,i'll be with u 24hr-ly with my hotline open fer u.rmb that alrite. :DD

joke time! MUST LAUGH!

HE:can i buy u a drink?
SHE:Actually i rather have the money.

HE:i'm a photographer,i've been looking for a face like urs
SHE:i'm a plastic surgeon,i've been looking for a face like urs

HE:hi.din we go on the date once? or was it twice?
SHE:must be once, i never make the same mistake twice.

HE:how did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE:i must be given you my share.

HE:will you go out with me this saturday?
SHE:sorry,i'm having a headache this weekend.

HE:your face must have turn a few heads
SHE:and your face must have turn a few stomachs

HE:okay, dun be shy, ask me out
SHE:okay. get out!

HE:i think i can make you very happy.
SHE:why? are you leaving?

HE:what would u say if i asked you to marry me?
SHE:nothing. i cant talk and laugh at the same time.

HE:can i have your name?
SHE:why?don't you already have one?

HE:shall we go see a movie?
SHE:i've alr seen it.

HE:where have you been all my life?
SHE:hiding away from you.

HE:haven't i seen you some place before?
SHE:yes.that's why i dun go there anymore.

HE:is this seat empty?
SHE.yes.and this will be when you sit down.

HE:so, what do you do for a living?
SHE:i'm a female impersonator.

HE:hey baby,what's your sign?
SHE:Do not enter.

HE:your body is like a temple.
SHE:sorry, there are no services today.

HE:if i could see you naked, i'd die happy.
SHE:if i saw you naked,i'll probably die laughing.

LOL!!

okayokay.enuff of that.
pictures time.

went to grandma's place.

went to malaysia to study with cousin.madness u may think.but thats wad we did.however,we din study like the whole morning til night luh.had breaks in between.GAG!Had so much with Lixin and xianguang,he have a tiny little nipples.HAHA.when we were der studying,my back aches cuz we din have proper study room to study.we snacked sleep and study,SSS and SSS again.its boring over der!still, NOTHING IS BETTER THAN HOME!!!muhaha.
pictures time!

i was totally bored when lixin was snoring.HAHAHA.

it was midnite den,eyes are damn tired.

little cousin's hamster.


hamster trying to crawl away from lixin,scared to die from her kiss.its deadly!:D




this is rather hilarious.mum says i could!=D

and this is rather awesome!

You Have Good Manners 72% of the Time

Your manners are quite excellent. You are well versed in etiquette. Of course you have the occasional slip up, but you even apologize with grace.

How Are Your Manners?happy!

=(

i realized something,deep emotions i had made me remembered my blog.it is time to blog my sadness again.this is rather insane to blog all things negative about what had happened!but somehow,happy moments do not make me blog unless it is an extreme one.but who cares?
i'm feeling all so pissed,sad and irritated.its a mixture of emotions which made me blog.its frustrating to know what people says about you,behind your back.somehow,the best solution is to act ignorant or dumb,dont even use your brains to think at all and everything will be the same as what you thought it is every single day,nice people.its rather weird how people could actually treat their friend as their "diary" topic.spilling out EVERY single thing that happened,EVERY thing that is done.it is like after drinking the water,not even a drop of water should be left in the cup.its all human's nature,perhaps my perception was wrong,perhaps its woman's nature.am i not one?that's insane!i am just different from them.and even more insane to post this up.shalln't further elaborate on it more.i wondered who am i.anw,the hairdresser nearby my hse do not know how to cut a simple hairstyle!its dumb of her to cut at my eyebrows length then to my eyelids.WAKEUP!dont u even noe how to differentiate which is the eyebrows and eyelids you dumb shit!ur price is $1 more than jeanyip and u cant even pull thru ur cutting skills,maybe i should say u cant even understand simple english.i am darn pissed with the hairdresser!WADEVA!
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and STUPID LIES
But deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

certain lyrics describe me.ZOMG!this post made me so emo.no!!i'm a happy person!i am!
quotes for the morning"winners NV quit, quitters NV win"