Wednesday, May 19, 2010

umpired

Wee! went to umpired Division 4 netball game and im pretty satisfied with the way i umpired. i tried my best already. But what matters most is that the players are happy and im happy. i think thats wads most impt! hmm. keeping my plan all checked. And my netball friend V. is damn nice! she bought me organiser sia! which cost 6.9$ zzz. she must be rich. she knew my organiser is more like mess-aniser.hah! so yea. and my friend sent me to the bus stop with her bike. SHIOK.
Overall, hopefully i can get badged! C BADGED! im coming to get you. And K. was tellin me to join Aciers for trg, every wed evening til 10pm. hmm. not so much of commitment tho. just 1 day of the wk. Shld be fine. But if thats e case, i cannot go club on WED! miannn.
And lastly, i did some photoshoots at Capella, managed to convince my photographer to shoot der. phew! Overall shoot was an enjoyable, fun and satisfying. im happy with the shoots tho. i even sacrifices my maxi dress for creative shots mannn. Cant wait for him to send me the photoshoots! :)

Sunday, May 16, 2010

PISSED

ive been thinking alot lately, and everytime i do and i need someone t listen, there u are blog, always der for me ALL THE TIME. okay fine, since my sister insist to have just a brother den fine! i dun need a sister anyways. And she's always old enuff, why does she wana bother about who i went out with. And she bothers, she shld show more care and concern.Apparently, she dun bother. so why stalking? FUCK THE SHIT OFF!
and i know what i want, i know what i am doing. i just wana hang around and explore the world more. i dun wana just study and be ignorant of the world. its still not enuff. People do say this and that, but you just wana experience to see if its the truth. you will not believe until you try it do you. it all applies to every single person damn it! we're nt communicating and its my fault? someone gotta do smth about it but definitely not me! im so dead sure of what i am doing and i'll promise myself that i'm gona have alot richer and better life that she is! just so that she doesnt start burdening me! WHY DO I EVEN HAVE THAT SORT OF SISTER?! i think she's gona be a bad mom! urgh! pissed!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

ponderingt




Hmm. i'm still pondering if i should get the floral top from topshop and the knitted dress. Ive tot of getting the tregging too. Gee. But its alittle too expensive. Knitted dress is already 119, floral top 69$ and the tregging is like 69$? And tats e charles and keith's heels. Damn SEX! i think its about 71$ or smth. Gee. Total up will be 328$?! Gee! :( i dun think i can get the clothes. Sigh. now that ive got an extra things to pay, my braces. 4.6K man. Each mth ive to pay for my insurance and my braces. Minus-ing off 50% of my allowance. If i were to buy, i left like 15% of my allowance and ive to use the previous mth's savings to pay for my necessity. sigh, ohwell, i guess i cannot afford buying Topshop clothes, its too expensive.I need to find another job. But my face like crap, Shit man. FACE OH FACE! FASTER HEALLLLL!!!i need you to earn $ for meeee!!!!!! my bank account is depleting like shit. i left like 50% to pay for my braces. some pple are so much fortunate than i am, can be so carefree, dun have to think about anything but ive to think abt $,man.. $ problem. always $. Guess i haven been thinking about it for awhile.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Photo-taking backdrop




i was brain stuck for a couple of days before i managed to come up with the concept of a city,YOUTHFUL AND COLOURFUL. however i dun think the design im able to do is that YET. anw its just the 1st draft. will do more improvement on it. The one which has colour background is taken from the internet and i just changed the background. dun think its good enuff.
Comment pple! do you think u'll wanna take photo with it?zzz

Monday, May 10, 2010

so pissed!

Things are starting to heat up more when i run thru the whole incident of my sis over and over again. Ytd wen out with my malay guyfriend. he's just my secondary school friend and he needed to talk about his probs with me and stuff. And so happened that my sis caught both of us coming home late on a bike. zzz. She actually hide behind the wall to see what we are up to. What sort of sister is that? a sister that do not trust her own sister. like WTH? Everyone says that she cares, but seriously, i think i see things alot more clearer than anybody does. the thing is that SHE DOES NOT TRUST ME! if she really cares, i can sense that. the care she gives is different. she's just the sort of person that distrust others and wants to find out more about wat the heck they are doing. she said that "ur boyfriends are getting from bad to worse and y are u even hanging out with a malay?" gee! i really feel for my malay friend. she also said"u'll be a burden to me in the future." cousin said:" oh, its just money issue afterall"
wth la. i'll be a burden? damn it! sees who is really burdening who. wen ur 12 yo husband dies, dun burden me,make sure u burden ur own kids but not me! i will never be a BURDEN to anyone! and afterall, if its due to money issue, freak man, i'm gona get an oldman to be my boyfriend, a sugardad and i'll be their mistress and makes sure that he gives me loads of $ to throw at my sis's face! damn it!
If my sis really care, she'll have the time to talk to me. But seriously, i dun think my cousin can really see the whole picture. she's just being distrusting. she dun trust me, fancy telling pple that "she's my sister" its such a great shame to be her sister. i wouldnt want a sister like her who do not trust my decision-making. DAMN! so freaking pissed!
i hope i dun have t attend her dumb stupid wedding.
And the best thing is taht she's making the mistake her own. she's with a 12yo man! y? becuz he's finacially stable and he treats her well and oh. of cuz he is financially well, he's afterall past the age of crisis already, ready for another marriage. zzz im only 19,going 20 man. i noe what i am doing! All she has to do is not sneak behind my butt and asking shit! if she really cares, she shld spend her stupid time on facebook, talking to me. i think that is truly caring. Else just FUCK IT. GET OFF MY LIFE! u're no longer a threat to me.
no worries, i'll make sure i'll do GOD DAMN WELL in life so that i will NOT BURDEN HER! prolly, NEVER! she better not burden me.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

braces on!Gee



Gee, finally i got my braces on! But the orthodonist were saying that i have to take solid food for at least a week.Gee! i tried biting papaya and its so painful! i cant even bite the papaya properly. gee! Ytd tried eating sushi! but apparently, im more like chewing and swallowing it. And i think 1/4 of the rice of the sushi is either stuck or hidden at the back of my teeth. WAHLAOOO.
i have to gurgle to get the food out.
And my brother is really funny. he said" mei, wen you cme home, you have to bath and take out contact lenses, now you have to brush your braces.." zzz thanks luh. Not only tat. After bath still have to do skin care at nite. gee! tahts alot to manage you noe. Not bad, i can managed. :D
Later gona go clubbing with Elaine babe! WEEE. so long nv meet her up alreadyy.
Til den. :)

Monday, May 03, 2010

Absolutely glad!


Check that out. NYEC gona use the mascot i created for the next few years. :) indeed it is an opportunity for me. im really glad that i stayed on and finish what i have to. *pat myself on my back.
anw, im really proud that our project is in good progress. Absolutely detailed. but not sure 20mins is really enuff. *another pat on my back.

Anw i came up with the mascot write up to represent NYEC.- mascot write up

This Mascot is a polar bear. I chose polar bear is because polar bears suffer the most from the climate changes that we people created. It is due to all the pollutions from human activities and partly causing global warming. Though we suffer too, from the blazing sun. But polar bears have to suffer from the cause the most. Global warming threatens the polar bear by permanently damaging its Arctic habitat. We created more heat and causing the ice cap to melt. We are beginning to slowly destroying the home of other creatures. Therefore, using the polar bear as our mascot signifies the gambit to intensify climate change hysteria.

The mascot will be called Ice/Icy

The mascot will be made wearing just a shirt with the association logo. It’s to represent the association and allow the public to know that we are trying to save the Earth. It will also be a standing polar bear so it will look cuter and able to walk about. It should be standing tall, big and fat.

Keep it up Merina! keep fighting to see wer your potentials can really take you. :)JIAYOU!

Saturday, May 01, 2010

TO YOU AND JUST YOU

What are you trying to pull off this time? i fb-ed you and obviously you have read the msg becuz u can still play FB games.
And you said you will reply to me for what i hv blogged. why when i blogged my extreme feelings for you, i cannot nth from you. no replies at all. what are you pulling off?
TELL ME!
before i go mental!

Thursday, April 29, 2010

BUSY!

So busyyy! week 4 i got so many school thing due on that week! GAWD! 2 ICA ppt, 2 assessment skills, 1 FYP ppt! wk5 is to hand in the critics of the FYP journal. wk11 gona have 3 major examinations. Den wk 17-20 got YOG. wahh. Den wk 20-21 got another 3 major exams! gee! so busy! Gona fight and focus hard to score GPA 3.8! JIAYOU grp members and jiayou to myself too! i got totally no time for conflicts and shit in class anymore.

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

TO YOU AND JUST YOU

Gee. how can anyone be able to believe that you, working in an educated society, yet you can have him controlling everything? So afterall, he is really something instead of nth. And dun tell anyone? aint i typing to you everything showing to everyone now? And how he checks your email? He DO NT HAVE THE RIGHTS TO. you're his employee who works for him. Not some dirt. Wad you did to him that you deserve to be punished like that?And i am giving you an extra solution, use public phone to call me, or call lixin or emily or whoever. Or get your sister to call me and tell me what is going on. Or use your sis's FB to tell me what is going on. Is that enuff solutions yet? Not enuff, i can give you more. Nth is impossible. Im sure you are smarter than he is. If you still cannot think of ways to contact me DIRECTLY than contact me INDIRECTLY to contact me directly. Else i think there isnt a point for you to continue reading my blog and me blogging you. And i dun think J will do anything, he is so famous in the media now. We wun dare to do anything, tell me if im wrong. Im giving you 1 week to contact me, no matter wad. If you have no solutions, i will help you. And if until now, you still decide not to tell me. Only unsound and naive mind will believe what you say. You can always send your sister or whoever to tell me what is going on if you think you cannot afford to risk it. You can use your sis's hp to call me. If all these are not the right solutions and still not enuff for you to remove J completely. Dun worry, by den i will noe what i really want to do. I will stop blogging about how much i missed you etc etc. i will definitely detest you, i will definitely want you OUT OF MY LIFE, i will definitely condemn you and ohya, just a reminder, females are bitches when they are hurt or angry, so i dunno if you want to trigger that in me. If you really love me, prove it to me or ask your God to talk to me. i dun want you to text, i want you to either call me or get someone you and i noe to look up and tell me what is wrong. If you do not have the guts to tell me that actually, you met a new girl and you're dating her or you cannot afford to "feed" me or you dunwant me to think that you're incapable cuz ur not earning much or actually whateva you told me abt J threatening and stuff are all lies to get me out of your life. Really, it is really fine with me. So long you tell me the truth, i wont condemn you or wadeva. No worries. i keep my word.
Your 1 week starts now. Thursday 29/04/2010(dun need to feel stress, you got until next thursday)

Anw, after i lost a slight weight, my boobs shrink Drastically. Gee. that is really saddening. From C to B cup ah. Mayb A cup. :( Must be sm1 cursing me. My boob seems to shrink over nite. :( SIGHHH

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

TO YOU AND JUST YOU

Can we communicate thru emails rather den here?And will ur mentor really help you?He left the company and he promised to get you out but in the end, he dint. he went back on his words. U shldnt hv trust anyone in the first place. Now you end up in such miserable state. sigh. So wad hv u been doing during weekends?

Monday, April 26, 2010

TO YOU AND JUST YOU

i really hope your prayers help it'll help you to calm your mind down. Today i put my anchor onto all my second last molars. its so uncomfy. i really hope that the end result will be beautiful else i'll cry my hearts out. since i decided to do ahead with my jaw surgery, ive to endure pain, physically. tho i cannot eat solid food, i still went ahead to eat it and jus swallow my food.. gee!
Anws, im going to see the dermatologist downstairs my hse. And tell me that you love me more than your other previous 1s. i really really am hoping that you will tell me what is going on. i can help, not monetary tho. Dun solve problems on your own, its always better to have more brain to brainstorm together for a perfect solution.
With love.

pondering

My friend says, "when you started working, nobody will even bother about your results as long you can work and do your job well."
To a certain extend, i agree to that, but on the other hand, with good results means that you have the knowledge on how to handle things tho in hospital they dun really practice what is taught. he says, den why do you still wana score so well?
i just wanted to prove 1 thing, all along, i think you were right, and my teachers were right. I have the potential to excel only when i am focus but i am always not focus. it's my weakness. Today, i am gona work on that,TO FOCUS, i wanna see how far i can really go, how far can my potentials bring me.
Even today, i still get distracted as and when, its still not easy but i will do my every best to pull myself back together again. so what if the hospital doesnt see your results, im doing it for me. And once i start work, im gona work hard for that two years to be the best as i can. And once im out of nursing, hopefully, i want to do real estates. i want to sell houses to rich family. i want to see the concept and designs of new houses. And earn loads of $ so that i can help alot of poor people around, help the disabled by coming to my horse field and learn horse riding. If only i can have that. I need the $ to help me,my family to retire happily and to help the world more, to help all those poor pple around. To give back to the society. But sigh.. i duno, i really duno.
Im not as giving as mother teresa. she is truely an amazing woman. ohwell, i guess ive just have to work hard. no matter wad, i'll still blog. thats for sure. :)

Sunday, April 25, 2010

TO YOU AND JUST YOU

Whats done is done, i called you which im not supposed to and we're broken. I guess all my recent post will be dedicated to you. Since i cannot tell you how i feel,i still want you to know how i feel and what is going on in my life. Its always easier to listen to your heart and its alot tougher to listen to your brain. i just simply cannot stop thinking of you. If you cannot take the fact that i have to blog about you all the time, den you can always click on the "cross" button to exit, im not forcing you to read it. Today i tried talking to my mom the way i talk to you, hoping she'll enlighten me with my silly tot but no. she's not as knowledgeable and patient as you are. Only you can really take all my silly tot and argue. Ytd i hugged your huge carebear to sleep and smiling at all the carebears that you gave me. Den again, the tot of me having to wait or maybe not wait and HAVE t move on,made me stop smiling and pushed all the carebears away.
I just have one request and nth more and nth less. wateva i blog in here, i just want you to reply and help me and guide me thru it. I promise i wont even think about contacting you. nth more, nth less.

Saturday, April 24, 2010

move forward man.

If that is really how you want me to leave and believe that you dun love me. i will. Even tho i said that i will lose all form of communication from you, i dun think i'll bear to do that.You're afterall my first and my longest r/s that ive been thru with. If saying all that to make me leave, fine. i'll leave. But i'll always be thinking of you becuz u indeed made an impact in my life. i will live by my life and try to move on each day, tho its hard to live by each day without you but i will and i must. i cannot let everyone else down becuz of a fallen r/s. its unfair to them, tho its not fair for me either. i will live each day strongly.. day by day. As of now, its not easy. But ive to focus! my main focus is to do well in this semester,GPA 3.8! tho its gona be tough to pull my GPA up but i'll do my every best. As of now, bye forever. its really really tough to move on wen i walk pass all the places that we hang out, its really really tough to move on wen u smell this cologne on this person which uses the common perfume that you always use. CK one. everyday its so tough for me. wait wait. i need to stop this thought! what am i doing! i have to wake up! i cant carry on dwelling on my tots that is already in the past. its not fair!
MERINA JIAYOU!
MAIN FOCUS: STUDIES! DO WELL! Last chance to pull GPA up! LAST SEM AND LAST CHANCE! we're gona prove to Denise that our grp can be good, even better WITHOUT HER! likewise for u, without you, i can lead my life good, even better! I DUN NEED YOU AT ALL. Indeed, leaving me was the greatest decision you made, now ive more freedom and leaving in singlehood gona make life more fun for me! :D
MERINA JIAYOU! BE THE BEST OF THE BEST!
LIFE's SHORT! no time to dwell on things. WAKE UP WAKEUP!

Thursday, April 22, 2010

"Love is not blind, it sees more and because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
Anw were supposed to do a FYP project and my friend wants to do AIDS board game. i suddenly tot of Nutrition commercials.
But however, check this AIDS commercials out. super hilarious

i need directions

im having a mixture of feelings now. sometimes i get so mad of why u decided to leave me, den the next moment. i shldnt be mad. sometimes i get sad, and the next moment i shldnt be.
Today someone used your cologne and came into my lecture hall, it distracted me from my lectures again. i really do miss you and you had to do this to me. i feel so angry on why you have to do this to me. Every single day i have to tell myself that i can do this, i can do this! i can just endure the pain and focus my energy to my studies. But somehow, i think the only thing i can do to make me feel better is to blog. i think blogging is already a part of me. To blog what my heart says. Tho sometimes the things i say contradicts to what i type. But whateva i type here are my true feelings. it comes from my heart. Gee.
At the meantime, i am planning to work in clarins during the weekends to spend my youth on them since i cant spend it with you. But ohwell, my friend who is 1 year younger den me is engaged to a doctor 10 yrs older. Gee. Prolly i'll marry to myself. i really dunno which direction i shld head. i wana do real estates in the future and i noe its gona be tough, some give up and some continue. i need the capital to start things off first but how? by saving my punny little savings? sighh. Or just stay on in nursing and be a sister which earns 5-6k 10yrs later? which im gona be like 31? i need 10k/mth! 10k! Even tho der is rumors about increasing pay for nurses, i think sooner or later, der will be an increment for every jobscope since singapore's standard of living is always going up. Shld i take the risk and switch my career to real estates which i noe nuts about but i FEEL that i am interested in? or shld i just stay on in nursing and head to AUSTRALIA or STATES to be a nurse? OR shld i stay on in nursing and study all e way to PHD be become DR NG? OR shld i take up marketing and den apply to be GM or director in a company? HOW??? :( i need directions. i am lost!!!!

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

pain. :(

2nd day of wearing separators. :( can feel that my teeth are aching and i cannot bite solid food. i need to literally chew them and SWALLOW. The aches are really bad. Got no appetite in eating now. And its only the second day of sch and im feeling the stress leveling up. gee!

Monday, April 19, 2010

separators done

Gee.
Did i tell you that i decided to go ahead with my Jaw surgery that alot of people do support me to go ahead, even my teacher says so. And since everything is going in the right direction for me, i thought, why not i just go ahead to plan for the surgery? And the doc that vic found is an experienced orthodontist and he assured me that i am in good hands. :) that is really assuring and my anxiety level can go from 5 to 0.
So yea, der is 3 visits for my braces to be done cuz mine is a surgical case. He put the separators for the 1st visit, which is today. Gee, its really uncomfy right now, i cannot close my mouth! i cannot bite cuz the rubberband is slightly higher den my teeth. And during the surgery, the surgeon will extract two of my filler-ed tooth and i may have to extract my wisdom tooth as well. 2nd visit is to do tooth extraction. :( i am gona be BOO-GAYYY. UGLY! :'(
And the 3rd visit will be the braces. i have to wear like 1 and a half year. boohoo. Der goes my youth. :( nvm! for that time-being! no looks. so have to work extra hard, prolly i wouldnt mingle and have wide social life. Gona keep low profile til my jaw is done. :) hopefully everything goes smoothly.
Meantime, continue to strive for my GPA3.8! time to see my CBT! :)

stubbornness may not be a bad thing.

OK!
FINE! i admit that i am truely stubborn and i will not want to or going to change that even if the whole world gona say that i am stubborn. that is just part of my personality traits or rather, people may see it as a flaw or downfall, why not see it as something that will be beneficial? And my brother says that i am as stubborn as a pillar, sis says that i am as stubborn as a cow. zzz
I just cannot change that. Too bad, to have the best in me, u got to tolerate my imperfection too. And ouh, guess i found an article that supports me even if my world dun!

Raising a stubborn child

Characteristics that can annoy you as a parent can actually turn into really positive attributes in your child in later years if you can help guide and direct them to formulate these quality characteristics. The following are a few traits that have a lot of potential.

Bossiness. If you have a bossy child you should count yourself lucky as the bossy ones often become the best leaders later in life. They know how to take control of a situation and to get responses from other people. Your goal as a parent should be to help them learn the responsibility that comes with bossing people so that they can be an actual leader not just a pain in the butt.

Willfulness. This is a trait that can frustrate parents to no end, but that can be really beneficial for your child's career objectives in the future. Willfulness often leads to a strong determination to succeed, despite the odds stacked against someone. So, if you want your child's willfulness to be a positive attribute then teach them to set goals, and to have purpose and thought behind it.

Stubborn. A stubborn child can turn into an assertive adult. A child who digs in their heels as refuses to budge can be frustrating, but an adult who refuses to compromise their standards is respectable. So, remember that your child just needs to be stubborn about the right things. Teach them to be selective about their stubbornness and it will serve them well in their future.


okok. gotta kinda repharse it. stubborn child in my parent's eyes. yea. Tho i am going to be an adult soon but yeaaaaa. i WAS a child! :)

And i guess recently i can really debate with my entire family members who always say all -ve stuff at me.

I guess being in my complicated r/s that i were in, not sure if i shld use past tense or etc, i really learnt alot from him. Only that walking encyclopedia has the patience to explain to me everything that i asked him. And perhaps, he really does have a really difficult time right now, i shouldnt mistrust him. He hasnt do anything that upsets me,other den throwing tantrum and shouting at me sometimes and showing attitude which how can a girl tolerate? :'( i am really concern about what is going on with his side. Is the situation really that bad that he has to abandon this going 2 years r/s? Sometimes it gets really confusing, whether to use your logical mind or ur emotional mind, which is the right brain.

The left and the right brain, as i can say, fight very often. Today, its the left brain that is talking, the very next moment, its the right brain that is talking. Gee, it is really really tough to manage. But i think its good to use both simultaneously. And i realised my weakness. They say, when you write, you are using your logical mind.But when you are conversing, you will use intuition instead.Somehow you will empathize the person and forgot to think logically and yet, you feel for the person, which, it will usually lead to trouble. Therefore, there is always this saying, "LOVE IS BLIND"

But for this r/s that i had or have?gee, which tense should i use? past or present? sighh. i knoe that i am not fully blinded, this guy is a really fantastic and great guy which many may think the stereotyped that he is out to cheat "little girls" i noe he is not that sort, but ohwell, he chose to leave for who noes what reasons and i hope he made the right choice based on his situation and the character that i have and pray hard that when he turns around, i will be with him again. Which he has to MAKE UP for my emotional state of mind, lost of sleep and tears and unfocus-ed mind.

Lastly, hope everything do turn out fine for that walking encyclopedia of mine, i meant used-to-be-mined. :)

For the time-being, i need to work my GPA up, i think to get all distinction! i already has got a distinction in my attachie wer the module credit is 6! yes! i aced it. CONTINUE TO FIGHT FORWARD! no slowly down. i need a GPA of 3.8! 3.8!!! nursing course shouldnot be that hard to score, all i need is to cut down on fb,msn,social life, surfing for unrelated stuffs and work more on those that i do not understand. At least without him now should be alot more manageable for me to work on my studies. Should not have any excuses at all. 3.8! i am coming to get u! just so you wait! GAMBATE!

Monday, April 12, 2010

1kg down. :)

Guess wad! i am 8kg away from my desired weight. :) i cant believe that my diet plan works! :D
okay, so before i went to Macau, i was 62kg and den after 1wk, i was 59kg. So den, after 3wks, i lost another kg. i am 58kg now! i barely hit 58kg in my entire life. well, 8more kg to go. And you noe wad? its really weird how the body works. you make your body adapt to your low calories diet from MONDAY TO FRIDAY an den, you have a cheat day. which is when your body has already adapt to your diet, you eat all the junk food. And i ate cheezy pizza over the weekends. just a day. and the next day i am back on my diet plan again. super low calories diet. And wahla, i lost weight. i'll tell you about the theory of how the body works soon. so that is it for now. :) 8 more kg to go.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Mascot



So i took about a day to finish doing my mascot for my NYEC residential project. is my mascot cute? it took me awhile to improve on my design. show u the inital design that i did.

So that was the inital design. just a draft. so the committee wanted a polar bear that stands. and it took me awhile to really crack my brain to search for a relevant design to my project. the theme is water-conservation. so i tot of having that design of a globe that has water wasted. At least it sends out the msg to people that hey, u gona conserve the water. so yup. one down, 3 more to go.But of cuz on other designs tho. simple one. hah. adios amigo. :)

PS: and guess wad! my teacher says she'll give me an awesome grade for my attachment! HEHE! 3 wks of hardwork PAID OFF! now have to work on my third year! have to continue to work hard, very hard! i wana see how far can i go and use all the potentials in me to excel! yea. totally motivated and i have to continue this sort of energy. JIAYOU! i totally regretted for not studying in my year 1. man. it totally pull me down. :(

Sunday, April 04, 2010

Be Nice, but be ready to defend yourself against any rude attitudes

Saturday, April 03, 2010

rising emotions again

i was watching my DVD happily until the selfish bitch woke up and make a hell of the noise to get what she wants.. again and again and again. she never change since i was little, until now. that self-centred bitch is my older sister. its unfair. its really unfair. we dun communicate and she tells everyone that she has a bad temper and she do not noe how to communicate. she cares but she only scolds. And what i did was just REACTING to her actions. it was her who provoked me. its unfair that i should be the one who should stand up and have a heart to heart talk with her. Ive tried, at least,but it dun seem to work. And now, she's pissed and im the one to be blamed for pissing her. Everyone sure does have a time of laziness, everyone sure does have a time of letting people do things rather den BEING TOLD to do things all the time.
And the damn plates, my dad wants to wash it, even if i wana wash it, he insists that he wants to wash it. And its not just me who dont do the washing of the plates, my brother doesnt wash it too. if wana scold, scold the both of us, not just me.
why is everyone just picking on me? is it becuz im the youngest and im the target for all of them to vent their anger and especially i dun really retaliate?
Or is it becuz i shldnt even be born at all? having my sister and my brother alone is good enuff. i dun care what people says about oh, your sister has bad temper and she always say stuff that she dun mean... if really so, why i dun seem to see/hear her apologizing to me for i have lived?oh, maybe i noe. maybe cuz she duno how to apologize to me or make it up for what she has said, jus let time heal the wound. she dun seem to wana improve things and all she does is go around telling people that hey, ive got a nasty temper and i dunno how to communicate so i will get other people to talk you around to tolerate my nonsense while i do not have to make much effort to change myself for the better at all.
i had enuff. i really had enuff of the shit. be it who you are or whether you are related to me. You hurt me times and times again. you're not fit to be my older sister at all.
i hope i do not have t attend your wedding at all.
i just cannot tolerate this nonsense over and over again. i had enuff. wen ive succeed in life, you and i will live our own lives, dun even bother looking up for me for i noe, you will want something from me. I HAD ENUFF. i really dun wana care about your live at all and i do not want you to interfere in mine either.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

thinking

Hello,
phew. finally i can graduate wit all my classmates. :) Lucky i fought the battle hard against people who says it cant be done. its true that people only listens to what they want to listen. no one ever appealed successfully and im glad that my mentor is siding and helping me all the way though she's very naggy and blame people for the wrong reasons, overall, she is kindhearted and i know she cares. :) im glad that my appeal is successful :) i used to have people telling me that it cant be done and they have tried doing it but no one really bothered about the appeal and me being persistent with my decision and stubbornness, i din really bothered about what others who do not support me have to say at all. At least ive tried it myself and i wana try it with my own capabilities and not yours. Though for you, u might say the aircon in room A is freezing but for me, it may not be cuz i will not get chilled easily. situations varies from person to person. its different. Though i may be very stubborn but i have my reasons. though you might say that love hurts, dun ever get into a r/s and love some1 deeply, u'll get hurt, you better listen. yes, i listen and if i were to do it, its me whose gona experience all the pain and hurt. i cant cuz what people says dun do it and i dun do it. i wana feel it too.
Hope those around me understands, i do things without regret. life is to experience and the best thing is that im fortunate to be healthy and strong. Even if im leave this world, i will not have any regrets. :)
But i just dun get why the people i love always disappoint me greatly.i treated them with all my heart and i always end up getting hurt over and over again. i gave my heart to my bestfriend in primary school and she hurt me so badly. i gave my heart to my polyfriend and she also hurt me so badly. i wanted to be great friends with her and i know i can be her bestie bestfriend in poly but den again, she pushed me away, she made me teared so badly. And now, everytime i see her, i dunno if i should hate her or try to make things better which i think there isnt any progress. i kept trying back den but things dun seem to be better. i miss her, i really do but i dun think things will ever change again. we're just classmates and that is that. tho sometimes i feel like bringing you down cuz u hurt me so much. I guess i dun think i'll be able to forget those who hurt me. including my first crush or love or wateva.

Sunday, March 14, 2010

HK,MACAU

Travelled t hk and macau again. gee! spent a wk overseas,its good to be back in your hometown. No smelling of ciggies and hair rigs of ciggie smell. ew! tot Sg may be small and der's alot of rules and fine. i shldnt deny tt Sg is a safe and peaceful country. Dun have t worry much at all. Even my 6yo kid can take the train on his/her own. But had fun at hk and macau tho, especially in venetian hotel. its ultra big! Makes me wana go to venice the next travel trip.

Damn com, cldnt upload pics. ohwell. too bad den. :(will try again

Monday, March 08, 2010

At airport alone.

Im at the Airport alone. Both excited and scared at the same time. i feel as tho i'll forget to bring something or anything or missed smth like tat .gee! First time boarding the airplane myself,first time checking-in, first time having to lookout for myself on which Gate to go, seats no. checked? things to bring checked? Time to board,checked? SLR beside me checked? passport checked? boarding tix checked? Gee. Now im missing my parents, having them to worry everything and we're so carefreeee, jus follow around. :) Now gona be independent. i feel like an idiot in the Airport cuz im doing everyting myself now not like before wer you were told to do A and A alone. Now you gona do everyting. :) FUN experience. But scared at times. Did i forget anything?
Will i be late? And ouh. talking about thatt. i was almost late for my flight. i overslept. Gave me a fucking shocked! i wanted to have a straight 1hr sleep b4 going off and my sis called me.zzz disturbed me. i was having a hard time trying to sleeep. sso 3am, RING!!!! as usual, off it and close my eyes. der goes 30mins and bro has to wake me up instead of me waking him up! GEEE!! im sucha failure. so irresponsible. tts the word to define. :( IM IRRESPONSIBLE. TIME BUCK UP! and now i feel as tho im going to go overseas to study. ha ha! okay. time to go.

ADIOS PEEPS!
Especially to baby, cousin,and CMED. etc. BYEEE! will be back on sat! damn! still gt wad NYEC mascot shit and bibs shit to design. wtf wtf wtf wtf!!!!! okok.SOMEONE HELPPPPP. byebye!

Saturday, February 27, 2010

:)

Gee! finally exams are over. :) Now wad shld i do for my holiday? hmm.
And my face is miracle-ly healing fast. :)
Later gona meet Mr oreo at JE to watch body world. :)
And i dun understand how my blog can be viewed by random people.. hmm. someone please enlighten me.
Bored.

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Inspired. My goal?




This woman here is Christie Brinkley and she's 56 Yo for your info. Gosh. She's a legendary supermodel and she appears on the sports Illustrated mag cover three times. wow. im really getting to adore her, she does lots of charity work and she's gona be my next long term goal. Bar Refaeli will be first. :) i jus adore sports illustrated models. they are so healthy, have shapy body and they're natural.

Bar Refaeli,she's a jewish and she noes how to speak hebrew. Gee! thats damn sexy. And she's the Sports Illustrated Mag cover gal for 2009. wow. How i hope 1 fine day im in Sports illustrated mag too. *dreaming yes. its good to dream once in a while. it can help to draw your goal closer each day. :) I should start by exercising and keeping myself healthy physical and mentally. i always believe in inner beauty, the mind and personality. im working towards that each damn day.
And my Jaw Misalignment?Gee. it may hinder my goal of external beauty. But well, tts nt gona be the primary one yet. i'll do the jaw surgery when its time. For now, i have to keep improving on the inner beauty( the mind)
Diet- have to keep on check
Exercise- have to keep on check too. i wanna look like my daughter's younger sister when i am 60 in the future. :)
Every damn single day i am searching for what i want and who i wana be in the future.And i realised i have too many interests to comprehend, cant be a master of ALL jacks. probabby Master of some trades. but i do get drawn for other interest cuz i haven find wad exactly do i want or be in the future. But i found a solution to my demand in great interest in everything! my interest can range from media industry to health industry to sports industry to finance industry to world of business. i wana experience EVERYTHING before i leave this world and have an impact in people's lives, change them to be inspired and aspired.
What exactly do you want in life?
I will always love you no matter what baby. :)

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Love Woman

Of Arrogant males I have grown tired I meet one or two every day
One reason why I do love women is that they are different to men in every way
We would have less wars if women were leaders and a far better World to live in
With females in positions of power pragmatism would have a big win
We need women as World leaders women who have in them empathy
For most women than men far more caring they see the good in humanity
And women as a whole than men less aggressive a good woman would never rule by fear
Most crimes against humanity are committed by the male kind
many of which we do read of and hear
That women seen as inferior to men in some cultures does seem such a sad thing to say
The arrogant and ignorant of patriarchal societies respect to their women don't pay
There is something wrong and dysfunctional in a Human World
of inequality
We need women in positions of power at least that's how it does seem to me
So lets drink a toast to all women their contribution to World peace not small
And lets drink to every good person as well as to a fair go for all.

SOME WOMAN
Some women they are naive and some women they are shy
And some women they are cunning and some women they are coy
But they are less aggressive than the macho male kind
And compassion in women is never hard to find.

Some women they look beautiful of which they are aware
And they spend big on health products as well as beauty care
And some women their beauty brings them great wealth and fame
So many beautiful women far too many for to name.

Though for recognition in a man's World women must work harder than men
And women always find it harder some respect for to win
In a male dominated society gender inequality
And males mostly responsible for war and want and poverty.

Some women they are sinned against and of their husbands live in fear
And stories of violence against women stories I do not like to hear
For women are less physical than men are as a whole
And nothing is more violent than a man out of control.

Some women may have their faults but would you not agree
That women are the glue that binds all of humanity
And in a World ruled by women we would have less of war and poverty
And women they are marvellous or so 'twould seem to me.

SOME WOMAN LIKE THEIR MEN
Some women like their men gentle and some like them rough
And some like them clever and some like them tough
When it comes to the male kind few women agree
We all look at things one might say differently
Some women the macho type of a bloke do prefer
The refined type of fellow is not one for her
And good looks and youthfulness to some little to amount
The one with heaps of money to them only count,
Some women than others are harder to please
And some go for a man with the Uni Degrees
And some women do prefer muscles to brain
How chemistry works in people is beyond me to explain
When it comes to men few women agree
We all look at things one might say differently.

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-beautiful-person-3/
Found this in the web. Woman poems by francis duggan

Thursday, February 18, 2010

thinking

Hello blog,

once again, its been a long time since i last blogged. gee! blog oh blog, i feel that i do not have the drive and motivation anymore. i dunno wad am i working hard for and why shld i? being a nurse cant get me wealthy, drive lamborghini, stay in big house, have a big dog to exercise with. :(
how can i get my motivation from? HOW? and WHERE? gee. im depressed. losing my focus and direction right now. :(

How exactly can i get what i want? :(



PS: everyone loves athletes cuz they focus on their goals thru discipline,determine and perservences.

Which i sort of forgotten how i shld get to my goal. JIAYOU!

Focus is key, visualize every single moment of wad i want, who i wana become.
Cant let external pressure to get me down. I need to be discipline! Its time to stress myself BIG TIME to excel.

COME ON COME ON! im really weak! i need someone t be der t say that im stupid, im a weakling, im worse off den whoever. i need someone to poke me hard t wake me up! to trigger my anger. to look down on me so i can work really hard. I NEED SOMEONE WHO IS BETTER DEN ME TO SAY THAT I AM USELESS AND LOUSY TO TRIGGER MY MOTIVATION T WORK HARD! I NEED THAT.

I NEED TAT CONSTANT REMINDER THAT I NEED TO WORK HARD! MAN! I CANT SLEEP AS AND WEN, I CANT WAKE UP AS AND WEN. COME ON! FIGHT ON! THINK ABOUT MY FOCUS AND GOAL GOD DAMN IT! I HATE MYSELF! I REALLY DO!

I DUN DESERVE ANY LOVE FROM ANY ONE AT ALL! I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK!!!!! URGHHHHHH!!! MERINA IS A SHIT ASS HOPELESS SHIT! WORSE DEN A WORM! FREAKKK!!!! I SUCK I SUCK I SUCK!. OK. time to study hard now.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

how to make a woman happy.

How To Make A Woman Happy

It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:

1. a friend
2. a companion
3. a lover
4. a brother
5. a father
6. a master
7. a chef
8. an electrician
9. a carpenter
10. a plumber

11. a mechanic

12. a decorator

13. a stylist
14. a sexologist
15. a gynecologist
16. a psychologist
17. a pest exterminator
18. a psychiatrist
19. a healer
20. a good listener
21. an organizer
22. a good father
23. very clean
24. sympathetic
25. athletic
26. warm
27. attentive
28. gallant
29. intelligent
30. funny
31. creative
32. tender
33. strong
34. understanding
35. tolerant
36. prudent
37. ambitious
38. capable
39. courageous
40. determined
41. true
42. dependable
43. passionate
44. compassionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO:

45. give her compliments regularly
46. love shopping
47. be honest
48. be very rich
49. not stress her out
50. not look at other girls

AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO:

51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself
52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself
53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes
54. Never to forget:

  • birthdays

  • anniversaries

  • arrangements she makes.
  • Easy!

    HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY

    1. Show up naked
    2. Bring food and beer.


    HAHA.hmm. i find this rather true tho. :)

    Thursday, January 21, 2010

    dilemma.

    Im bored. im really bored. i am really really bored. bored of everything, bored of having to be mature, bored of acting to be an adult, bored of having to think ahead, bored of having "friends" who do not ask of your wellbeing, bored of having no sports for my cca, bored of not being true to everyone, bored of not being carefree in school, bored of having to watch your back, im bored of not being myself, bored of having people talking behind your back, bored of not being able to go for the Jaw surgery that ive always wanted. i want perfect alighment jaw, i want straight and perfect teeth.
    Im bored, im really bored.
    What do i really wana do in the future?
    What??
    A nurse? a sales manager? housewife? fashion designer?
    Oh gee, tell me what i should do, what exactly..
    the more pay i got, the poorer i am. i am poorer than before when i do not earn $
    the more i earn $, the poorer i am. i rather not earn.
    im only a 20 year old which still needs parent supervision and ive to depend everything on myself.
    me myself and i.
    isnt easy being independent?
    you have to keep everything to yourself and be nice to everyone.
    im bored. im really bored. so bored.
    holiday, i cant wait for you to come. it will be time to have some fun.
    I need the surgery. i really do. its gona cost me 20k.
    Should i or should i not?
    should i or should i not?
    should i?
    should i not?
    sighhh.

    Thursday, January 14, 2010

    sia la. today did our research presentation,
    it was alrite and i tot i was already prepared enuff for the presentation and this girl from DL list, her presentation skills were superb and it made me feeling damn stress.
    their group presentation was damn good. ours were like #*&^. we like anyhow do. no time to do also. duno how we fare.
    den after she presented, i felt that i still got alot to work on. my class is the slackest, make me slack aso. wahlaoo. sian. must study for exams already. gona go take a nap first. :)

    Wednesday, January 13, 2010

    Okay, they're not that bad afterall, managed to do the work that i asked them to do.
    they're pain in my ass man. but afterall, okay la. satisfied. :)
    Another productive day. :)
    today gona con 99$. wow! thanks to D'image. thats gona be the last time.
    I HOPE!

    exercising the brain emotionally.

    My statistic group is completely hopeless and they are a bunch of losers. mygawd. this is the worst group that ive ever worked with. :( im so pissed with their working attitude. F.U.C.K! i haven been using that word for a long time. its seriously a fucked up bunch of losers and hopeless pple who only aim for the lowest.

    Even the stats project,infos are all in and its sufficient to pass the project, we shldnt be looking at a just pass! wad sort of attitude is that?! a just pass attitude? sufficient to get a pass for the project? WTHECK!we should be aiming for the highest and not the lowest! im looking at an excellent project and scoring As for it. why the hell do i wana stay back after class with me feeling so tired and hungry and yet im still in school doing the shit stats project with my friend in the same group whining to go home! i wana go home and rest too. WTFUCK! And yesterday i had to stayed up late until 1 to ensure that the statistics project are all good and getting their cooperation is just like getting a lazy bull to move aside! URGH! Becuz of them, my marks may be jeopardize and the feeling is absolutely terrible! im here trying my best to improve on the stupid stats project so that everyone can score well for it and yet they are such lazy bums that even a simple thing which i asked them to do,they dun even wana do!URGH!
    we should look at perfecting things we do and giving more than wad the teacher expects.

    Now i feel so damn sian! why cant they just cooperate for the better of the project. WHY?!
    anyway this is our statistic blog. (our height and weight ica.blogspot.com) each spacing should be replaced with a ( - ) a dash. i din wana put the full address cuz people might be able to track it when they google it. ohwell.

    and exams are coming! in a month's time! now im feeling the stress! time to take some brain supplements. :)
    i damn scare i cannot do well for all the papers. how to study in a month's time scoring well wen i always doze and daze during boring lectures??? tips tips tips! i need alot of help and tips for my exam sia!! teacher only gona give tips 3wks later. crazy! by the time 2more weeks exam how to study?! CRAZY LUH. :(

    This sem means alot to me. repeating one semester or not really do depends on this semester. JIAYOU! for the seek of this semester! i think ive been slightly constantly now. JIAYOU JIAYOU! and Fuck care the stupid hopeless and losers and bummer group. They dun even have high aims in life. happy slacking man. i dun give a shit.

    Tuesday, January 12, 2010

    brain brain brain



    Supplement=power brain

    Power brain+right attitude+aim+support= ???

    fix the mind first den can fix everything else.

    im gona fix you brain! gona make you TIAN XIA WU DI. :)

    dreadful day but numb to it.

    Baby says im a cow, not even a farmer. :(
    And guess wad, i was busy doing my work until and talked t B. until 3plus4 until i told him that ive gt school at 8 and we quickly hung up. the next morning, i silent my alarm clock and it never ring again. man. the moment i opened my eyes, im seeing 8am on my clock. i was like GREAT. can go back to sleep already. and i decided to miss 2hrs of my other module lectures. it was boring. EXAMS PERIOD next month. damn fast! i damn scared! ive to quickly get over all the projectssss and off to PUT FULL FUEL to study for my exams. die la! am i gona crap so much stuffs for my exams! DAMN DAMN! and my biopractical can say byebye to my A. i think i can barely get a B now. so many careless mistakes. wt$#^$&*##. gona punish myself.
    den, went school for tut and off t do my stats project. and guess wad happened, my friend trip the plug and the whole com shuts off while we're doing our work. best part, WE HAVEN SAVE IT YET! thanks to her i cannot go home early and do my other projects.(i nv sleep properly,nv eat and drink somemore,how pityful i am, yet i want t perfect the project and she's der whinging to get home early and relax. sigh. i wonder wads life gona be ahead of her if she dun wake up. i feel sad for her.)so!i had to stay in school to redo again...lucky she can remember else i'll make her have nightmares tonite.
    now ive alot of things to finish by tonite.
    project scripts
    research
    research again
    stats blog
    later mayb meeting B.
    wow. i can forget abt sleepin early again. THANKS T SCHWORK!
    plus i haven bath from running under the rain wen i got home.
    plus im having menses cramp! shit la damn pain.
    if i were younger, i think i'll go DAMN STRESS!
    but now, im jus so numb to it.
    no choice. JIAYOU!
    I DUNWANT TO BE A COW! take step by step. :)

    Thursday, January 07, 2010

    BUSY



    i hate school.
    once school starts ive to get myself all busy with projects! tests to study for.
    thursday: dateline for presentation of design NYEC
    Friday, saturday, sunday: study BIO practical, perfect my projects and attending NYEC community day on sat 9am-1pm. gee! its @ hougang there man. so far!
    And today its E-learning day, im not supposed t go back sch but still, had t go back for project meeting. gee!
    And guess wad, i think my sister is really irritating, she shldnt be back at all. she called me up and said: wers the camera's charger?!
    "i dunno, i also nv use"
    "hung up" *without saying goodbye.
    WT#%&^*&
    urgh! why in the world has she gotta be my sister...

    * In a dilemma

    I HATE YOU! I REALLY DO!

    im so pissed with my sister as always. she doesnt noe how to communicate with me and she doesnt even bother and care for me like everyone else says she is. in actual fact, she's not. people from the other see apart of the situation, not the whole situation. so advices have t be taken selectively. i dun get why people have t get so worked up sometimes wen their advices are not taken. bruised their little ego?hmm. maybe.
    and den, the first thing she open her mouth is "mei! wer is this, wer is that, i want it by tonite u better go find! i asked u not t do this not t do tat. mei! help me do this, help me do tat. and wen i refused, she said actually i wanted t give u $ and i said i dunwant ur stupid $.
    den she conplaints t my dad about me wen she barely comes home! she doesnt even noe wads going on with my life,wad has been happening and she just go $#^$%^&%. im hurt and pissed at the same time. i realised her presence has caused me being emotional and stressed. i feel being loved by my family more without her around.
    i think she's the worse person. she doesnt even noe how t be a person. All the time she'll go MEI!$%^$%& scold and nag scold and nag.
    wenever i asked tellin her my problems, she hardly listens and even throw temper at me.
    wenever i asked her for help, she hardly get it done for me and she expects me t get it done for her IMMEDIATELY!
    and wenever i bought my things, she'll bring over t her bf's place and i cldnt use it. wen i use the same treatment on her, she'll say me. i seriously dun like her. like father like daughter. Lucky i chose t follow my mum's footsteps.
    and my sister has the cheek to ask :"if im old and lonely, will u take care of me?"
    now im thinking, FORGET IT! she doesnt even take good care of me, she can forget about me giving her great attention and support that she needs. she's on her own!
    And she kept saying that my bf is out t cheat my $, im even more pissed! she doesnt even noe wad sort of person he is yet she can just judge blinded. in actual fact, SHE NOES NOTHING ABOUT ME! NOTHING DETAILED! NOTHING! and i dunwant her to get into my personal life much either. im contented that my besties,friends and cousin is around and supportive plus my family without her around is good enuff. Plus him. all these people are there to support my emotional aspects and i realised that i needed that. i din realised how important that is. i used to keep every single thing inside and let as little people noe as possible cuz den i dunno how they will actually judge me.
    But now ive grown emotionally healthy.

    Tuesday, January 05, 2010

    This is freaky,
    i took my air-con remote controller and pressed the ON button and left it on the table and off i go put medication on my face.When i realised i din exactly turn on my air-con, i went to the table and search for my remote controller but i cldnt find it! i looked thru it thrice! den i went out and came in and looked again on the table, it is der! gee! thats creepy! either im blind or due to my long-sightedness or either its due to... gee, shldnt be! my house is blessed by god.




    Saturday, January 02, 2010

    expert like me do great things. ceyy. :D

    After
    Before



    After
    Before

    horse riding







    FINALLY! i managed to go ride on my zodiac! im so glad! it was a hard time getting there. especially wen we're getting der by public transport! GAWD! but we spent less den 10$ getting there,exclusive of the taxi fare. the trip to rider's lodge was crazy! but it was fun! we took the malaysia's bus from singapore t the custom den went on t take a bus in malaysia(triple 7) the journey took us about 50mins getting there. gosh! lucky i brought my book to study. IM HARD WORKING YOU NOE. hahahaah!

    the bus trip was only 2.50RM so cheap! I LIKE! but the journey was long. But after everything, the horse riding compensate everything! the place was great! the horses were great! prolly that will be my future retirement plan. provided i've got the $. else i can jus retire in e OLD FOLK HOME! but OFM isnt that bad! provided those old ah ma and ah pek are still senile and about to converse with, den i'll have many many old friends in OFM. :) okay. wtheck am i thinking. gees! haha! i miss my horse now. i feel like traveling there again to see my horse!

    WORTHWHILE EXPERIENCES!

    searching for my goal.

    Hello peeps.
    2 more days to sch reopen! and guess wad, im gona be 20 soon! gosh. 20! im so old now. :( Gona strive hard t get wad i wana get. I MUST!
    Anw i went to rider's lodge on thursday. it was absolutely great fun der. the horses are well-maintain.
    i wana open up a hotel too. with many horses there. big fields. nice friendly and happy people. ( sounds like a retire plan) hah. But i duno. i need the capital and knowledge to open one.
    Where do i exactly start?
    prolly i'll go der again during my holidays. :)
    And the NYEC project is really killing me. gosh. this will be the last project for designing that i wana take up. its tedious doing designing. it can take you the whole day to get things right. and the person doesnt like it or gotta make changes. you gona keep changing and changing. Gosh. Now i feel for my designer friends.
    how to open a hotel? wer do i start? WHERE?!

    Tuesday, December 15, 2009

    lixin's belated bday celebration



    2 weeks of holiday hurry come!

    Gee! Time flies, initially we're whining that we still have 2 wks of attachment in imh! But BOOMZ! its alr a tuesday! 3 more days and attachment will be over! gee! attachment is fun,we're literally enjoying ourselves.haha! FRIDAY going clubbing with my attachment friends. excited siol.
    And my bloody cousin and victoria has yet to send the pictures that we took at superclub! so irritatinggggg. And i cldnt find those pictures in my cousin's computer too. how annoying!
    And psychiatric patients are really interesting, being a psychiatric nurse can drain you mentally than physically which is sort of a challenge. See how you are able to handle them psychologically. interesting eh. :)
    YAWN. im sleepy.
    And im staying over at my cousin's place cuz her house is just 10mins walk to IMH. i can crawl to work even! haha.
    Oh, and our CI singa is damn funny! he make use of all this facial expressions and tell stories, gosh, i think im the only one who laugh the hardest. gee! he really makes people day. :)
    Anw, ive yet to go end year shopping yet! gee! haven gotten my UNIQLO basic dress! :( the last time was shopping for baby's things. Bought him a ZARA shoe and he is so "pandan" saying that giving him shoes means sending him off, tat we wont be tgt. -.-! So i asked him to give me $2 and so we'll stick tgt.
    I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE 2 WEEKS HOLIDAY! IM DYING! attachement in imh is boring! SHINGZZZ!
    Gonna get myself a job for this 2wks holiday. I NEED $$$$$ prolly can think of selling my ass too for cash. hmmm. haha! like as if!
    sighh! im short of cash! NO $$$! i need to work! work! work! i felt that the motivation to study my course is missing, der isnt the adrenaline rush and motivation anymore. i need to gain it back. im so sleepy but need to study alittle.
    CIAO!

    Sunday, December 06, 2009

    Gemini is a Mutable Air sign, ruled by Mercury. As the third sign in the zodiac, Gemini is an energetic, charismatic, communicative, witty individual with a child-like fascination with the world and with new experiences. Famous and historical characters sharing this sign include John F. Kennedy, (May 29), Marilyn Monroe (June 1), and Judy Garland (June 10).

    The Gemini personality stands out as the zodiac sign that knows something about just about everything, making them good conversationalists and interesting acquaintances. They are inquisitive and quick to digest new information and ideas. Intelligent and logical, but with a lot of nervous energy, Gemini likes to keep busy and expand their horizons whenever opportunities arise, often multitasking between several interests. However, as the sign of the Twins, there is a dual aspect to the Gemini personality, making it difficult for these individuals to stick with any one thing in order to master it, and often making it difficult for bystanders to figure out which side their Gemini friend is really on. Gemini has more than one personality, which can change in a flash, and those near to them would do well to learn them both. On and off, up and down, back and forth, black and white, day and night, ying and yang - this is the essence of the Gemini personality.

    For those with a Gemini child, get ready for a ride! These kids can be sweet, cooperative little angles one moment and infuriating monsters the next. Gemini children are very verbal and soak information in like sponges. They therefore tend to master the art of communication quite early, often displaying knowledge beyond their years. This is a high-strung child with a lot of pent-up energy, so don't be surprised if your 6 year old Gemini claims to have "tension headaches" or other physical complaints beyond his years. The Gemini child will not particularly like the rigors of school, but it is likely that he will know to turn on the charm to bluff his way through parts of it. Though he has the intellect to excel in school, it's just not in little Gemini to follow things through to completion, so he will rarely be at the top of his class. Giving him a rich environment at home will help offset this, so be sure to introduce him to nature, sports, music, and reading early on, and also provide stimulation via computers and video games to help broaden his exploratory nature and hold his interest. Gemini kids seem to have a conflict between emotions and intellect, and this can manifest in a variety of ways, often in strange eating habits. Your Gemini might love only red jelly beans or want peanut butter on bread with no jelly and nothing to drink. If you ask about this type of thing, he will blithely tell you that the red ones give him strength or that he has exceptional salivary glands - in his own mind, he is perfectly justified in his choices regardless of how absurd they seem to everyone else. Your best bet is to keep the multi-vitamins handy for these little ones! With regard to other family members, Gemini will entertain and delight and generally get along fine with everyone, unless someone comes along that takes away his limelight, such as a younger sibling. In this case, your little Gemini may turn into a tormenter of this sibling for years to come, and this can be very difficult to control.

    Because of his superior communication skills and innate charm, Gemini usually does well at work, with others often seeking them out for advice and new ideas. Conversely, the Gemini worker will not hesitate to seek others out for advice and ideas, always striving to stay on top of the information chain. When interested, Gemini can accomplish more in a day than other signs can accomplish in a week. When disinterested, however, the Gemini worker will procrastinate and eventually move on to more interesting pursuits. No surprise then, that Gemini tends to change jobs and even careers several times during his lifetime. The Gemini's office will have lots of communication devices including computer, phone, Blackberry, cell, and a rolodex full of names, and he will constantly be networking and seeking out new connections. These same traits will also cause the Gemini to tend toward gossip, so if you want to hear the dirt on others, seek out your Gemini co-worker. Gemini can function well in almost any job capacity that he finds interesting, especially those that require lots of communication and interaction with others. With Gemini in a boss or leadership position, however, watch for a strong secretary or assistant that follows behind picking up pieces and finishing undone projects.

    If you have found a romantic partner in a Gemini, you have a young at heart lover who wants to try new things and is always looking for a new adventure. The Gemini partner will need a quick wit, and the capacity to change directions on a moment's notice. Gemini will frequently test their partners for loyalty and commitment, so try to keep jealousy and anger at bay, because although the challenge at hand may look like it is external, it is often a situation generated by Gemini himself as a test of your commitment. Additionally, while Gemini is often animated and fun, within a short time this can change to brooding and isolative, so learning when to back off completely is important in this relationship. If Gemini becomes bored within the relationship, he will almost certainly move on, often with no concept of the devastation he is causing, so keeping it fresh and alive over the long term is crucial to holding on to a romantic relationship with a Gemini.

    The best matches for Gemini for sure are Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius, but Aries, Cancer, Taurus, and Leo might also work for some individuals. It will likely be tough going for Virgo and Pisces, which are the least compatible with Gemini.

    Gemini in any relationship is smart, witty, fast, and fun. They are the life of the party and have a lot of acquaintances. They seek out others who are smart and adventuresome, and will become quickly bored with those who are homebodies or content with the status quo. Gemini wants to see the world, experience everything, and literally "learn something new every day." He will be a fun and fascinating companion, but some may see him as superficial and "two faced" because his goal is to charm everyone all of the time. On good days, he will be charming and gracious, but on bad days he can be moody and even cruel. Remember, with Gemini, the by-word is "changeable," so learn to expect anything!