exercising the brain emotionally.

My statistic group is completely hopeless and they are a bunch of losers. mygawd. this is the worst group that ive ever worked with. :( im so pissed with their working attitude. F.U.C.K! i haven been using that word for a long time. its seriously a fucked up bunch of losers and hopeless pple who only aim for the lowest.

Even the stats project,infos are all in and its sufficient to pass the project, we shldnt be looking at a just pass! wad sort of attitude is that?! a just pass attitude? sufficient to get a pass for the project? WTHECK!we should be aiming for the highest and not the lowest! im looking at an excellent project and scoring As for it. why the hell do i wana stay back after class with me feeling so tired and hungry and yet im still in school doing the shit stats project with my friend in the same group whining to go home! i wana go home and rest too. WTFUCK! And yesterday i had to stayed up late until 1 to ensure that the statistics project are all good and getting their cooperation is just like getting a lazy bull to move aside! URGH! Becuz of them, my marks may be jeopardize and the feeling is absolutely terrible! im here trying my best to improve on the stupid stats project so that everyone can score well for it and yet they are such lazy bums that even a simple thing which i asked them to do,they dun even wana do!URGH!
we should look at perfecting things we do and giving more than wad the teacher expects.

Now i feel so damn sian! why cant they just cooperate for the better of the project. WHY?!
anyway this is our statistic blog. (our height and weight ica.blogspot.com) each spacing should be replaced with a ( - ) a dash. i din wana put the full address cuz people might be able to track it when they google it. ohwell.

and exams are coming! in a month's time! now im feeling the stress! time to take some brain supplements. :)
i damn scare i cannot do well for all the papers. how to study in a month's time scoring well wen i always doze and daze during boring lectures??? tips tips tips! i need alot of help and tips for my exam sia!! teacher only gona give tips 3wks later. crazy! by the time 2more weeks exam how to study?! CRAZY LUH. :(

This sem means alot to me. repeating one semester or not really do depends on this semester. JIAYOU! for the seek of this semester! i think ive been slightly constantly now. JIAYOU JIAYOU! and Fuck care the stupid hopeless and losers and bummer group. They dun even have high aims in life. happy slacking man. i dun give a shit.

brain brain brain

Supplement=power brain

Power brain+right attitude+aim+support= ???

fix the mind first den can fix everything else.

im gona fix you brain! gona make you TIAN XIA WU DI. :)

dreadful day but numb to it.

Baby says im a cow, not even a farmer. :(

And guess wad, i was busy doing my work until and talked t B. until 3plus4 until i told him that ive gt school at 8 and we quickly hung up. the next morning, i silent my alarm clock and it never ring again. man. the moment i opened my eyes, im seeing 8am on my clock. i was like GREAT. can go back to sleep already. and i decided to miss 2hrs of my other module lectures. it was boring. EXAMS PERIOD next month. damn fast! i damn scared! ive to quickly get over all the projectssss and off to PUT FULL FUEL to study for my exams. die la! am i gona crap so much stuffs for my exams! DAMN DAMN! and my biopractical can say byebye to my A. i think i can barely get a B now. so many careless mistakes. wt$#^$&*##. gona punish myself.

den, went school for tut and off t do my stats project. and guess wad happened, my friend trip the plug and the whole com shuts off while we're doing our work. best part, WE HAVEN SAVE IT YET! thanks to her i cannot go home early and do my other projects.(i nv sleep properly,nv eat and drink somemore,how pityful i am, yet i want t perfect the project and she's der whinging to get home early and relax. sigh. i wonder wads life gona be ahead of her if she dun wake up. i feel sad for her.)so!i had to stay in school to redo again...lucky she can remember else i'll make her have nightmares tonite.

now ive alot of things to finish by tonite.

project scripts

research

research again

stats blog

later mayb meeting B.

wow. i can forget abt sleepin early again. THANKS T SCHWORK!

plus i haven bath from running under the rain wen i got home.

plus im having menses cramp! shit la damn pain.

if i were younger, i think i'll go DAMN STRESS!

but now, im jus so numb to it.

no choice. JIAYOU!

I DUNWANT TO BE A COW! take step by step. :)

BUSY

i hate school.

once school starts ive to get myself all busy with projects! tests to study for.

thursday: dateline for presentation of design NYEC

Friday, saturday, sunday: study BIO practical, perfect my projects and attending NYEC community day on sat 9am-1pm. gee! its @ hougang there man. so far!

And today its E-learning day, im not supposed t go back sch but still, had t go back for project meeting. gee!

And guess wad, i think my sister is really irritating, she shldnt be back at all. she called me up and said: wers the camera's charger?!

"i dunno, i also nv use"

"hung up" *without saying goodbye.

WT#%&^*&

urgh! why in the world has she gotta be my sister...

* In a dilemma

I HATE YOU! I REALLY DO!

im so pissed with my sister as always. she doesnt noe how to communicate with me and she doesnt even bother and care for me like everyone else says she is. in actual fact, she's not. people from the other see apart of the situation, not the whole situation. so advices have t be taken selectively. i dun get why people have t get so worked up sometimes wen their advices are not taken. bruised their little ego?hmm. maybe.

and den, the first thing she open her mouth is "mei! wer is this, wer is that, i want it by tonite u better go find! i asked u not t do this not t do tat. mei! help me do this, help me do tat. and wen i refused, she said actually i wanted t give u $ and i said i dunwant ur stupid $.

den she conplaints t my dad about me wen she barely comes home! she doesnt even noe wads going on with my life,wad has been happening and she just go $#^$%^&%. im hurt and pissed at the same time. i realised her presence has caused me being emotional and stressed. i feel being loved by my family more without her around.

i think she's the worse person. she doesnt even noe how t be a person. All the time she'll go MEI!$%^$%& scold and nag scold and nag.

wenever i asked tellin her my problems, she hardly listens and even throw temper at me.

wenever i asked her for help, she hardly get it done for me and she expects me t get it done for her IMMEDIATELY!

and wenever i bought my things, she'll bring over t her bf's place and i cldnt use it. wen i use the same treatment on her, she'll say me. i seriously dun like her. like father like daughter. Lucky i chose t follow my mum's footsteps.

and my sister has the cheek to ask :"if im old and lonely, will u take care of me?"

now im thinking, FORGET IT! she doesnt even take good care of me, she can forget about me giving her great attention and support that she needs. she's on her own!

And she kept saying that my bf is out t cheat my $, im even more pissed! she doesnt even noe wad sort of person he is yet she can just judge blinded. in actual fact, SHE NOES NOTHING ABOUT ME! NOTHING DETAILED! NOTHING! and i dunwant her to get into my personal life much either. im contented that my besties,friends and cousin is around and supportive plus my family without her around is good enuff. Plus him. all these people are there to support my emotional aspects and i realised that i needed that. i din realised how important that is. i used to keep every single thing inside and let as little people noe as possible cuz den i dunno how they will actually judge me.

But now ive grown emotionally healthy.

This is freaky,

i took my air-con remote controller and pressed the ON button and left it on the table and off i go put medication on my face.When i realised i din exactly turn on my air-con, i went to the table and search for my remote controller but i cldnt find it! i looked thru it thrice! den i went out and came in and looked again on the table, it is der! gee! thats creepy! either im blind or due to my long-sightedness or either its due to... gee, shldnt be! my house is blessed by god.

expert like me do great things. ceyy. :D

After

Before

After

Before

horse riding

FINALLY! i managed to go ride on my zodiac! im so glad! it was a hard time getting there. especially wen we're getting der by public transport! GAWD! but we spent less den 10$ getting there,exclusive of the taxi fare. the trip to rider's lodge was crazy! but it was fun! we took the malaysia's bus from singapore t the custom den went on t take a bus in malaysia(triple 7) the journey took us about 50mins getting there. gosh! lucky i brought my book to study. IM HARD WORKING YOU NOE. hahahaah!

the bus trip was only 2.50RM so cheap! I LIKE! but the journey was long. But after everything, the horse riding compensate everything! the place was great! the horses were great! prolly that will be my future retirement plan. provided i've got the $. else i can jus retire in e OLD FOLK HOME! but OFM isnt that bad! provided those old ah ma and ah pek are still senile and about to converse with, den i'll have many many old friends in OFM. :) okay. wtheck am i thinking. gees! haha! i miss my horse now. i feel like traveling there again to see my horse!

WORTHWHILE EXPERIENCES!

searching for my goal.

Hello peeps.

2 more days to sch reopen! and guess wad, im gona be 20 soon! gosh. 20! im so old now. :( Gona strive hard t get wad i wana get. I MUST!

Anw i went to rider's lodge on thursday. it was absolutely great fun der. the horses are well-maintain.

i wana open up a hotel too. with many horses there. big fields. nice friendly and happy people. ( sounds like a retire plan) hah. But i duno. i need the capital and knowledge to open one.

Where do i exactly start?

prolly i'll go der again during my holidays. :)

And the NYEC project is really killing me. gosh. this will be the last project for designing that i wana take up. its tedious doing designing. it can take you the whole day to get things right. and the person doesnt like it or gotta make changes. you gona keep changing and changing. Gosh. Now i feel for my designer friends.

how to open a hotel? wer do i start? WHERE?!

lixin's belated bday celebration

2 weeks of holiday hurry come!

Gee! Time flies, initially we're whining that we still have 2 wks of attachment in imh! But BOOMZ! its alr a tuesday! 3 more days and attachment will be over! gee! attachment is fun,we're literally enjoying ourselves.haha! FRIDAY going clubbing with my attachment friends. excited siol.
And my bloody cousin and victoria has yet to send the pictures that we took at superclub! so irritatinggggg. And i cldnt find those pictures in my cousin's computer too. how annoying!
And psychiatric patients are really interesting, being a psychiatric nurse can drain you mentally than physically which is sort of a challenge. See how you are able to handle them psychologically. interesting eh. :)
YAWN. im sleepy.
And im staying over at my cousin's place cuz her house is just 10mins walk to IMH. i can crawl to work even! haha.
Oh, and our CI singa is damn funny! he make use of all this facial expressions and tell stories, gosh, i think im the only one who laugh the hardest. gee! he really makes people day. :)
Anw, ive yet to go end year shopping yet! gee! haven gotten my UNIQLO basic dress! :( the last time was shopping for baby's things. Bought him a ZARA shoe and he is so "pandan" saying that giving him shoes means sending him off, tat we wont be tgt. -.-! So i asked him to give me $2 and so we'll stick tgt.
I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE 2 WEEKS HOLIDAY! IM DYING! attachement in imh is boring! SHINGZZZ!
Gonna get myself a job for this 2wks holiday. I NEED $$$$$ prolly can think of selling my ass too for cash. hmmm. haha! like as if!
sighh! im short of cash! NO $$$! i need to work! work! work! i felt that the motivation to study my course is missing, der isnt the adrenaline rush and motivation anymore. i need to gain it back. im so sleepy but need to study alittle.
CIAO!

Gemini is a Mutable Air sign, ruled by Mercury. As the third sign in the zodiac, Gemini is an energetic, charismatic, communicative, witty individual with a child-like fascination with the world and with new experiences. Famous and historical characters sharing this sign include John F. Kennedy, (May 29), Marilyn Monroe (June 1), and Judy Garland (June 10).

The Gemini personality stands out as the zodiac sign that knows something about just about everything, making them good conversationalists and interesting acquaintances. They are inquisitive and quick to digest new information and ideas. Intelligent and logical, but with a lot of nervous energy, Gemini likes to keep busy and expand their horizons whenever opportunities arise, often multitasking between several interests. However, as the sign of the Twins, there is a dual aspect to the Gemini personality, making it difficult for these individuals to stick with any one thing in order to master it, and often making it difficult for bystanders to figure out which side their Gemini friend is really on. Gemini has more than one personality, which can change in a flash, and those near to them would do well to learn them both. On and off, up and down, back and forth, black and white, day and night, ying and yang - this is the essence of the Gemini personality.

For those with a Gemini child, get ready for a ride! These kids can be sweet, cooperative little angles one moment and infuriating monsters the next. Gemini children are very verbal and soak information in like sponges. They therefore tend to master the art of communication quite early, often displaying knowledge beyond their years. This is a high-strung child with a lot of pent-up energy, so don't be surprised if your 6 year old Gemini claims to have "tension headaches" or other physical complaints beyond his years. The Gemini child will not particularly like the rigors of school, but it is likely that he will know to turn on the charm to bluff his way through parts of it. Though he has the intellect to excel in school, it's just not in little Gemini to follow things through to completion, so he will rarely be at the top of his class. Giving him a rich environment at home will help offset this, so be sure to introduce him to nature, sports, music, and reading early on, and also provide stimulation via computers and video games to help broaden his exploratory nature and hold his interest. Gemini kids seem to have a conflict between emotions and intellect, and this can manifest in a variety of ways, often in strange eating habits. Your Gemini might love only red jelly beans or want peanut butter on bread with no jelly and nothing to drink. If you ask about this type of thing, he will blithely tell you that the red ones give him strength or that he has exceptional salivary glands - in his own mind, he is perfectly justified in his choices regardless of how absurd they seem to everyone else. Your best bet is to keep the multi-vitamins handy for these little ones! With regard to other family members, Gemini will entertain and delight and generally get along fine with everyone, unless someone comes along that takes away his limelight, such as a younger sibling. In this case, your little Gemini may turn into a tormenter of this sibling for years to come, and this can be very difficult to control.

Because of his superior communication skills and innate charm, Gemini usually does well at work, with others often seeking them out for advice and new ideas. Conversely, the Gemini worker will not hesitate to seek others out for advice and ideas, always striving to stay on top of the information chain. When interested, Gemini can accomplish more in a day than other signs can accomplish in a week. When disinterested, however, the Gemini worker will procrastinate and eventually move on to more interesting pursuits. No surprise then, that Gemini tends to change jobs and even careers several times during his lifetime. The Gemini's office will have lots of communication devices including computer, phone, Blackberry, cell, and a rolodex full of names, and he will constantly be networking and seeking out new connections. These same traits will also cause the Gemini to tend toward gossip, so if you want to hear the dirt on others, seek out your Gemini co-worker. Gemini can function well in almost any job capacity that he finds interesting, especially those that require lots of communication and interaction with others. With Gemini in a boss or leadership position, however, watch for a strong secretary or assistant that follows behind picking up pieces and finishing undone projects.

If you have found a romantic partner in a Gemini, you have a young at heart lover who wants to try new things and is always looking for a new adventure. The Gemini partner will need a quick wit, and the capacity to change directions on a moment's notice. Gemini will frequently test their partners for loyalty and commitment, so try to keep jealousy and anger at bay, because although the challenge at hand may look like it is external, it is often a situation generated by Gemini himself as a test of your commitment. Additionally, while Gemini is often animated and fun, within a short time this can change to brooding and isolative, so learning when to back off completely is important in this relationship. If Gemini becomes bored within the relationship, he will almost certainly move on, often with no concept of the devastation he is causing, so keeping it fresh and alive over the long term is crucial to holding on to a romantic relationship with a Gemini.

The best matches for Gemini for sure are Gemini, Libra, and Aquarius, but Aries, Cancer, Taurus, and Leo might also work for some individuals. It will likely be tough going for Virgo and Pisces, which are the least compatible with Gemini.

Gemini in any relationship is smart, witty, fast, and fun. They are the life of the party and have a lot of acquaintances. They seek out others who are smart and adventuresome, and will become quickly bored with those who are homebodies or content with the status quo. Gemini wants to see the world, experience everything, and literally "learn something new every day." He will be a fun and fascinating companion, but some may see him as superficial and "two faced" because his goal is to charm everyone all of the time. On good days, he will be charming and gracious, but on bad days he can be moody and even cruel. Remember, with Gemini, the by-word is "changeable," so learn to expect anything!

Great experience!

This is the most Greatest experience i ever felt after so long. i guess, to put it into a positive mindset, It is to take things as a challenge rather den blaming that it is within your ability to do it and constantly blaming everything on yourself. Yes, tho things happened and it is both parties at fault too.But today after umpiring the mixed category. it really taught me alot.

And sports indeed shows the character in you, and also to help you to improve on it to be better.

thats where Sports can bring people to bond together.

confidence is something i lack and i shld learn to get it. its impt in life. Humans are not perfect afterall and umpires are humans too so we do make mistakes at times and we're always wanting to improve! From today's life lesson, just tell yourself to take things as a challenge for every single thing that you think you cannot do. at least you tried and learnt from it.

Asessment on next wednesday, hopefully i pass! my cadet validity is expiring soon.

GOOD GAME afterall.

JUST BE CONFIDENT! thats wad i have been lacking behind all this while.

JIAYOU!

BRING THE HURDLE HIGHER AND HIGHER AND HIGHER AND HIGHER AND HIGHERRR! ROARR!

and really gotta thank xz for the counseling, He really made me feel alot more better. :)

and also everyone else at kallang. :) JIAYOU!

sports do shape you as a person.

Before the BIG DAY

Today was the most self-achieving and self-satisfying day.

managed to get alot of things done. :)

praying hard for the big day to go smoothly tmr. And hoping for the best! Pray hard it does not rain!else all our effort are alittle gone to waste.

And we got our T-shirt!

We came up with the design within 2hrs. how efficient!! :) so proud of everyone.

:)

Astrology - Compatibility Reading

Merina and Auriel, your relationship is a challenge that both of you can take up successfully on the condition that you demonstrate willpower, which you certainly will. Periods of calm are followed by more turbulent ones. All you need to do is to put a bit of effort into your relationship in order to adjust to each other, and meet your divergent needs. You can make a wonderful and lasting couple if you are really willing to! The challenge for you is realistic with the condition of having the will, and you'll sure have it. The periods of calm will leave room to more agitated periods, but it is just a matter for you two to accept sometimes to bring a little energy to the relation in order to adapt to each other, because you don't have identical needs. You can form a very beautiful and lasting couple if you really want it!

Communication Score:3

Attraction Score:4

Influence Score:4

facebook's quiz. haha.

wah. netball event is on this sunday,STRESS. i duno whether at the end of the carnival, will everyone be happy,everyone includes the players, the umpires,officials. basically everyone. gee. just have faith. anyway its not easy doing an event, its pretty green for us too. wadeva happens, we learn and improve on it. :) GOOD LUCK !

gotten my licence!

MUHAHAHAHA!

FINALLY!

the loooongg awaiting day has come! my driving licence! hehe! now im officially able to drive my mom's car OUT! yes! im soo gona fetch her from the airport on 24nov with my brother. how awesome isit it. totally cant wait for that day to come. :)

meteor shower!

Celebrate a night under the Stars - The Leonids Meteor Shower

The Science Centre Singapore and TASOS are celebrating the International Year of Astronomy (IYA) 2009 with a big bang. The stars of the show are forecasted to be a half meteor storm that will happen at 5am. Astronomers have predicted that the annual Leonids might put up the most dramatic light show not seen in recent years as the earth passes close to the centre of the comet’s debris trail laid down in 1466. The ideal locations for viewing are in Asia* and North America.

On stage, there will be performances by Kenji Williams, an audio visual art performer, while offstage, visitors will be entertained by the Science Buskers. For astronomy buffs, an accompanying meteorite exhibition, a talk by TASOS, on-site telescope viewing of the planet Jupiter and inflatable planetarium tours for children will also be held.

* Please note that viewing and extent of the Leonids storm is subject to location and clear skies. Neither the Science Centre nor TASOS or other joint organisers can be held responsible in the event that the view of the Leonids is poor.

Details of The Leonids Meteor Shower, Singapore

Event: IYA 2009 Leonid Party (Entry is Free)
Venue: Japanese Gardens
Date: 17 Nov - 18 Nov 2009
Time: 8pm - 5am (*8pm - 2am: activities / 2am - 5am: free & easy)
Website: For more details, please visit www.science.edu.sg

pissed

Im pissed!!!!!!!!!

DAMN IT!

"do your brother a favor la, just put the clothes in the room!" damn it. why cant my mom do it when she doesnt even have schoolwork or deadlines to meet. damn it!

STOP ASKING ME TO DO HSEWORK and mop and vacuum floor twice a wk! i dun have the fucking time! URH!

its possible

im gona do at least 30mins of exercise everyday!to improve my cardiovascular and blood circulation in my body.

im gona do skipping from 5mins to 20mins gradually..

its possible!

putting that into action for my subconscious mind to take in.

exercise everyday! exercise everyday exercise everyday!

take it one at a time.

cut down carbo and take in more proteins. drink 8glasses of water gradually to remove toxins in my body.

i want to be healthy like vanessa smith.( my pe elective module teacher) :)

two more days!

Two more days to our 18th monthsary. :)

love baby loads.

And i saw this trailer-An Education.the story is about this bright schoolgirl is torn between studying for a place at Oxford and the more exciting alternative offered to her by a charismatic older man.

the girl's only 16 and the guy is 30. cant wait for the show to be released! hahah.

Things to do:

vacuum and mop the damn hse,

collect movie tix from AXS machine.( now den i noe that booking over the phone,also auto book the seats for us.gee! 2012 tonight!:D)

sweat it out( managed to run up my stairs twice) HR 32-42(losing weight range) :)

get the songs sent

practice IV skills

edit project

research on pharmacology's project

study drug test.

arrange to get lemone book from friend.

revision revision and revisions

sigh. now which 1 to do first. damn it.

ciao!

singtel,iphone

Gee, called up singtel and asked about my singtel plan and they said i recontracted it during sept 08. ohdamn. ive to wait until next sept 10 to let the plan expired,den can get my iphone and recontract the youthplan again. hmm..

dilemma.

Is this called friendship?

a friendship that is more of a one way traffic?

a friendship that can hardly able to get help from?

a friendship that has loads of excuse given?

a friendship that only thinks of themselves first?

a friendship that complain and get irritated for when they cannot get help from you?

A friendship that complains and get irritated too when you ask them for help?

But,

they call you to meet you to school in the morning and going home together?

they listen to you talk all your problems and advise you on it?

they says things that meant well.

tell me about it?

what sort of friendship this is..

is it still worth keeping??

fun nite out.

okay. ytd's show was splendid. but someone made me really pissed before i reached douby ghaut and yet that someone can still make a call to ask how is his fcuking friend wen such incidents always happened and behaved and talked to his friend like nth has happened and he dun even bother and that someone cant even make it up to me. Yet, ive to make myself cool down my own way.gosh! and really need the movies to cool my anger. lucky everything goes well else i'll get really fcuking pissed and i dunno wad i'll do. and oh well,really cried like fcuk and scared like fcuk. i was so paranoid den. WTH! i even bite my bf while anticipating wads gona happened. ahhhh..hahaha. at least he came out alive. tsk. after tat wen to clark quay to forget about the show but my idiot bf jus tell my friends the scary movie story.gee! den headed home pretty late.yup.

the end

movies later!!

omg. for once, i decided to watch a scary movie for my entire life. i dunno if i am able to survive out. i meant my bf.HAHA!

SOOO EXCITED! but scared at the same time. gee! lol.

and my friend says sister's keeper can make you seriously cry like crap. oh mine!i cried like crap when i was watching notebook and now,sister's keeper.today's gona be a extreme emotional nite. cry like no tmr,prolly i'll have swollen eyes once i get out. and scared like fcuk later. so excitedd. hahahaah.i can feel the anxiety now.*increased HR and cold sweat.geee! CIAO

deodorant

i was during my PE elective logbook and i suddenly tot of the incident of stinky armpit smell.omg! i cannot take it myself! i smelt so bad during PE elective cuz i din do the regular regime to keep my armpit clean,i was rushing! late for class for the consecutive 4 days! WOW! that habit is really hard to kick.

so i was thinking there a treatment for my smelly armpit?i went to do abit of research under google regardless the causes and treatment of odor!

And guess wad i found!

Aluminum Chloride: Organ system toxicity, in vitro tests on mammalian cells show positive mutation results, reproductive effects at moderate and high doses, and animal studies show brain and nervous system effects at high doses

Aluminum Chlorohydrate: Developmental/reproductive toxicity, Neurotoxicity

Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine: Strong evidence of human neurotoxicity when product is airborn

Gylcerin: One or more animal studies show kidney or renal system effects at very low doses, mammalian cells show positive mutation results, animal studies show reproductive effects at moderate doses

Diproplyene Glycol: One or more animal studies show brain and nervous system effects at high doses

1 PEG-14 Dimethicone, PEG/PPG – 18/18 Dimethicone, PEG-8 Distearate, and Triclosan: Also known as 1,4-Dioxane: Endocrine disruption, identified as a probable human carcinogen by the U.S. Environmental Protection Agency (EPA)

Propylene Glycol, which the FDA says is safe for general use but can cause cancer and contains toxins that affect reproduction

Alcohol Denatured: Cancer, Developmental/reproductive toxicity, Organ system toxicity (non-reproductive)

Butane and Propane: Allergies and immunotoxicity

fragrance: often means Diethyl Phthalate or DEP: endocrine disruptor that has been linked to reproductive and abnormalities

PEG/PPG – 18/18 Dimethicone - Organ system toxicity (non-reproductive)

Benzyl Alcohol: Neurotoxicity

Silica: Cancer, Allergies/immunotoxicity

Deodorant with a score of 0 having a “low hazard”:

• Crystal deodorant stick, roll-on, and spray

Deodorant with a score of 1 having a “low hazard”:

• CVS Ultra Dry Anti-Perspirant Roll-On Unscented – Aluminum Chloride,
• Ban Antiperspirant & Deodorant Original Roll-On Unscented – Aluminum Chlorohydrate
• Ban Classic Original Antiperspirant & Deodorant Original Roll-On Unscented – Aluminum Chlorohydrate:
• Almay Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Clear Gel; Fragrance Free – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Gylcerin, Diproplyene Glycol
• Almay Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Clear Gel – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Gylcerin, Diproplyene Glycol
• Almay Antiperspirant & Deodorant Fragrance Free (Powder Fresh and Soothing Aloe) – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Gylcerin, Diproplyene Glycol
• Lady Mitchum Clear Gel Antiperspirant & Deodorant Unscented – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Diproplyene Glycol,
• Mitchum Antiperspirant & Deodorant Clear Gel – Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Diproplyene Glycol
• Almay Stay Dry Hydro Solid Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Fragrance Free – 1 PEG-14 Dimethicone, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Diproplyene Glycol

Deodorant with a score of 7 having a “high hazard”:

• Right Guard Sport Deodorant – fragrance, Triclosan, Propylene Glycol, Alcohol Denatured
• Right Guard Sport Deodorant Aerosole, Original – fragrance, Triclosan, Propylene Glycol, Butane and Propane
• Dry Idea Antiperspirant Clear Gel Powder Fresh – fragrance, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol, Alcohol Denatured
• Dry Idea Antiperspirant & Deodorant Clear Gel Powder Fresh – fragrance, PEG/PPG – 18/18 Dimethicone, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol,Alcohol Denatured
• FDS Feminine Deodorant Spray White Blossom and Baby Powder – fragrance, Benzyl Alcohol, Propylene Glycol

Deodorant with a score of 8 having a “high hazard”:

• Secret Platinum Antiperspirant & Deodorant Invisible Gel Powder Fresh Scent – fragrance, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol, Alcohol Denatured
• Dove Invisible Solid Antiperspirant & Deodorant, Powder Fresh – fragrance, Silica, PEG-8 Distearate, Aluminum Zirconium Tetrachlorohydrex Glycine, Propylene Glycol
(taken http://tryingtobegreener.wordpress.com/2008/08/19/how-safe-is-your-deodorant/)

those above are the ingredients found in deodorant and anti-perspiration products and it says that products containing aluminium zirconium tetracholorohydrx glycine has major SE when use long term, the chances of getting Alzhemier disease is higher and pple who has been using that product before 16 has higher risk of Breast cancer as well. geeeee. i have been using this anti-deodorant for years already.mum's product is just for marketing purpose! URGHHH! tho the ingredient do work well and keeps me smelling great the entire day, but the best part is that it leads to Alzhemier in long term! no wonder i get really forgetful and have sudden memory loss. GOSH! lucky i stopped using it now. its harmful! just imagine it get absorbs into your bloodstreams,into your liver and everywer else? can u imagine?! its sooo cancer causing. my god! but of cuz i found a solution to my problem! crystal deodorant! the reviews and testimonials of it are great, so prolly gona haunt for that down! :)

ciao!

ouh. before that!

guess wad!

i have 7projects in hand! WOWWWW! HOW AMAZINGGGGG! 7 PROJECTS! damn it! so many.

nvm! im gona pull thru this semester distinction-ly. hahhahaha. alrite. CIAO

no water the entire day

gee, i was sleeping soundly until this morning, my brother woke me up cuz he was conplaining to his girlfriend that he cannot bath,der's no water in the hse and he is sticky and sweaty all over, he dun bath in the evenings like u and i do. he only bathe in the morning before he head to school.

and i was like wad? our house no water?gee.my brother headed to sch early to bath in school.lol. funny. while i went back to sleep. who else my 5mins of extra slp cost me 30mins! darn! late for school alry, faster pack bag,wash my face and brush my teeth with mineral water and rush off to sch. and shit lor! late 1min and i had to make up 1hr of lab session...wahlaoo. waste my time only.

so den, once i got home today abt 5plus, der's still no water. gee, so i rang my mum up and told her that our neighbour allow us to use their hse to bath. so sweet of them. :) and my mum was suggesting to go to the swimming pool to bath ourselves. lol. i was laughing out loud over the phone. this incident do make my day totally. hilarious!.hahaa.

alrity. back to doing my project now. byebye.

and i think i totally lost my self-dicipline, sighh. now i just kept losing and losing and losing. instead of winning and winning and winning. :(

im nothing and worse den before now.

ytd had lots of carbo,today had lots of carbo. i shld cut down on carbo now. and i overspent alot. im growing fat. gee.i nv gain the respect i needed.

merina jiayou!

new quotation of the day.

"do not say its all due to fate,der's nth i can do. change this mentality to this is a challenge,i will eventually get it done." merina ng

happy halloween. :)

"is that blood i am seeing?"

" look at that head,ew!" lol

"time to eat mummies" lol

" want to eat dyed red you tiao?" lol

"hello!"

"im gona be home with you tonite"

the stupid "princess" came up the tram and scare us! idiot. haha.our damn scared reaction.lol

damien says i look more like gorilla den a vampire. Zzz.. lol

leong

the "have you seen my glass shoes" cinderella. haha.my sis damn scared of her. lol

sis's angelic wings. cost 21$ lor! nice?? hehe.

Janet got stabbed on her chest!. haha

RAR! thats our makeup artist. lol.

spider-woman, "damien, becareful, she'll eat u anytime!" tsk

"rar... feeeedd meee." (vampire) tsk!

lol. poor bird got caught in the cage.haha

HALLOWEEN DAY

had great fun during halloween yesterday. :)

night safari was totally awesome too. ohwell, two besties cant go cuz of work. :(

working life totally suck rite?

well, thats the bad side of working. im really enjoying not working. hehe! especially FNB. omg.

HAPPPY HALLOWEEENNNN!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYBODY!

HOPE EVERYONE HAD AS MUCH FUN AS I DID!

pics up soon! and i haven been updating since school starts. gee! really abandon this blog for awhile already!

screw up timetable. overcome-ed! :D

hello blog,

here i am blogging again, school started and my timetable is so screwed that i actually spent 2 full hours sorting out my screwed up timetable. at least i managed to get it sorted out.

now have to get that timetable sorted out during attachment as well. lucky this coming posting is at IMH. pretty near to my school. like 10mins to sch by car? if only ive gt a bike.

geee, bike licence next! tho many have told me abt how dangerous it is. ohwell, i jsut have to OPEN my eyes big big! and becareful lor, or the most i get a scooter. vespers haha.

and school is tough! i dun get wad the teachers talking, they talk like bullet train. :( i have a hard time catching up. im slow. :'( so stupid.

and i kept thinking of the horse riding lesson almost all the time ever since i said i wanted horse riding lessons. gee. i rather have my passion and love for something that is ALIVE den something dead like a "flying disc" seriously.

chosen PE as elective

WAH.

finally i got to choose my PE elective. :)

it din last on the E-online registration for even 5MINS!

muhaha. this time i owned. YES!

cheap thrill im having here.haha.

alrite. back to revision.

this sem i must be a good girl from on now.

adios.

PASSed my tp!

alrite. i passed my tp test alr! phew. but haven gotten my licence yet. gee. can drive car alry.

gona pray and bless the car before i drive man. der's so many things to learn, the way to getting pt A to pt B. gee.

and i suddenly tot of learning to ride horse. since young, i love seeing horses and riding horses. i feel like learning horse riding, den once i am god damn good in it, rich enuff to open up a horse riding school in some other country, haven tot of wer yet. having a ranch with premium horses, having a sheep dog, having my instructors, having students, having a house beside my horse riding school. wow.

best if i can ride my horse down to the market to buy groceries, riding my horse to school, having the horse on the road instead of bikes or cars. if only.. haha. that dream will not happen in i am now. gee.

and i guess frisbee shall be jus going for leisure thats all.

i want horse riding.

and i have yet to go for my scuba diving yet.

so many things to play while im alive.

bungy,sky diving, scuba diving with the sharks and whales, horse riding, parachuting, water rafting, fishing in the ocean to fish for sword fish,hot air balloon, be a killerwhale trainer, swimming with dolphins, water sports, more wakeboarding. sailing, getting a scrabble which i doubt i do have a chance(if only)

gee. see, life is more den jus hitting the mall, going shopping, catching a movie. that is not the kind of life tat i want. that isnt a life at all.

gona work towards it. earn more $ to filfull all my play dreams.

up next, horse riding lessons.

hopefully i have the passion to continue all the way, enquire all the skills and knowledge, i do wana be great in something. to be a professional equestrian .after that, earn enuff, go to overseas and open a horse riding school and own it.wow. thast really my dream. having pple to come over for leisure, having my own town with more stalls,can ride horse over to buy groceries etc. hmm.

dream oh dream. will it ever come true. hmmm.

miley cryus-THE CLIMB

i was so damn bored today so i decided to SING SONG and post it here. hahaha.

its for baby to listen cuz i sang super horribly in the phone. hopefully this time round is better!

i think the lyrics is quite meaningful. :)

BOREDOM make me do things. 8)

cant wait to see baby later. hehe!

life

hmmm. i was so in dilemma that i typed on the internet whether should we be content with our life now or seek something more?

think again, i think we should seek something more, so der is a motivation in our lives. prolly feeling content in certain part of your life should be fine but i guess we still need to seek more den what we have in other parts of our lives so we have that push to carry on living. right?

hmm. i think we chinese aint as contented as the malays..thats wad i think. * decipher it yourself. haha! just based on what i think, dun mean to be racist here though. afterall, im still figuring out the true meaning of life and my values of being a human here in life. hmmm..i guess ive figured out alot through this whole school term break. it makes me wonder alot,like literally. :)

ive tried to experience things myself,trying to be in other people's shoes for awhile and feel what they felt. i guess i was too over myself sometimes due to past achievements but i forgot one very important thing! there are many better ones out in the world that is doing MUCH better den what i have achieved. what i achieved are peanuts, what i achieved cannot live up to the what others can. i shouldnt think so highly of myself.

frisbee made me think alot actually. no wonder they says sports build characters. hahah. i guess i am really trying to find out what sort of person i am thru frisbee. i think that my sch's frisbee system is like what you face in current life. if you want to represent the school, u have to do what it takes to get there and not doing self-pity so others will pity you and give you a chance t be on top. gee. my mentality towards life change INSTANTLY. no wonder they says gemini are adaptable. hahaha!

and den again, in my previous post, i mentioned to be ME, well, i think its kinda vague. what i meant was to be the better side of me and not be the worse side of me. haha!. wow. this whole holiday and frisbee thing really made me growing. hahah!

and also, i read from the internet about this incident where der is this priest, who is always been praised for being humble has been awarded a humble award, and the next day he wears it to church den this award has been stripped becuz he was proud that he won that award.

geee...what do you think of this short story. hmm.

CIAO!

luxurious life

its good to once awhile search for some youtube videos for some motivation to get you going! NV GIVE UP and preserver is the key! but of cuz intelligence,observation and humbleness is critical as well. continue to FIGHT ON regardless wad.

TIME TO WORK LIKE DOG VERY VERY SOON! PLAY TIME IS OVER!

but den im having second thoughts. what if all i do is to work hard, wouldnt my youth be gone soon?and i'll become an old hag den?geee. someone,please enlighten me. to be content now or to seek for something more? *in great dilemma. :(

FUN NO FUN

wow. spent eight hundred over for the pass 2 months of FUN.

gee! it shows that FUN do comes with a huge price to pay for.

Time to go back to the usual mundane life for long term purpose. :)

From now on, i shan't take myself too seriously and just be ME. even megan fox dun give a damn about what other pple think of her. As long as she noes what is her goals and its up to her whether to change or nt.

so yea, its good to hear what others have to say about you.

hmm. i guess its time to be ME. i wana see what others have to say about me. tat would be pretty interesting..

:)

PS: experiencing life changes would be fun at times.

we should noe abit of our home. :)

emo

hello blog,

gee! i haven been emo-ing for sometime to you now. issit a good thing or a bad thing?

the mentality that im having now is bad.

i noe that i should not give up! i wanted to perform well during trg today and coach sent me over to the lousy team. prolly i dun deserve a space in a better team. i dunno.. somehow he is always picking on me! every god damn training, he will definitely call my name once! he knowing my name for the wrong reasons. i felt ashamed, i wanted to do my best but he dun believe that i can, he seem to always find fault with me. why?! issit becuz i look like his previous enemy? i dunno u noe.

i dunno what and how it gave him the stupid impression that im not working hard. so wtf!

im like the fucking hard working player ever in other sports. sigh! and he has to do this to me! im always ready to look forward to every trg so i can do well and progress up but he has alr got this god damn concept in his head that im a lousy player and i should stay with the weaker players. sigh! i think i shldnt entirely put the blame on him.

prolly ive change since i came poly and many things happened in my life WHICH pple usually it will make you grow stronger.

However, i dunno really.. i seem to be worse. pple change for the better, i changed for the worse.

i lost my strength,lost my self-esteem, lost my aggressiveness, lost my own opinion, lost my competitiveness,lost the desperation for more praises and lost the motivating me.

i dunno wad gotten to me. ive changed to the worse.i tried being more reserved for a change cuz i was too aggressive and kinda loud den. but it seems like its getting no wer and worse! im not learning anything.. sigh.

this is wad happens wen u're getting advices not from the right people. i dunno really. or issit im thinking too much?

usually for spontanous incident that happened, i always have a solution for it, be it gona be sucky or not. its still a solution and pple do take it. But now i got no solution and i dun even bother to think of a solution and let pple think it for me. thats BAD!

i used to be the more initiative type but now? just relac and let pple deal with it. gee! wad happened to me! wer the hell is that old merina? GEE! i really do miss the old me. :'(

im wasting my life during nth productive at all.

I LOST MY FOCUS IN LIFE.

i wana cryyyyy.. :(