shiok man!

i had an productive training today and it was hardcore! i love the training man..it definitely makes me stronger,both physical and mentally..haha! well!joanna is our team's vice captain and she is nice!she's both fierce and nice at times.tho she'll make certain mistakes but afterall,she's still human.HAHA!
training started at 6.15,sam and i was late so we quickly rushed off for the warming up.we did 1round of track,1round the school and 1round of track again.it was easy peasy luh!NO CAKE!!LOL den did inclined pull-ups(3sets) den endurance pull-ups wher u have to go up,count down..go mid,count down and down and go up again and count down for 3times.after that have to hold it der for awhile..den did 3sets of crunches,push-ups,side planes and it jus kept increasing..SHIOK! den played some games,did some sprints and some team bonding games.it was helluva fun! and den came "donkey" my crush!HAHA!he doesnt noe how to swim!i wanna LAUGHH!!lol!but still,he'll always be my crush.hahaha!and he talked to me first.so happy!alrite..anw i'm in such a lost stage rite now.maybe i shld talk to B abt us first..alrite.tat was quite random.anw i'm in a suffering situation in my grp now.=( feeling so sad and depressed.why the stupid leader so #@%$#%7 i wanna change grp!!!!ohwell,update soon..its late.tmr gt sch.i'm jus so messed up in my head.=(

nyp netball trial

*eyes half opened.yawn!today was my poly's netball selection and i gt into the squad!MUHAHA!heard from people that its quite tough to get in but i gt in anyways!=D this proves somthing..i'm good!der's alot of good players in der especially abi and someothers.i'm glad that i made it to the squad and this coming monday is the OFFICIAL netball training for those who got selected..hoho!i felt so exhilarated rite now,especially doing good for my netball.i was never good when i first started joining netball and seems like i'm doing well now.=D
i never tho of joinin netball in my life cuz i always think that netball is not even strenous and tough,i'm kinda sick!i love tough trainings as i love the torture!it test my endurance,perserverance,determination and commitment.i still rmb the first time i had the dilemma of choosing either bball or netball due to the fact that my TRACK closed down!netball need replacement for them as they do not have enuff players for the tournament and decided to go for it cuz der's cca points!started playing netball since sec 3 and i can still rmb that i cant even shoot the bloody ball into the net at all for the first training!i feel lousy and demoralised for the first training.but times and times again,i kept turning up for trainings and kept playing and playing,eventually i got better,thats for sure rite?practise makes perfect!thats the cliche that everyone says abt!After playing netball for only 3yrs?i'm alr considered quite good,as compared to those know play since sec 1?haha!i feel so great abt myself!now i'm trying to aim for U21,where i have to commitment my life to it.will i be ready den?
seriously speaking,i told myself that if the atmosphere in nyp netball is like shit,i'll just join other sports ccas but apparently,the newbies like me are way way nicer den the school team pple,BLOODY STUCK UP!seriously,i dun wanna bitch about them,maybe jus the captain..nv show a single RESPECT!BLOODY HELL! i felt like giving her one tight slap.urgh!horrible seniors..BLOODY stuck up!when its our turn to rule the nyp netball team?we'll definitely gonna change the atmosphere and make everyone feel a WANT to join us..
ohwell..i've been busy with CCAs lately,rather den my studies!hahaha!tmr der's kickboxing! den friday gt touch rugby trial,saturday gt SHS captain's ball game,sunday gt netball trg,monday gt sprint kayak trial,tuesday DB?,wed netball,thursday free!,friday dunno if i'm free!SO DARN BUSY WITH CCAs!and i like!hahahaaha!but ohwell,definitely gonna study hard and play hard at the same time!And and 1 last thing to add,made a bunch of nice pple from netball today!hahhaa!alrite.shall end now.tata!n oh..no time to change my blog skin!=((

random blogging

brr,i'm freezing to death in my room rite now and this post is quite a random 1.suddenly feel like bloggin after reading one of my friend's blog.man!she sort of let me realised and think back wad have i done and wad i'm gonna achieve in my life,definitely she has achieved something extraordinary and i'm so impressed by her.it made me realised that i had achieved nth much in my life.i wonder will i have such deep determination and get my mind rite and focus on wad i want to achieve in life?Am i ever gonna have the determination and perseverance to go for the extra mile?Am i gonna not try very hard to achieve wad i want in life?Am i gonna get influenced from my friends greatly and distant away from my goals in future?Am i gonna be strong enuff to stand strong and break all the obstacles?ALL this qns will be answered in the future and time will let me noe the answer.i must must must try very hard to resist the temptation like surfing the net and getting distracted from day dreaming.i need to get my mind rite and focus on wad i want.just like the nike quotation"just do it" but definitely it does not applies to nursing.haha!i might just get patients killed and suffer from heavy consequences.
oh well,i'm starting to get sick and tired of my blog skin,gonna get it changed when i'm free.=)anw,i seriously need to lose a large sum of calories!i dun feel good and light and furthermore,i dun look good wearing the desire clothes that i bought.Usually i'll buy the clothes impulsively tho its 1 size smaller,i'll have the mindset that okayy..nvm!i'll lose weight to fit myself into the top.BUT!no use!the motivation and determination doesnt last me for even a month!usually its only a week,and den i get distracted and din bother to lose some weight again!man!i need to change my mentality!
And nowadays i jus feel that i cant click with pple anymore,i dunno wad to talk abt to different individuals anymore.why is that?!and i jus feel like getting home everyday after school,read up on my nursing references and spend my whole day in my room.nowadays i'm like living in a world of my own.Almost every gurl in my clique in poly has a bf and they asked me why i dun hv.my answer will always be i cant commit in a r/s this moment,even if it did,i doubt it will last cuz i'll always prioritize my family first,den my life,my friends and lastly my r/s.thats for now,in future,i'll definitely gonna place my r/s first!!i feel like shit rite now without having any great achievements in life.My brother is a spoiler in my life.He always pull me down in life.everything i do,everything i ask,everything i share with him and everthing i tell him,he'll definitely says things that bring me down in life.i usually jus laugh it off cuz i dun wanna get mad at his comments at all,tot i may not take it to heart,sometimes it jus linger in my mind..he doesnt even support me both mentally and physically..i feel sad sometimes..man!i'm being emo rite now.=( and he always disrespect me!he doesnt even treat me like a sister,i always feel like he treats me like a loser or a rubbish dump.urghh!wateva!i jus hates him sometimes.ever since after he gt into commando,he changed so much!more like a demon instead.he thinks that he's a commando,he can jus disrespect pple.AHHH!!its the first time i last said i hate him since primary school.urgh!he's nth!he's not gonna affect my life!why in the earth am i blogging wad he says abt me at all?!i'm so not gonna get affected by him!i noe wad i'm doing!its my life,i'm gonna take full control of it and i cant because of wad he says,turn me into someone that is useless and a total loser!NO WAY!FUCKKK!!!i dun wanna talk abt this matter anymore!
i'm gonna try my best to do things at my best!no matter how high is the hurdle,i'll jus keep trying to prepare myself and jump over.i must no matter wad!jump over the stupid hurdle.
haah!this post is a long and random 1.anw i signed up for netball,touch rugby,nyaa,sprint kayak and shittt!i din sign up for db!urghh!but i might just go for the trial anw!maybe luh!haha!i planned on netball and sprint kayak!but shitt!their trg days clashes,both falls on monday!SHITT!

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!

First day of school at NYP was alrite,had our first lectures by dr paranama and he's hilarious,making us laugh to keep us awake!=D our class gurls were quite unite jus that the china gurls were quite on their own,its as tho singaporeans 1 clique,china gurls another clique.feeling so bad for them..=( anw!our class leader is a china guy and he's naive and funny as the same time,our class always fun at him for his naive-ness,blur-ness and cute-ness at the same time!hahahhaa!JOKER!
i was glad that our class weren't lost for lectures and stuffs!*claps!!And poly life is kinda slack,u get breaks all the time,1 hr lectures,den 1 hr break den 1hr lesson,1/2hr break.wow!i likeee!better get used to the poly life now!And today my class wad kinda cute,after class,we headed and follow whoever who leads and goes wherever the person who leads wanna go.hahah!kinda dumb ending up in a place where we have nth to do der!hahah!difficult to manage a big grp!i still prefer smaller grps!anw!bio lesson wad kinda fun,somehow..hahah!saw some cells under the microcope!COOL!firs day of school gt nth much actually,looking forward for the following days to come!stress oh stress!AND I CANT WAIT FOR CLUB CRAWL!RAR!!!!!!

went to shangri-la

gee!went to shangri-la,the line,the most famous and high class buffet.it was 95bucks during that day cuz the chief was der.man!its darn expensive!but afterall,my mum din mind cuz it was a celebration for my sister 24 BDAY!muhahha!how old she is now.24!omg!And i'm 18 after my bday in may 29!man..time really fliess..i'm getting old too!but i still cant compare my sis when she's 18 and when i'm 18.the difference lies btw our characters.hahha!and maybe cuz she's the oldest so she holds more responsibility den i do.until now,i still like them taking responsibility for my actions.prolly depending on them alot.hahha!wateva is it.the pictures below are taken at "the line" enjoy!hahahaahah!

nyp orientation

nyp orientation wasnt a blast for me!it only held for 1 day but this 1 day let me learn qutie abit.Learn about my new classmates,tho der's cheena ones,der's malay ones,der's ite 1s but i cant do anything about that.Afterall,they'll be ur classmates for the whole 3yrs!better not offend any of them.i dun wanna hold any hostile btw pple i have to face every sch day.who noes when i might need their help.HAHA!
ohwell,initally my class wasnt that enthu and it was quite an anti-climax when the OGLs were sort of high and we're kinda mundane.HAHA!But overall,this orientation is somewhat fun in a way where i get to sort of lead my team and motivate them abit and did alot of encouragement,i had to step up and let the ball rolling and afterwards,everyone gt more and more enthu.SATISFYING!HAHAHA!!And it has been a long time since i last lead a team..the feeling of leading a team was awesome!and the orientation was somewhat boring when it comes to the end,especially the 20luckydraws,man!they took donkey yrs to call those pple out.i was alr half asleep and drooling.we only had 1 pathetic lunch break from 9am to 7pm!can u believe it?!nyp academic club wanna torture us!but i likeee...hahaha!
monday is the official day of the start of our school term and i'm freaking excited about it!Guess i din regret my choice going to nyp den to np.so what der's palmtalk!so wad the cca is awesome,i'll get used to the life in nyp!anw its not tat bad afterall when u dun compare ur own school to others.ignorance is bliss!haha!
today my OGLs were telling me about the mentorship,leadership camp and all and i was super enthu abt it.i dun get why i get so high and active when i get to noe abt this kinda camps and especially OBS korea and taiwan!OMG!i must go no matter wad.i just cant help it from being so active in school.Guess jus studying and going for lecture alone can really kill me! i can die jus to go school for lectures,like seriously! i have to be active!like actively active and maximize my energy level when i'm in poly!
i'll make sure i'll make this whole 3 yrs of my poly life a FREAKING HAPPENING 1!nyp,wait for me!hahah!
And and i cant wait for club crawl on the 17th of april!!WOOHOO!!FREAKING EXCITED ABOUT IT!!HURHUR!!CCA DAY! i likeee....!!HAHHA!ambassador team,here i come!hahahh!!HAPPY HAPPY!
okayy..shall end my post by saying;"no matter wad pple says,its just their point of view,in the end,its still u who have to decide the decision,u may listen and feel regretted for maybe jus that particular period of time..den soon after,when it really comes,its not that bad afterall.the main thing is how you're gonna look at it.the brighter side? or the bad side?being a optimist or pessimist is still the final choice,for me,i chose to b a optimist.anw,for the whole of my 4months holiday that i had,its definitely an experiencing journey of my life.i chose to learn from every single thing i did and grow from it and now i guess i learn alot more and the way how i look into situations in life now.
i spent my whole holidays working all sorts of jobs,from office jobs to waitressing,to umpiring,to warehse packing(definitely tested my patients and endurance)and the office job left me the most impression,especially the constant scoldings from someone who's better den you.definitely gonna feel that ur ego has been stepped a million times yet you cant do anything but just take it.man..after the working life,it did tot me alot,especially mommy guiding me thru it and telling me about the aspect of life and how to go thru it.
ohwell..all the best for the people who just wanna whine and complain and dun wanna learn from their mistakes and quit from the job that u always get scoldings and think that you're so oh-so-lousy.thats jus wad every 1 has to go thru.BE THICKSKIN! and learn how you wanna see the aspect of ur job.being a optimist or pessimist in everything u do?you decide.=D"
okayyy...enough of my thing now.hahah!i wanna go my dreamland now..weee!from today onwards.i wanna be a happy person!HAHAHA!but dun take my happiness and kindness for granted,i'll bite when i get uber mad!LOL.but i hardly get mad anyway..angry is not in my dictionary.thats all.CIAO!

drunken woman..

gosh! friday nite was a freaking happening nite for both me and my friends..i cant believe i'll end up like how i was den..extreme emotional!
friday was den the officially day for rocky's last day at balcony so all of us intended to go LUNAR fusion bar but too bad! catherine,amanda and i was freakin underage..=.=! bday's not over yet..SADDED!cat and i were nt offically 18..so they planned and decided to head to party world just beside heeren..raymond was der and i was quite reluctant to go t noe that he'll b going.Der'll b a funny feelin when he's der..but i told myself not to bother much..we went into party world and raymond was inside..man.such a spoiler!he's kinda too much!he made Emily drink like 3 glass of alcohol.ouhouh..talkin about alcohol..we met up at balcony before headin to party world ,randy was askin us to go up and put our bags at balcony's office..we're kinda puzzled den but cheyy..after getting upstairs,he wants us to sneak alcohol into the room.had 2 bottles in my bag.okayy..back to wher i left off..Emily was way drunk,she cant even walk in the straight line and her face was darn red..went to the toilet a few times and finally she threw up.eeeww!the smell of the alcohol mixed with wadeva she ate.ERK!haha!but glad that she vomited.she was better den.soon after,i was kinda enjoying myself and raymond came over and wants catherine to drink the glass of alcohol,told her to drink slowly..den after that raymond wants me to drink so i drank.i drank super slow but that freakin gay was askin me to drink it fast so fine..i jus drink..
soon after,the alcohol effects started to act up.i felt kinda sleepy and i fell onto LP's lap..cat knew that i was drunk and she made me green tea.i was so darn sleepy that i hit the glass of green tea without knowin it..den LP's pants had some green tea.i was happily smiling and cleanin LP's pant.Den after that i slept over at kaiyang's shoulder,slight to the back of his back..i vividly rmbed that he was sayin wanna sleep den sleep properly,so i pushed myself and hit my face to keep myself awake.cat and LP went to the loo without me,i was alr kinda drunk den yet i noe wads going on with me..i dun exactly noe wads happening in the surrounding but i noe wads's going on in me.i felt like der's 2 me inside..1 is merina and the other is the fiercer merina.the real merina is alr in deep sleep but i kept fighting against the other merina.its freakin scary the thought of it.tho i'm drunk but i noe wad i'm doing jus that i cant control over my emotions,i cried to the extreme..screaming like nobody's business.shouting like nobody's business,talking like nobody's business,laughin like nobody's business,criticizing like nobody's business,hitting pple like nobody's business..that's it.when u're drunk,u jus do things like nobody business..the vision was blurry its felt like as tho u gt woken up by someone from ur deep sleep times and times again..the real merina was alr asleep and the fierce merina like shouting at pple who criticized me.I was really sensitive to wad pple say to be exact.i could hear everything to wad pple say and jus act without havin a second tho.So long u think,u jus act..u wanna hit pple,u jus hit..u wanna shout,u jus shout kinda thing..i vividly rmbed EVERY single thing..okayy..maybe about 90%..who says a drunken person will not rmb a single thing.THATS BULLSHIT! I REPEAT! BULLSHITT!!lol.u jus dun ahve THE control over ur body anymore during that point of time,tats it.for my case,i was darn emotional..maybe cuz i kept fighting against the another me to force myself to be awake due to the fact that i've gt work at 10am!!i kept forcing myself and telling everyone that i'm nt drunk and i'm okay..who noes when i walked a few steps..i fell onto the floor.made a whole din that time,infact,i'm like the main entertainment for all of them.HOW COOL!haha!freakk..the fierce merina was sucha ah lian!thats wad randy and everyone says so.my hand gestures and the way i spoked.i even vividly rmbed that i shouted at strangers with my hand gestures..shoutin and scolding and saying OII!!freaking loud.haha!vividly rmbed that i shouted at pple who smoke sayin things like CAN YOU STOP SMOKING?!IT FREAKING HURT UR HEALTH AND IT FREAKING HURT UR FREAKING $$?!CAN YOU JUST STOP?!!lol.man..how amazing i can still rmb almost everything tho i'm drunk.it din felt real tho..as in everything seems like a dream maybe cuz of the fact that the blurry vision was 1 of the cause of it.haha!so then whoever i shouted stopped smokin yet still smokes,i walked over and threw their ciggy away..man!i think they're freaking pissed especially raymond.haha!felt so bad now..insult so many pple.opps!but i cant help it!i was drunk.But i can rmb things clearly!haha!
After insulting everyone and anyone,i apologized a zillion times to all of them.i kept saying sorry and sorry..and i did things that i din realize i'll actually do it.hugged a guy..not 1 but two!hit a person,cried out loud.mann..the thought of it now just wanna make me laugh like crazzyy..haha!ohyahh! i even rmbed that randy was tryin to wake me up and i kept sayin that i cant control my emotions and i cant wake up..haha!den valen took cold water and pour over my face..gosh!its freaking amazin that i can rmb almost everything so clearly!mann..thats crazy!that nite i went insane but din vomit at all.Emily was alr alert and fine and it was my turn to go bizzare!haha!
All of them insisted to send me home and i hung on to kaiyang without letting him go ,he had no choice but to hop on to the same cab as me and khakis.HAHA!he lived ard central but too bad he gt chosen to go back with me..haha!it was freaking hilarious how i made a whole din to myself.HAH!i think everyone enjoyed the entertainment i made on myself.haa!
anw i wanna thank cat and emily for being der and sorry at the same time..and everyone else too..especially raymond and randy.HAHA! funnyy..okayy..had fun that nite tho.Guess its gonna be the last alcoholic gatherin for me..cuz of how i turned out.opps!
emily and kaiyang sent me at my doorstep.HAHA! the funny thing is that i even criticize the taxi uncle!lol..funny!sorry and thanks again!ouhhyay! i even vividly rmbed that someone took pics of me and i even posed! and lp was taking a freakin video cuz i tell her to even when i was alr drunk.the fact is..no matter how drunk u are,u can still rmb and noe wad the hell u're doing and wads going on wit urself.its like u're semi-conscious!so yea..i was lucky that i din puke..PHEW!haha!okayy..end of my storyy..THANKS AND SORRY EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN!jus incase if anyone of u read this somehow.=D
ouhouh..my story has ended for that nite but not for the dayy!haha!woke up early n headed to ikea,bought some mirrors and now its fixed!glad!hah!den went over to anchor point to take a quick btie at disney's cafe..pics will be up soon!haha!den headed to their G2000,it was having sells.sis bought the guys long collar shirt and i wore it for rocky's last gathering!haha!after that gathering..i reached home at 9.00,bathed and slept at 9.15 den 9.30 gt woken up by valen!irritating!hahah!i slept for 15mins and off i changed and went for work at 10 at suntec.how power i was and i was still kinda semi conscious.i din really noe wad i was talking to the guest at all..shitt!!wadeva it is..its over!hahaa!reached home,bathed and slept rite infront of the freking computer..man..i took hours typing this post.ohwell..thats all. so THE END!haha!

blog for the past few days!

yawn!i've been so lazy to blog lately..but still,i cant dun blog abt some happening days i had..jus incase i gt.haha! ohwell..jus gonna upload some pics first! =D pictures says it all...merina has become rich! and spluge my $ on bodyshop items! from facial to footscub.which cost me more den 800$! is that crazy?! that is jus so out of the world rite now.But of cuz,i'm nt that insane to spend like $800 worth of items jus on bodyshop items! i rather spend the $800 on itouch/iphone and creative headphones!man! if someone get me either 1 of those for any occasion..i'll love that person forever!!and i meant wad i said.haha!so the part that i spend my $ on bodyshop items its true but nt the price.prolly jus half of the $800..haha!der was bodyshop sales last week and i called my khakis down for shoppin spree.its uber cheap!all the items were discounted to 50% and more! i was quite kiasu den so i bought for a life time use..ehh.not exactly!maybe for a yr or 2.haha!i bought like 200over and my sis came now the next day to buy another 200$.thats madness!but i guess its all worth it!hahas!BODYSHOP LOVESS!! okayokayy..den ytd went out with catherine.that slim-down-so-much mei!so pretty now!went to catch 10000BC,man..the lead is uber HOTT!cat falled for him.haha!i den brought cat to PZ to eat their famous chicky rice..its a pretty long queue and as usual,i scoop a mountain of chilli!haha!my fav!saw my cousin eating with some random guy..that girl!lol.wanted to scare her but who noes she saw me in the end.NO FUN!!haha!we went our way and off to get emily's belated belated bday gift..a braun buffel wallet.she was elated!haha!see!emily! we're so nice rite!hahaha!best khakis ever!so den..we're decidin on whether to go for rocky's gathering at newton!so decided to wait for emily til 11pm and while deciding to go..we decided to head to HK cafe and chit chat with lp and all til 2am!time has made the decision for us!we ended up going for rocky's gatherin at newton by the company's bus. den played some games..sort of like true and dare jus tat we cancelled out the true and its all dare.LOL.

meet ups with twosome

yawn! so tired rite now..gonna quickly blog about today and off i go to watch THE APPRENTICE season 2..i just finished watching season 1 ytd..der's 5 more seasons to go!haha!been sleeping like 5plus am just to get to see the outcome for the following and following episodes that takes forever to end..XD
anw..hang out with twosome today and whenever i'm with them..i feel demoralised!i feel fat with them..must slim down must slim down but like how man!forever get tempted over food!have to slim down!!!forever putting on weight!urgh!so we met up ard late afternoon and shopped ard for clothes but din get to buy wad we wanted.so twosome says they're hungry so we headed to HK cafe to eat and i ordered my beancurd!ate most of it cuz cat was quite full den.after that sent cat to work..went to shop for her perfume at taka,she was so elated when she gt that present..haha!and shocked at the same time.so den,we left and shopped for our stuffs.i managed to buy a red tee for my cadet umpiring,finally i gt to buy another red shirt!yeah!em bought wad she wanted too and its all greenish!haha! she din wanna go back early so we headed to tcc to slack for quite abit for cat to knock off.Order coffee and salad..man,i drank 2 cups of coffee and i'm all energy boosted for nothing..lol!cant sleep!DIEEEEE..anw der's nth much for today..just felt elated that i get to meet twosome again!haha!but i wanna spend my time productively..seriously speaking..i dun like shopping now that i dun look good wearing wateva i tried,i want to play! and i love to play!do wateva that is adventurous and sporting and can sweat like a dog..hah..tat's love!
And yay! i found a word to part of my personality alr! ambitious!yes!thats the word that i've been looking for!k..enuff for now..tata!time for apprentice.=D

wakeboard-ed!

did wakeboarding and it was an awesome experience.if der's once,definitely der's gonna be the second and third. studer said i was talented! haha! and fast learner..woohoo.thanks for those compliments! made me feel good!But i'm a fast learner and forget fast as well.haha!after wakeboarding at telong ubin,went to seletar airport to eat their famous baffalo wings.der's even level of chilli for it.its from 1 to 10.And we ordered half a dozen of level 7 chix wings.haha!it was darn spicy! we cant even taste the wings at all.all we can taste is the chilli sensation.the spicyness and hotness.it gets to the eyes and lips and the tongue.CAN DIE.after 1 chix wings,i felt alittle giddy.as tho the world is spinning..gosh!water cant solve the spicyness.freaking hot but regardless of the spice,sis and i went for a second chix wing..we felt numb at first den the spicy sensation came again.CAN DIE! i teared terribly and my lips we red thick.haha!hilarious.gonna update some pics soon!=D

hoho!

yawn! man.its 2.30am and i woke up to use the computer..its been ages sine i last blogged,gosh! how busy i was for the past few weeks..today after work,got home,eat,watch tv and napped on the sofa..i was uber tired that i sleep without bathing yet.haha!And it applies not jus today..practically EVERYDAY! got home,eat,watch tv and napped on the sofa den wake up in the middle of the nite to bath and back to sleep in my room..thats how tired i am after work..
Anw,gonna work until the end of this month!man! i cant wait to stop work and sweat it out everyday!i miss rock climbing,i miss cycling,i miss tough trainings,i miss sweating out everyday playing sports!!hha!and yay,its been quite cold for the past few dayss,especially recently.Everyone in the office is feeling terribly cold tat der's even pple wearing sweater!haa!!i felt like i'm in the winter country in the office!
anyway,i shall summary wad i did for the past few days..practically jus 1 word..WORKING!life is happening in the office all the time,get to learn life experience and meet and talk to sorts of working adults..the mindset of them and all.its a definite good experience!for sure i'll miss the company!=(moreover,the environment in the company is also good..the ambience.the pple.the bosses.where on earth am i gonna find that kinda job where the people treat you so nice,make you feel the team feeling.yawn..freaking tired!guess i'll head to bed now and wake up early in the morning to do the dumb enrolment for admission to poly.its really troublesome to enrol to a school,have to do all sort of payments and all..anw going st gregory for waxing and body massage with EM later afternoon.woohoo!so excited!hahah!oh ouhh..my company gave me the gift luhh..so sweet of them!but they asked me to choose so its no surprise at all..okayy..i shall end now..time to go to lala world.=D

airshow 2008

anw gonna upload pictures on the AIRSHOW 2008 at changi airbase.tic's at 20bucks for adults.its darn human pack after the show at 12.30.omgs!the taxi stand was flooded with people and we need to pay an additional 8dollars for a cab ride out.maybe thats how they lure the cabs in.and for merz taxi its 45bucks/trip.its alot!anw,enuff of it.its pictures time!

netballed

RANDOM PICTURES.

i feel good..nahnah nahnah nahnah nahnah nah...felt so fresh and good after netball.=D man!sports keep me alive again.=D i wonder how am i gonna adjust myself without sports when i get so much older.every morning i'll walk to the mrt to take train to work and i always see these same old ladies gather tgt and doing their daily workout.i wonder when i get older,will i be jus like them?am i gonna be the next them?if until den,i'm still blogging,perhaps when i ever gonna read this post again,i'll go "i am already them" haha.that is if i still blog during that age and den reading the post that was written many many yrs back...all the memories will be kept here.how sweet to read them and letting my kids read someday,even their kids and their kid's kid.hah!okayy.enuff of that.
went for netball trg and HM was sayin that we need to win the inter-com competition else we will nt get sponsorship from the community centre.thats bad.all the while,we've been playing leisurely,without any goals to achieve and tahts wad i hate about the team.we do not have enuff pple to even get committed.perhaps cuz we dun have a goal.so now,we have a goal and we must achieve!gonna do this for HM cuz of her passion,gonna do this for the many that were playing in netball before and came in and out of it.gonna keep it sustaining.its really hard on HM to actually organise and pushing and saying everyone's fault and getting everyone doing wad she said and players jus dun like being "controlled" guess the way she does it make pple feel that way.so now,we have a goal and i'm exhilarated to hear about the competition but wad worries me is the players in the team.we have to make it! anw,today J gt frastrated of certain players.finally somebody is feeling wad i had always been feeling..haha!now i'm stronger.u take hard effort to go for the ball,doing all the runs and running more then the rest and the next thing is that they dun get a darn when the ball jus flies off and letting the ball go.it makes players who did their 110% angry!very!suddenly i think that i shldnt sort of go against hm since she's really trying hard to build the team and so is J.Really admire HM somehow.hah!
i'm writing this down cause i think the dragonboat in NYP is like the netball team that i'm in.and i'll be the next HM.that is if i join the nyp dragonboat.=D cant wait for school to start like literally.i dun wanna be an average band sportswoman.i've higher goals to achieve now.der's just so many goals i wanna achieve!especially this goal that i had this year on.spend my money to get my car and bike licence.diving,umpiring and dance courses.man!its gonna cost me a bomb.i'm a very poor lady so pple,please dun say that i'm RICH cuz i'm not!saving $$ for my future needs!=D anyhow,its time to shower and back on learning my work later!
Guess the story indeed gonna begin when i get into poly.i can anticipate that days in poly gonna be a tough one.wadeva it is,bring it on!haha!i shall end here now.byebye!

What really matters to you.

pity the ahmas.

sicked

yawnn.gonna go to sleep after this post.ytd was pretty weird for me.i hardly get sick at all.dunno why ytd all of the sudden i felt so tired and cold on my fingers and toes,got a little headspinning and decided to take a nap.i was thinking,maybe i was jus tired.den when i woke up,i gt no appetite to eat my dinner,only had a few slice of mango and off to watchin my HEROES season 2.=D seated at my sofa,feeling so cold that i took my sista's shawl to cover myself.its quite unusual to feel this way.all of the sudden,feeling so cold.so i knew i must be having fever so i checked on myself and indeed,i was having a slight fever.
i felt so lerthagic that i was so lazy to get up fom my sofa,poor dad of mine had to take this and tat for me.love dad!=)den,i kept feelin like puking all the time.til one point of time,i cldnt take the disturbing feeling that i went to the toilet to force myself to puke.but not exactly force tho but something like that.the puke smell like apple cinnomon.hurhur! i wondered since when i had any cinnomon.so den,i felt much better and off to watching my heroes after i bathed.haha!
i wondered was it the dog that spread to me the infection or something.i was fine before touching one of my neighbour's dog called bosco.he charge towards in when i called for his name,i was quite petrified cuz he was really big!its a golden retriever.he gt his fur shaved off and his owner said he ahve skin problem.i was like,shit,is it spreadable?he used his body to rub my legs a lot of times and he's so big that when he stepped my feet,i feel pain.aparently,he's nt light luhh.
today i tot i was fine,i ate my dinner but cldnt take in much.again,its so unlike me.something must be wrng with me.ohhnoo!! i had that puking feeling again so again,i had to sort of force myself to puke and felt much better again.seems like my body trying to reject wad i'm taking in.thats good!hahha!den i can have a taste of my food without putting on any calories.HAHA!its madness,i noe.okaayy,gtg sleep now,its late,tmr still gt work.=D i cant wait for the end of this month,seeing $$$ soon.hurhur.okayy.byebye!!

wad a week i had

well,i had a hectic week and finally its weekends now.i've been waking up early to work and end work pretty late too.i love wad i am doing rite now and i have to do good and alert.gosh! my cousin and i are raelly getting old,we can forget things at times.die!we're both STM.haha!anw ytd had office lunch at long beach at the dempsey rd.the seafood is not really fresh.der's 1 dish which is the lobster,i look eating lobsters especially with the fried oatmeals as the dressing.YUMY!but the moment i place it in my mouth and chew,i get the disgusted feeling of the taste,i tried to bite on it afew more times and wanted to swallow but i cant bring myself to,so i decided to puke it out.EEERK!der's the taste of the tank smell.Xp after the lunch,we headed back to office to work again.i haven fully familiarise with my mum's work and the files she put and all.it felt like i'm a baby tat haven learn how to crawl and struggling to learn how to run.and der's a bus to fetch all of us der,we were the last few to head to the bus and its the FIRST time i ran with my HEELS.GOSH! wad a run.haha!
anw,update soon again,feeling so tired and sad.=( byebye!

ytd was a horroudous day.

Many things happened in balcony ytd,it all jus bam rite at my face.firstly it was the manager,den the supervisor,the chief and the old senior server as well as the full-timers.wads wrong with these pple?!
anw ytd was my last day at work.all thanks to raymond!looked for him at the start of my work and told him tat i dun wanna work on valentine day,talked to him really nicely but he seems so stucked up!he asked me not to work after ytd so i agreed.his face expression changes rite at the spot when i said okay,the next thing i realise was that all my schedule has been cancelled.thnks raymond!hope balcony dies 1 fine day sooner!so wad if ur the manager?u cant even handle ur staff at all.i hate pple threatening me like how he did.stupid ah beng!i jus cant respect him as the manager,especially when he is so bias so obviously!anyhow schedule the timing and all.why did steven even let him hve tat position!!urghh..wateva it is,i'm done with balcony.hurray!and yay,after he said it was my last day of work,loads of incident happened.sent the order to the wrong table,gt so stoned,everything wasnt organise,customer sort of pissed off and everything seem to be stucked and the best thing was when i sent to bill the table at one of the swings,i noe they were smoking but i din stop them,i really wondered why..only when der's a lady asking if she cld smoke der and den i realise they were smoking.gosh!wad was wrong with me!so angry with myself!
and i had to pay for the wrong order which i dun get to eat at all.pathetic.the other servers eat the main course without leaving some for me.=( but i gt no mood to eat either.den to drinks and everything jus took so long to serve.irritatin customers,cant they jus wait?!freak!my last day of work definitely left a bad lasting impression.sighh. i felt like crying wen randy asked if i were alrite.i was so angry tat i felt like tearing,left without lookin at randy's eyes.i did tear anw.den lcuky ther was adam to comfort me.=) left to took the last train of the red line.the last train for the green line left.freaking sway!! had a place to sit in the train and some kudo stepped onto my pointed shoe.=.=! after that went to 7eleven,wanted to get something to drink and they dun accept nets.=.= i left feelin oh-so-thirsty.i din ve a single cent after topping up my ez-link.
gosh!it was a freaking swayyyyy nite ytd.
anww,gonna go out now.so update soon again.byebye!

=)

gong xi fa cai to everyone!i'm abit late,yes i noe.haha!anw i gt back to sing on the 6th of feb and i completely forgt that i've gt work at 9pm.i was too late to go for work so i called cat to cover me.THANKS a million.muckks~hehe..
this yr has the least angbao ever due to my grandma's death.but at least i've gt angbaos.hahah!gosh!i've gt a hard time typing.urgghhh!!i did acrylic nail extensions and now i've gt long fake nails.its so diff to actually type!diee luhh,i'm gonna take forever typing for this post.i kept pressing extra keys at the side of the key tat i wanted to press on.i'm gonna remove it anytime sooner now.haha!i still like havin short nails.=D
anw the trip to macau,hongkong is pretty fun with my cousins ard.we can laugh for the whole drn trip.and i gt a freaking running nose from my cousin while we were sleeping tgt,on the single bed.so pathetic.we have to share a single bed!she's nt a peace sleeper.kept tossing and turning and we kept pullin each other's blanket.haha!!irritating! i din have a peaceful sleep at all,kept openin my eyes to pull back the blanket.humpphh!soooo irritating!RAR!den the next thing aunty nagged all of us to wake up for breakfast.AHHH!
anw i love shopping overseas den shopping in singapore.its too expensive shopping in sing,sriously!managed to buy 10tops at the price of 100plus sing.=D cheap hor!!den bought black sockings at 4bucks each,sing sellin at 12plus.bought hair pins,accessories,boots,shoes,women boxers,shirt,pants,bag.gosh!practically bought all new stuffs.and finally i managed to buy my HAVERSACK!muhahaha!so happy!but the big spender is still my cousin!he bought hell loads of stuffs.and the acrylic done overseas is much much more cheaper s well!=)
i dun really feel like bloggin for nw,its so difficult typing with long nails,missing the key that i pressed.=.=! anw,HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EMILYY!!=)
later going to work at 7.
anw,cny made me put on weight!!irritatin!need to go running everyday from now on.

ehh..

no deal!the sound of the lady in play in the show no deal.she doesnt have the luck at all.no pt carry on watchin.ha!
went to work at 830 and mum fetch me to work.mum's nt going to for a month and i'll be takin over her job in her office.its gonna be interesting!yea!cant wait man!
anw finally i've finished my work doing the data thing.nv did use excel before but it was so easy to get the hang of it.haha!after my work,janet asked me to take the paper work at the printer,take this and that,pass this and that.=.= i'm like her personal office maid.but i dun mind tho.haha!anw i wore T-shirt dress to work with black long leggings plus socks and my black pointy shoes.den jasmine was sayin that teenagers are very creative in the way they dress,create their own sense of style.she's very open abt ideas.thats good!she influence me.haha!den mum went back to office with me for awahile cuz she had to visit the hospital for some check up.doctor says she have been contracted with cervic cancer.=( its nt that serious tho.der's still cure for it.mummy has got to fully recover!may god,mary be with u all the time!
ate at the xin sha yum something resturant at lucky plaza? i think.the dim sum is darn salty!ouhh.ate at the lucky plaza indian resturant,the brani's yummy!=D
and anw,i wont be sleepin tonite,gonna leave hse at 4plus am!its 11degrees der in gangzhou.=( ohoh..so after work,went to go shop at isetan supermarket for some japanese food!FAV!!!hahahah.bought ice cream home den.it din melt totally tho cuz der were jam at bukit timah road.=(i'm tired.yawwnn.eyes darn tired.gonna wake up again later.update once i'm back!byebye!

go with the flow

Life is like a raging river. There is constant flow. In fact, agitation and movement are essential for life to endure. Stagnant waters breed disease and decay.

So when life decides to throw a rock at us, like when we lose a job or partner, don't lose heart. Don't negatively judge events or circumstances that initially seem "bad" or "unfortunate". Things don't happen by accident, and mistakes or misfortunes are simply precursors for positive change.

We can't control things like losing a job or losing a partner. Loss is essential for growth and survival. When we experience loss or some other stressful change in our lives, we can give in to negative feelings like anger, disappointment, self-pity, self-loathing, trepidation and fear. We can allow these emotions to strain our mind, effectively crippling its ability to discover viable solutions. We can imagine the worst, and let something that may not come to pass affect our present state of mind.

Or we can go with the flow of change. Some things in our lives have to go in order to make way for better things. The Universe has a way of nudging us along when we get too lazy, complacent or comfortable. Occasionally, it gives us a big shove. The Universe knows when stagnation is making us fat and feeble. It knows when something in our lives has to shift in order for us to continue growing. It then arranges for people and events to push us towards what we were meant to be.

Most people however, choose to resist or ignore the signs. They are so firmly embedded in the riverbed that they refuse to let the currents lift them away. The years go by, and along with them, a flood of lost opportunities? and the stubborn rocks are finally left buried under algae and dirt.

If you've recently lost your job, lost a partner or something you felt was valuable to you, think? Were you really happy with your job?

Did you put your dreams on hold because you were trapped in a wake up, go to work, go home, go to bed routine? Had you stopped growing in that job? Did nothing excite you anymore about your work? What about your ex-partner? Were you really good for each other? Or were you hanging on because you were afraid of being alone?

You didn't have the time nor the nerve to go out and do what you really wanted to do. Well, now you do!

Go with the flow of change!