She left to a peaceful place,my beloved granny =)

she looked so fine past few days ago.her tender hands were so warm,her eyes were so bright,her systems is still working.but everything seems to go wrong.i can sense that her time is running out.her shitting system goes hay-wired and her inner system reject what she takes in,even water.Her grand daughter tried to psycho her to swallow her food as well as her drinks,however everything was just on the surface of her tongue.And all she does was just nod her head.
for the past three days,her stomach was only filled with acids.she went without food and water.daywin asked for advise but i cant do anything,no one can help even the doctor.this was not the worse scenario.Her faeces kept flowing like river.no matter how many times daywin clean,it just kept flowing.her faeces was no longer brown,it turned to greenish then greenish black.
everyday seeing her,noticing the difference in her physical appearance really kills my heart.she became skinnier.her face got smaller and her eyes lids were so heavy.one glance,you maybe think that she sees life no purpose anymore.she was resting on her bed with her eyes closed all the time.she started to suffer from bed sore due to the heat that transfer to her back bone.my heart really kills.(pain)
then,i asked my dad izzit she only left with days to live?and he nodded.today after school,i got home and looked for food,i had my hungry pangs going.her door was close so i assume daywin was cleaning her up as there were guest in my hse.As my dad mentioned to me she was died.i was shocked,i din expect her to leave so soon.i just asked my dad that question yesterday.yet,she cant even live for days.
she looked exactly the same when how i used to look at her.it seems like she was sleeping.her hands turned icy cold and her body temperature started to drop.i felt nothing while my sister's eyes were swollen.daywin had the greatest impact.uncles and aunties came.sons and daughters of hers cried even my dad.i tot he was strong,but the moment he said his last words for her,he burst into tears.every man cried.i was standin rite beside my dad cryin with him really badly.seeing her leave by the trolley,away from the hse,away from the block and away from us ferever physically.we weaped our hearts out.something is missing now.her presence,her naggings,her advise,her listening ears,her tender loving care,her cookings,her scoldings,her evil mouth,her chasin-after-us-to-stop-runnin-ard-the-table,her presence,her cuteness,her concern-ness.='( i'll miss you granny!i'm glad u left in peace to a better place.U'll always be rmbed til my very last breathe tho u're gone.

MAKE CHANGES HAPPEN

Everywhere you go, you hear people talk about the changes they want to make in their lives.

"I want to lose weight."

"I want a better job."

"I want to make more money."

"I want to make a film."

"I want to write a book".

Maybe for you, it's to travel round the world, to get higher education, or improving a current relationship. We all have goals and changes we want to make and we talk a lot about wanting them, but how many of us really do something?

Sometimes, the talking turns into complaining. Because we accumulate so many wants, but never go about resolving them, we begin to feel dissatisfied. We start to make up excuses why success is not possible. Is it time? Is it money? It's family then, isn't it? We begin to blame other people, we blame events, we blame bad luck, and sometimes we blame ourselves. At the end of the day, this builds up into a massive store of regret.

Besides, these reasons are mostly inventions of fear and laziness. If you look at your excuses critically, how many of them are genuine? People who feel stuck are always saying "I can't afford an hour's workout a day!", or "I'm too forgetful!", or "I'm not a business person!". Basically, this is an admission of one's lack of control over one's life.

If someone gave you a million dollars to run on the treadmill for 20 minutes a day, could you do it? How great is your desire to have a better physique? How much is that worth? Very often, it's not because we can't, it's because we haven't found the motivation.

With the right motivation (and it doesn't have to be money), you can change and create winning actions in your life. You are not locked into any behaviour. Stop placing limits on yourself and talking about the reasons why you can't make changes happen. Nothing defines you except you yourself. Do you really need that extra cup of coffee? Or that extra mug of beer? What about your quota of three cigarettes a day? Or that new mobile phone? What's really stopping you from being more loving to your partner? Is the romance really fading? Or are you giving more priority to other areas?

Take back your own power and decide to get into action to achieve the results you want.

friday 13

indeed!friday 13 is a very suay day.gawd!i left my shoebag cuz of some beetle flying IN the darn 985bus.wahlao!i was suppose to get down like 3 more stops away but cuz of da dumb beetle,i alight immediately when da door open.And guess wad's da suay thing.i realised something missing until i was at the door of my hse.guess wad! I LEFT MY NEW BALANCE SHOE BAG WITH MY STINKY SHOES IN DA BUS!!!wahlao.and its my fav colour ORANGE luh.crap!i called up for the lost and found hotmail but no one ans.SIAN! den today is da very very first time i drop my phone on the floor like twice.friday 13 is no good day.anw,after sch,cat came over my place to like wait fer emily to reach da bus stop den head to gym.i wanted to go but i have netball trg at 5.30pm so nt.else i'll be tired. ST and SQ came for netball trg with me and it was uber fun but tiring tho.i think cuz we played da full court.usually we only get to play like half the court but der's so many pple came today.cik siti was stricter in her empiring.And today's performance were like suck.i think i did bad.
and today's really weird.i answered this call who i duno who i'm talking to and nv talked to this person before and he jus starts talking and talkin like i knew him.like a stranger who both of us noe common stuffs and this person jus started talking his shit.weird.why would this person actually calls?and this person started his angmoh slangs and all that.today's really weird.and i'm way way tired.so nites.

anw i think this gal is rather cute.haha!

newzealanders.

oh gee!i din expect foreign students to actually visit our school.hahaha.All thanks to bukit batok sec.these students are at the age of 12 to 13.why dun have my age?! hahaha.so they are all kids,some are really pretty and i jus love the way they talk.the accent of their english.hahaha.
ohyah.manli bought me avril lavigne CD as a bday gift!gee.thanks a million.now i can listen to all her musics alr.tahaha.

swammed

I GOT PIG'S LEGS!!






it was on friday.catherine came to my place,studied and headed to medeira to swim.HAH.HAD FUN