happy 19th bday merina!

aha.its hilarious that im wishing myself happy 19th bday,anw it has alry passed. and my 19th bday was a great one, i mean its no better day den spending this special day with ur loved ones and close ones, so wad if the whole world celebrates ur bday and those special and loved ones are not der to celebrate this special day with you. rite?

so yea, i shan't be so long-winded today, i shall let the pictures tell you wad a great 19th bday i had. enjoy! =)

brother bought for me gifts, i was really surprised cuz he hardly get anything for me on my bday, so i guess i noe wad he means, he wants me to get the hse floor clean...no luh.aha

from him, and my closest bestied! muackckkkk!!heheh.made my wishes came true.

sis bought my a gift too, a sports shoe, i was surprised too tho. haha..thx sis

card made by my closest besties!! so damn touched wen i read it...=')

there you go, my besties revealed.aha

daddy and mummy bought my a COACH BAG! omg! i was damn suprised too. i din expect so many things on my bday, really. i tot its jus cake cutting, dinner, blow candle and thats it. omg.=) thx mum and dad.

daddy and mummy revealed.aha

aunty came along too.=)

classmates "celebrated" my bday too. tho its jus a mini cake, but its the thoughts that counts. =) thx gals.so sweet of u.but damn, my friend photoshopped my eye until i look like some alien..=( not pretty alr.

tadaaa.bday girl! me!

cousin and i!

besties again. =)

thanks people for celebrating my bday. appreciated it alot.

me again! aha! you besties made my 19th bday a memorable one. =)

the end!hoped you enjoyed.aha

happy. =)

ohwells, im pretty delighted today an also, i jus like blogging my stuffs due to wadeva the case, ahah! it gives me the motivation to blog almost everyday. ohwell, today was my classmate's birthday and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE! however our surprise for everyone was the same so she was kinda expected it. WE'RE SUCH LOSERS! must of cuz, they made mine an advance 1, it wasnt that expecting tho. OMG!ahah. tho its a mini cake but its the thoughts that counts. thanks friends. so sweet of u pretty babes, if i have a wish, i wish u babes can grow alot taller ard my height. haha! i feel like a giant beside u alllll.. =(

so we shopped, do some bonding,r/s gets better,walk, crack stupid lame jokes, buy this buy that, cam-whore.hehe! -->FAV!den makan at e taka pasta stall.it was D-LEE-cious!yumyum. and my stupid friend gona post all the unglam photos of me or us on FACEBOOK! =( no more face. and capella oh capella, how am i gona plan u.headache! should i call alot of pple or afew? shld i make it as a mini party or jus some relax section on friday?man..i dun even noe how big is 77m. mayb i shld find out. alrity, time for bed! aha! ciao beautiful people. =)

bday-yet t come

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Counting down, 4 more days to my birthdayyy. excited! and i guess this year's birthday is gona be a great one. firstly i got no school on a friday, BY RIGHT, den stupid teacher change lab class to friday monring 8-10am. but nvm! its still early as before. And now having the GSS! hurhur! so good, singapore celebrate my birthday for me too. aha! And guess wad, my daddy had his bonus and gave me 3 digits of cashh... hurhur! plus mummy booked a room for me at capella singapore, i've yet to tell my besties about it cuz everything is not confirmed yet. exciteed. ahaha!

Anw my class had a tutorial with our social psychology teacher and our topic was to write what u think of the person and write it at the back of the person with a paper sticking on him/her. and guess wads mine!

people finds me FRIENDLY,MUSCULAR -.-!,PRETTY,SPORTY,FUNNY,VERY LAME,CARING,HELPFUL,KIND,SPORTY again,FRIENDLY again,PRETTY again,PRETTY again,FRIENDLY again,VERY LAME again, SWEET-.-!,LOVABLE,LOVABLE again, SPORTY again,FRIENDLY again, and laughter LOUDD!! -.-! i wonder which bugger wrote me muscular and laughter loud uh! but oh well. more or less i noe im lame.ahah! so goodbye for now. =)

picasa! =D

gona blog a few pictures for the past few days and all...

found this interesting at FOUR SEASONS HOTEL. aha! was lunching for with mummy! marina barrage!

blood donated!thats my arm for ur info! ='( i went it thru MYSELF u noe! all my friends were unfit except me! Look how nb-ly huge the needle! *faintt.

club-ed at rabel. aha!

look who i found at rabel, TRINA! my long lost churchmate. aha!

1 more year to a woman soon. im so excited! ahaha. wth! okayy. =)ciao.

had a great day ytd,may 16

Baby suprised me with a braun buffel wallet! =D

so shocked and happy luh. i din expect it to be a braun buffel wallet. Thanks baby.. muack! heheee..

and yes, we had a day out ytd for our first year anniversary. time really flies. being together for a year now. and den anther year, and another year and ... lol.

gona upload pics soon. =) toodles til now.

craving for that hot body

gee, that is my goal! i wana have that hot bod! am i nearing it yet? here i come hot bod. =D

gona start my diet plans, sports and drink bloody loads of water too. =D im gona give myself 2months! may and end of june!

SIZZILY HOT BOD. =) here i come!

the end of week 3.

hello homo. =)

week 3 is over and week 4 is coming. week 5 im having a test. have to As that. =)

bye homo. =)

=)

im bored and i skipped lecture this morning at 8am, i was slightly late and i din want to attend 2hrs lect and den break for 2hrs cuz im not taking stats. so i pass my student card to my friend to help me tap for lecture and i had to think of lies to lie to my parents that i mistaken that i got class. ohman. i lied.

i suddenly have this random feelings of missing solo sports again. i was from track& field since primary 2 until sec 3,its 7 years alry but initally was from taekwondo since primary 2 until primary 4, til now i still do have the passion for running jus that i like running competitively and not for leisure. i miss running competitively. Then, track and field closed down and i went for netball, i was wondering wad the heck was i doing in netball. the training was fucking slack, they dun do Physical training and endurance training at all. i missed the old me. the strong mentally to perserver and go all out, 110% with the nv give up attitude. now? i think i lost it. or rather, i shld say i din lose it. maybe i jus reserve myself back.

my coursemates are pretty weird, especially certain pple from my class, i dun get why they ahve to act this way, why they wana jump to conclusion and make a big fuss over it. why cant they jsut open their mouth and ask or talk to us abt it? i really feel like telling them off but den again, i dun. cuz i think i shldnt care much abt these kinda pple. this was random, but nvm, back to sports, so i was saying i missed solo sports so i decided to join sprint kayak in poly, i managed to go thru all the shits trials and i was in the school team. but due to bad time management, major conflicts with my classmates and a sudden new commitment, i tot i could handle things myself.But sadly, i was wrong. i tot i dun need anyone but i was dead wrong. i din noe how to handle situations. so den, my results were poor, suppose to retain 1 sem but din i supposed. den quitted sprint kayak(a motivating team of rowers) and did i mention i joined netball in nyp too? and yes. quitted nyp too.

So den, i wasnt in any sports for 1 semester and i felt like a total loser.i felt lousy. but i managed to pull up my results tho. from lousy to average student or even better. mentor even praised me and said that im an above average student. haha! hmmm.. well thanks mentor! wad a compliment. i'll nv forget.haha! i wanted to join back sprint kayak but i dun think i've the time to commit myself into sports these days. i dun want anything to affect my results now. my studies is damn important for this crucial semester. im depending on this crucial semester to pull me thru whether i'll be retaining 1 semester or not. so yea, merina, u shldnt feel bad abt urself. u are still u, just that this crucial period u gt to reserve yourself alot. its the crucial period. dun pray prayy!! i dun want to retain.

but den after that 2nd semester without sports, i cannot tahan alry, im damn bloody desperate for competitive sports. so i joined ultimate frisbee. tho u must be wondering, huh? frisbee competitive meh? well our sch nyp is playing frisbee competitively tho. its a combination of land sports, of cuz der's no sea sports in it tho. haha! i din want to play competitively at first but my friend tempted me with her desperation to get into school team. alrighty! prolly i'll jus give it a shot but i've to remind myself that no matter wad, my studies have to come first, THE TOP! den anything else. merina buck up! be YOU! jus be YOU! i need myself to rise again. come on! i miss the old merina. dun change for someone except for urself. jus be YOU. =)

i'll be dead back damn soon. DESPERATION.

insanity with love

one day before humans were created
vices and virtues roamed this world
so 1 day all of them gathered together and decided to have a game of hide and seek
insanity being so insane, volunteered to be the seeker
so all the vices and virtue started hiding
happiness hid in a bed of roses
lazy was too lazy to hide so he just lie down behind insanity
greedy hid in a bottle of cookie
hatred hid in a furnace of fire
so it came to love
love being so undecisive as it is
kept wondering where to hide
n didn't know
so in the end when insanity counted to 10
love just quickly jumped into a bush nearby
so 1 by 1
all of them were found by insanity
until there was 1 more left
...............love
after a few hours of searching, love stil couldn't b found
n envy.....being the envious vice that he is
told insanity of where love was hiding
n being a crazy fucker tat insanity is
he quickly took a branch n kept poking into the bush nt stop
until suddenly a loud scream came out from the bush
insanity have accidentally poked love's eyes
so from that day onwards
love is blind
n being remorseful
insanity decided to become the eyes of love n follow her wherever she went
tats y love is always accompanied by insanity as well.

founded by: lixin. =)

jai ho- im loving it.

(Jai Ho) (Jai Ho)I got (I got) shivers (shivers),When you touch away, I'll make you hot, Get all you got,I'll make you wanna say (Jai Ho) (Jai Ho) I got (I got) fever (fever),Running like a fire, For you I will go all the way, I wanna take you higher (Jai Ho) I keep it steady Cuz steady is how I feel it. This beat is heavy, so heavy, You gon feel it. (Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho) You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho) You are my destiny, Jai Ho! Uh-uh-uh-oh! (Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho) Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho) So come and dance with me, Jai Ho! (oohh) Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me, I want you now, I know you can save me, come and save me, I need you now. I am yours forever, yes, forever, I will follow, Anywhere in anyway, Never gonna let go. Jai Ho (Jai Ho) Escape (escape) away (away), I'll take you to a place, This fantasy of you and me, I'll never lose the chase. (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh (Jai Ho) Yeaahhhh I can (I can) feel you (feel you), Rushing through my veins, There's an notion in my heart, I will never be the same. (Jai Ho)Just keep it burnin', yeah baby, Just keep it comin', (Jai Ho) You're gonna find out, baby, I'm one in a million. (Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho) You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho) You are my destiny, Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh! (Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us(Jai Ho) Nothing can ever come between us(Jai Ho) So come and dance with me, Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny) Catch me, catch me, catch me, come and catch me, I want you now, I know you can save me, come and save me, I need you now. I am yours forever, yes, forever, I will follow, Anywhere in anyway, Never gonna let go. Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho (Yeeeaaahh), Jai Ho I need you, Gonna make it,(Jai Ho) I'm ready, So take it! (Jai Ho)You are the reason that I breathe,(Jai Ho) You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai Ho) You are my destiny, Jai Oh! Uh-uh-uh-oh! (Jai Ho)No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai Ho) Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai Ho) So come and dance with me, Jai Ho! (oohh) (You and me, it's destiny) Jai Ho! Baila baila! Baila baila! Jai Ho! Baila baila! Jai Ho!

im so into indian songs, in fact, i like watching indian shows, always tune in to my indian drama wen im bored.hmm. i wonder, do i have indian blood? and the best thing is do i look like an indian? i could even attract indian guys. -.- hmmm.. ENJOY! =D

pissed!

Gosh, so damn pissed rite now tat it dampens my mood for studying, definitely have to blog this to cool my hottness down. urgh! this stupid classmate of mine is horrible! help! can somebody jus enlighten me about her actions so at least i feel better towards situation like this? urghh!
this stupid classmate of mine is so unhelpful. i missed my tutorial class not on purpose and no one tells me abt what is going on in class, nvm. mayb is my fault for not asking. i shld have asked but i forgt. nvm. forget abt that. den today i asked my stupid classmate over msn and she says she's going off soon so i quickly ask her abt the tut class and she dun seem to be bothered abt telling me clearly. jus telling me the sake of telling me. so wtf la! urghhh. the worse thing is, she haven tell me clearly and she says gtg, bye. -.-! WTFFFF!! why cant she jus say sorry, i have to go now, i'll tell u soon. but she din la. so bloody uncouth of her!
urghhhh..not like im the sort of dun take my studies seriously.wth wth wth wth!!! somebody! tell me wad shld i do with her seriously. does she have a stupid attitude problem or wad?! fucking pissed. feeling better now. have to head to my books. please, someone enlighten me! =(

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together forever. perfect picture. flawless.=)

nv felt like that after so long.

wow. i nv felt like me again after the incident of my clique's conflict. i realised that if i dun compare and want my friends t be wad i expected and how they shld behave as a friend, i realised that they are like that. After so long, i told myself, its year 2 and i shld jus get over it. new year, new beginning, dunno and dun want to noe and care less. when i do, i can be myself. be it they wana be with me or nt. i used to feel so insecure that they wouldn't like me but why am i so sensitive? Now i cldnt b bothered abt them. jus move on with my life as happy and as me! im not tat bad. who could ever dislike merina? haha! wth... okayy. prolly i shld leave that t let u judge, its soo nt for me to judge myself.or prolly i shld say, i shld leave it up to u to decide wad kinda person am i.

and i tot i can jus forget abt somethings and stop thinking so much but recently incidents made me think again and again. its frastrating, so frastrating!=(

tomorrow will be a better day. =)

happy bday sis! haah!

HAPPY BDAY SIS! this idiot brother wanted to push me down the poooll!!ROARR! lucky im fat enuff.hahha!wth









capella singapore.
Held her bday lunch at capella singapore,sentosa. its beautiful and she was happy. =)

school's gona start.

i love Les mis sings, shown alot of emotions der.

anw, school's starting and der's alot to write about, but jus gona summarise it all in all. this weekend has been an educational weekend. Due to my appeal wise, im tryin to appeal again, been it if its gona works or not but at least i tried and fight til the end. thats wad that matters rite? at least i noe i tried. And im really glad to have this friend who wakes me up abit. i think im not as positive thinking as i tot, i shld be and i must be! i must be optismistic about every situation, der's hope, nth is impossible. being pessimistic disgusts me. i dun like people telling me "cannot" this word. i really detest this word "cannot" why is der this word anyway? this word disgusts me. Being optimistic and nv give up shld be the key. things happen for a reason, we shld all be optimistic about it. things happen not to get u down but to make u stronger, to let u see,hear and learn more. its not that bad that bad things happen sometimes. its to get us stronger. so be strong and move on. if the lesson is not learnt, prolly it will happen again and u jus have to learn it b4 it jus keeps happening. ohwell, wish me luck once again to fight for my case. FIGHT ALL THE WAY. i must and i have to. jiayou merina.

anw this weekend had alot of counsilling with my brother, he told me alot of stuffs which make me realise that im really not as independant as i tho i were or i cld. i can, but not now. i jus realised that im still very dependant on people. i suck.

school starting soon and its time to get busyy with my studies and mayb my new cca? i really cant do without sports, its my passion and its my life, without sports i can diee..i miss the competitiveness, leadership, push,support basically everything which i cld take forever to explain. sports is my passion. asking me to stop sports is jus like asking me to stop living. too bad i cant go for my dream. cant make me $ fast.sighh.. nvm! jus hav to jiayou! still young, long way to go. jiayou jiayou ba. haha!

this is an amazing video.

susan boyle-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY
LONDON (AFP) - - Talent show judge Piers Morgan offered Friday to kiss Scottish charity worker Susan Boyle, who said she had never been kissed before becoming an international YouTube sensation this week.

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Boyle, whose stunning singing performance has so far been viewed over 19 million times on YouTube, lived on her own with a cat called Pebbles before her appearance on the Britain's Got Talent television show last weekend.

The dowdy-looking, plump 47-year-old said in a pre-performance interview that she had never been kissed.

But in a video on his website, Morgan -- a former British tabloid newspaper editor who has become a star in his own right as a talent show judge in Britain and the United States -- said he was ready to change that.

"I've decided to extend an invitation to Susan to take her out for a meal -- a very romantic restaurant, I think, with some roses, some fine wine, some glamorous waiters, and to offer her the chance to break her kissing duck with these little things.

"So Susan, if you're watching, I'm available," he said.

US actress Demi Moore was apparently moved to tears by the YouTube clip, while the story has been picked up around the world, with US, Australian and other broadcasters reportedly queuing up for interviews.

In the video, the down-to-earth Boyle walked on stage, saying she dreamed of emulating West End star Elaine Page.

When she began to sing, the panel of three judges led by music guru Simon Cowell appeared visibly taken aback, and the audience in Glasgow rose to its feet as her voiced soared through "I Dreamed A Dream" from "Les Miserables."

sad!

SAD! jus went to buy books and i found out that the yr 1 modules dun have safety in healthcare, the thought of repeating 6 months due to the fact of mistaking my paper is regretful. i appealed twice alry and the pain of it hurts tremedously, so i want to appeal again, i do not understand why my school's system do not approve students to continue taking the repeat module tgt with all the current modules, like this, it will be easier for students to catch up. but to delay the studies of it, i will not be able to catch up with the modules. shitty school, seriously, tho the academic teacher says nth can be helped, i really have to fight for it tho its my fault for not doing well, lesson learnt, regretted, this lesson is a painful lesson. sighh.. god, please help. please make this appeal letter successful for once. tho it will be 0.1% chance that i can get it thru but pls pls help for that 0.1% chance to get it cross. plsSSSs! =( giving another shot.

i hate pple says that im stubborn!!!!

what kind of girl/guy are you? Your Result: You wear your heart on your sleeve   You're too sweet and caring...it's not a bad thing it's just that you give your heart to just anybody and you get hurt easily...you shouldn't let people take advantage of you because you're too good of a person
You're close to perfect
You're a heart breaker
You can't trust people
what kind of girl/guy are you? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

i hate people who says that im stubborn! its not like other pple not stubborn at all. everyone will be stuborn in their own ways. only you noe urself, u noe wad u can or want to do and wad u want in life or noe. people jus dun understand cuz i dun explain and tell them what i am thinking. sigh. what is wrong with seeking advices and not taking them? all you want is jus seeking advices and reflect on the situation and the prons and cons, its wad u want to do or can do and that is why u din take those advices. you take some and u let go some. what is wrong with these people. urgh!

quizzes =)

You Are A Relationship Rescuer!

You don't ruin relationships, if anything you keep them together The key: you respect yourself and your guy. Which goes further than you might think. You simply treat your guy how you would like to be treated... the old golden rule. And in return, he treats you like gold - or at least tries. And how perfect is that

Do You Ruin Relationships With Men?

You Are A Little Scared of Commitment

You're open to getting serious with someone... though you can't entirely imagine it. Maybe you haven't met the right person. Maybe you haven't gotten to the right point in your life. Your reaction to commitment is very normal - especially if you're young or have been burned before. Give it time. You'll probably be ready for a serious relationship sooner than you think.

Are You Afraid of Commitment?

Your Love is Based on Friendship

For you, chemistry doesn't really happen without compatibility. Companionship and openness are the most important parts of your relationships. Whoever you love should be your best friend. And falling in love with a good friend is never out of the question. Why your love can last: You only fall for people who you truly understand... and who truly understand you Why your love can fail: Sometimes you don't admit how important physical chemistry is to you

What Is Your Love Based On?

Your Ideal Relationship is Serious Dating

You're not ready to go walking down the aisle. But you may be ready in a couple of years. You prefer to date one on one, with a commitment. And while chemistry is important, so is compatibility.

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

You Go for Brains

When it comes to attraction, you go for more than meets the eye. Eye candy is all fine and good, but you need more good looks to be into someone. You're looking for a deep connection, and that can only happen when you meet someone who thinks like you. That's not to say you don't appreciate sexy people. You just prefer sexy and smart!

Do You Go For Brains or Body?

You Follow Your Heart

You're romantic, sentimental, and emotional. You tend to fall in (and out of) love very quickly. Some may call you fickle, but you can't help where your emotions take you. You've definitely broken a few hearts, but you're not a heartbreaker by nature. Your intentions are always good, even if they change with the wind

Do You Follow Your Head or Your Heart?

Your Heart Craves Love

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Would Be a Upstanding Superhero

You are alert and observant. You can see through people easily. You know who's evil and who's good. You need a lot of freedom in your life. You like to do your own thing, and you don't fit into any normal mold. You understand people quite well and often know what others are thinking. Because of this, you can get people to do what you want. You are a shapeshifter who fits in with almost any group. You can get along with anyone. You're quite flexible. You are a true intellectual. You are thirsty for knowledge, and you are curious about the world.

What Kind of Superhero Would You Be?

Affection - Passion - Love

The field of daisies... Imagine the field of daisies... Spring... and you are passing the way just by that field. Suddenly one daisy drives your attention. She is one from the thousands but you come near her... there's something in her that attracts you... you pick it up... you want it to be yours, only yours. You don't think about that she will die because of this, and you go away from that field. This was sudden desire, maybe a little bit selfish but wonderful and unstoppable. This is PASSION.
Again you are passing the field of daisies... and again the one from the million drives your attention. You go near this daisy... you want to touch it, but you can't. You feel like you want to die near her. But, suddenly, a breeze blows into your face and brings you the smell of another flower. It is so amazing that you can't stand and go to the place where this scent came from. As about the daisy she is left in one corner of your heart. You haven't shared many things, and you will never forget about her, but also you cannot come back to her. This is AFFECTION.
And again the same field... one daisy that attracts you. One from the million, but you go to her... and you stay there. You will do your best to not let her die. The only thing you want is to be near her. You believe that there's nothing that can make you leave this place... and you will be there... you will be there 'til her last day... and that's LOVE.
Sometimes:
Sometimes you smile just to quell that grief inside you.
Sometimes you speak with your eyes, because you know that words cannot explain the love you keep inside.
Sometimes you try to touch the one to be sure that your love is real, but you don't dare to.
Sometimes even though you want to scream "I love you", you whisper it.
"In every drop of rain I see you... you know what? I want this rain to never stop."
"Do you want to know how much I love you? Try to catch all that rain drops falling on earth. The ones you catch is your love, the ones you don't - is mine."

korea missed. =(

pictures at JEJU island in korea. seen cherry blossom? no worries, u can see it here in my blog! hahha! =) enjoy! der's alot of pictures but i dun think i am able to upload it here. too many alry so jus show a little here. =)

i miss korea now, =( clean country, beautiful people, both male and female. not oily food, nice weather, well mannered,polite and friendly people. i love well mannered and polite people.=) great korean woman too. independant woman. wow! i miss korea. =(