nice friend in sch. :)

some people are mean, while some are nice, caring and motherly. :x. opps. haha! of cuz she's not the mean one. nicest friend i found in sch. :D great that i met her.

"All you have to do is to believe, believe that you can, believe in yourself. believe in your capabilities. Trust yourself even other people dun, you just got to trust yourself! "

goal oh goal

Some people willing to work very hard so they can enjoy the fruit of their labor and smile and feel the sense of achievement and fulfillment that money cannot buy, that temptations can never beat. When you work hard and strive for your goal to reach it. People who support you are the ones whom god has send to help, these people who support you are called your friends. People who sabotage you are just passer-bys to get you down and move you further away from your goal. Its never easy to stick to your goal. But, there are some people would rather not work hard and enjoy the time now. These people will never be able to feel the sense of achievement, pride,happiness, confidence and respect from the people around. It feels good when you work hard cuz u noe that u do, you have a higher chance to be successful in the future.

Me? well, i have yet to decide about what i want to be successful in. There is just so many things i am interested in. Prolly i can focus in 1 and take all the rest as a hobby.

Everyday im learning about life, i feel that i might be too mature for my age. Gee. There are times you just wana have fun and do whatever your hearts tells you. Though you know its not right but u're just enjoying the time. When its time to enjoy, enjoy. When its time to be serious, be serious. Play and work cannot come together.

Gee. how how. there's so many things i wana do. i wana learn finance, i wana learn horse riding, i wana do great photoshoots, i wana earn loads and loads of $. So in future, i can travel all over the worldddd and experience every single corner of the universe that god created. And dive in the ocean and explore the underworld.

Seriously, no $ no go!

people says that im materialistic? thats the last thing on my mind. i dun go for LV etc. Even ah soh carrying LV, gee. degrade the good. Dunlike.

How can i earn more $? how? sighh. i wana work for my dream, not for $. so vex and frustrated. i dun mind working 28/7 to reach my goals when i decide on it. sometimes i do get frustrated when people are not willing to work hard. But there is nth much i can do cuz they have issues about themselves..

i dunno if i shld go for the horse riding lessons in woodlands. Cuz when i started working, the lessons gona be doubled. hmm. Prolly i can work there and ask for no pay but free lessons. Gee. i really really wana do horse riding. nvm. gona go for the first lesson and see it goes.

something to think about

Nothing comes off easy.

it reminded me that we should all fight hard for what we want.

And i also learn that friends are indeed very important. the people who you make friends with and hang around will somehow influences how you think. And thats where you got your family to remind you of your identity, values and morales.

This two sources of people are just so very important. Thats why we all got to choose our friends wisely.

Sometimes i tend to forget what i should be doing. But when the right people who has the same goal are there, it pushes you further and reminded you that hey, fight hard and dun give up okay!

why the hell am i slacking when i shouldnt be!

GEE! ive been using fb for more than i should. crap. Fb IS ADDICTIVE and its bad!. i nd a stop in this. its affecting me. MERINA BETTER STOP fb-ing. STOP! and study! JIAYOU! 1 last stretch to go. so many things to do. NYAA not done yet. crap! WTH AM I DOING?! yth am i wasting my time man! WAKE UP WAKE UP!

Does it pay to be nice?

Being too nice, u'll be taken for granted. Being too aggressive, you got no friends.being nice and balanced is the best option. Sometimes it really suck being too nice but than again, it sucks being like a bitch too when you realised that the person that u bitch to still treats u nice. gawd. that sort of feeling is makes you guilty,it does make you reflect whether are you being too nasty. But den again, you have to think and speak from what you mind tells you and not the heart. sometimes the only person who suffers is the nice person. Gee. i guess after coming to my course, i got to know so many understanding,caring and nice friends. Sometimes it really influences you to be that goodie good girl. i detest bitches, i really do. Especially those who are rude, disrespectful and proud. ew! its disgusting.

Today i told my friend about this gal who treated me like crap, i told her that she's actually kinda a nice person. And she reminded me of what she did to me since then. i actually forgot about the incident?!god! i can actually go and talk to her with a smile. that shows how forgiving i am.prolly cuz i decided to be her friend and accept who she is. be it whether she treats me nasty or not. But ohwell.. But after she reminded me of what she did to me. gawd, its disgust me. I can never forget the incident that happened to me in Year 1. it really tells alot. And i will never never forgive people who stabbed u up,down, left and right. treating u like they accept you for who u are. And all of the sudden, they came up with the most nasty crap on you. it really disgusts me. i cannot get how my classmates can talk about the pple that they hate so much. i cant. i think its just a waste of my time on such pple. im such a forgiving person, which i dunno it is a good thing or bad. The whole incident is repeating in my head again. i cant believe that after what everyone did to me, i still wana be kind and nice to them. gosh. that is something that i had to swallow since den and it really suck. MERINA! YOU GONA STAND UP FOR YOUSELF! its really hard when things din go well as it shld be. All ive to do is to tolerate. i think its better to tolerate den stand up for myself sometimes. Lucky god sent down this goodfriend to be with me in poly. There are nice pple but its really a tough choice to choose whether to want them to be your friend or not. This course has really taught me to grow.. people from varies colors and ages, the life that they lead. the perspective of how they view life. its really tough to work with some pple. And its even tougher to work with bitches. they just think so great of themselves. sometimes i really wonder when will my timebomb explode. it suck that sometimes you have t swallow what pple throw it to you cuz u noe that u need them. Gawd.i really dun want that to happen again. MERINA JIAYOU!

and my friend so cute,she says how cum i can get sick when she sees me like a warrior. lol. thanks uh.

ohwell. lengthy post!

i miss competitive sport cuz thats wer i can find ME. :(

i miss pple who are wiling to work hard

i miss pple who are motivated

i miss pple who preserver and fight til the end for what they want

i miss pple who deflect all the things that they do not want to hear

i miss being competitive

i dun like being so free.

i like being busy

i miss nice and caring friends who thinks about you

i miss telling people off

alrite. enuff of all these.

I JUST HAVE TO KEEP JIAYOU-ING!

JIAYOU JIAYOU ALL THE WAY!

JIAYOU! :)

Life will be meaningless without an aim

i think ive wasted enough time for now. Have been exploring my new phone for quite awhile to get a total hang about it and checking out how great the phone is. Time to get back on track. Gee. Have to score well for my presentation and my 3 papers! Since ive chiong-ed at the start, i think i shldnt be distracted again. There's simply just too many things to do. YOG flashmob? coca-cola/samsung motivators? My 2 holidays trip. And i haven even arrange for my bungy jump at Ticino, switerland. And my diving trip also haven plan yet. Gee. And i haven even think about my projects yet. I think its enuff of wasting time now. Pple are striving hard to achieve what they aim for and i am here wasting my time doing shits.

JIAYOU MERINA JIAYOU! Do what you want and just preserver and stick to it until you get what you want. JIAYOUUUUUU!!!

believe in yourself! study hard and play hard! And i must stick t the promise that i made to my bestfriend. GPA3.8 which i know i will not have a high chance to achieve but will do my very best! "BFF you better score well too!" :)

Progession of my teeth :)

SMILE. :)

Straight lower teeth?

Another shot of my smile. :)

Nice smile? hehe

We cannot deny that the World is superficial and judgemental. We cannot blame for the world to be this way because we can never influence the whole world regardless of how much we tell people not to be judgemental. This is human nature. Even i judge too. Tell me you dun, i would like to meet u. What we can only do is to change ourselves for the better. "if the mountain cannot come to mohd, mohd will go to the mountain"-Ghandi

its been awhile

Its been awhile since i long blogged cuz its been awhile since ive been thinking alot. So i think i shouldnt be neglecting on my many years old blog. haha. Suddenly i started to question myself again. Why do i wana work hard and what am i working hard for? Just to score well and see where i can go? hmm.yea. prolly. i'm still trying very very very hard to keep myself focus. Sometimes you just get yourself distracted when you do not think of your goals. So have to think of it all the time to keep on track. And i realised that i only have 3 papers this time. :) so i expect myself to do well for all 3 papers! yes! its not high expectation. its my aim, and i want to achieve! have to score well. wad im afraid of is my PRCP for the 2nd semester. 12wks man. no worries. i can survive,thats a definitely yes thing. Nothing can get me down! :) you know why? cuz im MERINA. :) and Merina will always be tough! yeayea! :)

JYJY!

and im still waiting for that person to come back to me. its been 3months plus already.why cant u just come back?

sch meetings

My friend damn awesome, she has already plan all out nicely for all our PROJECTS, not jus one but many. and oh, did i tell u that its so creepy cuz no matter which group member who went t draw lots for the ICA presentation, we all gotten as the first group? but well, ive broken the chain and i got what i asked for. The last group. LOL. And i literally jumped for joy. haha! while my whole class so very quiet. lol

And today wen to get my galaxy S phone. the swype is damn awesome. really. but im just too used to using two hands instead. And while i was climbin to my sis's bike, my leg touches the exhaust pipe and rubbed against it. OUCH! freaking painful. but my face was expressionless. i was like "wahlau,fuck. pain, jie, it looks like dirt on my leg rite. ha ha!" zzz. i cant believed i can still laugh. zzz. But it literally looks like fried skin,my skin was torn and black.zzz i think i need lots of VIT C and sunburnt. ohman. der goes my beautiful legs. :(

Wednesday got Nursing lab assessment. Gee.Gona hav to Ace that. it has the highest weightage among the rest of the modules and plus, i think ive screwed 2modules already. Now have t work hard to Ace this assessment and the rest of the presentation. JIAYOU! :)

Past and present

Sometimes i wonder whether issit all worth it. Going thru all the hassles to get my braces done and Jaw surgery in the future when i do not look that bad. I do ponder sometimes. Even before the Jaw surgery and braces, i dun look that bad, i dunhave any funtional problems or issues. im doing this cuz i just wanted to look better. Sigh. But ive already made this decision, a decision that will have a metal hinge in my Jaw for the rest of my life, to have to wear retainers for the rest of my life. i really wonder if ive made the correct decision. Sigh.

Grad nite

Was psycho-ed to go. Time really flies, last year of poly already. Gee! And im gona be an Adult in like a year time. I DUN WANA GROW UP! i still wana be playful and childish as ever! i realised im not as playful as before now, not as crazy and happy as before now. Gee! i need that back.

Sometimes we just forget who we are and what we should be doing. it takes conscious effort to keep on track.

rebonding

Today's sociology paper was crap for me. such disappointment.

Anw, went ahead to do soft rebonding at WM cuz my mom signed up for the package,since its free den just go lorrr. But, they made me buy their shampoo and conditioner at 44$. Gee! If i din go ahead with the rebonding, i'll prolly save up that $44. Ohwell, i duno how my hair will turn out to be since today is the first day of rebonding my virgin wavy hair away. :( im gona miss that. But i tot since my hair will still grow back, aiya, just go ahead with the treament. it took me freaking 4HRS to get this hair done and i was so freaking urgent den but i endured. And the guy says that i cannot wash my hair for two days and cannot tie my hair and go swimming for 2wks! :( ohwell, cant wait for my new hair!new look! KEWLL. haha! And ouh. and my teeth has shift quite a fair bit. Even the bite has changed and i changed my brackets to PINK! but heck, it turned out to be yellow after like a day. :( wthhhh. it de-colourise?? zzz.

thats all amigo. im gone for now. :)

:)

ANYONE WANT A SMOOCH FROM ME?! hehe.

"I cant seem to get you out of my mind"

tapped on my humane side

Holy crap.

Guess wad, this lady went from door t door t sell dried sausages and she's in her 60-70yo. she looks exactly like an auntie tending a stall. i dunno whether she's coning pple or she's really telling the truth but she tapped on the humane side of me. Sympathy and empathy. Gee! i saw her so pityful and i let her. Be it whether she's conning or not, at least she made the afford t go around asking from door t door. My heart melt wen i see Auntie going from door t door t sell her stuffs. but her dried sausauge is expensive. $15 for 1 pack. Mom din want t buy from her but i still gave her $15 from my pocket. Seeing her doing that really kinda heart breaking. And den she says that she cannot take pple's $ and she insist t shaft the dried sausage t me. And den after that she asked t use our house toilet cuz she stomach ache. She insist t let her use the toilet, i wanted t let her in,being the kind and nice human being and my mom can be in the room,staring at her stocks and says NO! wow. its easy for her t say no cuz she wasnt in my shoe t see the Auntie's puppy look. Gee! so i told her mom says no and she says its okay, she'll go downstairs t use the toilet. Alemak. if she's really conning, its really rare t see auntie con. If my mom wasnt around, perhaps i will let her use our toilet. I feel sooo cruel t reject her. Easy for my mom t say no! But anw i'll just treat it as a donation t elderly since its been awhile for doing donation.

but on second thoughts, i feel like following her and seeing what she's really up to and what she says is the truth. But nah.. let other pple do the thing.

Gee!

i realised something, i realised that everyday i look at my blog, looking at what i wana achieve and stuff. i realised that im getting nearer to it each day. Does it shows how powerful the subconcious mind can take u? Say the media kept advertising Nude fashion, nude colour etc etc etc. And somehow, out of no wer, u will decide t go for Nude stuffs. But frankly, i love Nude and brown colour. Natural is still the best. Writing is something that really helps you reflect and recall what you did. its good to write alot cuz it helps you t "dis-cloud" your mind. hurhur. writing helps you t clarify your thoughts basically. writing what you think and feel. :)

And hopefully blogger dun close down in future, cuz if it does, i''ll breakdown and gona have a hard time carrying myself back up.All the years of writing since my teenages years. The journey of growing up. Gee!

CANT WAIT

SO EGGCITEDDD!

Gona go to Italy and Bali this semester break. :) and maybe going to Paris and switerland too. The only thing im looking forward is the fun that we're gona experience. The lifestyle,food,scenary and extremeeeeee sports! Gona go Bali for my open dive course and once pass, if possible, gona go Italy to scuba dive for leisure. Not sure how safe it is but its wad im planning for. If possible, gona go Italy for white water rafting! And hopefully im going to London so i can be doing my Bungee Jumping and SKYDIVINGGGG! :D

WEEEE! ITS GONA BE ONE HELLA AN EXPERIENCE FOR ME IN THS LIFETIME. Really cant wait. meanwhile ive to save up alot of $$ and study hard for my current exams.

My wishes gona come trueeeeee. weeheeeheee. And my dad's wish also gona come true. i bet his more eggcited den i am! he's gona spend 10days in ROME praying and to see all the churches and meeting POPE Benedict. thats what he always wanted.All i want is to experience all the extreme sports that SG dun offer. hmm. Den if confirm going t London, i can look for my friend t hangout. Gee! i felt guilty and bad for not meeting her wen she flew back to SG. Now gona fly her to meet her. :) sorry sam.

so so eggggggggggcitedddddd hahahahahahah!

BORED DAY

BORED DAY.

CUZ ITS

STUDYING DAY! :|