screw up timetable. overcome-ed! :D

hello blog,

here i am blogging again, school started and my timetable is so screwed that i actually spent 2 full hours sorting out my screwed up timetable. at least i managed to get it sorted out.

now have to get that timetable sorted out during attachment as well. lucky this coming posting is at IMH. pretty near to my school. like 10mins to sch by car? if only ive gt a bike.

geee, bike licence next! tho many have told me abt how dangerous it is. ohwell, i jsut have to OPEN my eyes big big! and becareful lor, or the most i get a scooter. vespers haha.

and school is tough! i dun get wad the teachers talking, they talk like bullet train. :( i have a hard time catching up. im slow. :'( so stupid.

and i kept thinking of the horse riding lesson almost all the time ever since i said i wanted horse riding lessons. gee. i rather have my passion and love for something that is ALIVE den something dead like a "flying disc" seriously.

chosen PE as elective

WAH.

finally i got to choose my PE elective. :)

it din last on the E-online registration for even 5MINS!

muhaha. this time i owned. YES!

cheap thrill im having here.haha.

alrite. back to revision.

this sem i must be a good girl from on now.

adios.

PASSed my tp!

alrite. i passed my tp test alr! phew. but haven gotten my licence yet. gee. can drive car alry.

gona pray and bless the car before i drive man. der's so many things to learn, the way to getting pt A to pt B. gee.

and i suddenly tot of learning to ride horse. since young, i love seeing horses and riding horses. i feel like learning horse riding, den once i am god damn good in it, rich enuff to open up a horse riding school in some other country, haven tot of wer yet. having a ranch with premium horses, having a sheep dog, having my instructors, having students, having a house beside my horse riding school. wow.

best if i can ride my horse down to the market to buy groceries, riding my horse to school, having the horse on the road instead of bikes or cars. if only.. haha. that dream will not happen in i am now. gee.

and i guess frisbee shall be jus going for leisure thats all.

i want horse riding.

and i have yet to go for my scuba diving yet.

so many things to play while im alive.

bungy,sky diving, scuba diving with the sharks and whales, horse riding, parachuting, water rafting, fishing in the ocean to fish for sword fish,hot air balloon, be a killerwhale trainer, swimming with dolphins, water sports, more wakeboarding. sailing, getting a scrabble which i doubt i do have a chance(if only)

gee. see, life is more den jus hitting the mall, going shopping, catching a movie. that is not the kind of life tat i want. that isnt a life at all.

gona work towards it. earn more $ to filfull all my play dreams.

up next, horse riding lessons.

hopefully i have the passion to continue all the way, enquire all the skills and knowledge, i do wana be great in something. to be a professional equestrian .after that, earn enuff, go to overseas and open a horse riding school and own it.wow. thast really my dream. having pple to come over for leisure, having my own town with more stalls,can ride horse over to buy groceries etc. hmm.

dream oh dream. will it ever come true. hmmm.

miley cryus-THE CLIMB

i was so damn bored today so i decided to SING SONG and post it here. hahaha.

its for baby to listen cuz i sang super horribly in the phone. hopefully this time round is better!

i think the lyrics is quite meaningful. :)

BOREDOM make me do things. 8)

cant wait to see baby later. hehe!

life

hmmm. i was so in dilemma that i typed on the internet whether should we be content with our life now or seek something more?

think again, i think we should seek something more, so der is a motivation in our lives. prolly feeling content in certain part of your life should be fine but i guess we still need to seek more den what we have in other parts of our lives so we have that push to carry on living. right?

hmm. i think we chinese aint as contented as the malays..thats wad i think. * decipher it yourself. haha! just based on what i think, dun mean to be racist here though. afterall, im still figuring out the true meaning of life and my values of being a human here in life. hmmm..i guess ive figured out alot through this whole school term break. it makes me wonder alot,like literally. :)

ive tried to experience things myself,trying to be in other people's shoes for awhile and feel what they felt. i guess i was too over myself sometimes due to past achievements but i forgot one very important thing! there are many better ones out in the world that is doing MUCH better den what i have achieved. what i achieved are peanuts, what i achieved cannot live up to the what others can. i shouldnt think so highly of myself.

frisbee made me think alot actually. no wonder they says sports build characters. hahah. i guess i am really trying to find out what sort of person i am thru frisbee. i think that my sch's frisbee system is like what you face in current life. if you want to represent the school, u have to do what it takes to get there and not doing self-pity so others will pity you and give you a chance t be on top. gee. my mentality towards life change INSTANTLY. no wonder they says gemini are adaptable. hahaha!

and den again, in my previous post, i mentioned to be ME, well, i think its kinda vague. what i meant was to be the better side of me and not be the worse side of me. haha!. wow. this whole holiday and frisbee thing really made me growing. hahah!

and also, i read from the internet about this incident where der is this priest, who is always been praised for being humble has been awarded a humble award, and the next day he wears it to church den this award has been stripped becuz he was proud that he won that award.

geee...what do you think of this short story. hmm.

CIAO!

luxurious life

its good to once awhile search for some youtube videos for some motivation to get you going! NV GIVE UP and preserver is the key! but of cuz intelligence,observation and humbleness is critical as well. continue to FIGHT ON regardless wad.

TIME TO WORK LIKE DOG VERY VERY SOON! PLAY TIME IS OVER!

but den im having second thoughts. what if all i do is to work hard, wouldnt my youth be gone soon?and i'll become an old hag den?geee. someone,please enlighten me. to be content now or to seek for something more? *in great dilemma. :(

FUN NO FUN

wow. spent eight hundred over for the pass 2 months of FUN.

gee! it shows that FUN do comes with a huge price to pay for.

Time to go back to the usual mundane life for long term purpose. :)

From now on, i shan't take myself too seriously and just be ME. even megan fox dun give a damn about what other pple think of her. As long as she noes what is her goals and its up to her whether to change or nt.

so yea, its good to hear what others have to say about you.

hmm. i guess its time to be ME. i wana see what others have to say about me. tat would be pretty interesting..

:)

PS: experiencing life changes would be fun at times.

we should noe abit of our home. :)

emo

hello blog,

gee! i haven been emo-ing for sometime to you now. issit a good thing or a bad thing?

the mentality that im having now is bad.

i noe that i should not give up! i wanted to perform well during trg today and coach sent me over to the lousy team. prolly i dun deserve a space in a better team. i dunno.. somehow he is always picking on me! every god damn training, he will definitely call my name once! he knowing my name for the wrong reasons. i felt ashamed, i wanted to do my best but he dun believe that i can, he seem to always find fault with me. why?! issit becuz i look like his previous enemy? i dunno u noe.

i dunno what and how it gave him the stupid impression that im not working hard. so wtf!

im like the fucking hard working player ever in other sports. sigh! and he has to do this to me! im always ready to look forward to every trg so i can do well and progress up but he has alr got this god damn concept in his head that im a lousy player and i should stay with the weaker players. sigh! i think i shldnt entirely put the blame on him.

prolly ive change since i came poly and many things happened in my life WHICH pple usually it will make you grow stronger.

However, i dunno really.. i seem to be worse. pple change for the better, i changed for the worse.

i lost my strength,lost my self-esteem, lost my aggressiveness, lost my own opinion, lost my competitiveness,lost the desperation for more praises and lost the motivating me.

i dunno wad gotten to me. ive changed to the worse.i tried being more reserved for a change cuz i was too aggressive and kinda loud den. but it seems like its getting no wer and worse! im not learning anything.. sigh.

this is wad happens wen u're getting advices not from the right people. i dunno really. or issit im thinking too much?

usually for spontanous incident that happened, i always have a solution for it, be it gona be sucky or not. its still a solution and pple do take it. But now i got no solution and i dun even bother to think of a solution and let pple think it for me. thats BAD!

i used to be the more initiative type but now? just relac and let pple deal with it. gee! wad happened to me! wer the hell is that old merina? GEE! i really do miss the old me. :'(

im wasting my life during nth productive at all.

I LOST MY FOCUS IN LIFE.

i wana cryyyyy.. :(

IMAC is addictive!

This is what happens when you got a NEW TOY to play with. you start playing with it even when people are in lala land. TSK!

ps: no matter how bumpy the road is, we just have to fight on and never give up!

COMPLAIN OF THE DAY.

Wah!

the sale assistant in WH is horrible!

ME: hi, is this WH vivo?

assistant: yes, how may i help?

Me: * was describing the dress and den..

assistant: can you call me back 5mins later? im doing a transaction right now. 5mins ya? thank you!

ME: * huh? oh, okay..

in my mind i was like wth? she wants me t call back in 5mins just becus she's doing a transaction right now? cant she just get some other assistant to attend to me?

URGH! LOUSY SERVICE!

THIS IS HILARIOUS! HAHAHAHAHA!

ENJOY!

outing to vivo!

WAH! after getting my stomach filled up! i weigh myself and i put on 2.4kg in just 1 day! GEE! all thanks to the western with raisin rice and cheese pasta at my house coffee shop for lunch and CARL'S JR bacon cheeseburger + onion rings and abit of beef cheese fries. today totally a sinful day.decided to go running later in the morning and gona do some spring cleaning for my room too. :D today headed out t shop for DH's super ultra belated bday gift with gang. bought a cute undergarment for her! teehee! and i bought a dress for myself along the way too. :) but after i was heading home wit b, i realised my friend in frisbee gt that dress too. boohoohoo!
Until now, im still feeling bloated, bet in the later morning ive to run t do BIG business! haha!
Talked t B regarding the F1 race and i was reading some articles from the F1 blog t b and guess wad happened
*bro came into the room and pressed mute on my computer
ME:gor, y u press mute wen der's NO SOUND coming from my laptop???
BRO:*smile, its to mute you.* acting like he's talking but been muted
ME: -.-
and i unmute it. so i cld talk again. hhaha!
i told B abt it and he xD LAUGH! and said my brother was cute and witty so i asked if im witty too and he says a straight NO!
HUMMPHHH!! so MEAN! den later he says have la! abit! and i asked if he is witty and he said YES! LOL! 老黄卖瓜自卖自夸! =x hehe!
OKAY LUH! HAD ANOTHER ENJOYING DAY! :D

he looks like an exhausted chinese band singer hor? teehee! SO CUTEEE,SO KAWAII NEHH!! LOL :)

ps: gona learn to balance the hard and soft the right way at the right time.prolly everything is in place, prolly im just being too sensitive for small changes, prolly i should just allow it to change, prolly its for the better.

Gona find back my FOCUS again.

i will never give up no matter how HARD you try to humiliate me,even if i have to do wadeva it takes to prove you wrong, i will. :)

HAD GREAT FUN TO THE FULLEST!

muhah! partay like fuck ytd at butter. went straight after training and training was dreadful! G collide to me during goaltimate and he elbowed me, wth! now der's a major bruise on my right arm. ='( but after that went to club with secondary school friends like fuck. and we did silly things in the club" we" refering to me and my gf! muhahah! only she and i noes. :D totally insane.. so yea. went home with the boys and woke up early the next day for horse riding in malaysia with best buds and bf. :D but SIAN, the horse riding club close down! =( but looking forward for the next trip at some other places tho. :) had a totally crazy time the whole of thursday! we shopped, laugh like fuck, eat, head back to sing to cine, head to mustafa, made fun of each other. bought a watch, bought alot of things and most importantly! we totally enjoyed ourselves today! AWESOME! :)

ytd and today totally enjoyed myself to the fullest!

PS: wadeva u are doing, its not what you do, but who you do with, even the worse thing you do, with great friends, things will be totally different.

and are GEMINIs really like durians? appear hard outside but actually they are damn soft inside.hmm. please enlighten.

MUST LEARN TO CONTROL NEGATIVE THOUGHTS,

TIME TO HAVOC NOW

:D

=)

wah. finally i am free to upload pictures here. yesterday managed to relax for abit after a hectic week. =) happy that i managed to meet bestiesssssss at necterie. hahah! see my uber happy face noe alry. and sadly, they flying off tmr for a week. ='( im seriously gona miss them alot. bon voyage to my besties and her bf.

=(

gee. finally i can get to rest. the past weeks were killer. i can die from attachments, projects, and CCAs seriously. haven been sleeping more den 3-4hrs a day! but even in the weekends ive to have to clean the damn house and my mum asked me to iron the clothes for my brother! like wth? first, i help to bring down the clothes from the damn pole, 2nd i keep the damn clothes for everyone and now want me to iron clothes for them? omg. he nv does that for me, he doesnt iron all my clothes for me.i iron the damn clothes for myself! gee! wads with my mum! And the residential project alone can get me fucking stressed seriously. today is 12 sept and i left with less den a month to get pple to join this event.omg. im really worried that it may not be successful. i really do. if we do not get enough teams, the event will prolly be cancelled. =(

in the process of getting sponsors is not an easy task and i chose to do it alone. this is a killer.

And case study was done, again, i tot i was able to manage most of it myself but its not a well done one. i tried to do it myself but its definitely not easy. guess i tried and i guess i shldnt do that again. its totally a STUPIDITY ACT AND SUCIDE to do such things. MADNESSS! its a group project and i should distribute task for them to do it and get it done so the ultimate aim can be done perfectly. =D im really silly.

And i finally managed to hang out with my two best bud! gee. nectaries cakes are awesome and oreo and i were sitting outside looking at all sorts of pple.Gee, and der's this ahgua. damn scary! she damn skinny and she looked at me. omg! i immediately looked away. its seriously damn freaky! alrity. fruitful nite den. =)

Gotta get my priorities right and stick with it.my time management is still very bad.='(

stressed

people are really weird sometimes. when you dun tell them about your problems u have, they tend to think in a negative way and try to dominate you and show how superior they are! Only wen u have to be REALLY thickskinned to tell them about your problems and den they will feel for u. but some dun even bother to listen to your problems and expect you to be the same as them. like if they can, why cant u? unless both parties goals are the same!

Guess you have to always tell someone about your probs else pple tend to misunderstand alot!
like wen u dun talk to others, the true fact is that you are shy! not that u are acting proud or dun bother about other pple at all.

its funny how pple see others in their own perspective.ohwell, today's trg was TOUGH! i fell, my hands are bruised once again, leg cramp!, presurized by coach and i had hyperventilate once again too. thanks to pushing myself over the limit. this is how i treat my body.gee! pity it. ohwell. done blogging and der's still many things i have to do and yet not done yet! GEE! works piling up!

this is annoying!

this is totally annoying! u're skin is even thicker den a reptile! i just dun get why u should behave like a spoil brat and get sooo defensive over EVERYTHING i say. if you detest people to nag, den y are u even nagging? if u detest people to be late, why are u always late?! and yet, can be soooo defensive and flare up wen you are even at the wrong? wat kinda attitude is this?

from now on, u suggested to live your life and i live mine. fine! anw u own me $ for the exercise book( i guess i shldnt have bought it at all.thinking that i shld only think for myself. why in the world did i think to buy for u? how weird, i din noe selfish people will actually do that and i din noe selfish people still bothers to tell you wads going on for trainings, update you abt trgs, i din noe selfish people still can update you on nyaa events. i din noe selfish people will always listen to you whine and complain over ur previous r/s knowing that she has other better things to do and wad she dunlike is to have longchats over the phone.i din noe selfish people have their own difficulties and yet din wana voice out and still be der for this stupid spoilbrat and yet she thinks that this selfish person is really selfish.i din noe that selfish pple are always the ones that give in the most and unselfish people are the ones that dun give in at all)wow! i din noe selfish people actually will do all that. i tot it was supposed to be jus solemnly thinking about herself.And i din noe that unselfish people will still think of themselves first b4 others.gee! can anyone tell me the real definition of selfish and unselfish? i think someone here has the wrong definition for it,seriously! and oh. one more thing, i din noe unselfish people will only give a small tiny pathetic cake for my bday and asked for smth worth MUCH MORE den a pathetic cake! well, and i din noe that the selfish person still wana think of creating a fabulous bday for that unsefish person to rmb for. gee! i think i can jus save that big headache and $$. =) cuz the correct definition for selfish is that putting urself ahead of others. guess i'll just say like "sorry, im too poor and i got no cash to give u a great bday, guess i'll jus give u a lollipop with mayb a sticker on it written happy bday! its the tots that counts too tho." =)
And since you can dare to say that EVERYONE is selfish.tell me about it. should i call u a selfish bitch too?)
ive reached my limits!
and please clear all debts. i think you still own me $.

And u can live your OH-SO PERFECT WORLD spoilreptile.
you think your characters are oh so perfect. seriously, i dun think at all but i do not want to say it cuz u have feelings and i dun wana hurt u! and this is wad i get in return. someone stepping all over me and dun see it that it takes two hands to clap. both parties are at fault and im too tired to say that im at fault all the time den u dun admit that ur at fault too. it doesnt work this way.
ohwell, since u suggested to part den goodluck to ur live! i shouldnt even be mad at you, i should just pity you. =) have fun! and keep improving yay!stay unselfish 4EVER! yea! -to whom it may concern.