At airport alone.

Im at the Airport alone. Both excited and scared at the same time. i feel as tho i'll forget to bring something or anything or missed smth like tat .gee! First time boarding the airplane myself,first time checking-in, first time having to lookout for myself on which Gate to go, seats no. checked? things to bring checked? Time to board,checked? SLR beside me checked? passport checked? boarding tix checked? Gee. Now im missing my parents, having them to worry everything and we're so carefreeee, jus follow around. :) Now gona be independent. i feel like an idiot in the Airport cuz im doing everyting myself now not like before wer you were told to do A and A alone. Now you gona do everyting. :) FUN experience. But scared at times. Did i forget anything?
Will i be late? And ouh. talking about thatt. i was almost late for my flight. i overslept. Gave me a fucking shocked! i wanted to have a straight 1hr sleep b4 going off and my sis called me.zzz disturbed me. i was having a hard time trying to sleeep. sso 3am, RING!!!! as usual, off it and close my eyes. der goes 30mins and bro has to wake me up instead of me waking him up! GEEE!! im sucha failure. so irresponsible. tts the word to define. :( IM IRRESPONSIBLE. TIME BUCK UP! and now i feel as tho im going to go overseas to study. ha ha! okay. time to go.

ADIOS PEEPS!
Especially to baby, cousin,and CMED. etc. BYEEE! will be back on sat! damn! still gt wad NYEC mascot shit and bibs shit to design. wtf wtf wtf wtf!!!!! okok.SOMEONE HELPPPPP. byebye!

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Gee! finally exams are over. :) Now wad shld i do for my holiday? hmm.

And my face is miracle-ly healing fast. :)

Later gona meet Mr oreo at JE to watch body world. :)

And i dun understand how my blog can be viewed by random people.. hmm. someone please enlighten me.

Bored.

Inspired. My goal?

This woman here is Christie Brinkley and she's 56 Yo for your info. Gosh. She's a legendary supermodel and she appears on the sports Illustrated mag cover three times. wow. im really getting to adore her, she does lots of charity work and she's gona be my next long term goal. Bar Refaeli will be first. :) i jus adore sports illustrated models. they are so healthy, have shapy body and they're natural.

Bar Refaeli,she's a jewish and she noes how to speak hebrew. Gee! thats damn sexy. And she's the Sports Illustrated Mag cover gal for 2009. wow. How i hope 1 fine day im in Sports illustrated mag too. *dreaming yes. its good to dream once in a while. it can help to draw your goal closer each day. :) I should start by exercising and keeping myself healthy physical and mentally. i always believe in inner beauty, the mind and personality. im working towards that each damn day.

And my Jaw Misalignment?Gee. it may hinder my goal of external beauty. But well, tts nt gona be the primary one yet. i'll do the jaw surgery when its time. For now, i have to keep improving on the inner beauty( the mind)

Diet- have to keep on check

Exercise- have to keep on check too. i wanna look like my daughter's younger sister when i am 60 in the future. :)

Every damn single day i am searching for what i want and who i wana be in the future.And i realised i have too many interests to comprehend, cant be a master of ALL jacks. probabby Master of some trades. but i do get drawn for other interest cuz i haven find wad exactly do i want or be in the future. But i found a solution to my demand in great interest in everything! my interest can range from media industry to health industry to sports industry to finance industry to world of business. i wana experience EVERYTHING before i leave this world and have an impact in people's lives, change them to be inspired and aspired.

What exactly do you want in life?

I will always love you no matter what baby. :)

Love Woman

Of Arrogant males I have grown tired I meet one or two every day
One reason why I do love women is that they are different to men in every way
We would have less wars if women were leaders and a far better World to live in
With females in positions of power pragmatism would have a big win
We need women as World leaders women who have in them empathy
For most women than men far more caring they see the good in humanity
And women as a whole than men less aggressive a good woman would never rule by fear
Most crimes against humanity are committed by the male kind
many of which we do read of and hear
That women seen as inferior to men in some cultures does seem such a sad thing to say
The arrogant and ignorant of patriarchal societies respect to their women don't pay
There is something wrong and dysfunctional in a Human World
of inequality
We need women in positions of power at least that's how it does seem to me
So lets drink a toast to all women their contribution to World peace not small
And lets drink to every good person as well as to a fair go for all.

SOME WOMAN
Some women they are naive and some women they are shy
And some women they are cunning and some women they are coy
But they are less aggressive than the macho male kind
And compassion in women is never hard to find.

Some women they look beautiful of which they are aware
And they spend big on health products as well as beauty care
And some women their beauty brings them great wealth and fame
So many beautiful women far too many for to name.

Though for recognition in a man's World women must work harder than men
And women always find it harder some respect for to win
In a male dominated society gender inequality
And males mostly responsible for war and want and poverty.

Some women they are sinned against and of their husbands live in fear
And stories of violence against women stories I do not like to hear
For women are less physical than men are as a whole
And nothing is more violent than a man out of control.

Some women may have their faults but would you not agree
That women are the glue that binds all of humanity
And in a World ruled by women we would have less of war and poverty
And women they are marvellous or so 'twould seem to me.

SOME WOMAN LIKE THEIR MEN
Some women like their men gentle and some like them rough
And some like them clever and some like them tough
When it comes to the male kind few women agree
We all look at things one might say differently
Some women the macho type of a bloke do prefer
The refined type of fellow is not one for her
And good looks and youthfulness to some little to amount
The one with heaps of money to them only count,
Some women than others are harder to please
And some go for a man with the Uni Degrees
And some women do prefer muscles to brain
How chemistry works in people is beyond me to explain
When it comes to men few women agree
We all look at things one might say differently.

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-beautiful-person-3/
Found this in the web. Woman poems by francis duggan

thinking

Hello blog,

once again, its been a long time since i last blogged. gee! blog oh blog, i feel that i do not have the drive and motivation anymore. i dunno wad am i working hard for and why shld i? being a nurse cant get me wealthy, drive lamborghini, stay in big house, have a big dog to exercise with. :(
how can i get my motivation from? HOW? and WHERE? gee. im depressed. losing my focus and direction right now. :(

How exactly can i get what i want? :(



PS: everyone loves athletes cuz they focus on their goals thru discipline,determine and perservences.

Which i sort of forgotten how i shld get to my goal. JIAYOU!

Focus is key, visualize every single moment of wad i want, who i wana become.
Cant let external pressure to get me down. I need to be discipline! Its time to stress myself BIG TIME to excel.

COME ON COME ON! im really weak! i need someone t be der t say that im stupid, im a weakling, im worse off den whoever. i need someone to poke me hard t wake me up! to trigger my anger. to look down on me so i can work really hard. I NEED SOMEONE WHO IS BETTER DEN ME TO SAY THAT I AM USELESS AND LOUSY TO TRIGGER MY MOTIVATION T WORK HARD! I NEED THAT.

I NEED TAT CONSTANT REMINDER THAT I NEED TO WORK HARD! MAN! I CANT SLEEP AS AND WEN, I CANT WAKE UP AS AND WEN. COME ON! FIGHT ON! THINK ABOUT MY FOCUS AND GOAL GOD DAMN IT! I HATE MYSELF! I REALLY DO!

I DUN DESERVE ANY LOVE FROM ANY ONE AT ALL! I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK!!!!! URGHHHHHH!!! MERINA IS A SHIT ASS HOPELESS SHIT! WORSE DEN A WORM! FREAKKK!!!! I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK!. OK. time to study hard now.

how to make a woman happy.

How To Make A Woman Happy

It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:

1. a friend
2. a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber

11. a mechanic

12. a decorator

13. a stylist
14. a sexologist
15. a gynecologist
16. a psychologist
17. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34. understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38. capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:

45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:

51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes
54. Never to forget:

birthdays

anniversaries

arrangements she makes.

Easy!

HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY

1. Show up naked
2. Bring food and beer.

HAHA.hmm. i find this rather true tho. :)

dilemma.

Im bored. im really bored. i am really really bored. bored of everything, bored of having to be mature, bored of acting to be an adult, bored of having to think ahead, bored of having "friends" who do not ask of your wellbeing, bored of having no sports for my cca, bored of not being true to everyone, bored of not being carefree in school, bored of having to watch your back, im bored of not being myself, bored of having people talking behind your back, bored of not being able to go for the Jaw surgery that ive always wanted. i want perfect alighment jaw, i want straight and perfect teeth.

Im bored, im really bored.

What do i really wana do in the future?

What??

A nurse? a sales manager? housewife? fashion designer?

Oh gee, tell me what i should do, what exactly..

the more pay i got, the poorer i am. i am poorer than before when i do not earn $

the more i earn $, the poorer i am. i rather not earn.

im only a 20 year old which still needs parent supervision and ive to depend everything on myself.

me myself and i.

isnt easy being independent?

you have to keep everything to yourself and be nice to everyone.

im bored. im really bored. so bored.

holiday, i cant wait for you to come. it will be time to have some fun.

I need the surgery. i really do. its gona cost me 20k.

Should i or should i not?

should i or should i not?

should i?

should i not?

sighhh.

sia la. today did our research presentation,

it was alrite and i tot i was already prepared enuff for the presentation and this girl from DL list, her presentation skills were superb and it made me feeling damn stress.

their group presentation was damn good. ours were like #*&^. we like anyhow do. no time to do also. duno how we fare.

den after she presented, i felt that i still got alot to work on. my class is the slackest, make me slack aso. wahlaoo. sian. must study for exams already. gona go take a nap first. :)

Okay, they're not that bad afterall, managed to do the work that i asked them to do.

they're pain in my ass man. but afterall, okay la. satisfied. :)

Another productive day. :)

today gona con 99$. wow! thanks to D'image. thats gona be the last time.

I HOPE!

exercising the brain emotionally.

My statistic group is completely hopeless and they are a bunch of losers. mygawd. this is the worst group that ive ever worked with. :( im so pissed with their working attitude. F.U.C.K! i haven been using that word for a long time. its seriously a fucked up bunch of losers and hopeless pple who only aim for the lowest.

Even the stats project,infos are all in and its sufficient to pass the project, we shldnt be looking at a just pass! wad sort of attitude is that?! a just pass attitude? sufficient to get a pass for the project? WTHECK!we should be aiming for the highest and not the lowest! im looking at an excellent project and scoring As for it. why the hell do i wana stay back after class with me feeling so tired and hungry and yet im still in school doing the shit stats project with my friend in the same group whining to go home! i wana go home and rest too. WTFUCK! And yesterday i had to stayed up late until 1 to ensure that the statistics project are all good and getting their cooperation is just like getting a lazy bull to move aside! URGH! Becuz of them, my marks may be jeopardize and the feeling is absolutely terrible! im here trying my best to improve on the stupid stats project so that everyone can score well for it and yet they are such lazy bums that even a simple thing which i asked them to do,they dun even wana do!URGH!
we should look at perfecting things we do and giving more than wad the teacher expects.

Now i feel so damn sian! why cant they just cooperate for the better of the project. WHY?!
anyway this is our statistic blog. (our height and weight ica.blogspot.com) each spacing should be replaced with a ( - ) a dash. i din wana put the full address cuz people might be able to track it when they google it. ohwell.

and exams are coming! in a month's time! now im feeling the stress! time to take some brain supplements. :)
i damn scare i cannot do well for all the papers. how to study in a month's time scoring well wen i always doze and daze during boring lectures??? tips tips tips! i need alot of help and tips for my exam sia!! teacher only gona give tips 3wks later. crazy! by the time 2more weeks exam how to study?! CRAZY LUH. :(

This sem means alot to me. repeating one semester or not really do depends on this semester. JIAYOU! for the seek of this semester! i think ive been slightly constantly now. JIAYOU JIAYOU! and Fuck care the stupid hopeless and losers and bummer group. They dun even have high aims in life. happy slacking man. i dun give a shit.

brain brain brain

Supplement=power brain

Power brain+right attitude+aim+support= ???

fix the mind first den can fix everything else.

im gona fix you brain! gona make you TIAN XIA WU DI. :)

dreadful day but numb to it.

Baby says im a cow, not even a farmer. :(

And guess wad, i was busy doing my work until and talked t B. until 3plus4 until i told him that ive gt school at 8 and we quickly hung up. the next morning, i silent my alarm clock and it never ring again. man. the moment i opened my eyes, im seeing 8am on my clock. i was like GREAT. can go back to sleep already. and i decided to miss 2hrs of my other module lectures. it was boring. EXAMS PERIOD next month. damn fast! i damn scared! ive to quickly get over all the projectssss and off to PUT FULL FUEL to study for my exams. die la! am i gona crap so much stuffs for my exams! DAMN DAMN! and my biopractical can say byebye to my A. i think i can barely get a B now. so many careless mistakes. wt$#^$&*##. gona punish myself.

den, went school for tut and off t do my stats project. and guess wad happened, my friend trip the plug and the whole com shuts off while we're doing our work. best part, WE HAVEN SAVE IT YET! thanks to her i cannot go home early and do my other projects.(i nv sleep properly,nv eat and drink somemore,how pityful i am, yet i want t perfect the project and she's der whinging to get home early and relax. sigh. i wonder wads life gona be ahead of her if she dun wake up. i feel sad for her.)so!i had to stay in school to redo again...lucky she can remember else i'll make her have nightmares tonite.

now ive alot of things to finish by tonite.

project scripts

research

research again

stats blog

later mayb meeting B.

wow. i can forget abt sleepin early again. THANKS T SCHWORK!

plus i haven bath from running under the rain wen i got home.

plus im having menses cramp! shit la damn pain.

if i were younger, i think i'll go DAMN STRESS!

but now, im jus so numb to it.

no choice. JIAYOU!

I DUNWANT TO BE A COW! take step by step. :)

BUSY

i hate school.

once school starts ive to get myself all busy with projects! tests to study for.

thursday: dateline for presentation of design NYEC

Friday, saturday, sunday: study BIO practical, perfect my projects and attending NYEC community day on sat 9am-1pm. gee! its @ hougang there man. so far!

And today its E-learning day, im not supposed t go back sch but still, had t go back for project meeting. gee!

And guess wad, i think my sister is really irritating, she shldnt be back at all. she called me up and said: wers the camera's charger?!

"i dunno, i also nv use"

"hung up" *without saying goodbye.

WT#%&^*&

urgh! why in the world has she gotta be my sister...

* In a dilemma

I HATE YOU! I REALLY DO!

im so pissed with my sister as always. she doesnt noe how to communicate with me and she doesnt even bother and care for me like everyone else says she is. in actual fact, she's not. people from the other see apart of the situation, not the whole situation. so advices have t be taken selectively. i dun get why people have t get so worked up sometimes wen their advices are not taken. bruised their little ego?hmm. maybe.

and den, the first thing she open her mouth is "mei! wer is this, wer is that, i want it by tonite u better go find! i asked u not t do this not t do tat. mei! help me do this, help me do tat. and wen i refused, she said actually i wanted t give u $ and i said i dunwant ur stupid $.

den she conplaints t my dad about me wen she barely comes home! she doesnt even noe wads going on with my life,wad has been happening and she just go $#^$%^&%. im hurt and pissed at the same time. i realised her presence has caused me being emotional and stressed. i feel being loved by my family more without her around.

i think she's the worse person. she doesnt even noe how t be a person. All the time she'll go MEI!$%^$%& scold and nag scold and nag.

wenever i asked tellin her my problems, she hardly listens and even throw temper at me.

wenever i asked her for help, she hardly get it done for me and she expects me t get it done for her IMMEDIATELY!

and wenever i bought my things, she'll bring over t her bf's place and i cldnt use it. wen i use the same treatment on her, she'll say me. i seriously dun like her. like father like daughter. Lucky i chose t follow my mum's footsteps.

and my sister has the cheek to ask :"if im old and lonely, will u take care of me?"

now im thinking, FORGET IT! she doesnt even take good care of me, she can forget about me giving her great attention and support that she needs. she's on her own!

And she kept saying that my bf is out t cheat my $, im even more pissed! she doesnt even noe wad sort of person he is yet she can just judge blinded. in actual fact, SHE NOES NOTHING ABOUT ME! NOTHING DETAILED! NOTHING! and i dunwant her to get into my personal life much either. im contented that my besties,friends and cousin is around and supportive plus my family without her around is good enuff. Plus him. all these people are there to support my emotional aspects and i realised that i needed that. i din realised how important that is. i used to keep every single thing inside and let as little people noe as possible cuz den i dunno how they will actually judge me.

But now ive grown emotionally healthy.

This is freaky,

i took my air-con remote controller and pressed the ON button and left it on the table and off i go put medication on my face.When i realised i din exactly turn on my air-con, i went to the table and search for my remote controller but i cldnt find it! i looked thru it thrice! den i went out and came in and looked again on the table, it is der! gee! thats creepy! either im blind or due to my long-sightedness or either its due to... gee, shldnt be! my house is blessed by god.

expert like me do great things. ceyy. :D

After

Before

After

Before

horse riding

FINALLY! i managed to go ride on my zodiac! im so glad! it was a hard time getting there. especially wen we're getting der by public transport! GAWD! but we spent less den 10$ getting there,exclusive of the taxi fare. the trip to rider's lodge was crazy! but it was fun! we took the malaysia's bus from singapore t the custom den went on t take a bus in malaysia(triple 7) the journey took us about 50mins getting there. gosh! lucky i brought my book to study. IM HARD WORKING YOU NOE. hahahaah!

the bus trip was only 2.50RM so cheap! I LIKE! but the journey was long. But after everything, the horse riding compensate everything! the place was great! the horses were great! prolly that will be my future retirement plan. provided i've got the $. else i can jus retire in e OLD FOLK HOME! but OFM isnt that bad! provided those old ah ma and ah pek are still senile and about to converse with, den i'll have many many old friends in OFM. :) okay. wtheck am i thinking. gees! haha! i miss my horse now. i feel like traveling there again to see my horse!

WORTHWHILE EXPERIENCES!

searching for my goal.

Hello peeps.

2 more days to sch reopen! and guess wad, im gona be 20 soon! gosh. 20! im so old now. :( Gona strive hard t get wad i wana get. I MUST!

Anw i went to rider's lodge on thursday. it was absolutely great fun der. the horses are well-maintain.

i wana open up a hotel too. with many horses there. big fields. nice friendly and happy people. ( sounds like a retire plan) hah. But i duno. i need the capital and knowledge to open one.

Where do i exactly start?

prolly i'll go der again during my holidays. :)

And the NYEC project is really killing me. gosh. this will be the last project for designing that i wana take up. its tedious doing designing. it can take you the whole day to get things right. and the person doesnt like it or gotta make changes. you gona keep changing and changing. Gosh. Now i feel for my designer friends.

how to open a hotel? wer do i start? WHERE?!