netball-ed

yumyum,the medal is tasty!
gosh!my legs are slimmer den before siol.XD

we got so many fans who wanna take pictures with us!





promoting THE RUBIK CUBE(bottom)


this tournament was before my prom which is on the sunday!=)

busy week!

well well well.it feels good to blog once more,maybe many more.=D
i've been busy recently this week,there's so much things to get done with such as getting prom stuffs,work stuffs,dance lessons,netball trgs etc etc.gonna give a quick summary for the past few days.
i got back from shanghai and borrowed from ms hazel lee her jay chou(secrets) CD.gosh! its greatly recommended to all to watch over again.jay do have the X-factor and the charming charismatic look when he plays the piano.(he'll melts my heart)LOL.and i bought his secret soundtracks.its totally awesome!greatly in love with his songs now.=D
so last week was shopping spree week.the whole of the week was shopping fer prom dress,bag and stuffs.i think i need to look for jobS this coming week.i spend way too much $ and i need to earn back wad i spent like seriously.i cant just having to splurge my money and nt earning it back. i think i spent abt 800over inclusive the expenses for shanghai trip.GAWD!thats alot!we spend our whole time shopping and thankgod i managed to shop for my red dress wit my sister.hoho! i felt exhilarated den.alas,i found the dress i've been looking fer.=D.okayokay.i think its too much of the elaboration.so i'm gonna update it as soon as my friends send those pictures.anw,i think i look too fair! the make-up artist is really too "professional" to "change" my face color.she put way too much of the foundation.(sad u noe!) at tat pt of time,i jus felt like cleaning it off,it made me look so plastic,dead and gay.urgh!wadeva! friends managed to get a room on the day of prom nite at the hotel and after the make-ups all.everyone look glam.damn! i wana upload the freaking beau pictures but no pics with yet.
it took the artist 4 hrs or so to finish the make-up and hairdo.how superwoman she is!=D
everyone arrived and left us,the gurls, to arrive the last.we needed each other a lot so we walked in arms in arms together.we had ourselves settled down at table 19 and everyone was looking at our table direction.(shy luh pple!)
after we settled down,they commence the prom with a video where sec5s were LEFT OUT!(unfair)it was our night as well.so den,i felt something wet underneath,it jus kept flowing,and i assume that my menstruation came and indeed it came.unlucky! but when i gt back,very lucky! i gt a lucky draw prize of a 10 dollar taka voucher.-.-! i gt like 14 of it at home.XD
the main course wasnt tat tasty except for the dessert,especially the apple crumble and egg pudding.aftermath,played table games den stuffs and alas,everyone has been waiting fer.phototaking!
after that went back hotel room,dressed more casual,went out,came back,bathed,needed to catch more sleep cuz der's umpiring course the next freaking morning.

PHOTOS








that was on friday nite.its just same for now.der'll be more comnig up.


flashbang few days back,i went for dance lessons with cuz at studiowu again.it was superb!den worked 10bucks/hr fer some stuffs but its only fer 2hrs every alternate days.HOW SAD! its really slow $$.kay.afterall,its not a summary,its a long post and der's still many more incidents to type down for the past few days.haha!i suddenly rmbed having the freaking huge lizard dropping rite on my shoulder and hit my bum,my gd friend den tell me its a freaking lizard crawling away on the floor.i hit XueLing like nobody's business.jumping and ee-ing ard the bus-stop.EW! kay.shall continue when i feel like to.tired!haha!

had english papers and maths P1

english paper wad alrite today.i chose expository,heroes.its quite interesting to write about.but darn luh.i only wrote 2 for and 1 against.i had no time to carry on.but phew.lucky wad mr thompson tho works.hahah!my angel.but when it comes to P2.its frigging difficult.i felt like sleeping when i was reading the passage.its abt some astronut thingy.
maths paper 1 was nt easy today.i dunno why some of my friends could say it was easy.hmm.how confident.but i definitely not.=( underestimated P1.anw its P2 tmr.better get my beautiful butt to my beautiful books now.HHAA!

VISIT THE SITE
gosh! i so wanna watch this movie!urgh!!

Dealing With Disappointment

Dealing With Disappointment


Someone once said, "No appointments, no disappointments."

We experience these somewhat similar emotions when we have created expectations concerning what we will receive from others, life or even from ourselves. We might also feel such emotions concerning our own abilities or efforts when we are unable to achieve the goals we desire.

We feel this way when things do not happen the way we expected, or more often, when others are not who we expected them to be. We develop expectations, and then feel cheated when we they are not fulfilled.

When we succumb to such feelings, we often give up making any further effort, which in turn obstructs our growth. In order to handle disappointment, we have to first understand that we are all in a process of evolution and that no one is perfect. It is unreasonable to expect or demand perfection from ourselves or others. We would not be here in this evolutionary process if we did not have much to improve.

Have faith in the flow of life. There is a wisdom greater than ours. Something drives the salmon upriver. Something unfurls the flowers at dawn and closes them in the evening. Something makes the crystals grow in almost perfect asymmetry. We don't yet fully understand what that something is, but there's no denying it's there. So instead of demanding results immediately, we need to learn that change, manifestation and creation are usually slow organic processes.

Now this is hard to do when faced with disappointment - having confidence that with patience, practice and perseverance, we can manifest the changes we seek. But it's crucial that we develop greater trust in our ability to manifest our goals and life purpose with or without the help of specific persons.

See how you can achieve greater self-sufficiency. When we are independent, we need less from others and will expect less from them. What are the gaps in your life you now require others to fill? How can you work towards filling them yourself?

geo paper .

sigh.tho its over,i'm deeply depressed now.i shldn't have asked how well my other friends did for the paper cuz its such a wrong decision.=( crying my hearts out.the moment i gt the paper, i flipped to the last page to check out the tourism and environmental qn.i was actually laughin at environmental qn 1.cuz its super easy.but the second qn din have much things to think of and i think the 3rd qn was diff so i moved on to tourism qn.the first two qns were alrite.but i din really apply wad mr thompson taught.not all!sigh!!i'm such a loser!am i dumb or wad?i really wondered.=(
why din i use the things that he taught,why?!anw manli definitely gonna do well for the paper.its so shitty!i'm gonna disappoint mr thompson.sigh.=( anw,when i'm done with the first two parts of the qn, the major qn was killing me.
"environmental demage from tourism outweighs the economic benefits.is it true for singapore?"i was like huh?! wad it bloody means? i kept reading thru over and over again and i din get wad the qn meant.so i just slam everything i noe in the paper.so much fer slamming my answers,i got it partially or more WRONG! my contents were partially right but my stand contradicts my contents.FUCK!it was a 12mark qns.sigh!am i dumb or wad?i really wondered.
its so shitty! i interpret the FREAKING qn wrongly!urgh!i'm so pissed and disappointed in myself.dumb dumb dumb!!!=((i doubt i can get a pass or better now.=(
i was so depressed that i cried when i got home.kinda lame.HA.why did i even ask ard.it kills my hope even more.i tot the bloody paper was easy.AHHH!who noes i wrote craps in der.so much for slamming my answers now.everyone wrote like 1page or less.i wrote more den 1page of CRAP!*crys.
if my O levels not gonna do well.i might consider retaking my o's.afterall,its not where you start,its where you end.=)and its kinda lame crying over spilt milk.so now i've to do well in my bloody Social studies.i noe i can do this! i cant let my geo pull me down.tho it did.but i must do well for my social studies.i must!!!=((*crys.

o's chemistry paper 3 is over.

chemistry paper was pretty alrite fer me.but some of my friends said it was pretty easy.it worries me.cuz i might nt get a good grade.=( they will probably moderate the marks and i end up to be in the average band.but seriously speaking,the paper was really alrite.especially section B.i find it too easy and it seriously makes me worried because how can section B be easy?!gosh! and i got the section A,mass qn's answer wrong!urgh!it brought it further away from my A.=(nvm! i'll work harder on my physics.it should be easy peasy.yay!

Believe in Yourself

Believe in Yourself


To achieve any goal in life, you must believe you are going to be successful. This conviction gives you the strength and resilience needed to achieve your objective. It also helps you to actively seek and recognise opportunities and stepping stones.

So how can you develop a powerful sense of self-belief?

Before you begin any endeavour, you should be confident that the end result is possible. Don't focus on whether it's been done before or not. Don't listen to others who might be feeding you with negative thoughts. Be clear in your own mind that the goal can be achieved.

More crucially, believe that the end result is possible by you. We often hold limiting beliefs about our own ability to achieve goals. We may believe the goal is possible, but we often don't think it's possible for us to achieve it. So identify those beliefs that are holding you back and take time to address them.

Now that you know you can achieve your objective, how much do you want it? The more we want to achieve a goal, the bigger the hurdles we'll jump over to get there. So choose a goal you really want; take the time to ask yourself why you want it and how badly you want it. What are the values underlying that goal? Is it a desire to help people? A yearning to be your own boss? Or is it to do something that allows you to spend more time with your children?

Next you have to believe that you deserve the end result. Hidden under the surface in many people is a belief that they do not deserve to succeed. Because of some deep-rooted experience that caused their self-esteem to decline, these people often choose to remain where they are, or even slide, because they feel that they are not worthy of success and happiness. When they try to take action, this belief restricts them, they lose motivation, and fail. But always remember that if you work consistently toward your goal, you deserve all the success you get.

Also, achieving your goal should not contradict any other beliefs or values you have. For example, if you believe strongly that rich people are greedy, you'll probably not be motivated enough to build a successful business. Try aligning your goals with your values. An entrepreneur perhaps could work towards making a lot of money so that he can use part of that money to help the needy.

Believing in yourself and your ability to achieve your goals is the first step towards building a better future for yourself.

science practical.o levels

hello blog.just came back from the o levels science practical.gosh!i must thank the lord and also god fer helping me during the science practical.thankyou for the luck.=)and also peter mark thompson.(my angel).chemistry's science practical was so difficult,the moment i flip to the chemistry page,i was like huh?! i din even understand wad the instructions meant.why do they wanna put test-tube and hard-glass test-tube to confuse students?so i tot the hard-glass test tube was the boiling tube so i put the solid Q into the boiling tube and the pipette din fit into the boiling tube and another tube which had calcium hydroxide.and i tot the pipette is the droplet.so i gt a little confuse with the instructions and i took the droplet and suck the gas from the boiling tube into the calcium hydroxide.i was wondering why the experiment is so weird.why i din get any ppt.lucky i was smart enuff.haha! i changed the boiling tube to a small 1 so that the pipette can fit exactly the size of it.thank god i had my salt.hah!its zinc carbonate.phew!i was so lucky that i had read that page on appearance of solid just the nite before.phew!
den after once we were release from the lab.ohoh.1more thing,the lab is FISHING hot!i was sweating while i was doing my experiment.wahlao!haha.so annoying.den after that we had to be quarantine in the hall fer like an hour.most of my friends din get the answer salt and some of them din had the time to finish.gosh!thats really sad.hopefully the markers will lower the percentage or somethng.

you an extroverted or introverted girl?

You Are An Intro-Extrovert!

Sometimes you're social - sometimes you're shy You've got a bit of an Introvert / Extrovert split going on You enjoy all sorts of situations. Parties, small groups, and alone time. Too much of one, and you'll long for the other. You need variety! Chances are, you've got both serious and fun friends - and they don't get along.

Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

hoho!i din think that it will be so true.

what's my personality type?

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller! In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart. You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. And you do break a lot of hearts. At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do. You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist. How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

o's nearing

MERINA

creative, versatile and imaginative you appreciate beauty in all forms. You have great inner strength and courage and have the ability to accept large responsibilities or challenging situations with patience and humility. Others admire these qualities and follow your lead. You are honest, discerning and self-disciplined and need to have a peaceful environment. Putting others before self your talents are used to make life better for everyone.

LOL.wad a nice name i have.

anw,o's fishing nearing! like 16more days nt including practical and i've gt loads to revise on.S***
MUST PRESERVER,O'S WIll END SOON ENOUGH.
I LOVE TO STUDY!! YEAH!!especially DNT,HUMANITIES and AMTHS.!woohoo!!this year is the last year to touch on those notes,textbooks every single day.i'm sure gonna miss it.=D
screw you o levels.=D

anw,i miss the torture that i had during track and field trgs.DAMN!i want to get tortured with TOUGH TRAININGS again!=D might be thinking that i'm insane but WHOCARES? i'm so gonna join tennis when i enter poly and get tortured with the intensive runnings and hitting the tennis ball.HAHAHA.torture,wait fer me.
oh.its time fer mugging again.YAYNESS.=DD

thank lord.=)

i'm so effing pissed!

to start with wad i did this morning,its just plainly sleeping thruout morning and afternoon just zoom by.it was 12pm sharp and i was sleeping in the masterbed room all by myself.*shiokness.dad and mum left for bangkok since friday and coming back this evening.i was jus so excited waiting fer them to comeback.without them at home left me all so isolated and lonely.
so woke up,did all my necessary needs and off to mugging on the masterbed bed.ehh.sounds wrong.but wateva!XD while studying,i dozed off and woke up cuz sis ring me,asked me to buy some dumb sotong and prawn balls fer her dumb gathering and says she needs it at ard 6pm.so i decided to go to the supermarket at 3plus and the balls will defroze by den.but today the weather was like FUCKK.it was extremely hott and humid.i can die.the moment i got out of the air-conditioned room,i can sweat immediately.the sun was blazingly hot!so i decided to leave my hse at 5plus, by den the sun had gone down alittle.went to supermarket just beside medeira condo,wahlao.sweat while walking.gd exercise!HA.den bought 3packets of balls which i tot cost abt 3.90,so cheap.but it was 10.99 when the cashier scan the code no.*jaw dropped* bought a tub of blueberry yogurt,2bottles of daisy milk and oat milk and a healthy packet of kegglog cereal.spent a total of $44.90.*finally i can rmb someting in full=D)and i paid with my own $$ but later gonna claim.HA.den,on my way home,saw my *sis,weixin.hahah!still as skinny.i think skinner.chatted fer awhile with the stuffs on my hand,so heavy and i was sweating here and der.nvm.gd exercise.=D
once reached home,i quickly opened up the balls and wash it so that the ice will melt and soak in water to make it defroze faster and my maid was arguing with me.she say:miss!why u soaked in water!later no taste.
miss:huh?no taste?but inside alr gt ice wad,ice melt become water,apa difference?den why u need to soak the fish,later the fish also no taste.
maid:no,dun put water,after the oil will pik piah pik piah.
miss:the fish also will pik piah pik piah wad,fish and ball,sama sama.
LOL.come to think of it.kinda hilarious.haha.den she gt nth to say.so carried on with wad i was doing.finally the balls defroze.but she was cooking all the dishes first.*faint.my sis wants it like at 6plus and she was still cooking the dishes.wahlao.but nvm,let her cook,anyway the balls take a short time to get it done.dad and mum and sis and diana were on the way home.was excited and impatient so helped my maid to cook and wash the pan.she seem to take yrs washing the pan.LOL.den, when she threw the meat in the pan,it stucked on it and iwas like "daywin.mati,stucked"LOL.den she took the spatula from me and toughly pushed the meat to the centre of the pan.i was like"wah,daywin,bagus!"den i helped her cooked,stir stir here and der so the dishes will be done asap.i wanna cook the balls one leh.
so finally,i was able to cook the balls.it was fun cooking the balls.haha!daywin asked me to throw 1 ball to see if the oil is hot enuff,so i threw.ha
miss:eh.daywin,shit!how come the ball stuck in the oil?
maid:ahh.u lah,soak in water.
played ard the ball first.
miss:daywin!u see arh,ikan u wash,why balls cannot wash?ikan and ball sama sama,balls gt ice,defroze become water.ikan gt ice,also gt water.also need to fry in oil.sama sams wad.
she gt nth to say again.LOL.hilarious.so continued to wad i was doing.finally the oil's hot enuff and i throw more balls into the oil.*fun fun=D*den,they all came back and sis gt kinda pissed cuz it wasn't ready yet and she sort of scolded me.i din care at first.left the last batch of balls to be fried.
sis came into the kitchen again and scolded me.
sis:mei!until now u still cooking the balls,i told u wad time to get ready the balls?!by 6plus rite!
mei:wad?the balls need to defroze also rite.
sis:who asked u to leave the hse so late.
mei:wahlao.the weather so hot.hao xin mei hao bao!cook fer u still wanna scold!shouldnt have gone down to buy the stupid balls fer u!
super pissed off with her den.din even say gd things yet wanna scold me.FUCK!
i dun wanna help her anymore!everytime also like that.*pissed*
so the balls were done and they left while my sis said thanks in an sincere way.stupid!
so time to ask wad my parents gt fer me,so happily asked my dad if he bought anything fer me.
mei:papa!why u all went to bangkok like din buy much things one?
papa:u also din say wad u want.
mei:wahlao,initiative luh.
papa:mummy asked u wad u want u also din tell her
mei:she wheregt asked me wad i want,she only ask jiejie lor
papa:den u been to bangkok u shld noe wad is der wad.
papa:u shld noe that we're going to bangkok,u shld alr tell mummy wad u want wad.
mei:aiyah!ya lah ya lah.my fault luh.all my fault lah
papa:yay wad!its ur fault wad.
-_-!
my dad is ferever the right one and i'm always at the wrong.its nt the first time alr.he nv change.he thinks he's an angel!arse!so darn pissed off!der was once where my maid din wake me up and i told my dad abt it and he effing scolded me.and he also scolded my maid.wth.he shld scold the maid and nt me!its the maid's responsibilty to wake me up else wad's a maid fer!pissed off.and i said:ya luh ya luh.its my fault luhh!"and he said:yay luh.ur fault luh.den? WTFFF!!everything is my fault.der's still loads of senariors but too many to put it down.i just dun seem to be able to talk things to my dad cuz everytime i do that,he just blame its my fault.AIYAH!WATEVA LUH!!he's the angel and i'm the devil.its all my fault and anything happened,its always my fault!!!!!URGH!FUCKING PISSED!!!!he still dare to complain to me that mummy always side other pple den her own family member.he is jus no difference from her.i think he's worse.he sides no one accept himself cuz he thinks he's the angel!nvm lor.blame other pple lah.push all the blame more to other pple and u'll never improve!URGH!too pissed to eat my dinner alr so started blogging.ha!so thats all.shall end my blog now.

way back into the past

outside of apartment.

so tomboyish.hah!i'm missing my cute face.LOL



LOL!!


took some photos from my photo album.no time to scan it tho.the pictures are darn hilarious!haha!maid took all the photo album to clean and see thru. haha!i missed my LONG HAIR.i was like only primary 4.and i snap it off cuz of some friend who always play with my beautiful hair and i gt so irritated and snap it off. =(| now i'm so missing it.haha. those photos were taken in gold coast.haha!i was so skinny and cute pls!!

i miss the past.hanging out with my 2 cousins tgt and go insane tgt and stuffs.how fun!and now xianguang is like ard my height.we rarely meet and spend time tgt alr.gee! one fine day shall hang out tgt again.:D

=)

its been awhile since the last time i blogged.today had my maths paper 2 and i left out 2qns.damn!wadeva luh! its just prelims.i'll do uber well for O's no matter wad.And and O's really gettin me fat.SHIT!the whole time i did was just kept on junking den study.sian luhh.its like i'm lifeless. :D.NVM!i'll endure for another month or so and then its shanghai,ohh.hopefully i dun bring bk the food stored under my fats home.aha.den i'll work my body til i get jessica alba's hot bod.haha! :DD

today after maths,something major happened.why must she do such things to herself,i really wonder the things she does,is it really worth it?no matter wad, its still her body and she has to take good care of it.its ur responsibility to take care of ur body, if u dun,no one can really help except urself.dun do such things to urself,u'll make me feeling all worried sick and sad and hurt.i teared when u blacked out.please dun do this to urself ever again!i dun wanna see a single tear from u again,u've cried enuffed.but no matter wad happens,i'll be with u 24hr-ly with my hotline open fer u.rmb that alrite. :DD

joke time! MUST LAUGH!

HE:can i buy u a drink?
SHE:Actually i rather have the money.

HE:i'm a photographer,i've been looking for a face like urs
SHE:i'm a plastic surgeon,i've been looking for a face like urs

HE:hi.din we go on the date once? or was it twice?
SHE:must be once, i never make the same mistake twice.

HE:how did you get to be so beautiful?
SHE:i must be given you my share.

HE:will you go out with me this saturday?
SHE:sorry,i'm having a headache this weekend.

HE:your face must have turn a few heads
SHE:and your face must have turn a few stomachs

HE:okay, dun be shy, ask me out
SHE:okay. get out!

HE:i think i can make you very happy.
SHE:why? are you leaving?

HE:what would u say if i asked you to marry me?
SHE:nothing. i cant talk and laugh at the same time.

HE:can i have your name?
SHE:why?don't you already have one?

HE:shall we go see a movie?
SHE:i've alr seen it.

HE:where have you been all my life?
SHE:hiding away from you.

HE:haven't i seen you some place before?
SHE:yes.that's why i dun go there anymore.

HE:is this seat empty?
SHE.yes.and this will be when you sit down.

HE:so, what do you do for a living?
SHE:i'm a female impersonator.

HE:hey baby,what's your sign?
SHE:Do not enter.

HE:your body is like a temple.
SHE:sorry, there are no services today.

HE:if i could see you naked, i'd die happy.
SHE:if i saw you naked,i'll probably die laughing.

LOL!!

okayokay.enuff of that.
pictures time.

went to grandma's place.

went to malaysia to study with cousin.madness u may think.but thats wad we did.however,we din study like the whole morning til night luh.had breaks in between.GAG!Had so much with Lixin and xianguang,he have a tiny little nipples.HAHA.when we were der studying,my back aches cuz we din have proper study room to study.we snacked sleep and study,SSS and SSS again.its boring over der!still, NOTHING IS BETTER THAN HOME!!!muhaha.
pictures time!

i was totally bored when lixin was snoring.HAHAHA.

it was midnite den,eyes are damn tired.

little cousin's hamster.


hamster trying to crawl away from lixin,scared to die from her kiss.its deadly!:D




this is rather hilarious.mum says i could!=D

and this is rather awesome!

You Have Good Manners 72% of the Time

Your manners are quite excellent. You are well versed in etiquette. Of course you have the occasional slip up, but you even apologize with grace.

How Are Your Manners?happy!

=(

i realized something,deep emotions i had made me remembered my blog.it is time to blog my sadness again.this is rather insane to blog all things negative about what had happened!but somehow,happy moments do not make me blog unless it is an extreme one.but who cares?
i'm feeling all so pissed,sad and irritated.its a mixture of emotions which made me blog.its frustrating to know what people says about you,behind your back.somehow,the best solution is to act ignorant or dumb,dont even use your brains to think at all and everything will be the same as what you thought it is every single day,nice people.its rather weird how people could actually treat their friend as their "diary" topic.spilling out EVERY single thing that happened,EVERY thing that is done.it is like after drinking the water,not even a drop of water should be left in the cup.its all human's nature,perhaps my perception was wrong,perhaps its woman's nature.am i not one?that's insane!i am just different from them.and even more insane to post this up.shalln't further elaborate on it more.i wondered who am i.anw,the hairdresser nearby my hse do not know how to cut a simple hairstyle!its dumb of her to cut at my eyebrows length then to my eyelids.WAKEUP!dont u even noe how to differentiate which is the eyebrows and eyelids you dumb shit!ur price is $1 more than jeanyip and u cant even pull thru ur cutting skills,maybe i should say u cant even understand simple english.i am darn pissed with the hairdresser!WADEVA!
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and STUPID LIES
But deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

certain lyrics describe me.ZOMG!this post made me so emo.no!!i'm a happy person!i am!
quotes for the morning"winners NV quit, quitters NV win"

thinking...

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brudder's masterPIECE!=D
felt like blogging again.been counting for my prelims and O's levels, i kept thinking how much time is needed for revision and how much time i had studied,how much time had passed,how much time i slept and how much time i interacted with my friends lately.i realised that i left little time for my revision to O's.people take a few months to years to prepare for their o's,they take consistency in their work.but for me? i've yet to start,knowing i left with few more weeks to my major exams,it really got me thinking how stress i could be.i got back my Chinese o's result and i did bad.i got a shocking D7.seriously, i din expect myself to get a D.maybe a C,that,i wouldn't be surprised.but i got a D.i cant accept the fact that i got a D.2 more weeks to Chinese prelims,i better do well to prove to myself that i can do better in my chinese.decided to retake my Chinese again.
time really flies,a week has alr gone by and 8 more weeks to O's.indeed am counting.every single day, i told myself that i can't relax.the moment i reached home,bathed and everything,i started to mug.seriously, i have so much things to catch up.can i really get an A?sometimes i really felt so useless and lousy.sometimes i dont even know who am i, what kinda person am i.sometimes i really wondered wad my future will be like.people says your character is ur destiny.the characters that i carries now may lead me to no better future.
after track&field had closed down and step down from student leadership, i felt so lost and useless.i felt that i can't make decisions and suddenly felt that i have low self esteem.i am feeling so lost now. i tried to think of my good qualities in me, but i realised i have none which is extreme and outstanding.*sigh. track and field really build my characters up, it helped me to find me.but who am i now? i feel so lousy now. i am always following people ard and making decisions without thinking.wanna noe wads my feelings now? i am feeling oh-so-dumb,feeling so dependant on people,feeling so fat and stress and lonely and friendless and low self esteem and so not out-going and so whiny, so gossipy, so bad saying pple behind their back, so confused, so slow so...(it just will nv finish)
why have i became like this?wad made me to be like this now?i wanna be the old me again.where is the old me now?*sigh.wad gotten into me this year.
anw,my class has seriously loads of conflicts.its more than any other classes,thats wad i feel.my class is definitely been split into 2 cliques.the guys with the gurls and the gurls with the gurls.only i understand wad i am typing.ha!and somehow,it really makes me wondered why a class that has been together since sec1,seems to be difficult to hang out or even talk to sometimes.its been 4yrs and more that we have come together as a class,wad should i exactly call them?just classmates?literally plain classmates?or should i even call them my friends?i really dunno.why are der still so many backstabbing and talking behind classmates's back?come to think of it, i realised i dun even noe much abt them.hopefully shanghai trip could better understand them.
okay, i must start mugging now.GOOD LUCK!

alone

gee!my prelims are like in 2 weeks time and i'm still procrastinating my time away.i seriously need motivation and help from people now.In 2months time i'll be taking my major exam and i haven begin my revision yet.i've gt loads to catch up with.my amths suck and my teacher's der to help me out but when i understands it,soon i'll jus fergets cuz i din revise.omgs! time is really short.2months of revision til o's come.will i be able to score As? omgs!i need help seriously.2months of endurance,i believe i can bear fruit for my efforts.it must pay off.its only 2months.i tell myself i must get As fer my maths and science.i need all the help i can get by teachers and friends.i really do.pls help.friends, keep up wit the pace,i'll be driving really fast this time round.=))its only 2months. so yea.lets score well in our O levels.no time to play,we're really running out of time so we have to stop procrastinating,seriously.JIAYOU MANS!

finally its done!

its 4.24 am now and i've to go school in like 3 hrs time.hoho. i haven slept for 2 nites straight.man! aint i a real nocturnal?haha. dnt's really killing me.today is the final dateline and i've finally finish it all.but its kinda like last mins work. i dunno if i could score A1 for last min work like that.sigh!my efforts kinda got down the drain... ytd was the dateline but i haven finish my work yet so yea..beg my dumb teacher or extension.dnt really gt me so stressed up that i kinda broke down ytd. its all ur fault mr t!made me so effing pissed with u.anw yea.gtg draw my problem situaions now.=D taha

stressed up!

have a sudden urge to blog again.sigh! i just wanna blog my stress out.been really busy doing my DNT project.its forever dnt that i've to get all stressed up over.my classmates are way in front of me and tomorrow's the dateline.sigh! its tedious doing quality work.today,i skipped school cause i needed to finish up my dnt. i've alr burned my 1 week of school due to my fever,cough,flu,help out in granny's wake after that.i cant even do my dnt for that week at all cuz the table is all occupy with food for cousins to eat,full of clothes and books and besides,i dun even have the bloody mood to do when granny passed away and feeling all so sick and drowsy after the medication.now, doing it so last min really kills.its been a week for sleeping at 3 to 4 almost everynight rushing for my dnt.weekends,i've gt my netball trg and tournament.the tournament alone has alr burned off my whole evening.rush home,bath,eat and stuffs.cousins came and started to talk til like 10!crap!the noise and stuffs,how to do my work.wahlao!! and today i've to skip school for my bloody DNT.FUCKKK!!!!! urgh.!i'm sooo way behind everyone now.=(( tmr's the dateline.i'm so worried i cant finish up my dnt and i haven been consistent in my studies.the whole darn week is dnt dnt dnt!!!AHHHHH!!!!somebody pls help me!sigh...i am left with another 13 hrs to finsih up my dnt.so i shan't take up too much time bloggin now.so yea.feel better blogging my stress.haha.okay!now its time to drive forward again.good luck merina.LOL