sigh..

haiz..its been so long seens i've started blogging again..so many unlucky stuff happened each day...mr toh made me either write 1000 lines or write 1000 words of compo just becuz i didnt write mah content page..how unlucky ish that..and i have to finish writing it on that day..and i wrote until abt 6plus i guess its was alrite..i dun mind..and yesterday i was drawing mah DNT folio..and i have to hand it in by that day...gonna finish soon.and mah friend spill the cup of lemon barley on the table and mah papers kena..so ish mah pencil box..i did it for like so long and there goes 1 cup of barley spill on the table.mah papers kena the barley..but nt alot..the ink smudge...mah eyes was filled with tears..but it didnt roll down..i almost cried nt becuz of the papers..but many unlucky things happened..and yesterday i went to run for the cross country..and i some sort of being said by mah coach..of why i was late and stuff...but that was alrite..the race started..and in the forest..mah shoe lace dropped,i was patting while tying it..afew seconds pass..in the forest.there ish this very upsteep slope..and its like 65degree..it was high..i ran like a ghost..all the way up the time i reach the top.i was patting hard..mah coach was there giving me water to drink and pushing me hard to chase after the person infront of me and i did..but the person was nt from dunearn....at the pathway of the road i almost vomited...doing the vomit action 3times..that ish bad..i almost wanted to give up...but i continue..was singing song in mah mind..kept pushing mahself..telling mahself that i can do it..and i did..i came in 3rd..huiyi was 1st and jasmine was 2nd..i was so tired after the race and i dunno why..its like so sudden..okie..maybe its nt sudden..maybe its becoz i didnt rest b4 mah race..mah coach was really really dissapointed..he said our timing ish like shit and 20mins is other schools' joggin pace.other schs are like doing15mins plus plus.....but i will continue to improve..i promise myself i want to aim at least 18mins i must..okie.back to where i was..after the race..i went to the toilet and cry..i cannot take it anymore..i wanted to cry 2times alr..but i hold on to mah tears..nt because of the position..its because of the "unluckyness"..somethings happened...mah goodfriends know wat happened. im so screwed..sigh..i felt like dying when such things happened..not that matter..but the unluckyness happened..i knew something will happened..i knew it..but it was far more den wat i thought..sigh..shall carry on..and i was alrite after i came out of the toilet and darn..darren asked me something..i forgt..and when i say it out and tell him..i burst out into tears again..because i was recalling it again..and den he confort me..he kept sayin that abt the position and stuff..but its bt the position..i dun care abt the position..really..and soOo many pple saw me cried...that was worst..and XX saw me cried..thats even worst..and i'm nt sure if XX saw 'it' or nt..sigh..I'M SO SCREWED!! but whatever it ish..i am metally prepared....so bring that stupid 'unluckyness' thingie on..i'm nt afraid already!!